It took a whole afternoon to listen to Dai Xiangwei talk about his sadness and vent his heavy emotions. I deeply understand the sadness of this desire for love and affection, and I hate why God took away such a white and flawless woman, so that a love that could have ended perfectly came to an abrupt end.

The next day, I wore a black dress and appeared at Vivian's funeral with Dai Xiangwei. Vivian died at such a young age, his parents didn't want to make a big deal out of it because of excessive grief, and the funeral was small and elaborate, and the people who came were close relatives of Vivian's family and friends before Vivian's death, as well as some hospital leaders and colleagues.

The honors that Vivian received after her death were inconsequential titles for those of us who truly cared about her, and those honorable titles only made us feel sadder even more. However, I think Vivian's parents may have more comfort in their hearts.

We made a final farewell for Vivian together, Dai Xiangwei kept his head down at the funeral and didn't speak, I knew he was trying his best to hold back, he didn't want to shed tears in front of so many people. Liu Yixi also came, she looked thinner after the miscarriage, she didn't wear makeup for the first time, wore a black dress, and cried when she looked at Vivian's photos.

I think Vivian must be an angel who can make so many people grieve because of her.

During the funeral, Liu Yixi walked over, hugged Dai Xiangwei, and said: Cousin, why did Vivian leave like this? I'm so sad.

Dai Xiangwei patted her shoulder comfortingly, still silent. I was standing next to Dai Xiangwei, Liu Yixi glanced at me, and then said: Why did you stick to my cousin as soon as Vivian left? Xu Cheng doesn't want you anymore, don't expect anything to happen to my cousin anymore.

I said lightly: today is Vivian's funeral, and I hope to respect the deceased and not say inappropriate things here.

When she heard me say this, she was so angry that her little face turned black, and just wanted to say something, Dai Xiangwei directly pulled me to change places, his meaning was self-evident, and Liu Yixi cried even more.

I said my last goodbye to Vivian, and I sent Dai Xiangwei home, he was still in a trance, and I couldn't bear to see it, I said: Xiangwei, are you okay alone?

He nodded, and he said, "I feel that Vivian is still by my side, and I want to sort out her relics, tidy up the things she left behind, and be alone for a while."

I said okay, and then I got out of the car and sent him to the door, looking at him like that, and a little unbearable, I said: You haven't eaten well for many days, I'll make you something to eat.

He shook his head, and he said: I can't eat it, it's already very blocked if I don't eat it, and it's even more blocked if I eat it.

I sighed, and I said, "Okay, I'll pick you up tomorrow, and I'll take you somewhere."

He said yes, and then slowly walked in, closed the door, and there was a thick sadness in his back, like a shadow enveloping his whole person.

When I got home, I didn't bother to eat, and when I saw that it was still early, I went to the fairy. I told the fairy Vivian the news of her death and told me about the general situation, and the fairy said with emotion: "You, your friend, is the fairy in the sky, it's so great."

I nodded, and she took my hand and said, "Don't be too upset, silly boy." Isn't there a saying that people are inherently dead, or heavier than Mount Tai, or lighter than a feather. I think your friend Vivian, she may have passed away, but many people will remember her.

I said, "Fairy, do you say it's more important to sustain life for a long time, or is it more important to get those posthumous names?"

She touched my head and said, "I'm a singer, but I've also sung a lot of heroines." I think the real heroes, what they care about is not the merit and fame behind them, but a kind of compassion for the common people. Your friend didn't know that death would come so suddenly, but she must have died calmly because she had fulfilled her mission to the world.

The fairy's words are really brilliant, this old lady has insisted on reading bosom friend magazines for more than 20 years, and it seems that she really sees a little level. I nodded, and the fairy's words gave me a lot of wake-up call. The length of human life is really limited, so let's make the breadth of life wider. I think from now on, I will carry Vivian's last wish to do more public welfare and help more people. This is the energy of great love that Vivian brought to me, and that power will continue to fill my whole life, endlessly.

Dai Xiangwei and I went back to the time when the two of us were hanging out again, drinking, eating skewers, clubbing all day long, and all kinds of crazy hilarity. After a short period of silence, both his words and deeds became much deeper. Gone is the airiness of our past, replaced by a heaviness.

Now, I have found that the only person who can make me confide the truth is Dai Xiangwei. I told him all the thoughts I missed about Xu Cheng in my heart and all the things that happened between us, we healed each other and comforted each other, and drank and drank happily when we were in love. Wine is really a good thing, drink glass after glass, under the influence of alcohol, you can slowly go back to the past, back to the original time.

Dai Xiangwei said: Zhizhi, if you had chosen me at the beginning, maybe we would not have fallen into such sadness today.

I said: You have it, I chose you, and there are also many twists and turns. Actually, it's the same with whoever you love. Love is all about changing the soup without changing the medicine, there is as much sadness as there is joy, and there is no such thing as once and for all.

Dai Xiangwei said: Love is too painful, for people of our age, maybe love is really too heavy.

As we said this, we walked to my house with our shoulders crossed. One of the two people was carrying a skewer and the other was carrying a beer, Dai Xiangwei said: It's still cool in China, and eating a night market stall feels much more reassuring than a restaurant in South Africa.

I laughed, and I said: Don't you know that the stomach of the Chinese is the strongest in the world?

He said, "Come on, we're already living happily compared to those poor countries." In South Africa, I don't even dare to eat meat.

I took out a skewer of mutton skewers and stuffed it in his mouth, and I said, "Eat the skewers first to satisfy your cravings, and then we'll drink them happily when we get to my house in a while."

He put his arm around my shoulders like he had done before, and the two of us swayed back to my house with a big grin. This is my new house, he has not been to South Africa, I took him to see, by the way, the two of them after eating and drinking and playing my new game console for a while.

As I got downstairs, I saw a familiar car parked at the top of the stairs. Once upon a time, every time I saw this car parked downstairs, I felt very happy. But now, there is an inexplicable sadness.

You haven't been in touch for so long, have you only thought of me now?

When Dai Xiangwei saw that I stopped, he also stopped, and when he saw that it was Xu Cheng's car, his hand immediately took it off my shoulder, and he walked straight over, Xu Cheng had already gotten out of the car.

Dai Xiangwei said: Long time no see.

Xu Cheng smiled slightly, and then said: If you don't contact me when you return to China, how can you contact him?

I walked over and I said, "Why are you free today?"

He looked at my appearance, and looked like a female hooligan, and then said: It's cold, remember that you are prone to rhinitis attacks in this season, so I will send you some medicine.

I sighed, and I said: I have already bought it myself, thank you.

After speaking, I pulled Dai Xiangwei and prepared to go upstairs. Dai Xiangwei stood still, he said: Forget it, I'll go back first, let's have a good chat.

I glared at him, and I said, "Why do you want to go back, we are above board, what are we afraid of?" I'm free now, and it's my business to love playing with.

I'll admit I'm a little angry, but I don't think any woman can afford to make such a decision. Since the breakup, he hasn't contacted me for a moment, not a single text message, a phone call, or even a personalized signature has been updated for me, but he has often appeared with Mink on various occasions. I couldn't find a reason to wait, every day I held back my thoughts, every day I controlled myself not to miss them, every day I repeatedly told myself that he didn't belong to me anymore.

He was always like this, so good at the right balance, that he reappeared when I was about to forget, shushing me and saying goodbye, and seemed affectionate to me. This was the case before, and after the breakup, Xu Cheng's understanding of women has reached its peak. I almost couldn't take it anymore, and if it weren't for the time I've been desperately trying to distract myself, I think I'd be really hysterical when I see him again.

Fortunately, I am easy to do, and I can also endure, bear, wander, and know how to handle. So Xu Cheng, if you want to spend it with me, I will accompany you to the end. For the sake of love, that's not my style.

Dai Xiangwei said: I see that there are a lot of misunderstandings between you, so it is better for you to explain it together. I'm also tired and drank too much, so I'll go back first if we're going to play another game.

After a series of blows from Vivian, he is no longer the young man with strong blood. If it was in the past, such a scene, he would definitely argue with Xu Cheng to the end. But now, he has completely lost that heart.

Xu Cheng looked at Dai Xiangwei and said: I will set up a banquet another day to catch the wind and wash the dust for you. It's a little late today, so we'll have a good chat another day.

Dai Xiangwei smiled reluctantly, and then said: You are so busy, you don't need it. I've been in a bad mood lately and don't really want to go out.

Xu Cheng said interestingly: Oh? It's okay to drink with him, but can't he and my brother for many years?

Xu Cheng probably didn't know the news of Vivian's death, and Vivian's parents handled Vivian's funeral in a very low-key manner, so not many people knew about it. I was afraid that if they continued to talk, they would add more misunderstandings, so I said, "Xiangwei, you go back first." Xu Cheng, it's not that he doesn't want to eat with you, it's just that he has something unspeakable.