"I don't have any ** for her, in the past two years, the hatred in my heart has tormented my heart every minute and every second, I have too many things in my heart, I miss you very much, I am thinking about how I can appear by your side, what kind of way can you accept it and I can accept it myself. Little book, I haven't forgotten you for a moment. Even when I heard that you were pregnant, I was not sad at first, but felt that this child was mine and belonged to us, but now it has been snatched away by others. Zhao Qinhan was like a robber who suddenly kidnapped my wife and my children, and ruined the happiness we had worked so hard to build. Jin Yan said and became excited again, "I can't swallow this breath, I think I will take you back no matter what, no matter what way, I must make Zhao Qinhan pay the price." ”

"In the past two years, how have you and Tao Mengran gotten along? I don't believe that you didn't give any feelings, Tao Mengran is such a shrewd woman, how can she be that you don't give anything, she is willing to cooperate with you and trust you. She's not me. I couldn't help but question.

I remember the scene of Jin Yan once saying "Xiao Ran" clearly, Xing Feng and the eldest sister also once said on the side that they would go in and out of pairs no matter where they went, and Tao Mengran's feelings for Jin Yan were not just unrequited love, but more or less Jin Yan's dedication and efforts. Let a woman dispel her worries and accept a man, I know in my heart that it is not so simple.

Thinking about it like this, the heart that was originally a little hot cooled down a little bit. Think about yourself again, although you have always been cold to Zhao Qinhan in the past two years, didn't you have a time when Qiuqiu was sick and had a time when she was warm, and didn't she almost have a time when she was moved and moved by him? As long as two people get along with each other, there will always be one or two things that will touch people's hearts after a long time, even if the prisoner and the police are in the process of pursuing and arresting the hostile relationship, there will be a trace of sympathy from the bottom of their hearts. Human beings are complex emotional creatures!

Jin Yan and I, from now on, if we want to go back to the past, where is it so easy, it will be difficult to pull out this thorn from the moment it is rooted in our hearts. How can it be so easy to abandon previous suspicions and have nothing to worry about together?

Sure enough, although Jin Yan's eyes flickered, he still admitted very frankly: "Well, at the beginning, in order to dispel her worries and suspicions, I did pretend to be very good to her on the surface......

"Exactly? What have you done for her? What touched her? My heart hurts, but I can't help but ask.

If a woman is emotionally serious, she can't tolerate the slightest impurity. Jin Yan saw that I had been staring at him, and his tone was a little hesitant: "Just ...... Just those things that please women, but it was only at the beginning, and after she gradually gave in, I began to be lukewarm to her. By that time I had the information I was asking for, and she was becoming more and more passive. Xiaoshu, I know you're uncomfortable hearing this, but I have to do it to get closer to her company and understand who she is in contact with, so that I can know where I find a breakthrough, you know? ”

"Exactly? What have you done? My tone was cold and there was no trace of warmth, and my whole body was trembling slightly.

"Do you really want to hear it?" He hesitated and asked me, "Except for going to bed, everything else that should be done to a woman." ”

"Kissing, hugging, tongue kissing, watching movies, shopping with ......" When these words popped out of my mouth one by one, my heart began to cool down gradually. Every beautiful word used on him and that woman made me feel cold and dirty.

I realized that I still cared, I still cared about this betrayal, and I couldn't tolerate it...... Thinking about it, I feel awkward and even disgusting.

"The tongue kiss is not ......," his voice was so soft that he couldn't even hear it, and he added, "I can't help it, I can only do it in order to gain trust at first." Little book, I can completely lie to you, but I still want to confess to you. ”

"Everything you've done for me, you've done for her, haven't you?" I looked up at him, my eyes full of despair.

"No, no," he quickly shook his hand, "no, I didn't mean that, everything I did was just a formality, but for you, I did it sincerely......"

Jin Yan ...... But I didn't even do the form when I was with Zhao Qinhan, do you understand? The only time I was a little closer to him was when he did his best to help me in the few days when the fever didn't go away, and I took his hand and leaned on his shoulder, and that's it. I muttered.

"What? Did you take his hand? Still leaning on his shoulder? Unexpectedly, Jin Yan suddenly became excited, "Xiaoshu, what have you had with him?" How did he move you? I was obviously there that day, from Qiuqiu's fever to the time you went to the hospital, I have been following behind, I have been watching, I am still in the hospital and you say such a sad goodbye, you can actually hold his hand? ”

"Huh...... Aren't you going too far? I haven't paid for Zhao Qinhan, not at all. I said.

"I've done a lot of formal pursuits for Tao Mengran, but so what? I hated her all the time in my heart, I always regarded her as an enemy in my heart, I never gave up the slightest vigilance, and even when I was drunk and preferred to sleep on the floor, I didn't want to climb into her bed by myself...... But Xiaoshu, you were actually moved by Zhao Qinhan? You also took the initiative to take his hand? Jin Yan looked at me sadly and said in disbelief.

"So, we're now comparing who is more disloyal than whom?" I couldn't help but ask.

"No, we are the essential difference. I have not been touched by Tao Mengran, I buried everything Tao Mengran with my own hands. And you, if you continue to develop, you will fall in love with Zhao Qinhan and live with him with all your heart? Are you still going to let Qiuqiu recognize him as a father, do you? Jin Yan began to become irrational, and his tone was agitated.

"These are all in the past, Zhao Qinhan is dead!" I shouted excitedly, and I said, "So you see, we are now starting to accuse and question each other for these minor betrayals, do you think we can still be together?" Do you think it's realistic for us to be together? ”

Jin Yan was suddenly stunned, I don't know if it was because my words hit him or what, he suddenly fell silent, and after being silent with his back to the wall for a while, he turned to me and said, "I once thought that if you and Zhao Qinhan have everything, and even have feelings, do I still choose you, do I want to ruin all this." I thought about it in the end, I told myself, no matter what happened between you and Zhao Qinhan, whether you loved him or not, I would snatch you back to me, I would let Qiu Qiutang grow up next to his biological father, I would let our former happiness continue, no matter what way I took, I would definitely let your lost heart return to me. So, the current situation is not the worst, I can accept it. I knew I was impulsive, but when I calmed down and thought about it, it was much better than I thought. But are you sure you just pulled hands and leaned on your shoulders? ”

"But do you know what I think? Do you know how I've come over the years? I looked into Jin Yan's eyes and asked.

"You say, I'll listen." He was stunned again, he looked at me and said very sincerely.

"Frankly, I'm more tired than you in our relationship, you know? From the beginning, your feelings for me were not pure, at that time, you were high and low, I had no qualifications to match you at all, let alone the right to be liked by you. But just because of your like, I began to love you, at the beginning you had Shen Ziyan, I was nothing in your life, although you eloped with me, took me to escape from all this, but I deeply understand that elopement can't solve everything, we will eventually be succumbed to life and return to the original point. So your father brought you back, you and Shen Ziyan got engaged, do you know how I felt at the time? Do you know how much my heart endured? Two miscarriages, the first time was directly kicked off by Shen Ziyan, and the second time was that I wanted to let you go, but it turned out to be self-defeating and inexplicably gone, do you know the pain I endured in that process? Your world is so free, you can come if you want, give me romance if you want to be romantic, give me pain if you want to give me pain, I can only keep paying and paying, my world has been revolving around you, except for the year when I returned to school to refer to the college entrance examination was my own struggle, I have been revolving around you all these years, have you thought about it? As I spoke, I couldn't help but burst into tears.

Jin Yan was completely stunned, he looked at me with red eyes, and I continued: "It is said that in love, women are more precocious than men, and women will always bear more things than men. When you were a boy, I had to bear your willfulness, your irresponsibility, your fun-loving nature, like a spinning top around your central point, I haven't loved any other man over the years, I only love you, I only love you from beginning to end, my world is rotating with you. When you suddenly disappeared, my world was still in a trance because of you, and I was always passive because I loved you deeply. But do you know how difficult it is to hold on to the word love? Do you know how many couples have parted ways around us since our college? Do you know how easy it is to say the words I love you, but how hard it is to stick to it year after year? ”