After a day of continuous rain, I immersed myself in the work for a day of calm, until the assistant reminded me that it was time to leave work, I came back to my senses, opened the curtains behind me and looked at it, it was already dark........ Murky rainwater drips were constantly falling from the window eaves.

I snuffed out the half-lit cigarette that had been half-lit between my fingers and closed the curtains, not knowing what to do with my homeless soul this night.

Looking at the cigarette butts that had been extinguished, and still struggling to get out the slightest smoke, I seemed to be unwilling, and persuaded myself to light a cigarette and make a cup of hot tea.

.......

At 6 p.m., I finally left the office, and the rain still upset me.

I walked along the eaves to the underground parking lot, but I was surprised to find my parents and aunt standing not far away, they looked at me, obviously waiting for me for a long time, and came prepared.

I didn't avoid it, I couldn't avoid it, and I came to them with heavy steps.

Dad's voice opened sternly: "Why didn't you go home yesterday, and the phone couldn't get through?" ”

"I want to be alone."

"You're running away...... Qingyi, such a good girl, why don't you know how to cherish, do you know how anxious we are as parents? ”

"I didn't say she was bad." I responded negatively.

My mother pointed at me with an excited expression: "You kid is too ignorant...... You're just lost in the ghost. ”

The little aunt pulled me: "Yixi, don't let the eldest brother and sister-in-law be anxious, hurry up and chase Qingyi back, some girls miss it, there will be no more, you and that Anqi are not people who can get along........"

There were already onlookers around me, and I was upset, and my tone couldn't help but be anxious: "You let me go...... How much do you know about her, don't subjectively judge her in front of me, I've heard enough! As I spoke, I shook off my little aunt's hand with all my might, and the force was so great that my little aunt staggered and fell to the ground.

My sudden seizure made my little aunt look at me in disbelief, and in the more than twenty years we have been together, I have never been so rude.

The little aunt's tears flowed uncontrollably.

"Bastard thing......." my father walked up to me in two steps, raised his hand and slapped me heavily, I felt a hot pain, but my heart was even more uncomfortable.

"If you don't understand the good intentions of your family, we should never have given birth to your son!" My father pointed at me angrily, and the family conflict escalated to an irreconcilable point with his slap.

I was silent, but I was ready to say the three rebellious words "whatever you want".

The people around me were pointing fingers, they became blurred, all the criticism was extremely harsh, and I became more and more agitated, getting closer and closer to the point where I could not control.

A guy suddenly appeared in front of me, and she grabbed me...... I blurred for a long time and finally saw her clearly, it turned out to be Bai Jing, we were working in the same building, she just got off work and happened to see this scene, she whispered to me: "Calm, calm down......."

"Zhang Yixi, you made it clear to me today, are you going or not?" My dad didn't give up and continued to put heavy pressure on me.

I could feel that my eyes were starting to get bloodshot, and for a moment I didn't want to bear it, and a thought erupted and I couldn't take it back, hysterical: "....... I'm not going, whatever you want, whatever! After speaking, he turned around and pushed away the crowd in front of him, and left without looking back.

.......

I feel more and more like I'm alive like a joke, and I just want to be hysterical when pain is piling over pain.

I drove into the bar, and at the moment I needed a drunken drink in exchange for a night of cleansing.

I ordered the strongest liquor, drank it all, and without giving myself a moment's chance, I drank another glass.

"Zhang Yixi, can drinking solve the problem? ...... You drink less. Bai Jing snatched the cup from my hand, and she followed me because she was worried about me because she saw the fierce conflict.

I gritted my teeth and looked at her, as if someone had robbed her of life-sustaining oxygen: "You also saw it just now..... What do you say I'm Zhang Yixi, working hard every day? Don't you want your family to live a little more comfortably? But why don't they give me even the most basic respect...... I TM feel like a machine that is always at the mercy of others!! As I spoke, I snatched the wine glass from Bai Jing's hand and drank it again, but there was a burning sensation from the corner of my eye.

Bai Jing was speechless...... Looking at me with some sympathy, he said for a while: "Every family has a scripture that is difficult to read, in fact..... You're all right, it's just that neither of you is willing to compromise! ”

I laughed at myself, but I didn't want to say another word, the reason is easy to understand, but it is difficult to follow the reason, otherwise there would not be such a serious conflict today, I know that while my family has injured my body completely, my behavior has also made them desperate!!

.......

After a while, I was already vague, I saw another person, but I couldn't see her face clearly, I only heard Bai Jing say to her, "Lan Lan, why did you come?" ”

"There is a traffic jam on the road."

"You persuade Zhang Yixi, don't let him drink so much wine, it's too hurtful!"

"Well, you go home first, your husband is still waiting for you to cook!"

"Got it, I'll go to your house and pick up Pipsqueak first, and you can call me if you have something."

.......

From the moment Zuo Lan came, I couldn't see her face clearly, but I still didn't stop drinking, and Zuo Lan didn't persuade me, just stayed by my side and watched me drink glass after glass.

I was in a trance but still couldn't get drunk to death, my cold hand in the haze was surrounded by a piece of warmth, I couldn't see clearly, but I knew that it was Zuo Lan who held my hand, this long-lost warmth, let me burst into tears, I couldn't control it anymore, I hugged Zuo Lan to death, greedily chasing that piece of warmth.

.......

Zuo Lan helped me stumble out of the bar...... In the short steps to the car, the rain poured on us wildly, but the cold rain did not wake me up, and I drank too much this night.

My eyes were half-open and half-closed, and the wipers were diligently brushing the rain from the car window, but the rain was even more crazy, pouring like a vengeance...... I tried hard to see Zuo Lan's face next to me, the more I looked, the more blurred it became, but her white hands holding the steering wheel became clearer and clearer!

A burst of bright light suddenly shot from the opposite side...... I subconsciously tightened my heart, but I didn't feel panic, and I had no physiological consciousness because I was paralyzed by alcohol.....

The screeching sound of brakes sounded....... and the huge crash of "bang....." sounded again almost at the same time!

My spiritual world, my physical world is in chaos!

In the dizziness, I turned into the black dog again, chasing the shining lights, I struggled to get closer, but it got farther and farther........ Finally I was exhausted and watched in disappointment as the last light disappeared from my vision..... Disappear.......