Later, Xingfeng came more often, and became familiar with the boys in our class, and occasionally had time to go to the playground to play basketball with a few boys in our class who loved sports, and he laughed and said that he wanted to make up for the regret of not reading S No. 1 Middle School through me. I could feel that when he put on his jersey and sweated on the playground with these bloody boys, he was really much younger in an instant, and the old atmosphere of doing business all year round on his body completely faded, and I occasionally stood on the window and looked at the basketball court, all I saw was his vigorous back.

He and I were at the same table, and Zhao Qinhan cooperated very well. I didn't understand why the teacher placed me by Zhao Qinhan's side, until after the first midterm exam, this inconspicuous boy took the first place in the whole grade, which impressed me at the same time, and I understood the real intention of placing me by his side. Thinking about it this way, in order to make me successful, Xingfeng really took great pains and thought through all aspects.

Zhao Qinhan is a rare big man in the south, he is about 1.82 meters tall at a young age, he has a dark complexion, peach blossoms in his eyes, a mouthful of white teeth, thick lips, and his overall appearance is rough, he is quite manly like his name, and he is also very righteous.

When I first sat with him, he tried to strike up a few conversations with me, but I was faintly rebuffed. Because I knew that my identity was special, I was silent and alone in the class, and I didn't care about the friendship with my classmates at all in my daily life except for studying or studying. In my eyes, I was just a passer-by in this class, and this class was my springboard to university, and that's it.

I didn't think that this boy, who looked like an athlete, would do so well in his overall scores, which was really shocking. It was only then that I understood why he was the class president, why the teachers of various subjects always liked to let him speak by name, why the girls were very shy when they saw him, and why the boys always liked to surround him and listen to his talk. Actually, I was quite disgusted with his high profile, but after this exam, this disgust turned into a kind of sincere admiration.

All-round talents with all-round development of morality, intelligence and physical fitness, which school will be a bright star! Zhao Qinhan has a vague shadow of someone on his body, which always reminds me of the person who has been squeezed deep in my heart by me. They have the same temperament, both good and evil, they are the kind of people who don't seem to work hard, but they can always hand in satisfactory answers and easily achieve their dreams. Fate seems to be extraordinarily favorable to them.

In this exam, my score was about 50th in the whole grade, which is not very good, but compared to what I used to be, it is already a world of difference.

Mr. Liu, the head teacher, specially called me into the office and talked to me with a pleasant face, meaning that I should strengthen the two subjects of geography and politics, because these two subjects have widened the distance between the rankings, and told me that my current grades can almost reach the second line, which is still far from the requirements of the criminal style.

After talking to Teacher Liu, I went back to the classroom a little depressed. During the evening self-study time, the classroom was quiet, everyone had high books piled up on their desks, and even the most playful and inattentive students pretended to read carefully. The future that is about to be revealed, the college entrance examination that will determine the fate of life in the near future, weighs heavily on everyone's heart, and everyone is going all out, only Zhao Qinhan...... I was actually watching martial arts.

I stumbled back to my seat, the room was a little stuffy, and my mood was a little inexplicably irritable. Zhao Qinhan gently stabbed me with his arm and threw me a note: "Don't be discouraged, if you don't understand in the future, you can ask me." ”

I glanced at him lightly, and forced a slight smile out of politeness.

"You're finally smiling." Since he couldn't speak, he could only write down the words in a notebook, tear up a small piece of a line, and carefully hand it to me.

I feel some subtlety from this sentence, although I never pay attention to the gossip in the class, but I have heard about it somewhat, female classmates often talk about Zhao Qinhan's flower heart in the bathroom, it seems that he has three relationships in three years of high school, the frequency is almost one a year, and the objects he talks about are the best beauties in the school.

When I thought of this, I was immediately a little repulsed, put away the smile on the corner of my mouth, put up the textbook, and tried to start memorizing English words.

Seeing that I didn't pay attention to him, he was bored for a while, and then handed me a copy of "New Concept English" and whispered, "You can take a look at this, it can quickly improve your English." ”

The class itself was quiet, and when he said this, almost everyone looked at him. I was embarrassed for a while, so I took it and put it on the top of a stack of textbooks, wanting to say "thank you", but I still couldn't open my mouth, so I had to give up.

In fact, I have this book, and I already have countless exam cheats and study-related books in my room, some of which are requested by teachers of various subjects, and some of which are recommended by Xingfeng to read on the Internet, and they all sent it to me.

After the evening self-study, I left the teacher in a hurry. When I walked out of the school gate and was about to go home, Zhao Qinhan suddenly chased after me from behind and shouted at me: "Pan Rushu, you wait a minute." ”

I looked back in amazement and asked coldly, "Is there something wrong?" ”

He stood in front of me, half a head taller than me, with a slight sweat on his face, and he said, "Don't get me wrong, it was your brother who told me to help you more, I don't mean anything else, I just want to explain it to you." ”

"Oh......" I replied lightly, thinking that it was inappropriate, and said, "If there is something I don't understand in the future, I hope to give me more advice." ”

"Let's not talk about advice, let's improve each other. Your essay is written in depth, no wonder it is used as a model essay by the teacher. My Chinese skills are not very good, and I hope you will give me more advice in the future. Under the street lamp, he looked at me with a humble face, and his tone was very sincere and cautious, as if he was afraid of abrupt me.

When did I become the object of surprise in the eyes of others? My heart thumped, stunned and frightened at this unprecedented opportunity.

My silence made him think that I had become indifferent again, so he wiped his sweat and quickly said, "I know that you will continue to do your homework when you go home, so I won't bother you." Anyway, I hope you don't think about it. ”

"Okay."

I dropped the two words and walked away from the place, almost deserted. After returning to the room, my heart was still pounding, not because of Zhao Qinhan, but because I would unconsciously think of him in my mind.

I wonder if when he was in high school, did he also talk to Xing Yu so carefully, and did he also stand in front of Xing Yu like this, majestic and ambitious? If I could turn back time, if I could be lucky enough to study in the same school as him, would I look up at this teenager who I couldn't even reach?

What a pity...... I didn't meet him in the best youth, I didn't fall in love with him in the best attitude, and I didn't grow up with him and witness youth together. And this kind of regret can't be made up for in this life, right? The flaky, thrilling love between us that bears a huge price is considered the pain that should exist in youth? Looking back, maybe it is not called youth, it starts with passion and ends in reality, which is far from the pure beauty that youth should have.

I can't think about it, my nose is pantothenic when I think about it, how many times have I almost blurted out when I talked to Xingfeng on the phone, asking "Is he good", but I can't. I don't have to indulge in the love of my children and live up to the expectations of the criminal wind.

I forced myself to concentrate from this brief distraction, picked up the textbook and flipped page after page, and fell asleep after completing the study task for the day's interval.

After this time, when I occasionally encountered problems in math or geography tests, he would take the initiative to ask Zhao Qinhan, and he would patiently explain to me, help me memorize some jerky and difficult test points, and tell me his unique memory method.

He was very dedicated in helping me, which makes me especially grateful. He told me that he had become buddies with Xingfeng, and that I could find him for anything in the future, and he would definitely help me. I often take it lightly, except for studying, there is a clear gap between me and Zhao Qinhan. Despite this, there are still frequent rumors in the class, and there are also good female classmates who will find opportunities to come to my side and ask me desperately, "Does Zhao Qinhan like you", and my reaction to these rumors is very indifferent.

In the blink of an eye, a semester passed in full swing, and the study life day after day made my heart continue to precipitate, and the feeling of calming down to study also made my state of mind gain unprecedented peace. From summer to winter, from green to yellow, I also completed my academic progression. In the final exam of the first semester, I finally squeezed into the top 20 of the whole grade, and this huge progress surprised Xing Feng very much, and also made me want to cry inexplicably.

It turns out that people don't push themselves, and they really don't know what kind of person they will become. The top 20 in my grade, which I couldn't have imagined before. But now, I have done it. In this top high school in S City, the top 20 grades in the whole grade brought me one step closer to Z University.

However, I understand that now is not the time to be proud, I still have a lot of knowledge points that I have not memorized, and there are still many concepts that I have not fully understood.

Another Spring Festival is approaching, and Xingfeng asked me to rest for three days, but I didn't agree. I'm afraid that as soon as I rest, my heart will be empty. When the heart is empty, there will be many memories of the past.

Xingfeng's company was on holiday, and he came to S City to accompany me for the New Year. I asked him why he didn't spend time with Su Chang, and he smiled, and he said that I was more important. It makes me feel very heartwarming.

After Xing Feng came to S City, he played with Zhao Qinhan almost every day. The two people who are both tigers in the zodiac, but are twelve years apart, have similar tempers, and they cooperate tacitly on the court, and they have become "New Year's friends". Xing Feng sympathized with my hard work, and often pulled me on the court to watch them play, but he didn't know that I was sitting in the stands, but I saw another person in a trance.

I still miss him, and I still can't forget him. The thoughts that are deeply rooted in my heart often make me sad. It's the Spring Festival, will he return to China? With her? He...... Will you still miss me?