091 Have You Ever Loved Me
"Mom! There are snakes! "I was so scared that I almost went out of my body, and I managed to maintain my balance, and this time I was completely out of balance. Panicked and completely forgetting to swim, I was tossing and choking in the water, choking on several mouthfuls of water, when suddenly a hand came around from behind and dragged me, and whispered in my ear, "Grab the crutches they handed me!" Fast! β
It's Jin Yan's voice! He came down to save me! But at this time I had no time to think about anything, I noticed that there were already a lot of people on the shore, two boys were holding the green crutch that Jin Yan danced and trying to reach in front of us, Jin Yan dragged me to the shore with all my might, I successfully grabbed the crutch, with the help of their strength crawled out of the pond, and stood wet on the shore.
Soon, Jin Yan was also pulled up by them, he was still wearing the dancing costume just now, but the hat on his head was missing, it was estimated that he fell into the pond when he saved me just now.
The evening breeze was blowing, and I couldn't help but sneeze several times in a row, Jin Yan didn't talk to me with a gloomy face, but after hearing my sneezing, he came over and grabbed my hand and walked out, the pace was quite fast.
"Where are you taking me?" I asked hurriedly.
"Change your clothes, don't you freeze to death like this?" He roared angrily, still with a great resentment in his words, and before I could speak, he said, "What a stupid home! You can fall like this! I'm convinced! β
His cold tone made me particularly uncomfortable, and the words of gratitude that I had prepared were swallowed back into my stomach at once, and I shook off his hand with all my might, and said angrily: "Then you can leave me alone!" We don't have anything to do with it anyway! β
"You think I want to care? Pan Rushu, don't look down on yourself! After he finished speaking, he turned his head to look at me angrily, his hair was still sticking to the aquatic plants in the pond, the water droplets were dripping, the clothes on his body had long been shapeless, wet and clinging to his body, the buttons on his chest were wide open, and the muscles were faintly visible.
He was really angry, his nose fluttered, his eyes were sharp, and he said, "I saved you today because I just passed by." I'm taking you to change now because I don't want you to catch a cold. Pan Rushu, don't think I'm still interested in you! β
"Don't dare!" I snorted.
"Come with me!" He didn't take my hand again this time, and just pulled my arm forward.
"I won't go! I'll go home myself! Don't worry about it! His rude movements and cold words broke my heart again, and I broke his hand hard and ran in the opposite direction crying.
He chased after me and grabbed my clothes my back, and as I struggled desperately forward, he threw me to the ground with too much force, and I fell the cobblestone path. This throw, the pain of ** and the heartache, made me cry out in tears: "Jin Yan, what do you want?!" β
The night was pitch black, there were no street lights on the path, and the cedar trees on both sides of the path looked like two rows of solemn soldiers under the thick cover of night, and the whole road was so quiet that even the wind lost its voice.
He crouched down and looked at me, his dark eyes filled with a deep sadness, he reached out and stroked my face back and forth, and murmured in a tone of great sadness, "What should I do with you...... I can't forget you, I can't get you out of my mind. β
The wind blew at this moment, and I felt a bone-chilling cold, and I couldn't help sneezing, and he moved his footsteps, blocking the wind, and looking at me with the same sadness. His words brought me endless throbbing in my heart, and for a moment, I almost blurted out, I wanted to tell him, in fact, I am the same, so am I!
"Time will make us forget each other. Jin Yan, I hope you can be as happy as I saw you that day in the future, okay? I looked at him with the same sorrow, and I wanted to reach out and touch his chest, so that I could indulge myself in his arms, but my heart resisted such sobriety and irrationality.
He shook my hand violently, and he said, "I know there is nothing between you and Xingfeng, and Xingfeng told me." I know you'll be here tonight, that's why I'm here to dance. I'm not for anyone else, I'm for you. I remember you told me you wanted to see me dance, right? β
"Hmm."
"How did I dance?"
"Exceptional, like a prince."
"And have you ever fallen in love with me again?" He asked eagerly, desperate to find something out of my gaze.
In fact, there is no need to re-energize, I have always loved, and love has never stopped. I silently recited a sentence in my heart, but the words came to my lips with two cold words: "No." β
He let go of my hand in disappointment: "So...... You're still in love with the penal wind. Even though nothing may have happened between you, you're in love with him, right? β
I shook my head, not knowing what to say in response to his words.
He sat on the ground dejectedly, banging his head vigorously with his hands, the facial features on his face tangled, as if there were too many knots in his heart that could not be untied.
He finally mustered up the courage to look at me again, and asked me slowly, "Why do I feel like I never seem to understand your mind?" Pan Rushu, what do you think? β
"I just want you to be happy, even if it's not with me, I'll bless you, really." I looked him in the eye and said word by word.
"Pan Rushu, have you ever loved me?" He asked again.
"Perhaps."
"Perhaps?" He sneered, and he said, "These days I finally understand that I am really in love with you. And you, but tell me, are you just maybe? β
"You love me, you just need to bow your head slightly. And I love you, but try to stand on tiptoe. Love is easy for you, but too heavy for me. I said slowly.
"Easy for me?" He sneered again, and he said, "You are the first woman who can make me think of scratching my heart." β
"Because you're still young, you'll meet more women like me in the future." I say.
"What if I told you that I don't want anyone else, I just want you?" After he finished speaking, he stood up from the ground, pulled me up and hugged me from behind, the breath of his breath lingered in my ears, his hand tightly wrapped around my waist, he pressed his body close to my body, he said: "Pan Rushu, during this period of separation, I only want to understand one thing, that is, I can't live without you." β
My body went limp, this intoxicating confession, this beloved embrace, these two hot and restless hearts, this hot, straightforward, and heart-piercing confession that has never been before! I listened with palpitations, but there was still a trace of reason telling me that no, I finally came out, and I couldn't go back.
I shook his hand again, I shook my head desperately, I looked at him reluctantly and resolutely, and I said, "We're far away, don't go back, don't want to go back." Please, Jin Yan, don't do this. Didn't we say yes? Isn't it already said already? β
"I regret it, I still want you, I can't wait to think of you by my side, I think about it every day and I'm going crazy. You dead woman! Since the separation, you haven't sent a single text message, you haven't made a single phone call! Why are you so ruthless? Can you say forget and forget? My resistance provoked him to pour out more deeply**, and he seemed to have opened up, and said all the thoughts hidden in his heart.
"Pan Rushu, how can you be so indifferent? How can you not miss me at all? Do you know how I feel these days? Have you ever thought about how much I miss you? I'm waiting for your call every day, waiting for you to tell me that you think I can't think about it, I don't dare to turn off the phone 24 hours a day, I run downstairs to watch you get off work almost every day, but you, you actually live so leisurely, you don't want me at all, how can you do this? I'm driving you crazy, you know? As he spoke, his eyes turned red and his voice choked.
I was stunned, the defense in my heart was slowly crumbling, I wanted to rush over and hug him, tell me how crazy he missed him, how deep my love was for him, I was also looking forward to his call, looking forward to his news, expecting him to tell me like now, on the verge of collapse, that he thinks of me so much and loves me so much.
However, when I thought of Shen Ziyan and Shen Ziyan, all the good things came to naught. What if he thinks about me and loves me again, he is someone else's fiancΓ©, he is someone else's fair boyfriend!
My heart was clogged again, I leaned on the trunk of a cedar tree next to me to maintain my balance, I looked at him, and said slowly, "The book says that forgetting a person only takes two things, time and new love." You've got a new love, all you need is time. β
"Pan Rushu!" He shouted again in a frenzy, "I've said so much, and you're going to say this to me?" You're going to tell me this? You cold and heartless woman! β
I smiled wryly and bowed my head wordlessly.
"Hehe," he smiled bitterly, and slammed his fist on the cobblestone, which made my heart ache.
He tilted his head back and closed his eyes to try to calm his emotions, and he said, "Okay, you can do it." When I haven't said a word today. Pan Rushu, from now on, you take your Yangguan Road, I will cross my single-plank bridge, just when I Jin Yan saw a woman wrong, goodbye. β
"Goodbye." My heart ached incomparably, but I still spit out two words unusually cold. I don't know how I can be so rational and so ruthless, obviously my heart hurts so much, then there is only a turning distance between us, but I, I ......
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