I held back my grief and asked Bai Jing, "What about Pippi?" ”

"....... at his grandfather and grandmother," Bai Jing didn't finish his words and couldn't cry anymore.

I closed my eyes, unable to control my tears, how should I face Zuolan's parents, and my son, Pippi? Suddenly, I felt like I was dead with Zuo Lan...... It seems that he is not capable of doing anything more.

Where did everything come from, so that what was seen was extinguished?

Life is like this, if I hadn't taken Chen Qingyi back to see my parents, then there would have been no Chen Qingyi's departure, let alone the aggressiveness of my family, and I wouldn't have to go to the bar to borrow alcohol to kill my sorrows...... Even if I had an extra glass of wine, avoiding the drunk driver wouldn't have had that result....... It's all meant to be! I can't complain or hate anyone but myself!

Pippi's innocent smile suddenly appeared in front of me...... The two dimples he would have when he laughed were so similar to Zuo Lan...... My heart aches....... I'm going to live, and I'm going to pour all my love into him for Pippi's sake...... This is the best explanation for Zuo Lan.

......

It was a sunny day, and everyone except Pippi attended Zolan's funeral...... Her tombstone and Qi Dong's tombstone are leaning against each other.

Her epitaph is simple: Hear, soil sprouts; Wait, the epiphany blooms again, leaving the fragrance for the years......

Everyone's faces were solemn...... The wind was so gentle, just like Zuo Lan's quietness......

I knelt in front of Zuolan's parents and begged for forgiveness......

Zuo Lan's mother said to me with red and swollen eyes: "Scold you, blame you, Lan Lan will not return to us again, blame Lan Lan for being too stupid...... Get up, it's all fate! ”

"Zuo Lan gave birth to Pippi for me, from now on you are my parents, and I will definitely take care of you for the rest of your life....... I'm sorry, Mom and Dad......." I lowered my head and my voice was sad......

Zuo Lan's parents were silent......

"I have already bought you a house in Jinan, you can move to Jinan....... Let me do my best...... The responsibility of being a son-in-law! ”

"We don't want you to make such compensation, we just hope that in the future, you can fulfill the responsibility of being a father, and let Pippi grow up like other children, which is the greatest comfort for us, Lan Lanquan knows it, and it will also be ......blinding."

My parents came to Zuo Lan's parents and said guiltily, "....... Move to Jinan to live, and it will be convenient to see the ...... of Pippi in the future."

Zuo Lan's parents wept again! I can't kneel for a long time....... My heart is still twitching with pain, and I'm the one I'd rather die!

.......

Everyone had left, and I was left alone in front of Zuo Lan's tombstone...... Looking at her smiling portrait, I couldn't hold back my tears......

I took out my phone and played her favorite song "Flowers on the Other Side"

"What I saw was extinguished, I was gone, I was standing at the end of the cape, I heard the soil sprouting, waiting for the epiphany to bloom again, leaving the fragrance to the youth, there was no lighthouse on the other side, I still looked at the sky, I brushed my hair white, I held my fire and brought him, I said to myself, I was not afraid, I loved him......"

I looked up at the sky to the sound of music...... It seems that every cloud that floats by is my apology......

"Zuo Lan, my wife...... Tell me: Is there really that flower waiting to bloom on the other side? ...... Or is it all just a passing moment? ....... And a hundred years from now, you are not you, and I am not me! ”

Lost, I remembered the words of the Taoist Chief: I will take on the responsibilities of a family...... Now it has been fulfilled.

"I wish to have one heart, and the white head will not be separated" I misinterpreted the words of the Taoist....... If there is really a numerology, then he must be talking about Zuo Lan...... And only she deserves this sentence, she is the beginning of my love...... But because of my mistakes, I couldn't make her my end....... I can't wait for her white head any longer!

Walking on this path of redemption, am I really redeemed? ....... No, in the running with my head down, I went astray, and the salvation was nothing more than a mere career, my love had completely disappeared from the moment Zuo Lan left, and it didn't matter if I was alone for a lifetime, or with which woman I was with.......

......

Driving a car, wandering the streets, the smell of the New Year is getting heavier and heavier...... There are 5 days left on Chinese New Year's Eve, and in the crowd of people, I seem to have only a soul left, and the happiness and pain of others, I am just a numb spectator.

I got out of the car and walked in the wind, the scarf that Zuo Lan had knitted for me around my neck was no longer as glamorous as it had been, and it seemed to have faded from crying.

I walked into a toy store and bought a shopping cart of toys, and the purpose of my life was only for me and Zuo Lan's children.

The moment I walked in the door, I smiled, "Pippi, you see Dad bought you a lot of toys." ”

The little aunt made a "shhhhhh ”

I didn't have a word and put the toy on the coffee table.......

"Yixi, I'm sorry...... We...... Don't interfere with your marriage, your life! ”

"Don't talk to me about this, it's too late!" I lit a cigarette and smoked silently.

"You deserve to hate us....... As a family, we will definitely regard Pippi as the pearl of our palms. ”

I looked at her indifferently and didn't want to say more.......

"Find a mother for Pippi, the child is so young, he can't live without mother's love...... If he was older and understood everything, it wouldn't be so easy to accept! After a long pause, the little aunt continued: "...... As for who it is, we won't force you anymore......"

I squeaked, creaked, creaked....... My heart was like ashes, but I shed tears again!

"Don't you always want me to marry Chen Qingyi? ...... As long as she wills, I will fulfill you. I said in a cold tone, without any expression.

My heart was bleeding, and I knew that Angel wouldn't accept Pippi, and her family wouldn't accept Pippi...... I don't have the strength to fight for anything, I don't want to put myself in another whirlpool, and I don't care who the woman with me is, I just want to give Pippi the quietest and most peaceful environment to grow up, as long as he likes the woman I am about to marry, that's enough, compared to Angel, he must prefer the caring, warm, and affinity Chen Qingyi.

No matter how much I hate my family, my blood is always thicker than water, and this is the end of the matter.......

.......

Chen Qingyi gently closed the door and walked out of Pippi's room, she looked at me and was still full of regret, if it wasn't for her departure, maybe there would be no tragedy today, in fact, she doesn't have to be like this, fate dictates, none of us can resist.

I snuffed out the cigarette butt in my hand and said to Chen Qingyi, "I have something I want to talk to you about." ”