Chen Qingyi and I stood on the balcony, and there was still the water left by the rain a few days ago under our feet, and the moonlight was reflected in the water, and the wind blew and swayed leisurely.......

"Tell me, what is marriage?" I asked Chen Qingyi beside me.

Chen Qingyi thought for a moment and said: "No matter how you choose marriage, it's wrong, and a long-term marriage is wrong!" ”

I looked at Chen Qingyi for a long time, and finally asked, "Are you willing to make a mistake with me?" ”

Chen Qingyi smiled very calmly: "I knew you would ask me that." ”

"So what about your answer?"

Chen Qingyi still didn't give a positive answer: "Do you think it's right or wrong for us to start a family?" ”

"Wrong is wrong......"

Chen Qingyi affirmed my statement: "I think that when it comes to marriage, there is always an attitude towards marriage, no matter how close people are, there will always be times when they are not in harmony, so sometimes it is necessary to have an attitude of making mistakes...... In fact, we have all experienced enough of love, and I have no expectations...... It is enough to find a man who is willing to make mistakes and live a wrong life......."

I pondered Chen Qingyi's words in silence....... I admit that what she said is right, at least in line with my current state of mind and cognition, the so-called love is too empty for me at this time, all I want is a calm, gentle family...... But with Angel along the way, it has been full of thorns, never calm and gentle, and what has always supported us is just that ethereal love, but when I don't care about love now, what motivation do I have to continue to persevere?

People will always be hurt when they live, and they will hurt others....... Since harm is inevitable, I choose the one who hurts the least. At least Anqi's family will be glad because of this decision, although my family let me choose freely, but in my heart still hope that my marriage partner is Chen Qingyi....... What's more: I believe that Chen Qingyi will treat Pippi as her own!

All the pain now stems from my uncompromising ....... Now I'm compromised!

"Let's get married." I turned my head to look at Chen Qingyi.

Chen Qingyi lowered her head and was silent, and looked up at me for a long time: "Zhang Yixi, you better think about it again.... I'll give you time... It is true that I admire you and have a crush on you, even love...... But the mistake seems to be a simple four words, but there is so much content that it is even more difficult to do...... Once you decide to marry me, you can't regret it, because you are responsible for me and for the happiness of my life......."

Before I could answer, Pipsqueak's heart-rending cry came from the room, and he shouted intermittently, "Mommy......"

I walked back to the house quickly, and Chen Qingyi followed closely, and our faces were extremely sad.

I walked into the room, opened the door, and turned on the light, but Chen Qingyi turned off the two brightest lights and said to me: "The child has just woken up, and his eyes can't accept the strong light......

I looked at Chen Qingyi without words, but I knew in my heart that men will never be as careful as women in taking care of children, especially men like me, who have been rough since childhood.

"Pippi, dad is ......" I picked up Pippi, who was sweating and crying, his cry was like a sharp knife stabbing into my heart, at this moment, how good would it be if Zuo Lan was still there....... Pippi, who has never been separated from Zuo Lan, hasn't seen Zuo Lan for more than a week!

"You're not my dad, I want mom...... I miss my mom so much. Pipsqueak grabbed my face with a wave of his hand, and his strength was not strong enough to scratch through my flesh.

In the pain, I thought of the first time I saw Pippi, he couldn't do without Zuo Lan crying in the car; provoked Zuo Lan to be angry, Zuo Lan said: Ignore him, he obediently admits his mistakes; He was reluctant to be with me, but in order to let Zuo Lan work at ease, he pretended to be intimate with me and called me: Pai Daxing....... I understand that while Zuo Lan regards Pippi as his own, why doesn't Pippi treat Zuo Lan as his own....... He doesn't need my cheap halfway dad!

I looked up, my nose aching, and tears streaming down my face, but I didn't know how to coax Pippi.

.......

Chen Qingyi took out a tissue from his pocket to help me wipe the blood off my face, picked up Pippi from my hand, smiled and said softly, "Pipi is good...... Pipsqueak doesn't cry..... Mom went far, far away to help Pipsqueak find the most fun and fun toys. ”

"And when will Mom come back......?"

"When Pipsqueak grows up and becomes a man who can protect her mother, she will come back."

"But I don't want toys...... I want my mom ........"

Chen Qingyi's tears rolled in her eyes, but she still kept her smile: "Mom is very happy now, she will see the sea....... Beautiful forest...... And Pippi's favorite Snow White, let's not bother Mom, okay? ”

"Will Mommy really see Snow White?"

Chen Qingyi nodded, and her voice finally choked: "In the future, Mother Chen will love Pippi like her mother, love Pippi, grow up with Pippi, become a man and wait for her mother to come back, okay?" ”

Pipsqueak finally stopped crying....... Chen Qingyi kissed him and asked, "Pippi, Chen's mother and father will take you out to play at night, okay?" ”

"Okay, Pipsqueak is going to play on the little slide!"

.......

In the evening, Chen Qingyi and I took Pippi and asked Bai Jing to have dinner together, and then took Pippi to the children's playground, we lay on the fence and watched Pippi play in it, and after a while, Chen Qingyi also took off her shoes, went into the playground to help Pippi wipe off her sweat, and played with him, and Pippi did not reject her.

Standing on the sidelines, I looked at Pippi's smiling face, and finally felt better......

Bai Jing looked at Pippi for a long time, then turned to me standing beside her and said, "Chen Qingyi, this woman is very good...... The personality is similar to Zuo Lan, but Pippi is very close to her......."

I nodded, and unconsciously thought of Angel, if it was Angel....... What kind of picture will it be at this time, maybe she can't accept that I suddenly have Pipsqueak's son.

Bai Jing pushed me and asked, "Zhang Yixi, do you have any plans to marry Chen Qingyi?" ...... In fact, our friends also hope that you will find a good woman who is intellectual, sensible, and give him a healthy living environment. ”

I looked at Chen Qingyi and Pippi in the field again, Pippi seemed a little tired, Chen Qingyi carried him to the sidelines, carefully helped him put on his shoes, and sorted out the clothes he had just messed up when he was playing.

I was silent for a while, then nodded and said to Bai Jing, "We should get married soon." ”

"Did she say yes?"

I nodded, in fact, Chen Qingyi had already handed over the initiative of marriage to me...... We will live a life of mistakes like this, and she is right: no matter how you choose marriage, it is wrong, and a long-term marriage is wrong!