I walked on the street, the autumn wind was a little bleak, I habitually tightened my clothes to resist the cold of late autumn, a song "Because of Love" faintly floated in the distance, looked up, did not find the source of the song, but saw the traffic around me, corresponding to my loneliness and despair.

I wandered on the edge of the city, panic rushing over me, and I didn't know where my future was. Suddenly, I felt the urge to flee the city.

Fate has given us too many constraints, I can't get out of here after all, I know that I have to go through a long period of pain, I sat on the stone bench on the side of the street and lit a cigarette for myself, my brain suddenly thought of Mo Han again, I don't know if she has found her happiness now, if not, we are in the same disease.

Thinking is really a very strange thing, and it is really extraordinary that I can worry about the situation of others when I am not protecting myself.

In the next week, I kept looking for a job, and the news of my resignation in the company went viral, and there were so many 4S stores in Nantong, who knew each other well, and my interviews hit walls everywhere, and I failed to get myself a job as a marketing specialist.

After paying the rent for the next two months with my last savings, I had almost nothing, and it became difficult for me to survive.

I still remember that Lin Xi and I were still living together half a year ago, living the same life, but now it is very different, sometimes life is really ironic, you can never predict, what kind of character it will turn you into, at the moment it turned me into a clown who was rejected by the world.

Because of the emptiness, I don't want to be idle for a moment, I submit my resume every day, and I clean up at home like a machine, I will move the cabinet to this corner, and then to another corner, until I am exhausted, and finally I even forget to wash and lie on the bed and fall asleep.

I can't remember how long I continued this life, until one day I went to the street and felt the coldness of the night, and I remembered that my scarf and gloves had been taken away by Mo Han, and I needed to buy new things to protect me from the cold, I didn't want my body to be too cold, because my heart was cold enough, and youth had given me too much pain.

There was an old bridge near where I lived, and in the middle of the bridge there was a stream of luxury cars, on the other side of the sidewalk were old dragons or unsound beggars, and on the other side were some small vendors, who should sell scarves and gloves this season, so I decided to check it out.

As I expected, there were a few vendors selling scarves and gloves on the small bridge shrouded in dim light, and after some haggling, they used the last hundred dollars to buy a pair of gloves, a hat and a scarf.

After I finished buying, some customers came one after another, and the white mist that poured out of their mouths during the bargaining made me feel the cold again, and I hurriedly put on my hat, gloves, and scarf, and stood by and looked at them stupidly, and bargaining seemed to me to be a worthwhile thing.

The despair of being oppressed by life makes people naïve, looking at the endless stream of people in front of the stalls, I even have the idea of selling gloves and scarves at the stalls, and I think that if I come to the stalls at night, I will temporarily earn my own living expenses. I immediately pulled out my phone and dialed the prince's number.

After the phone was connected, I said impatiently to the prince, "Borrow 2,000 yuan from my buddy." ”

There was a loud music on the other end of the phone, and the prince's tone was indistinct, apparently going to the bar again: "Borrow money? ”

"Well, buddy is going to set up a stall to support himself, and I'll send you the card number later, and you can hit my card."

"Oh." The prince hung up the phone, and he didn't know if he heard me, but he was obviously drunk.

The next morning, I received a text message on my mobile phone prompting that there was an extra 3000 yuan on the card, I knew that it was the prince who called me, and called 1000 more, he had an advantage, that is, he did not forget to do anything after drinking, which was very good and saved me a lot of trouble.

At noon, I hastily ate a lunch and went to the wholesale market, after figuring out the wholesale price first, bargaining and approving a sack of gloves and scarves, looking at the heavy sack, I have mixed feelings in my heart, I don't know if setting up a stall is a kind of depravity for me, at least Shen Man must know that I will be mad if I do this, but when you can't even solve the problem of food and clothing, the so-called face is just a fart!

In order to save transportation costs, I drove to the old bridge with sacks on my electric car, but my scarves and gloves were scattered all over the road because my pockets were not tightly fastened.

I stopped the car, who knew that the whole sack fell from the car again, and it was a half-sack of gloves and scarves, I lowered my head and picked it up on the ground, the pedestrians on the road watched coldly, few people helped, I didn't know what mood I was at this moment, but I knew that I was an out-and-out unlucky ghost, and I was so unbearable when I left Shen Man! I had a sense of frustration that I had never felt before.

When I came to the ancient bridge, I stood by the sack, quietly waiting for the dark, although I had already taken the goods, but I was not ready to set up a stall, I even retreated, I overestimated my determination a little, at least I did not find that there were young and strong young people like me to set up a stall in the ancient bridge, but I have been riding a tiger difficult, such a mood is simply offended.

Pedestrians on the road looked at the sack beside me, and I put my hands in my pockets, looking around and whistling to hide my embarrassment.

Night had finally put on the city's makeup, and I was fixed on the place where I was going to set up a stall later, hoping to see someone about my age, which at least had a little psychological comfort, and would make me feel that there were unlucky people in the world who were just as down-and-out as I was.

I looked at the time at half past six in the evening, and the unlucky ones never appeared, but the stalls were occupied one after another, and I was a little anxious

I put out the cigarette butt in my hand, and as soon as I carried the sack to the last stall, I leaned down and began to spread my scarf and gloves on the cardboard shell on the ground.

When everything was ready, I lit another cigarette for myself, I knew what I would face next, even if it was a stall, there were unspoken rules, and I must have taken someone else's stall at this moment.

I pulled out my phone and grinned at the screen to see if I was strong enough to handle the trouble later.