Chapter 23: Greed (1)
"An An, I won't let go."
He still said the same thing, but it wasn't the answer she wanted. Now she thinks more clearly and decisively than before, what she needs is to leave, not to cling to him, like an appendage of him.
What's more, if there is no love and no net worth, she is some kind of accessory, and she can't even be called an embellishment.
She didn't want to love him so humbly anymore, and she didn't want to be immersed in pain all the time, this was not the life she wanted, she had to get out and jump out.
"Qin Muchen, only when two people are willing to be together will they feel happy, why are you tying me up like this now? Even if I'm here now, my heart isn't here, what's the point of you being in front of a person who has no heart all day long? After a while, Su Nianan continued: "You are really not as good as Qin Muche. ”
"Qin Muche, Mu Che-Su Nian'an, your name is really dear."
He was angry. But even if he is angry, what does it have to do with her? Su Nian'an continued: "Yes, I'll call you dear, Mu Che Ache...... And how? Qin Muchen, you won't restrict my personal freedom, but also restrict my right to speak. ”
"I won't limit." Word by word seemed to come out of between his teeth, more angry than before, Su Nianan clenched her fists, she obviously shouldn't have provoked him, in case he ...... So what does she do? Her body simply couldn't withstand his torture.
Qin Muchen reached out and hugged her waist, hugged her to his body, pressed her head with his hand, forcing her lips to touch his, he gnawed repeatedly, rubbed gently, tossed and turned, and sucked gently. But with a hint of anger, the tip of the tongue swept every corner of her mouth, hooked her tongue, and sucked repeatedly.
He is very skillful, and even provokes the lust in Su Nian'an's body, but when she doesn't love him, when she has given up on him, she is no longer greedy for his taste, and even disgusted.
But the thoughts in his heart are far different from the thoughts in his body, Qin Muchen saw Su Nian'an's eyes, which were full of disgust, he stopped and let go of her. Su Nianan immediately flipped off his body, and now she didn't know what to say.
Ask him why this is happening? Even if she asked, would he answer? He won't. Even if she was angry, would he care? He still won't. Su Nianan chuckled, he didn't care if she was emotional or not.
It's like when people tease their pets, do they care about their pets' emotions?
Su Nian'an closed her eyes, she couldn't even make him angry, because after he got angry, she was the unlucky. This is not the life she wants, and she doesn't want to live a life without a choice.
Qin Muchen, if there was no original encounter, if I wasn't similar to your stepmother, wouldn't you even look at me, but even if you didn't look at me, it would be better than tormenting each other now.
In the silence of the night, she could hear his breathing clearly. Obviously, the two people who share the same bed have their own thoughts. Su Nianan didn't know what he was thinking, and she didn't want to know what he was thinking, all she needed to do now was to strengthen her belief in leaving.
If next time, she leaves, she hopes never to see him again in this life. What she wants is to escape completely, escape from his side, escape from his control, go to another new place, and live a plain and happy life.
But is it possible for her to leave?
She didn't know the answer.
Obviously in the same bed and with the same cup, there seems to be a Milky Way between the two people.
Qin Muchen endured the anger in his heart, he knew that her body was not good yet, he couldn't touch her, but he still couldn't help it, when he heard her say those words, he felt a fire erupt from the bottom of his heart, he kissed her, he even wanted her, but seeing the disgust in her eyes, he stopped. He never thought there would be this day, he never thought it would be like this between them.
She is simple, she is happy, but now she is not at all like before, and she can't even see a smile on her face, but even so, he still doesn't want to let go, he still wants to keep her around.
An'an, what went wrong between us?
He didn't want to be angry, but under the stimulation of her words, he couldn't contain the anger in his heart and vented it on her. He obviously didn't want to do this, but the result still made her even more resentful, and even disgusted with him.
She leaned against the edge of the bed, he smelled her hair, and now he wanted to reach out and hug her, but he was afraid that she would dodge and resist. These days, he waited for her to fall asleep before coming into the room, but his grandmother called him to tell him that Qin Muche was here, and he rushed back in advance.
What I saw was that she was smiling and feeding Qin Muche snacks, stingy smile at him, but not stingy with others. Calling him Qin Muchen, but calling Qin Muche was Mu Che, he didn't have time to get angry, but she entered the room and avoided him.
He was angry, but Qin Muche provoked him again and again, obviously one was his younger brother and the other was his wife, why did she get along with Qin Muche more happily than he got along with her?
He saw that the light in the room was turned off for half an hour, went into the room and lay down, habitually hugging her waist, he thought she was asleep, but he didn't expect her to be asleep, she said harsh words one after another, he held back his anger, and finally couldn't listen to her affectionate call Qin Muche, so he covered her lips. He wasn't going to rob her of her freedom to speak, he just wanted her words to drown in his lips, he just wanted her to be the same as before.
Hearing her steady breathing, Qin Muche hugged her as usual, without her, he couldn't sleep at all.
In the two days she left, he didn't fall asleep once, he was looking for news of her all the time, and only after finding her did he sleep peacefully. It's right that he covets her taste, it's that he can't do without her.
One night, Su Nianan knew that he had already left when he opened his eyes, as usual in an empty room, as usual in life, she no longer looked like a soulless doll, since she had her own ideas, she needed to work hard for them.
To prepare her for her departure later, she needs to learn more. He has a big study, she rarely came here before, she didn't like to read at all, not to mention that his books are varied, everything is involved, but most of them are economic.
Su Nianan picked a psychology book from it, when she was in college, she really wanted to study this course, but her father didn't let her take it, so she obeyed her father's wishes and chose another one. Now she is more interested in psychology than before, and she even analyzes her own psychology and analyzes her heart.