First love is infinitely good, but it hangs early!

Su is temples rubbed more and more he felt that he was going to have a good physical examination soon, these days, he either had a headache or a sore throat, and his whole body was very weak.

Maybe everyone will eventually meet, sooner or later, just for that sentence, happy to meet you, and then leave a painful parting.

As soon as possible, someone will smile at her with a ring and say please advise her for the rest of her life. Su is remembered Shenghu, the person who just sent a message to her, I have something to miss, separated from the countryside, and within three days, I will definitely be lovesick. ”

It is said that the new year should have a new atmosphere, but this year is different from last year, Su is persuading colleagues to do something to add value to themselves. But what she usually hates the most is to rest on her laurels, and she thinks that she is fighting monsters and upgrading.

In the less than a few days in the office, whether I saw that person or heard his voice appear, every moment, my brain seemed to be filled with lead, or as if it was being grasped by an invisible hand, drowsy, slow thinking, and stumbling speech; The chest is burning and uncomfortably; not wanting to do anything, or being hesitant to do anything; I don't want to talk, I don't dare to answer the phone calls of acquaintances, I don't read text messages, or I don't reply to text messages when I read them. Of course I don't want to see anyone.

As soon as I wake up in the morning, I don't know how to spend the day. Lie in bed, or sit still, or walk around the room. It's just a slow time.

"The depression in my heart is like a black dog, biting me at every opportunity." Su said into the phone, she was describing her recent situation to Xiao Qing.

"You're sick, not wrong! Come on, dear! Your previous self-control was too strong, and that's because control gives you a sense of security, stability, and self-esteem. But too much control can also make you lose your freedom. For example, if you say that you have a quarrel, you will not be able to control the extremism, and it will inevitably hurt your feelings. This leaves you with little freedom to enjoy in the relationship. People who are out of control want to control everything. This control can also mask larger problems and create greater risks. Trying to recognize that this kind of control poses a lot of risk to us, and that this kind of control, which seems to bring a sense of security, actually makes us unfree. “

"I understand a little, but it's useless to understand, alas. You'd better come over early and stay with me. ”

Su saw that her colleagues outside the door began to urge her to get in the car and go to the hospital for a physical examination.

When I got in the car, I didn't feel anything unusual, but when I got out of the car, I lost my mind in a trance, because I took off my glasses when I was in the car, and when I arrived at the entrance of the hospital, I hurried down again, and I almost fell down with my feet in the air, but fortunately, I finally hit a person.

No matter how short-sighted your eyes are, you can recognize who this person is! It's the last person she wants to see after so many days of coming to the company - Chengfeng.

"Be careful, what about your glasses!"

"I, I, maybe," Sue didn't know how to reply, and Chengfeng had already left her sight.

Su is head hung down, and there was a cramp in his heart.

"Don't leave it in the car in the future." Su is standing still for a minute, Chengfeng handed over the glasses, Su is just wanted to reach out to pick it up, but he didn't want to Chengfeng but gently put it on for her personally, his hand slid over Su is face, and his heart was still beating.

"Thank you!"

"Can you see clearly without glasses? What does it feel like? The colleague on the side turned around and asked, seeing that the two of them were stunned, and felt that he had talked too much for a while.

The atmosphere was a bit awkward.

"Well, what does it feel like not wearing glasses, right? Hermaphroditism three meters away, six relatives five meters away, and no distinction between humans and animals ten meters away. Sue thought her answer was humorous, accompanied by her own laughter.

The colleagues in the distance didn't hear it, and the people on the side blackened their faces first.

"It's the same even if you wear glasses."

"I, I."

"Hurry up, hurry up, report a number and go in one." The doctor faced everyone in line outside the door and began his work.

"It is said that in the workplace, we must keep enterprising, constantly absorb knowledge, and look for opportunities. In fact, the body is the same, remember to be born in sorrow and die in peace. ”

"Don't say it so deeply, a headache is a headache, a heartache is a heartache, I really feel that I am sub-healthy."

"I know a high-spirited girl who often posts on Moments at two or three o'clock in the morning. Some people say that you are not good for your body like this, and she said that I don't want the length of life, only the width of life. It sounds very burning, but when you look at it, you find that her so-called "life width" is only the width of her circle of friends. ”

The length of life determines the width of life. No matter how talented you are, how maverick you are, and everything returns to zero without health, Su is listening to the chat of his colleagues in the front row, but his mind is still stuck in the moment just now.

"What if I find out I have cancer?" I don't know which colleague said this, which caused everyone's heartbeat to double.

It turns out that in addition to love, death also aggravates the rapid heartbeat.

"Therefore, some people choose not to go for a medical examination for the rest of their lives, and these people often live to a long time."

"But, isn't it best to call on us to have a medical check-up at least once a year? If you have a disease, treat it early. ”

Su wanted to find Chengfeng from the sound, but couldn't hear it. It's a pity that she didn't dare to turn her head to look for it, after all, what betrayed her heart.

"Manager Su, why don't you speak? It can't be that you're afraid of medical checkups, right? ”

"That's right, it's a blind date for the New Year, and it won't develop into any more advanced situations, right?"

"What's the situation? What's the situation? Is Manager Su pregnant? ”

"Can you shut up, what are you doing so noisy, this is the hospital." These words were very familiar, Su heard it, it was the sound of the wind, coming from behind him.

The English writer Huxley once said, "Medicine has advanced so that no one is healthy anymore," a famous quote that I can relate to. In this case, why should we hand over our health to cold instruments? Why should the instrument have the final say? Why should you be led by the nose by "scientific data"? Our ancestors never had a B-ultrasound or X-ray, no blood test, no urine or bowel examination, but they all lived to be healthy until they were eighty or ninety years old. On the contrary, we do not necessarily live longer and healthier than our parents by the annual physical examination, but many healthy people are scared half to death by "data and indicators". "Sue is starting her own idea.

Because of the loud voice before the wind, everyone listened quietly when Su is said this.

"So you mean you don't have a medical check-up?"

"yes, I still don't have a medical exam. Can a medical check-up really solve our health problems? In fact, more often than not, the results of the physical examination bring us panic, fear, and useless labor and money. Before the physical examination, it was still good, but after the physical examination, there were always a few colleagues who were worried, including fibroids, breast hyperplasia, high blood pressure, and anemia...... Anyway, very few people's indicators are completely normal and gone. ”

Saying that she just left is Sue's style, and it is also the reason why she wants to leave.

Ignoring the shouts of his colleagues behind him, Su Shi didn't look back and walked towards the door of the hospital.

"What's wrong with Manager Su?"

"Really don't have a medical exam? Then I don't want to check it either. ”

"She's not really sick, is she?"

"She's sick." Chengfeng scolded in his heart, and glanced at Su Ye's back fiercely, and the physical examination list in his hand was even more wrinkled by him.

Usually busy, rushing for work, not much time and energy to think about this or that thing, even if occasionally encountering something that touches the heart, after all, it is an adult, and the nerves are still strong, so I won't take it too seriously. But when he saw Chengfeng face-to-face, Su still couldn't stand the heartache.

When you are mentally paralyzed in the dead of night, or when you are confused after waking up from a dream, the situation is different, the nerves become fragile, the consciousness has no boundaries, and it is especially easy to magnify the pain in the heart, always feeling that you are too pitiful, life is too sad, and the future is too hopeless.

If you can clear your mind and seriously find the direction of your life after quietly thinking about the enemy, it is not impossible; But if you just feel sorry for yourself, raise all kinds of questions and dissatisfaction with life, and finally get full of negative energy, and your mood is so low that you can't extricate yourself, it really outweighs the loss.

It's just that Su always does things that he regrets. She sent a message to Shenghu in the middle of the night, promising him to try to date! She is not actually afraid of loneliness, but because of the existence of Chengfeng, she feels lonely.

When they are in love, both of them have full marks, but when they get along, they begin to lose points continuously, only now, after the breakup, it has become a painful zero score or even minus 100 points.

For those who are not satisfied with the past, wake up tomorrow and try again, try to put in more effort, solve more problems, try to do better - the next time you think about life, they are no longer your weaknesses;

And for those problems that you can't surpass no matter how hard you try, peaks that you can't climb, and goals that you can't achieve when you're scarred, you might as well talk to yourself: give up, at least now I don't have the ability to achieve it, spare yourself!

After letting go from the heart, you may still have a little regret in your heart, but when you think about life, you will not be as melancholy as before, full of negative energy, you have worked hard, you have thought clearly, you know, sometimes people have to reconcile with themselves.

Don't be idle and start thinking about life. After all, the dead of night is not suitable for thinking about life.

If you really want to think, find a time when you are full of energy, clear thinking, and calm mood, and think seriously.

What should be faced must always be faced, and those who can be crossed will cross the past sooner or later, don't be afraid in advance, and don't complain and sigh about injustice afterwards. The latter feelings are summarized by Su in his diary. But she didn't dare to tell Shenghu these thoughts, lest she do something wrong again.

But it was already a mistake for her to accept a new relationship when she was not calm.