Returning to the hostel with anger and frustration, I saw from afar that Li Shi was carrying my belongings at the door, her laborious appearance was as if I had seen it for the first time, willful and persistent, but everything seemed to be twisted and exchanged, I was throwing her things out at that time, and now she is handling my belongings.

Seeing this, it was no surprise that I was kicked out of the hostel again tonight, and my poor belongings were tossed again.

Seeing this, I stepped forward a few steps forward and grabbed the box in Li Shi's hand, kicked it on the ground, and then said in frustration: "Don't bother you, I'll come by myself, you don't need to deal with this bit of ragged clothes and socks." ”

Li Shi was probably frightened by my actions, and stood there and looked at me stunned.

After being ridiculed by me, she didn't want to pay attention to my irritability, and bent down again to help up the box I kicked down, and I don't know where the nameless fire came from, and kicked the box again, directly into the ditch in front of the door.

The suitcase floated on the surface of the water and staggered, and then slowly entered the water and sank, Li Shi ignored the eyes of passers-by, took off her shoes and was about to go down to fish, but I grabbed her arm.

"What do you want to do?"

Li Shi threw out her arms and yelled at me, and the look in her eyes that would not stop without getting an answer made me feel depressed.

At a loss, I immediately lit a cigarette for myself, took a few puffs, and then put it out on the ground, and then said to her: "I do my own things, I don't need you to mix them, everything is thrown here, and I still pretend to be a good person." ”

Li Shi, who had been blocked by me all the time, pushed me away with all her strength, and then climbed the stone with bare feet and walked down, and with the help of the clerk who heard the sound, she laboriously lifted the box ashore.

I stood numbly in place, Li Shi was soaking wet and struggled to climb up from the ditch, she looked at me with a painful expression and accusation, and asked, "Are you insane?" ”

I suddenly felt tired, and I didn't even have the strength to fight back, maybe I was just insane, silent, and finally just stared blankly at the lights in the darkness in the distance.

Li Shi picked up her shoes and turned around and walked towards the store, and the hostel customers who stayed at the hostel looked at us one after another, at this time the front desk clerk stomped his feet anxiously and explained: "Brother Hang, you misunderstood Mr. Li, it was Mr. Gou who asked him to sort out your things and throw them out, not Mr. Li." Not long after Mr. Gou left, she planned to classify your things and move them back, we have to do it, she insisted on coming in person, you shouldn't be so fierce to her......"

Looking at the water on the ground, the flame burning in my heart seemed to be extinguished by the river in an instant, and I looked at the clerk in a daze, and I didn't know how to respond to his words for a long time.

With the sound of the store "banging" the door, I finally regained all my senses, and there were too many complicated emotions piled up, which made my heart a little uncomfortable.

At this time, Shuma, who lived on the roof, ran out, he didn't say anything, and hurriedly helped me pack my belongings, I leaned down and pretended to see my foot injury, in fact, I just wanted to find an excuse to lower my head, I didn't want him to see my sad expression.

Over the years, I have suffered more than some people have eaten salt, I have endured the tears that are about to boil too many times, because I know that men should not be like women, crying to vent their emotions, crying can not solve the problem, can not make life better, I always admonish myself and say: Yu Hang, you are not qualified to cry, you have to laugh hard, pretend that life is beautiful, life will become very beautiful, you have to take on the responsibility of the family, you have to give everyone hope.

I always use this self-hypnotic way to give some life to my exhausted life, and refine the difficult days into poetry, and I have indeed done it, and I have rarely given up on myself all these years.

But today, I'm really sad.

My tears fell everywhere, I thought I could cover them up well, but unexpectedly Shuma grabbed my arm and dragged me up, in my teary eyes, I saw a look of ridicule on his face, he opened his mouth, and it took a long time to squeeze out a sentence: "Brother Hang, don't cry." ”

I didn't respond to his words immediately, I quickly turned my head, wiped away those tears with the back of my hand, eased up for a moment before turning my head, and said calmly: "How can you cry when Brother Hang is such a laughing person." ”

The look on Shu Ma's face became even thicker, the corners of his mouth moved again, and he held back a sentence after half a sound: "Brother Hang, I know you are bitter in your heart......"

Shu Ma, who has always had no heart and lungs and knows to talk back to me, actually comforted me at this moment, I smiled bitterly, and the emotions that I pressed down were blocked in my heart, and I was so panicked that I pretended to be more calm: "Your brother Hang has a very good mentality, and I am fearless in life, but sometimes I feel that I live too self-indulgently, and it is a bit fake." ”

Shuma's mouth opened slightly, he seemed to want to say something, but I didn't give him a chance, chuckled, and said lightly: "Okay, okay, if you are really a good brother, move my things to the door of my room, I have to solve some things." “

With that, I pretended to be exaggerated and limped towards the door.

When we came to the door of Li Shi's room, when my hand touched the handle, the door suddenly opened, and we looked at each other in a depressed way.

After a long time, Li Shi slowly spoke, and said something that made me very overwhelmed, she said slowly in a deep voice: "It's almost September, I will be back in England in a few weeks, please don't toss the rest of the days, let me leave with some good memories without you, is it done?" ”

My whole body froze, all the blood rushed upward, and my brain quickly came back to my senses after a brief lack of oxygen.

"Without a scourge like me, are your memories really perfect?"

"I've never wanted to argue with you, and I'm fed up with your teasing, every time I climb to the top of the surprise, I am thrown down so hard that I can't stop until I fall into the dark abyss, I'm afraid you don't understand this feeling."

"Who said I don't understand, these years, the cruel life has taught me early on that there are not too many unattainable expectations, so there will not be too much despair within reach."

"Before I go, I'll do everything planned, and you come to the office tomorrow with your resignation report."

Li Shi finally raised her eyes to look at me, and then closed the door, as if I had fallen into a torrent, but I was powerless to struggle for a point.

I was really tired, but I stood there and asked myself over and over again, what went wrong, why did I experience the joys and sorrows of this life so repeatedly, what did I do wrong, and why?

The loneliness I had never felt before seemed to freeze my blood, and I pushed open my half-hidden door with stiff steps, and then collapsed on the floor in despair......

……

This night, Shuma tidied up the room for me, and pulled me to the bed, and then went back to the small tent on his roof, and I stayed awake all night, I still couldn't figure out the things I couldn't figure out, but I made a decision all night, leaving the hostel, going out for a walk, I and Li Shi had no chance, I wanted to listen to her last request, and give her a quiet hostel.

The next day, I returned to Youtu with red eyes that stayed up all night, and asked Li Shi to sign the resignation report in my hand, when I pushed open the door of her office, I found that she looked worse than me, and when she saw me coming, she lowered her head and was busy as if nothing had happened.

She was sitting at the desk, looking down at a document, and I walked over and whispered, "Mr. Li, please sign it!" ”

I stood for no less than five minutes before Li Shicai slowly raised his head and said lightly, "Okay." ”

The tension between us and her last night is still fresh in our minds, and we have to pretend to be nothing now, and we're really tired......

Li Shi quickly signed his name on the paper, and then explained: "Don't delay the salary, wait here for a while, and wait for the finance to hit your account before you leave!" ”

I nodded, looked at the papers in my hand, and slowly walked out of the office with the pain coming from my legs, and as I approached the finance office, I heard the sound of a discussion on Twitter.

"You see, we were kicked out like a lost dog, and Mr. Gou said that our company's business was leaked by him, which made us busy for a whole quarter, and there was no reward."

"Isn't it? I heard that he caught up with the CEO of Laiyue, and he wanted to ...... with our President Li"

"I really didn't expect that when we worked together before, I thought it was very easy to get along with, very easy to talk, and took care of people's character, but I didn't expect it to be so ...... It's really a knowing that you don't know your heart! ”

I stood there stunned with the resignation report, even if I felt that these words were too ugly, but if I jumped out and quarreled with these colleagues, it would only make myself appear lower, so I buried my head and walked forward as if I didn't hear it, but I suddenly collided with a person.

I hurriedly took a step back, and before I could see the person clearly, I subconsciously said, "I'm sorry......"

Zhang Manli raised her eyes and looked at me, before I finished the last word, my hand was already tightly gripped, I was startled, and quickly shook off my hand.

I was a little confused, and even more panicked and tried to break free from her hand, but she had already leaned up to my ear and said, "If those colleagues gossip about you behind your back and slander you with vicious words, and you listen to it very cool and happy, then you can break free from my hand now." ”

In anger and panic, I didn't want to have any more contact with this woman, but I shook off her hand, she laughed, twisted and left.

At this time, a familiar sound of high heels came from behind me, and Li Shi stood next to the secretary, squeezing his eyes at me, I realized that Li Shi seemed to be clear about the situation, she threw the documents in her hand on the desk, looked around the entire office area, and said lightly: "You were talking about Yu Hang just now, right?" Who said he slapped me with a dead face...... I tell you, even if he leaves today, it will not be your turn to point fingers, he knows what he should do when, he deserves more respect than any of you, unlike you, who do not work hard with the salary offered by the company, and are idle in the office all day long, gossiping about this and slandering that, since you like to chat so much, do you want me to give you a holiday, go home and talk for a month and come back? ”

This is the first time I have seen Li Shi get angry in the office, even if her tone is light, but there is an aura that shocks people, and all the colleagues who were still chattering just now were silenced, like a crow that was suddenly choked by the throat, and the huge office area was very quiet.

Li Shi looked around again and said lightly: "If I hear something similar here again, I don't mind letting the human resources department change a group of people who can do the work." ”

After she finished speaking, she turned to me in a very gentle tone: "You go to my office and wait, and then leave here when you are done." ”