In fact, we have a lot of time along the way, we can talk about better solutions, but she is still avoiding, presumably, all along, when she encounters difficult things to choose, she will only make a choice when she has to face the moment, I know that the old things between Jiang Laiyue's parents must have left a deep shadow on her, so she has always looked indifferent over the years, but in fact she is using indifference to cover up the pain.

The entrance of the train station is filled with fireworks, and on the eve of Chinese New Year's Eve, where thousands of families are reunited, the vendors are doing their last business of the year, selling hard.

Jiang Laiyue took the suitcase from my hand, smiled calmly, waved at me, motioned for me to go back, and then pretended to be relaxed and walked forward.

I stood in place and looked at Jiang Laiyue who was lonely and left, the crowded crowd pushed and shoved her, she was not the goddess of war in her mouth after all, her fists and feet couldn't withstand the squeeze of the crowd, at this moment she was just a weak woman who was too ordinary to be ordinary, she still had to wrap her clothes tightly in the cold wind, and she still had to grit her teeth and bear it alone when she was lonely......

Just as she was about to be swallowed up by the crowd, I quickly pushed through the crowd, squeezed to her side, took her bag, and whispered in her ear, "Don't mind if I give you another ride." ”

Jiang Laiyue didn't say anything, just leaned into my arms, but her eyes told me that she was extremely insecure at this time, so I hugged her tighter, and after a long time, she finally said to me: "You don't have to wait for the car with me, it's still early, you should go back." ”

"You sit here alone, go to the bathroom before you get on the bus, what do you do with your belongings?"

"Isn't there a toilet in the car?"

"Yes, but you may not be able to get through the crowd, and besides, the bathroom hygiene is so poor that you can't get off your feet at all, if you want to go to the bathroom conveniently, you can only sit at the junction of the carriage, sit near the toilet......"

Jiang Laiyue's brows furrowed slightly, she had never experienced it like this, she seemed to be afraid of entanglement, I think when she was nervous, she seemed to have digested the fear she was about to face, and said fearlessly: "How fresh, this person, when you are twenty years old, don't spend energy and time to hesitate and entangle what choice is the best, because no one knows, if you have an idea, you can boldly try, feel different lives, try more types of work, read more, travel more, fall in love more, make more friends, Pay all these tuition fees, so that after the age of 30, you can live the life you want calmly. ”

I sighed softly, and my mood became a little lighter because of Jiang Laiyue's relief, and I could only pray silently in my heart that I could meet the kind people who treated her well on the way.

Jiang Laiyue found a seat and sat down, patted her leg at a loss, and said: "I really want to leave all my illusions, loss, and loneliness in this dilapidated train station, and then walk away in style, let the wheels that keep moving forward crush everything that is damned, and the pain has nothing to do with me from now on, how cool it should be!" ”

"You want to be beautiful, if you can discard your emotions, then the rest of your days will be too boring."

"Aren't tasteless days bad?"

When Jiang Laiyue asked me rhetorically, I couldn't answer a little, and only said after a long time: "Aren't tasteless days also the result of being artificially screened?" In fact, the things that make you miserable never really leave, but just come back at any time in unknown corners. ”

"I like the rhythm of life here, but this place doesn't belong to me, leaving here, I have to go back to the city where I grew up, where it is so cold that there is no joy and sorrow, but I can't leave the city of Xi'an, my soul has long been buried there, all the joys, sorrows and sorrows are confined there, like being tied up and can't escape......"

"I love it too, but I'm going to go back eventually, there's a guitar that sings about loneliness, there's a bar and coffee shop with a past, and a hostel that soothes me."

Her face looked a little hazy in the dim light, but I could see her relieved smile: "Then we'll see you in Xi'an!" ”

I nodded, and finally, in silence, the sound of the station announcement was heard, which also meant that the time of separation had come.

Jiang Laiyue took the luggage from my hand and waved goodbye to me: "I'll just follow the team forward, I can't lose it, you take the initiative to contact Li Shi, don't miss it." ”

"Don't worry about others all the time, take care of yourself."

Before I finished speaking, she suddenly hugged me, her voice choked, patted me on the back and said, "Don't flirt with your emotions, isn't it just a Spring Festival, I'm used to it." ”

I raised my head and took a deep breath, and finally smiled and said to her, "It's good to get used to it, I want to celebrate the festival, every day is a festival." ”

Jiang Laiyue nodded, straightened out the messy clothes after hugging me, and said, "If I don't line up again, I'll be outdated, so I won't waste time with you and leave." ”

……

After saying goodbye to Jiang Laiyue, I called my mother, Li Shi did not come to the village, I guessed that she was to surprise me, so I deliberately sent her a location.

To my surprise, Li Shi quickly replied to me with a message, and although it was only an OK gesture, I knew that this was precisely the signal of her return.

I found a hotel near the station and stayed alone, I stayed with Li Shi once, she was able to find here, according to my analysis, she probably came by bus.

After taking a shower, I thought I would fall asleep quickly and peacefully in joy, but since the moment I lay on the bed, I kept thinking of the picture of Li Shi coming back, she was in the warm air, wearing plain clothes, her hair was tied with a red ribbon, and when we met again, we didn't quarrel, we didn't frolic, just stood quietly, looking into each other's eyes seriously.

……

This night, I completely lost sleep, and then in insomnia I thought about the past and the future over and over again, but this kind of recollection, at this moment, is so deadly, so I became more and more painful in my cranky thoughts, I wanted to find someone to talk about this pain, but the night was already bottomless, and finally even the noisy station fell asleep.

In light sleep, I was woken up several times by the noise downstairs, and every time I woke up, I felt like I was in a trance, thinking that the next moment Li Shi would walk up the stairs in front of me.

Time passed so slowly, as if it had been a long light year, and the morning sun finally shone into the room through the gap between the curtains, but my spirit was so trance-like, because until now, I had barely slept for a short time.

The first thing I did when I woke up, I picked up my phone to read the news, it had been a night, but Li Shi did not give me any news, after washing, I was not a little awake, but I did not have the slightest desire to rest.

I sat on the bed for a while, and I watched the sunlight shine through the crack, shining on my bed from several angles, until the phone rang, and I came back to my senses in a daze.

I immediately answered the phone, and a slightly nasal but familiar voice came from the other end of the phone: "Hey, Yu Hang, I'm at the station." ”