Jiang Laiyue saw my thoughts, reached out and took the mobile phone and looked at it, her expression fell into a moment of confusion, and after the mother on the side was silent for a long time, she finally patted me on the shoulder and said, "Think about how to deal with the aftermath." ”

My mother left the decision to me, gave me room to think by leaving, and she didn't interfere too much with my final choice.

Jiang Laiyue, who was immersed in pain, finally came back to her senses, grabbed my hand like a frightened bird, and begged incoherently: "Yu Hang, will you turn back easily?" ”

Lao Gou's prophecy came true almost quickly, and I finally knew that my parents' attitude these days was actually making a choice for me, so as not to make me embarrassed at this moment.

My hesitation hurt Jiang Laiyue deeply, and she shook off my hand, her face full of helplessness, and her lips trembled to look at me again......

I was full of struggles, because no matter what decision I made, it would be a great hurt to her, and after thinking about it for a long time, I finally asked her, "Can you give me some time to deal with this relationship?" ”

Jiang Laiyue was silent for a long time: "It's good if you really think like this, but you won't." ”

I looked at Jiang Laiyue seriously and said: "If I can't handle this relationship well, I will always live with such a shadow, and she is kind to Mengmeng, so I should give her an explanation." ”

Jiang Laiyue subconsciously bit her lips, her expression was very complicated, obviously because of my words, she was struggling, and only said to me after a full minute: "Don't blame me for being sensitive, I don't need any promises from you, my mother just believed in the promise back then, so she was abandoned, and now I live in a nursing home and don't live or die, I won't repeat the mistakes of the past, don't say these subjective and light promises again, okay?" ”

I looked at Jiang Laiyue with shock, I never dreamed that today's situation would hurt her so deeply, and fate always seems to like to joke with me on my choices, and I can even meet that maybe one day my choice will become my tragedy.

Jiang Laiyue suddenly hugged his head in pain, his voice was very soft, but it was full of heavy depression: "I already know your choice, don't delay any longer, send me out of here before Li Shi comes." ”

I persuaded: "Your greatest wish is to have a stable New Year, tomorrow is Chinese New Year's Eve, how can I send you away today." ”

"Do you really think I'm just here for the New Year?"

"I know you're for me...... So a lot of things can be eased......"

Jiang Laiyue said without giving an inch: "I understand what you said, but I just want to see your attitude now, but I obviously overestimate myself, you don't have to be too sorry, you can't make everyone unhappy, rather than this, I prefer the indifferent self in the mall, reduce the damage rate to the minimum, this is the way to survive, you just do it." ”

"Life is not a commercial field, and you don't need to sacrifice."

"Don't be like this, really don't be like this, Yu Hang, you don't understand, how difficult it is for me to get to this point, this is not only a New Year for me, but also the beginning of my rebirth, I can not be reborn, but I don't want to be destroyed, you don't want me to die sad, send me away."

I looked at Jiang Laiyue blankly, and suddenly gritted my teeth and said, "You have to see my attitude, right?" ”

Jiang Laiyue smiled slightly, shook her head and said: "I have made up my mind, don't make it difficult for you to make any statement to me, I don't want to see you embarrassed, I'll go pack my things now, if you don't send me, I'll leave on foot by myself." ”

I just stood in place like this, and then watched Jiang Laiyue go in and out sorting out things, she didn't have the slightest drag and water, cleaned up quickly, just paused on a gray-white scarf, and then turned around and gave the scarf to the grandmother behind him and said: "Grandma, I'm leaving, I haven't gotten along enough, I haven't eaten the Chinese New Year's Eve dinner you made a little lost, and when I'm done with this, I'll take the time to see you." ”

The elderly grandmother obviously has a strong ancestral and grandchild affection for the straight Jiang Laiyue, she looked up and touched Jiang Laiyue's hair and said: "Girl, don't cut your hair so short in the winter, freeze your ears, don't be too embarrassed when you encounter things, if there are too many things in your heart, you will tie a dead knot, and you should be happy...... Doll, come back more when you have time, you know! ”

Jiang Laiyue always smiled, rubbed her grandmother's hand like a child, and then carried her bag and motioned for me to set off at the entrance of the village.

Grandma motioned for us to wait, trotted back to the house and filled some fried peanuts and melon seeds with a convenient bag, and stuffed a few pieces of freshly baked peanut candy stuffing, just stuffed into Jiang Laiyue's bag, remembered something, turned around and carried a small basket in the house, signaling us to wait.

……

Jiang Laiyue and I walked out with our things, and then stood at the entrance of the village waiting for the grandmother who was missing, but she soon appeared in our sight, hunchbacked and walking briskly in the snow, the green headscarf on her head made her very recognizable.

We went up, and she walked faster, but at a distance of about ten meters, the soles of her feet suddenly slipped, and the whole person fell to the road, and the basket in her hand fell a few meters away.

The yellow egg liquid fell on the road, we only then knew that grandma was going to borrow eggs, yesterday I heard that grandma thought Jiang Laiyue was too thin, and she boiled an egg every morning and evening to add food, saying that local eggs are nutritious.

The kind-hearted grandmother always felt that Jiang Laiyue was wronged by living in her own home, she looked at the broken eggs on the ground, beat her legs sadly, and then moved her body to pick up the eggs.

Jiang Laiyue knelt on the ground and pulled her grandmother up, asking her not to pick up those broken eggs again, she scolded herself sadly for not being useful, this thing can't be done well, not to mention the broken eggs, it will delay our time.

We helped my grandmother to her feet and made sure that she was not injured before we breathed a sigh of relief, Jiang Laiyue was already on the verge of emotional collapse, until grandma took out a blue checkered handkerchief and stuffed a roll of money into Jiang Laiyue's hand, she couldn't hold back anymore......

She stuffed the money to her grandmother, and then knelt on the ground and hugged her grandmother's waist and cried, but the outburst was very short, and in less than a minute, she left her grandmother's body, stood up and carried her head and didn't dare to go back.

I said goodbye to my grandmother, who was also wiping her tears, and quickly followed Jiang Laiyue's footsteps, she wrapped her eyes around her face with a scarf, hiding her emotions, suppressing them, and suppressing them again.

……

I also planned to take the opportunity to persuade her to stay, but when I saw her crying red eyes, I didn't dare to say this again, she was more atmospheric than everyone else, but only for feelings, she dared to love and hate, and she couldn't allow herself to be cheap.

Although the snow on the road has disappeared, but the road is still a little slippery, because it is approaching the New Year, the traffic pressure has increased suddenly, the narrow country road is full of cars, our road is not smooth, when it is dark, we have arrived at a service area not far from the county, I wanted to buy something hot, but Jiang Laiyue did not want to eat fast food in the crowded crowd, she asked for a cup of milk tea, sat in the car and ate the peanut candy pancake given by her grandmother......

In order not to delay the time, I drank a cup of porridge and continued to hurry, Jiang Laiyue did not have much appetite, and only half of the fist-sized cake was eaten, so he put it on the center console of the car, and looked at the cars blocking the road with a blank expression.

I said to her, "I don't know when it will be clear, or let's go back." ”

Jiang Laiyue shook her head and didn't speak, I saw the weight of her mind in her body movements, she might have been tired of dealing with my words, so she directly chose to be silent.

After a moment of silence, I asked her again, "Where are you going to go back to Xi'an?" ”

"Leave me alone."

"Shut yourself off again?"

Jiang Laiyue's expression was full of pain, as if she recalled the past that she had been unwilling to face, and she finally said: "Maybe I really don't deserve to have happy days, if I am a little lucky, I will be beaten back to my original form...... What is the most taboo thing for men and women to interact, you like him after chatting with you for a few days, I want to live a lifetime before I fall in love, I want to go back and forth for a lifetime if I make a friend who is a little better for you, no wonder my resentment is so heavy and sad so much, this is the price of naivety. I am not sociable by nature, and on most occasions I either find the other person boring or afraid that the other person will find me boring. But I didn't want to put up with the boredom of the other person, nor did I want to make myself interesting, it was too tiring. I'm most relaxed when I'm alone, because I don't feel bored, and even if I'm bored, I bear it on my own and don't bother others! ”

"I gave you a promise in a hurry, but I couldn't give you the final result, after all, I was deluded and did the most foolish thing!"

Jiang Laiyue didn't speak, just picked up the water cup and took a big sip, then smiled with warmth, and said: "Actually, I can laugh and say fair competition, but there is no need to make everyone unhappy, Li Shi's appearance seems to have directly nailed our feelings to the wall, this feeling is not my hypocrisy, but a woman's intuition, I can't make you embarrassed, in fact, you won't love me anymore, I don't need you to start your feelings for me from sympathy and charity, to put it bluntly, feelings are things that don't exist without contact, you don't keep them, I haven't looked back, it's good that we'll be okay for the rest of your life, I hope you'll be well, so good that you forgot that I was here, after all, all we can evaluate is a person's past and present, and no one has the foresight to make an assessment of the future......"

"I have never seen your suffering as a way to sympathize with you."

"Li Shi will make your life more poetic, as for me, it is better to go back ......"

……

After Jiang Laiyue and I encountered intermittent traffic jams, we finally arrived at the county seat, and after entering the city, those dim neon lights seemed to be singing the song of guards for the city, but I couldn't be like a street lamp, loyally guarding my beliefs, sometimes people's fickleness is no better than a street lamp, at least it emits loyal light in its fixed position......

The light fell through the glass window into the closed car, shaking a flickering light and darkness, and the car owners who were on their way home honked their horns in the poor road conditions, as if to tell us that the city has never been so congested, but it didn't know that someone was reuniting and someone was parting......

I parked the car at the gate of the train station, and Jiang Laiyue used the mobile phone ticket grabbing software to grab a station ticket and go directly to Xi'an Station, which means that she has to stand for about 12 hours......