Time is gone, and she guards the empty city
If a person's memory is a piece of paper, then my top has already been covered with ink, and no matter how much I wipe it, I can't go back to the original touch. So, I'm still facing the city on my own. And this city is empty.
I'm still fine without you.
- Lin Ran
Forty degrees of heat outside, the branches and leaves on both sides of the street are lonely, as if they were speaking in the windless air. Tell the coldness and sadness of this world. Lin Ran, who walked down from the No. 77 bus, didn't feel the heat at all. For her, it was a kind of coldness, a coldness that stretched from the bottom of her heart to her bones. Opposite the stop sign is an elaborate attic with a wooden tag engraved with the words "Castle in the Sky" in black letters. That's the name he gave to the attic, and she was amused at the time that a studio had such a strange name.
Lin Ran just stood across the road and quietly stared at the "Sky City". I couldn't see the crowd, I couldn't see the noise, it was as if the whole world was just her and the studio.
The attic, which was full of people yesterday, is now deserted and terrible. Holding the key in her hand, the landlady called in the morning to ask Lin Ran if she wanted to continue renting this attic, and her tone was bad. Now she's the key to returning the "Castle in the Sky". When I entered, the landlady was already waiting at the door, and her wrinkled face was long and a little gloomy and frightening. Lin Ran didn't look at the face, and walked straight in, the painted whitewashed walls were covered with various sketches and watercolors. It was painted by her with him, and he told her at the time that our life is a beautiful watercolor painting, stretching from black and white sketches to beautiful watercolors. The white rice paper painted with color is the printing and dyeing of our memories.
Stroking the drawing papers, Lin Ran flipped through them one by one. Before he left, she asked him, "Have you given up all this?" and he turned his back to her and replied, "Yes, these are just superfluous to me now." Lin Ran was silent, watching him step by step out of her eyeliner, as well as her life.
After a long time, she told the landlady that she continued to rent out the attic, but not to tell anyone that she had rented it. Lin Ran saw the landlady's happy nod in agreement, in this materialistic world, only interests can make people smile.
He thinks so about her, how can such a perfect person find her so small. Thinking that as soon as he left, the attic would disappear and their memories would fade. However, Lin Ran didn't tell him, and without him, she was still doing well.
The remaining emptiness and warmth, only she is still infatuated. Just because she loves him.
When Lin Ran left, lock the "Sky City". He glanced back at the black lettering on the wooden tag, and then turned away without hesitation. Lin Ran, who was sitting on the No. 77 bus, looked at the scene flashing outside the window, and she was always in a happy mood whenever she used to do so. Because 77 is a beautiful number, it belongs to the Chinese Valentine's Day. When he was there, he always told Lin Ran that the stars on this day were always very shining. In order for Lin Ran to see, he deliberately took Lin Ran to the mountains to see the stars all night. Lin Ran thought, he loved her at that time.
No matter how perfect love is, there will be a day when it collapses. When Lin Ran heard this voice, he was on the way to the "Sky City". One dodged by, and a young man and woman were kissing, and between their respective heads, they suddenly froze. Lin Ran still remembers his incredulous appearance, is that him. In the morning, she was still talking about the careful words on the road, why she didn't know him now.
Lin Ran saw his unnaturalness, and she thought that she would never do anything to embarrass him in her life. So she just shouted softly, "Mercy", and for a moment Lin Ran seemed to see the deep sadness in his eyes. When I looked at it again, there was only coldness left in those deep eyes. Lin Ran laughed self-deprecatingly, how could she still have the illusion that he still loved her.? No one spoke, only her and him were left in the space, only the sound of her breathing. stood like this endlessly, and in the end Lin Ran still watched him take her hand and walk out of her sight, but that person was not her.
After he left, Lin Ran returned to the "Sky City", there was only an empty space left, she caressed everything here, looked at those sketches and watercolors, and thought about the days when he was still there. Maybe after that, there will be no more memories of her and him here.
The remaining emptiness and warmth, only she is still infatuated. Just because she loves him.
She loved him more than anything.
Lin Ran thought that she was cowardly, so she appeared at the station on the day of his engagement. Sitting in the waiting hall, looking at the gorgeous wedding on the big silver screen, the scarlet carpet, and looking at the two people standing on the other end, the sadness she revealed was only known to herself, and at this moment Lin Ran understood that that person no longer belonged to her.
Thinking of his abnormality during this time, the sadness in his eyes, he asked for it again and again at night. Lin Ran selfishly thought that as long as she pretended not to know, they would always be happy. But in the end, they still couldn't escape the palm of fate, he was still a prince, and she was still just Cinderella after twelve o'clock.
The train sounded a long whistle, as if mocking Lin Ran's escape. Pinch the ticket in your hand, and the end point is "Purple City". It is full of purple flowers, and it is a small town like a fantasy. That was her hometown, remembering the heartbroken look of his parents when he took her away, Lin Ran always blamed himself, and during that time he accompanied her and said, However, our happiness is fought for by ourselves, and your parents also hope that you will be happy. So you have to be happy to show them. However, you have forgotten that you are the only one who can bring me happiness.
Lin Ran thought, starting from that half-immortal, from the moment she aspired to be a perfect woman, from the moment he met her. is destined to start her catastrophe, and she can't escape, she can only obey. Therefore she loved mercy above all else.
Lin Ran thought that he was the man who took her away.
When Lin Ran was eighteen years old, she was still a little girl who didn't know the height of the sky. That day, as usual, she was under the old cherry tree, drawing her dreams. I heard my grandfather say that this tree has been here since he was sensible, and the legend says that it seems to be a wishing tree. So the people of the village will make wishes under this cherry blossom tree if they have any secrets, including those young men and women.
The old half-immortal in the village said that someone would definitely take her away in the future, and this was her calamity. So since she was sensible, she has always fantasized about who that person is. She would think of his eyebrows, his nose, his lips, their encounters, their happiness. It is then engraved on white rice paper. She would pray under the cherry blossom tree that her prince would live happily.
Looking at the sea of purple flowers, she danced. This is a compulsory course for her, and her mother said that a girl can be versatile to be a perfect woman. She wants perfection because only a princess can be worthy of a prince. When she arrived in the "Purple City", she saw a beautiful woman dancing in a large sea of flowers, so beautiful, like a fairy in the forest, and like a fairy in the sky, as if she was just playing in the world, and when the time came, she would return to the place where she belonged.
He wanted to capture her and leave her to himself. Then he walked gently towards her, as if he was afraid of disturbing her, and just stood quietly a meter away from her. Lin Ran forgot to dance a song, there was a slight breath, and his white forehead was overflowing with beads of sweat, and then a white handkerchief was handed from the side, and a gentle and clean voice sounded, "Wipe it." She followed the sound and raised her head, crashing into those clear eyes, and she couldn't see the bottom. For a moment, Lin Ran thought that she was willing to die. Because at this moment her heart was flying, it was an indescribable joy, as if she would be happy just by looking at him. Lin Ran decided at this moment that he was the man who would take her away.
To love someone is to give wholeheartedly, not caring about the past, not caring about the future.
Activities organized by the school, so I want to sketch here for half a year. When he heard the news, Lin Ran's heart was excited. Every day Lin Ran would get tired of being with him, she went to sketch with him, from sketching to watercolor together, you and I interspersed it one by one, the tacit understanding seemed to be very close, and it seemed to be very far away.
When Lin Ran danced, Pian Sheng would sit quietly on the side, looking at her beauty, her gentleness, and her innocence. It would be great if I could be happy with her like this for the rest of my life. He thought sadly. But he knew that he couldn't, and he had his unshirkable responsibility, so he could only bear her in this life.
When Lin Ran told her about the outside world, Lin Ran said abruptly, "Pity Sheng, take me away." Then both of them froze. It took a long time for Lin Ran to hear the deep voice of the pity, if you don't regret it, I will take you away. Lin Ran sweetly leaned on the arms of the poor and said, I will not regret it, as long as you live up to me. It's just that she didn't see a moment of sadness in Pity.
Lin Ran sketched a beautiful picture of them living together in her mind, and she told him that she wanted to open a studio with him and then teach those painting students together. Mercy gently stroked her head and said yes. Half a year passed quickly, and the night before leaving, Lin Ran came to the cherry blossom tree with Pisheng, praying sincerely for their future. Then she followed Pisheng without hesitation to leave her hometown where she had lived for eighteen years and her parents who loved her, and began her unknown journey, but she did not regret it.
To love someone is to give wholeheartedly, not caring about the past, not caring about the future.
About faith, her love.
Back in City A, Lin Ran lived a life like a little woman, and she knew her innocence, and always took the trouble to answer her curiosity. It's just that Lin Ran has never heard Pian Sheng talk about his family, and she doesn't ask, she thinks Pi Sheng will tell her. But she didn't know that this kind of telling was actually in exchange for the departure of the pity.
The first time Lin Ran took the bus was No. 77, and she remembered that the beginning was their home, and the end was "Sky City". That day, Lian Sheng led her to the road, starting from their home through large and small roads and red tiles, and finally stopped in front of a delicate attic, Lin Ran still remembered Lian Sheng's expression at that time, he pointed to the attic and told her, this is the "Sky City", our studio. A spontaneous excitement filled her heart, she thought that she could be happy with him forever, and how far away it would be, she never knew.
So when she bumped into the picture of Pisheng kissing her, she fled cowardly. At the moment when he and the other girls walked to the palace, she was the only one left in the city that had long been deserted, and she was still struggling. But Lin Ran still can't hate Pisheng, she loves him and is unforgettable.
He grabbed the piece of paper in his palm and glanced at the "Purple City". Then resolutely tore up, her dreams, her happiness.
After that, Lin Ran disappeared, and no one saw her again. It's just that the attic is still there, isolated and so beautiful.
It was an empty city, and it contained her dreams, her happiness.