It is also the night of the New Year, the time of Chinese New Year's Eve, and it is also the same that Zhong Daxuan will never forget; However, last year's fireworks and joy in the Heavenly Dynasty Fuling Jinhong Water Heart Fort were very different from the flower-filled and drunken gold fans in this year's hall of the King City, at least for Chung Da Xuan.

Whether it is fireworks and flowers, or joy and drunkenness, it doesn't matter whether it is good or bad, right or wrong; Because any phenomenon has two sides to its surface, sometimes it seems out of tune on the surface, but in fact it is the most reliable; On the contrary, sometimes what seems serious on the surface is actually the most absurd and bizarre.

However, in Zhong Daxuan's heart, it is obvious that the fireworks are gorgeous and the flowers are splendid, and he is happy and drunk, and he is good and bad, right and wrong.

Of course, it does not mean that Zhong Daxuan's ideas are extreme and wrong; And the distinction can only show that Zhong Daxuan is still uncomfortable and uncomfortable at this moment.

It is precisely because Zhong Daxuan can't adapt to the environment here and adapt to such an occasion no matter what, so Zhong Daxuan, who hopes that Yu Yin can always stand on the same front as him, naturally hopes that Yu Yin will also not adapt to the environment here at this moment, and naturally hopes that Yu Yin will feel uncomfortable on such an occasion.

However, the fact is that Yu Yin, who grew up in this environment and on such an occasion, not only does not feel the slightest discomfort about it, but can also integrate into it one step faster.

Just like at this moment, Zhong Daxuan, who had to participate in this Chinese New Year's Eve feast, was forced to sit among the guests in a gorgeous silver-edged plain brocade robe according to Yu Yin's wishes.

As the prince of Qi, Yu Yin, but handily embraced the strings around the beams, condescended to the noble, sat on the small leaf red sandalwood paper-shaped chair specially placed for him in the middle of the branch hall, and played a new song that he had never played before, called "Zimo Hongchen".

And it is precisely because of this that the two hearts of Yu Yin and Zhong Daxuan, who are contrary to each other, will go farther and farther in their respective directions, and the distance will be wider and wider, until they can no longer find each other.

I don't know what kind of mood Yu Yin is in at this moment, playing this song "Zimo Red Dust"; I don't know what kind of mood Zhong Daxuan heard from this song "Zimo Red Dust" at this moment; In short, Yu Yin has no fault, Zhong Daxuan has no fault, and the music is even more wrong, but Yu Yin's song "Zimo Red Dust" clearly defeated Zhong Daxuan in a flash.

Come to think of it, if a person is not a sage, who can do nothing; However, people are not plants and trees, so how can they be ruthless?

At this moment, Yu Yin, who was playing around the strings of the beam, was clearly visible in front of Zhong Daxuan at such a close distance; What Zhong Daxuan, who was deaf, could see was only a utilitarian set around him, but he was only an extremely vague figure, but he still couldn't find the Yu Yin he was looking for.

Because what Zhong Daxuan has been sparing no effort to guard, what he has tried his best to find after realizing that it was lost has always been just the Yu Yin in his own heart; And the Yu Yin in his heart will definitely not be Gu Liangyin, the prince of Qi, but it is not the Yu Yin that Gu Liangyin has been trying to do, but the Yu Yin that he sketched in his heart with his subjective hopes.

However, when the other party in each other's hearts and the other party in each other's eyes contradict or even refute each other, the mutual beings who can't face each other either can't bear to look directly or turn a blind eye.

Of course, the essence and result of the former and the latter are not the same, they both look at each other with their eyes closed, and they are called "seeing each other's hearts"; In fact, what they see is nothing more than an illusion in their hearts, just a dream woven from many illusions.

On the hall of the joint division, Zimo is red and dusty, so it is not flashy; At the end of the song, the applause was thunderous and enduring.

However, in the midst of this thunderous applause, I saw the depressed Zhong Daxuan get up silently, leave gloomily, and dragged his broken body alone, returning to his dormitory in Ruwig Palace, and then fell on his bed.

At this moment, Zhong Daxuan, who fell motionless on his bed, really wished that he would sleep forever like this and never wake up.

In the seventeenth year of Kunqian, the first day of the first month, the new year.

As the so-called "Zimo Hongchen is a dream", it was originally a dream, when I woke up from the dream, I couldn't remember the beginning, and I didn't want to remember the end, so it was over; It's just that he accidentally mixed up with a trace of friendship, so that when the friendship is no longer there, or no longer exists as he imagined, the broken dream becomes a reality, and everything is irretrievable.

I vaguely remember that in the past, in the Celestial Empire's Fuling City, on Jinhong Street, in the Fish Tears Pavilion of Shuixin Fort, Zhong Daxuan once advised Yu Yin not to think about problems in a tired state, let alone make a choice in a tired state.

But at this moment, outside the Vermilion Bird Pass, in the Woshi City, the capital of the Qi Kingdom, Zhong Daxuan, who was in the palace of the royal city, had already forgotten his words of admonishing Yu Yin in the past. Zhong Daxuan, who is uninhibited by nature and yearns for freedom, really does not want to continue to be this "caged bird", so he finally thinks about the problem and makes a choice when he is physically and mentally exhausted.

Because of participating in the Chinese New Year's Eve feast, Yu Yin, who returned to the palace late at night, woke up in the morning, still sleepy, he originally thought about having breakfast, and after digesting for a while, he returned to the bed in the dormitory to sleep a beautiful sleep.

But who knows, Zhong Daxuan's unexpectedly solemn announcement drove away Yu Yin's sleepiness in an instant and broke Yu Yin's dream.

Zhong Daxuan resolutely and solemnly announced to Yu Yin that he was leaving, he was leaving Ruqi Palace, he was leaving Woshi City, he was leaving Yu Yin and the homeland that Yu Yin loved so much, he was going to go to the place he really wanted to go without any worries as before, as before he met Yu Yin.

But the question is, can Zhong Daxuan now, who has already met Yu Yin, really be the same as before, as before he met Yu Yin, without worrying?

However, at this moment, Zhong Daxuan's announcement is so firm, so resolute, as if he never intends to turn back as soon as the words come out; At least at this moment, Zhong Daxuan is resolute and resolute, and he has no intention of turning back; As for the next moment, who knows?

At this moment, Yu Yin, who could only hear Zhong Daxuan's sudden announcement, was hit hard, and asked Zhong Daxuan again and again like self-examination: "Brother Daxuan, are you tired of me?" Is it because I'm too headstrong? ”

When Zhong Daxuan heard this, he shook his head helplessly and replied, "Yu Yin, I'm not tired of you, I'm tired of life here." Here, I felt unusually lonely, a loneliness that I had never felt before, a loneliness that I couldn't fit into. ”

"How so? Brother Da Xu, there are so many palace people coming in and out here every day, and I have always been by your side, how can you feel lonely? Yu Yin asked Zhong Daxuan in confusion.

"You think it's lively, don't you? Yes, it's very lively, but that's what makes me lonely. Once upon a time, you and I were separated by thousands of rivers and mountains, and I could clearly feel your breath; But now, even if you are by my side, I don't feel your presence at all, and I don't feel my own presence either. Zhong Daxuan responded to Yu Yin sharply.

Yu Yin, who was dizzy and confused by Zhong Daxuan's radical words, only asked Zhong Daxuan stupidly: "Why?" ”

"Why!" Zhong Daxuan couldn't help but sneer, "Before coming to Qi Kingdom, I always thought that the friendship between us was indestructible, but it turned out that I was wrong. Because the friendship between us is actually too fragile to withstand a little bump. ”

"Brother Da Xu, you don't have confidence in me? Or is it not confident in our friendship? Yu Yin, who came back to her senses from surprise and confusion slightly, asked Zhong Daxuan again and again.

"No, I'm not confident in myself. I am an outcast who was abandoned by my biological mother, what can a person like me ask for? Zhong Daxuan responded categorically to Yu Yindao.

"Brother Da Xu, how can you think so? I just followed my heart, played my favorite songs, and lived the life I wanted. But why are you, instead of being happy for me, resisting me? Yu Yin asked Zhong Daxuan as a matter of course.

When Zhong Daxuan heard this, he asked Yu Yin coldly: "Yu Yin, do you know what the life I want is like?" ”

"I'm sorry, Brother Da Xu, I don't know." Yu Yin shook his head weakly and replied.

"Even if I sit there all day, no one will look at me with disdain, and that's what I really want to live." Zhong Daxuan said to Yu Yin in a solemn tone, "Yu Yin, in fact, we are all the same, we are all used to being alone, and we are all used to being alone. ”

"No, that's just wishful thinking on my part; In fact, no one is used to being lonely, it's just helplessness. Yu Yin immediately retorted to Zhong Daxuan.

Even so, we are all unwilling people, and we are all trying to find the meaning of our existence. Although we are also one of the meanings of each other's existence, it is not the only meaning, and it is those other meanings that make it difficult for us to intersect with each other. Zhong Daxuan said to Yu Yin matter-of-factly.

Regarding the various gaps and gaps between Yu Yin and Zhong Daxuan, Yu Yin originally did not pay attention to it at all; Because of the deep friendship between them, full of the same deep confidence.