At this moment, it felt like the world was getting colder, and the night was getting deeper and deeper, as if there was only a slight breath left in the world.

This road is the same as that of Sister Green Tea, which I used to think was very familiar, but now I found that the orange and red ones were shining on it, and the road was dull and silent, and now there were no vehicles passing by. Just a few bits and pieces of insects chirping in a corner.

My shadow lay black on the pavement and followed me. The wind rustled through the trees on the side of the road, making people feel a little cold, and put their hands in their pockets and walked slowly.

I lay in bed and thought about it all night, in the future, I may not be able to be friends with Sister Green Tea, I am not so generous, of course, I am not the prime minister's belly, I can't hold anything, let alone support the boat.

How kind do we have to be to compromise certain things, how kind is to be kind, I think it is not necessary to compromise certain things.

As Russell said, the pursuit of objective truth, regardless of success or failure, is already a good virtue.

Let's get a good night's sleep, don't worry about anything, and when the day dawns I believe everything will be fine, and in the second half of the night, sleepiness finally comes, close my eyes, and finally my night falls.

I don't think I'll ever meet Sister Green Tea and Chen Fei again in the future, and the next day I pulled my heart back to my usual state, thinking that everything was just a dream, and I think this is the truth.

In the past few days, my whole body and mind have been integrated into my studies, because I am about to take the graduation exam, in order for me to be able to enter high school, I always have to go to the sports field to run a lap or two after class every day, I hope that my sports score will not be very low, as long as you work hard, you will get what you want.

We have heard this sentence since childhood, and I have verified that it is true, as I thought, my sports performance is quite good, this is true, which makes me believe this sentence even more, and then I have to work hard to review every day in and out of class, and I want to make up for important knowledge.

As long as the grades keep up with the head teacher's eyes will change a lot, I remember that the head teacher used to see me squint, now I see that I not only look straight and my eyes are shining, but now I find out that the head teacher is a double eyelid.

Academic performance is the teacher's treasure, then you are the treasure.

My life is almost only left to study, these days the mobile phone has not been favored by me, my mobile phone on the head of the bed has no trace of electricity, I am afraid that it will break, go to charge.

I found that Sister Green Tea was in my mailbox, left a message, I hurriedly opened it to see, Sister Green Tea left a message: "Qianqing!I'm leaving, I'm leaving here, I'm glad to meet you in this strange place, maybe I'm wrong, but don't worry about not feeling guilty for me, I definitely didn't leave because of you, because my mother died, I want to go back, maybe I won't come back, if there is a chance we meet in this world, we are still friends, will you recognize me as a friend?" By the way, you lent me the money, I called her to your bank card, no matter what, I want to thank you, thank you for knowing each other, I hope we can meet again in the future, your good friend Sister Green Tea, I guess you don't know my name yet! Remember that my name is Tang Xiaorong. ”

Looking at Tang Xiaorong's unfamiliar name, this is the first time I know her name, which makes me feel guilty why I never ask her name after knowing her for so long, not to mention that I treat her as a good friend, and I feel even more guilty that I can't send her, and I can't even see her at the end.

If she's by my side I'm willing, I'll tell her in person that we're still friends and we're not wrong.

I replied, "We're all right, you'll always be my good friend, and we'll see each other again." ”

Now all I can do is to silently wish her well here, and hope that everything goes well for her.

In the past few days, when I am in class, I always think of Sister Green Tea, but I think she is getting less and less, maybe I am gradually getting used to everything at the moment, maybe I am getting busier and busier Chen Fei has not contacted me since that day, I and him seem to have forgotten everything, they seem to disappear in my world, and even feel that they have disappeared in this world.

On the day I volunteered, I met Chen Fei at school, in the corridor of the political and educational office, we met each other and just glanced at each other, he and a few of his friends talked and laughed to themselves, we didn't say a word, just a simple glance.

I finally got into the high school I wanted to go to, and in the afternoon I happily applied for the volunteer and prepared to go home.

As soon as I went downstairs, Chen Fei was standing at the top of the stairs, and I walked by with my head down.

He shouted, "Stop!"

I stopped and said, "Is there something wrong?"

He hugged him and said, "Congratulations! ”

I stopped his hand and he put his arm around me, it was really uncomfortable.

I went on to say, "It's normal for me. ”

"Cut, you can blow it! Maybe you copied it! Maybe it's lucky. ”

"Chen Fei! Shut up! Get out!"

"Will you die if you talk well?"

"Ask yourself. Who doesn't talk well, you are neurotic!"

"Okay, we haven't seen each other in a long time, do you want to have fun?"

"No, where to go?"

"Let's go, I'll take you to a fun place. ”

"I still have something to do, so I don't have time to spend with you. ”

He said angrily: "Lao Tzu will give you face! If you don't give Lao Tzu face, you really can't go!"

"Big brother, did your grandmother ask you to come and give me face? If I don't go, I won't go, what can you do to me!"

"Don't think that I won't dare to do anything to you if your mother is married to a rich man!

When I heard this, I had already walked to the side of the court to leave the school gate, only to hear the shouting from behind: "Xu Qianqing!

Chen Fei and I have always been like this when we meet, we never talk well, let alone talk well, and it is very annoying to see him.

When I got home, I found the door open, and I thought it was a burglar in the house, dragging the garbage shovel outside the house, trying to make a move.

I gave up after entering the door, my father was sitting on the couch, watching TV, I hadn't seen him for months, how could he suddenly come back, but I was a little uncomfortable. I've never liked to be in touch with him.

At this point, I didn't know what to say, so I put the garbage shovel down.

He said, "You're back from school?"

Apparently he didn't care about me at all, and I was no different from a stranger asking such questions when I had graduated.

I said, "I've already graduated! ”

He looked at it in disbelief: "What do you want to do?"

"One. ”

"Did you get in?"

"I got in. ”

"Oh!"

I thought he would be happy for me, but he said "Oh!" flatly.

Disappointing answer, this really can't satisfy me, joy is not afraid of having no place to share, most afraid of sharing your joy with the other party, turning joy into joy, this time can really be happy.

I was disappointed to change into slippers.

He then said, "Have you eaten?"

"Nope!"

"Do you want to go out to eat?"

"Yes, anyway, I graduated from the holidays and was relaxed, nothing happened, whatever. ”

"Let's go, go now. ”

"Hmm"

I followed him and I realized that he had a new motorcycle, no wonder I couldn't tell he was back just now.

We just went to a nearby restaurant to eat, very close to no motorcycles, and he and I asked for a few random dishes.

During the meal, we didn't speak, and the people at the tables next to us were noisy, or we could hear the sound of us chewing food.

I asked, "By the way, where have you been?"

"Hey, I went out to do the antique business, and I received a lot of fakes, and I lost a lot, and now I still owe 70,000 or 80,000 yuan. ”

I threw down the chopsticks in my hand and said, "Well, I told you a long time ago that you need to have a certain amount of knowledge to play this kind of thing, not just play casually, let alone play with people like you, you will have nothing to do if you listen to me earlier." ”

"Hey, I'm unlucky this time, I'm not going to play this stuff again. He continued, "But now that the creditors are collecting debts from me, where can I get all that money?"

After saying that, he looked at me pitifully, and I saw that his innocent eyes softened a little, after all, he was my father.

I whispered, "It's not you who see what I'm doing!"

"I didn't ...... Nothing!"

"Is it really nothing?"

"It's okay, that's it...... That said don't be angry. ”

"Say!"

"It's that I want you and your mother to borrow a little, she should lend it to you, and you can borrow a little for me for her. ”

I shouted, "What an international joke are you making!"

Because my voice was so loud, everyone around me looked at our table, and he winked at me.

Then he whispered, "I know you hate your mother, but I really can't help it, so I came up with such a solution, do you think there is a better way besides this one?"

"Anyway, I don't care that it's your business, not mine, you go and take out a loan yourself. ”

"The loan doesn't work, I don't have anything to pledge, they won't bag it to me. ”

"The house!"

"The house can't be sold, let's talk about where we live and where you live, you know that my father was your grandfather, he came from the countryside, he was penniless when he came here, and he bought such a house here after working hard here for half his life, and he gained a firm foothold, is it easy for you to talk about him? Anyway, I can't sell this house. ”

"Anyway, I won't beg her, I want to go to you!"

"Good. He continued, "Let's each take a step back, you go with me, and I ask for money, isn't that good?" She will definitely not refuse in front of you, not to mention that seventy or eighty thousand is a small matter to her. ”

"It turns out that you have already calculated that you will invite me to dinner. ”

There is no such thing as a free lunch, and it is true.

"It's not important, the important thing is up to you, if you don't agree, there's no way, the main thing is whether you agree or not?.....................!"

I thought about it, if I don't agree to him, maybe the creditors will come and force him to ask for money, what if something happens?

Anyway, I have seen what it means to "die for money." "People can do anything in front of money.

So I softened my heart and said: "I'm afraid of you, I promise you, I said that you will ask in person, I just accompany you, I won't say anything." ”

He was full of joy and said, "Okay, okay, then I'll call right now." ”

His face couldn't hide his smile, his forehead was already full of circles, and the joy in his heart was like the rippling waters of the lake, but the rippling circles of the lake water slowly spread out on the surface of the lake, and the circles of joy rippling in his heart slowly disappeared on his forehead.

He called her and said, "Hey, come over to Xiaofang Restaurant now, which is a restaurant near my house, and the child is looking for you for something." ”

I didn't hear what was said on the other side of the phone, but they didn't say much, and my father hung up the phone just after saying that.

I said, "Obviously you are looking for her, why do you say that I am looking for her, why do you want her to come over now." ”

"Isn't it good now? Save money and ask for it all at once. ”

"Hmph! I've seen such a stingy person. ”

"I'm not stingy, I really don't have any money, that's why I have to borrow money from her, okay. ”

"Okay, okay!" I added, "stop talking, you better prepare me how to borrow money from her!"

After speaking, I lowered my head to play with my phone, and he said, "By the way, you got to the point, what will I say later!"

"The right to speak is yours, don't ask me. ”

Speaking, for normal people, is one of the most basic and commonly used expressions of human beings, as if it is born with something innate, and we don't need more skills when we want to blurt it out.

In fact, sometimes it is really difficult to speak.

People are known to speak differently to different people. People in different professions speak differently, so we have a circle of discourse.

Although this kind of circle lets you know how to speak, but the limit, after the limit, some people are silent, and some people tell lies, especially during the Cultural Revolution, I remember an old man told us such a story, during the Cultural Revolution, his husband went to herd cattle and beat a lot of pheasants, and his husband said such a sentence, there are too many pheasants to be sold, and as a result, this word spread to the village cadres, and was pulled to criticize at night, saying that it was capitalist and bourgeoisie.

If this happens, many people have a heart of "selling pheasants", but due to the limitations, some people are silent, some people lie, and if someone tells the truth, it means that he doesn't want to live anymore, which will only be counterproductive.

Not every word can find its circle, and then can be applied, it is because you can't find the circle is difficult, just like a pen does not have a pen sleeve at all, let you find its cover, none of them are suitable, this kind of pen to make the ink not dry can also be used for a long time, the difficulty is definitely greater than the pen that can be set up with a pen cover. Of course, there is no such pen in the world, the manufacturer is not a fool, and the manufacturer will not make this kind of pen if he wants to eat and make money. I'll just give you an example.

To put it simply, words without a circle of discourse are more difficult than words with a circle of discourse.

He thought for a while, but he didn't see him speak, he must have not thought about what to say.

But here she came.

The waiter greeted, "Welcome, do you have an appointment?"

I looked at the door, she came, she was alone, the same as before, it seemed that she had been doing well in the past few years, and nothing had changed, let alone the vicissitudes of life.

She smiled at the waiter.

I turned my head down and played with my phone, and my father gave me a look, and I didn't care about them, still with my head down and playing with my phone.

For some reason I listened carefully to her footsteps, her footsteps getting closer and closer, and I saw her feet in black high heels stop next to me, and she sat down with the sound of pulling a chair.

My father spoke first, "That...... I haven't seen you for a long time, how are you doing?"

Listening to the tone of his voice, I felt difficult for him, and there was a faint embarrassment.

She said, "Very well, you guys!"

After speaking, she glanced at me, although I lowered my head and played with my phone, but I could still feel it with the shifting light, not to mention that now I care about her very much, and I feel it with my heart, and it is better to lift my heart than to lift my throat.

"It's okay, we're all ...... Okay!" he said, rubbing his hands.

"Where's Asaharu?" she said.

The sound was so crisp in my ears that my heart seemed to be lifted to my throat, suggesting that I had to lift my voice.

I said, "Well, it's fine!"

He hurriedly said, "What do you want to eat? I'll give you some!"

"No need!" she continued, "Is there anything you want to do with me?"

My father kicked me, hinted at me with his eyes, made me speak, and I gave him a blank look and shook my head.

He went on to say, "I ...... That one... I want to borrow money from you. ”

"Why borrow money and how much do you borrow?"

"Not much! Seventy or eighty thousand. ”

"What are you going to borrow it for?"

"This... That kid was admitted to high school and asked for a lot of tuition. ”

After that, he looked at me, and I thought of saying that he was lying to you!

She said happily: "Is it true? I'm happy for you, I don't have any money with you now, send me the bank card number, and I'll call you." ”

Saying that, she came to take my hand, and I subconsciously spasmed my hand.

She said, "No. 1 middle school? My daughter was also admitted to No. 1 middle school, maybe you will know each other." ”

I felt very uncomfortable hearing this, but I restrained myself and didn't let it break out.

My father said, "Probably, I'll send you the card number later." ”

She looked at me and seemed to see what I was thinking, and immediately changed the subject: "I'll call you 80,000, 80,000 is not enough, if it's not enough, I can call you." ”

"That's enough!" he added, "thank you...... Thank you!"

"Qianqing! Tell your mother about something in the future. ”

I nodded and said, "Hmm!"

She touched my head and then said to my father, "Come out for a moment." ”

This implies that they can't say something to my face, and I am not allowed to eavesdrop on them, they have their reasons, and I don't eavesdrop on them.

Just looking out the window, they stopped under a tree, the corners of their mouths moving slightly, their distance, I couldn't hear what they said at all.

I only saw her answer a phone call after a while, and hurried away, and my father came in alone.

I asked, "Did she say anything to you?"

"Nothing. ”

"What the hell did you say?"

He said, "She wants to take you over." ”

I interrupted, "Don't go, love to go." ”

"I don't want you to go yet, who will support me when I get old after you go, it's good if you don't go, it's good if you don't go. ”

"Eat, I'm going home. ”

"Well, let's go, let's go!"

To be honest, I can't remember the last time my father and my mother spoke to my face, indeed, it hadn't been like this since my mother divorced my father, and this was the first time in years, and I used to fantasize about what it would be like when two divorced couples met years later.

I thought they would hug each other, cry, or feel guilty about each other, tell their faults back then, and even quarrel with each other, but in fact, they were not as flat as I imagined, no hugging, no talking, no tears. It makes me feel more realistic.

My dad never told me how they got married, and I think they met as usually, and they didn't have a deep relationship, right?

I asked my dad, "How did you and my mom meet?"

He leaned on the stool thoughtfully and said: "Your mother is actually from a village with me, at that time her family was good, she was the only girl in our village who could come to the city to study, it was a coincidence that when she came to the city to go to college, our family bought a house here, the income of rural people is very low, and it takes a lot of money to go to college, her father paid the tuition for her, and brought the rice to my house for her to eat at my house, so as to save a lot of food expenses, and your grandfather agreed to come down if the villagers were not good at refusing." At that time, I didn't study anymore, I was bored all day, no one cared about me, your grandfather was busy with work, your grandmother was busy with housework, I sent your mother to school all day long, and I went to pick her up after class, at that time your mother was very beautiful, especially after class, I went to pick her up, she twisted her waist in the dusk, and the teeth in her smile were golden in the sun. One day I said to my dad, 'I'm going to take her.' My parents said, 'Okay, I'll go for you.' Your mother didn't agree at first, but then her father said yes. ”

"Then why did her father agree to marry you?"

"Does that need to be said? At that time, our family was still decent, our family was the first to move to the city in our village, and then I got married to your mother like this, after getting married, I found that it had changed, your mother and I had no common topic, there was something that could not be discussed, and then when I was pregnant with you, your grandfather died, at that time my family almost collapsed, like the sky fell, I had no income, and your grandmother had no income, and as a result, our family became poorer and poorer, your mother just had you, and it was inconvenient to go out to work, at that time I was really drunk and dreamed of death, drunk every day, and when I came back, I had to lose my temper with your mother, I know that your mother has endured me for many years, she has said several times: 'To live a good life, if I go on like this, we will divorce.' I didn't believe it at first, I thought that the countrymen were generally very conservative and would not divorce easily, marry a chicken with a chicken, marry a dog with a dog, you really divorced me when you were only one or two years old, she wanted to take you away, but your grandmother didn't agree at that time. Later, your grandmother passed away, and the life at home can almost be said to be without rice. In fact, your mother is very kind, after she married someone else, she often sent money to the family to support our life. ”