Chapter 48 Dr. Shu Xiang's Psychological Counseling (C)

It rained for half a month, and the sky finally cleared. The blue was a refreshing blue, as clean as a newborn baby's eye.

Fang Wuying stood in front of the window, staring at the distant sky for a long time, he remembered a certain kind of porcelain called "rain over the sky", and the rare color was regarded as a treasure by the world.

"Sorry, the water dispenser was sent for repair, drink this."

Fang Wuying turned his head and watched Shu Xiang put a can of "granular oranges" on the table. He waved his hand: "No, keep it for yourself." ”

"You don't like juice so much?" Shu Xiang said with a smile.

"That's what the girl drinks." He shrugged, "I'm not thirsty. ”

Shu Xiang smiled meaningfully and didn't speak again.

Fang Wuying closed the glass window, walked back to the sofa, and sat down, his posture very relaxed.

"The big news in the bureau, have you heard that? Xiao Wu's thing. He smiled, "Were you scared?" ”

"It's shocking indeed." Shu Xiang nodded.

"Well, you should really look at the punch he gave Zhao Guangyi." Fang Wuying said, "It's exciting enough." ”

"It's unimaginable." Shu Xiang smiled, "Didn't the other party fight back?" ”

"Fight back? I don't think I have changed my way of thinking yet. Hmph, that guy has always treated people as a wreck, a lost dog, so many years of command, have formed a habit, how could he have thought that one day, the other party actually rose up to resist? ”

"Sounds relieving?" Shu Xiang looked at him with interest.

Fang Wuying shrugged: "Lei Jun also felt very relieved, Zhao Guangyi said that he wanted to sue Xiao Wu, and he and I pretended to be deaf and dumb." ”

Shu Xiang laughed: "Accusation? Song Taizong has been here for half a year, but he has learned everything! ”

"It's much more than that. Later, Xiao Wu told us that he also planned to use the media to expose Xiao Wu's identity, 'make him stink' again, and then throw him to Frankenstein...... Did he read too many Japanese manga? ”

Shu Xiang nodded: "The so-called obscenity is regardless of age or era, this person bullied Xiao Zhouhou and made me sick all the time - sent back?" ”

"Of course. It was sent back at noon, and he also fell over inadvertently because of a loophole in the shield. Since the situation was disordered around the 10th century, Yu Kai and Li Jianguo followed and did two days of repair work there. ”

"Oh, but the early Northern Song Dynasty was okay, except for Wang Xiaobo and Li Shun's uprising, there was not much social turmoil."

"Social unrest won't affect either of them." Fang Wuying laughed, "I shaved my head, forged incense scars, and squatted in the Daxiangguo Temple by pretending to be a monk - that is a royal temple, who dares to check them?" ”

Shu Xiang laughed again: "How many monks do you have this time?" Didn't Lei Jun shave his head last time? ”

"Except for shaving your head in winter, it's a little cool, and it's okay to be a monk occasionally." Fang Wuying's expression was harmless to humans and animals, "Besides, the degree of forgery is very high, unless laser identification is used." ”

"Didn't Xiao Wu participate in this operation?"

Fang Wuying shook his head: "Lei Jun thinks it's better to let him avoid this task, he gave Xiao Wu a few days off - probably worried about his mood swings." But I really didn't see any mood swings in him, other than that one outburst. ”

"What? Sounds like you've been getting pretty close to him lately? ”

Fang Wuying was stunned for a moment, and nodded slowly: "Later, I pulled him out to drink once. ”

"Yes."

"I'm a little worried about him, I'm afraid he'll think too much when he's alone at home...... But then I found out that I was overthinking. Fang Wuying scratched the back of his head, "He doesn't seem to worry much about what people think of him, I mean, even if the truth comes out." ”

"Really? What did he say? ”

"He said that the whole world knew that he was the king of the fallen country, and even the history textbooks of primary school students had his 'glorious page' - these were his exact words." Fang Wuying smiled, "So, he feels that no matter how vainly he tries to avoid it, it will be in vain." ”

Shu Xiang's expression is worth playing.

"When he said this, he smiled, and I was there at the time, and I was surprised."

"Well, why are you surprised?"

"Surprised that he let go of the past easily, and it was still such a humiliating past. Well, in fact, I also understand why he can be like this, that country was not the first in his heart that day, words were his first, and future generations will remember Li Yu not because of his country, but because of his words. So the real him, in fact, was not damaged in the slightest - later Xiao Wu went to work, and Xiao Yang went to him to ask for an autograph. ”

Shu Xiang laughed again: "Xiao Yang is his fan? ”

Fang Wuying nodded: "I said that I liked his word blabla since high school, and today I have to see how excited the real dragon is blabla...... Shit 'got to see the real dragon'! That kid has been in the control group for three years, and he is face to face with Xiao Wu every day! ”

"Signing is coming?"

"It's coming." Fang Wuying sneered, "But what I got back was the word 'Wu Haichao', and the people in the control group all joked about this, and said that if they wanted this signature, why did they make a special trip?" How much is on the contact duty book. ”

"Haha, isn't Xiao Yang depressed when he hears it?"

"Yes, he originally wanted to ask Xiao Wu to sign the original one, because he felt that this signature was worthless now. But Xiao Wu said, is the pen signature of the word 'Li Yu' of any great value? Isn't that even more ridiculous? ”

Shu Xiang couldn't help laughing: "That's right." Even if he goes to Xiao Wu with a brush and rice paper now and asks him to write another poppy song, I'm afraid it won't sell as much as Lin Xi's song. ”

Fang Wuying nodded: "I fully understand Xiao Wu's thoughts, he thinks that there is no Li Yu in the world anymore, you know, he is ...... That kind of meaning. ”

Shu Xiang nodded and said, "Understood." ”

"So, although Xiao Wu is uneasy about concealing his identity, I can see that he is not afraid that Lei Jun will change their attitude towards him." Fang Wuying said, "That drink, he said that he was a useless person in the first place, and he didn't plan to fight for something, and when he let go of all the ridicule, there was nothing to fear." ”

"Well, how do you feel when you hear him say that?"

Shu Xiang looked at Fang Wuying, and then she saw him slowly raise his head: "...... I'm not him, Shu Xiang, I'm not the same as him. ”

Shu Xiang looked at him silently.

"It's not that they all come from ancient times, and there is no difference between me and him." Fang Wuying said slowly, "We can't be compared. ”

"Because you are more ancient than him? You're ahead of Xiao Wu...... Oh, five hundred and seventy years. ”

"It's not the problem at all." Fang Wuying smiled bitterly, "I wish I had come over during the period of the Three Emperors and the Five Emperors." ”

"Then you will most likely be dressed in animal skins and leaves......"

"I'm not kidding."

Shu Xiang smiled, and she changed her sitting position: "Okay, turn around." I'm actually very curious about you approaching Xiao Wu. ”

"Close?"

"Before this, although you were colleagues, you weren't really good friends with him, were you? I think you seem to be closer to Lei Jun. If it weren't for that, would you go to him for a drink? ”

Fang Wuying thought for a while: "Generally speaking, no. Xiao Wu is actually very boring, and being a drinking friend is definitely not as fun as Lei Jun...... Haha, that guy Lei Jun drank a little too much and ran the train with his mouth full, which was very fun. ”

"Uh-huh, then why did you go to Xiao Wu for a drink?"

"Didn't you say that? I'm afraid he's thinking too much at home alone. ”

"Nothing else?"

Fang Wuying thought for a while, and said slowly: "If you want to say that there are superfluous thoughts...... It seems like there's a point. I wanted to distance myself and see what kind of person he really was. ”

"Distance?"

"Try to look at an exposed ancient man with the eyes of a modern person, rather than looking at an ordinary colleague."

"Why do you want to see him like that?"

“…… I want to see the other side of him. Fang Wuying said, "Probably out of such a mentality." ”

Shu Xiang thought for a while and said, "Can I think so: Are you using Xiao Wu to prepare for a warm-up?" Using him as a possible reference for the future? ”

Fang Wuying blinked and didn't speak.

"So did he have any impact on your original thoughts? Whether benign or malignant. ”

There was silence for a long time before Shu Xiang heard Fang Wuying's voice.

“…… My fear grew even heavier. ”

"What's going on?"

"It's like...... It's as if one less companion is missing. Fang Wuying suddenly said, "It's like hiding and hiding when you were a child, understand?" Originally, the two of them hid in the dark together, and of course no one knew who. But suddenly, one of them was discovered, pulled out, and dissolved into the sunlight. ”

Shu Xiang stared at Fang Wuying for a long time.

“…… Now, I'm the only one left in the dark. The rest of the children came together to find me, including the one who had just been pulled out, and I became the only remaining target, a target for everyone......"

"You mean, Lei Jun will see you as some kind of target?"

Fang Wuying was stunned for a moment and shook his head: "I know they have no malicious intent. But that was before they found out the truth. Shu Xiang, I really don't know what will happen in the future if one day, I am forced to be exposed like Xiao Wu - the world's eyes on Empress Li and Murong Chong are different. ”

"Maybe they are all objects of understanding, such as ...... in many novels"

"Humph! You're still going to mention those beautiful novels to me, right? In the eyes of those fandom girls, I have the same bad luck as him! ”

Seeing that Fang Wuying was about to get angry again, Shu Xiang raised his hand: "OK, don't talk about those side branches." Paul, you've always had a very strong thought in your mind: I'm not like them. Have you noticed this? ”

"Yes. So I always feel out of place, no matter where I go, no matter who I am with. ”

"But I think you are very loved by the team members in the control group, and they also work well with Lei Jun and Su Hong - who really hates you?"

"It's because they haven't found out the truth yet. Wait until they see the real me......"

"Isn't the real you now?" Shu Xiang stared at him, "Could it be that what they like is a fake person?" ”

Fang Wuying snorted: "Maybe." ”

"Pretentious guys." Shu Xiang laughed, "If you abandon the past, you don't exist?" ”

"Maybe that's the case." Fang Wuying curled his index finger against his chin, and he pondered, "I cling to the past so tightly that it makes me want to kill myself, but at the same time it makes me remember who I am. ”

"Paul, you are not your name, you are not your background, you are not your diploma, you are not your property, you are not your family...... None of those are who you really are, those can disappear without a trace, but you don't. There must be people in this world who don't care about those at all, and they also care about you. ”

“…… Are you talking about yourself? Doctor Shu Xiang? ”

Shu Xiang laughed: "I'm definitely not the only one." Paul, I noticed one thing. ”

"What?"

"Including the last two times, you seem to have changed the way you call him." Shu Xiang said, "I still remember five years ago, even ten years ago, when you were never polite about the way you referred to him—"

Fang Wuying laughed: "You still want to hear me call him an 'old thief'?" Fu Jian old thief, hehe. ”

"You're called 'him' now, aren't you? Or, 'That guy'. Shu Xiang smiled and said, "You see, the degree has been reduced a lot." ”

"Is this important?"

"Words reflect the heart." Shu Xiang approached him slightly, "Why did you change your name?" When you talked about him in front of me, you always cursed a lot, and you called him an 'old thief' at least a hundred times. ”

"Maybe that's because...... My love and hate are not as clear as they were at the beginning. Fang Wuying pondered and said slowly, "At the beginning, the hatred was all concentrated on him alone, and I blamed him for all the bad results, but after so long, especially the more than ten years spent here, I calmed down and looked back at the beginning, but found that there were many truths that were actually hidden under the hatred for him." ”

"Can you elaborate on that?" Shu Xiang tried her best to slow down and calm her voice, she knew that this was a very important and sensitive stage.

"Tell me about it? I was tempted to be specific, but I was confused. ”

Fang Wuying raised his face, his confused gaze through the glass window, casting it into the far-reaching sky.

Shu Xiang was silent, waiting for him to continue.

"Don't you think children are very arrogant creatures?" Fang Wuying suddenly said, "Attribute everything around you to yourself, even the sun rises in the east and sets in the west for yourself." ”

"Narcissism is human nature."

"But if you really give him the slightest sign that he can mistakenly think that he is in control, it will probably cause some kind of tragedy."

Shu Xiang looked at him: "Are you talking about yourself?" ”

There was a long silence.

“…… Later, he hardly went to his sister's place. ”

“……”

"He's always stayed with me, and he was willing to satisfy me with anything, as I said, Dreamland, and that's it."

Fang Wuying buried his face in his palm, his thumbs staggered and pressed his brows, and then raised his face again and smiled childishly.

"Shu Xiang, do you know? It's actually very easy to find out a person's preferences and temperament, as long as you are willing to completely empty yourself and let yourself die. So within a few months, I figured out what he liked and hated, what he liked to listen to, and who he hated. At that time, I was very handy at doing this. ”

"Maybe he's a kid and can't defend yourself."

"Perhaps. Of course, some people can't get used to this," Fang Wuying shrugged, "There are always people who are not confused by me. ”

"Wang Meng?"

Fang Wuying nodded: "Yes." Wang Meng always persuaded him to send me away quickly, for two reasons: the Murong family is not so easy to mess with, and they have to cut the grass and eradicate the roots; Besides, I'm not really what I seem...... Uh, pure and lovely. ”

There was a self-deprecating smile on his face, but Shu Xiang didn't smile: "You think so too?" ”

"I don't know. It's complicated. Fang Wuying let out a long sigh, "The evaluations from all sides are all different, or even the opposite: my parents once wanted me to be a pillar of the country, but my sister only regarded me as an ignorant younger brother who needed protection; Wang Meng said that I was a wicked man with evil intentions, but the other courtiers said that the son of the prince of Israel was insignificant; And the concubine in the forbidden palace regarded me like a thorn in her side and secretly scolded me......"

"You've been defined by a lot of people." Shu Xiang paused, "But you didn't mention how he defined you." ”

Fang Wuying was stunned for a long time before he said slowly: "...... He said that I was like jade, beautiful and clean. ”

"What do you think?"

"What do you think?"

Shu Xiang took a breath: "What do you think of what he said." ”

“…… Silly ×. ”

"Silly ×?"

Fang Wuying snorted: "The person who said this is a stupid ×, what is so beautiful and clean......"

"Do you think that people who like you and praise you for your beauty and cleanliness are stupid ×?" Shu Xiang thought for a while, "On the other hand, I hate you to the bone, and say that you are neither beautiful nor clean, isn't it ×stupid?" ”

Fang Wuying was silent.

"Well—what do you think of the definitions?"

A wry smile tugged at the corner of Fang Wuying's mouth: "I was dizzy." Later, I didn't even know what I was like. Let others draw it. ”

"I think ......" Shu Xiang thought for a moment, "you seem to be proud of these evaluations?" It's like: no one knows what to do with you - you're proud of that? ”

"At that time, I was very proud, a bit like a child playing magic tricks successfully. But I believe that the truth cannot be hidden from two people: Wang Meng and my sister. When I saw Wang Meng's eyes, I knew that I couldn't hide it from him, even my uncle couldn't play with him, including my cousin, who also died in his cunning. Fang Wuying smiled, "Wang Meng is the most vicious and intelligent man I have ever seen. ”

Knowing that what he said was the Golden Knife Scheme, Shu Xiang thought for a while: "Wang Meng insisted on sending you out of the Forbidden Palace, and then he succeeded, what about my sister?" ”

Fang Wuying didn't answer for a long time. He got up from his seat, walked to the window, and pulled back the window.

The wind in early spring was still very cool, and the soft pale curtains were blown by the evening breeze, fluttering powerlessly beside Fang Wuying.

"I haven't been to her in a long time." He whispered, "There are many reasons, I ...... Ashamed and proud, it's hard to explain that feeling, I think I saved my sister, at least because he cherished me, he wouldn't go to my sister's place, and my sister didn't have to cry so badly, right? But I have become one of those unspeakable 'things', and the courtiers who meet me happen to see me, and they all have disdainful expressions...... I know all what they are saying in their hearts: what I have done has humiliated not only myself but my entire family. ”

Shu Xiang stood up and walked behind him: "You understand now that these comments are incorrect. ”

However, Fang Wuying just looked into the distance, and he didn't say anything for a long time.

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