"Why are you tying her up?"

I hear your voice before I see you again.

I saw you slowly walking in through the door with Wu Shun's support. I have heard you question your servants.

"Let go of her." You said.

The servants hesitate to do your bidding.

You push Wu Shun away. You came over on your own. You kneel at the head of my bed. You reached out and lifted all my restraints.

I'm looking at you.

A servant woman of a higher rank came to dissuade you. She said, "No, young boy, this is too dangerous! ”

You say, "Isn't it dangerous to tie her up?" If a person wants to die, there are many ways. ”

You hit my mind all at once. I was about to do this without eating or drinking.

You say, "Are you helping her?" You're just forcing her to die harder, more painful. You say, "She didn't seek death on the spur of the moment, she wanted to die because she felt that there was no way to live." ”

You say, "Can you bind her like this for the rest of your life?" ”

Servants, bow your heads under your question.

Tears welled up in my eyes. So many people, only you understand me. Only you understand!

You look at me. You say, "Qin'er, I understand what you are thinking, and I know the torment in your heart. I don't say anything to persuade you not to die. You have the right to decide your own affairs. ”

You say, "If you have decided to die, I can help you die more easily and less painfully." I can keep them from stopping you. ”

When the servants heard this, they looked at each other.

The servant woman of the higher rank gave a color to the other servant woman at the door. The servant woman at the door quietly withdrew. She hurried downstairs and ran to report to her father.

You tried. You endure the pain in your chest and stand up. You take my father's sword from the wall. You bring it to me.

You say, "You just fell out of bed and you wanted to get it, didn't you?" You want to end your life with it, right? ”

You have taken my hand and put the sword in my hand. You say, "I got it for you." You cheer up and hold it in your hands well. He is your father. You hold it, you can feel your father. He is no longer in this world, but he is still in your body. His life is surging in your veins. Through your hand, he once again grasped the sword that he had held all his life. ”

You say, "At this moment, I know that your heart is full of grievances and sorrows, as well as boundless despair. But do you remember your father? Do you remember him now? Can you still remember him now? ”

You say, "Your father was a brave warrior." His bravery does not lie in not being afraid of death, but in being able to face defeat, persevere to the end, overcome all kinds of cowardice and fear in his heart, and deter the enemy with a fearless and stable heart. ”

You say, "This sword was never used to end oneself in the face of defeat." It is used to cut off cowardice and face problems. Will you use it like your father? Do you use it in a way that makes your father proud? ”

You say, "When your father died, he didn't know that he had a daughter who would come into the world." Now, are you going to go to him like this and tell him that you have escaped from life without doing anything for him? ”

You look at me. You say, "Do you remember your mother at this moment?" You can still remember how long and hard she endured to exchange her life for you to come into this world. She sacrificed herself just to keep your father's love for her in this world, and your father's life in this world. When she closes her eyes and takes her last breath, how does she hope for you? She must hope that through you, your father's bloodline will exist in this world for a long time, and not die with his body. It was with such hope that she left the world. Do you think you can go see her now? ”

You say, "Qin'er, everybody is going to die." We have the freedom to decide what we live for, why we die, how we live, and how we die. That's all I have to say. Now the sword is in your hand, and your life is in your hand. You can make your own decisions. ”

I'm looking at you. I look at you with tears in my eyes. I can't answer these questions of yours. I can't do anything.

We watched each other in silence.

In a place where life and death are separated, you once helped me. You are like a beam of light that once shone into my dark world. This is the second time since the cliff encounter. You've done something like that.

You have taught me one thing: our lives are more than our own. Our lives are also the cause of many people's happiness or misfortune. While we decide our own lives, we also determine the happiness or unhappiness of many people. We shouldn't just be in charge of ourselves.

No matter what kind of pain you encounter, what kind of blow you encounter, the most effective way to be able to bear the pain is to not only think about yourself.

You look at me with tears in your eyes. You continue: "When you're done making your decision, I'll be able to make my decision." ”

You say, "My decision is: I will be with you in whatever you do." On the night of the Dragon Boat Festival, I promised you that such a thing would never happen again in the future, but I didn't do it. I will take my own faults. ”

You say, "Before I went to Linshui, I didn't think things through, I neglected to take precautions against my eldest brother, and I didn't take any measures to protect you." I just threw you in the house where my father was not there and I was not there. Because I have not fulfilled my duty, caused your suffering, and affected your fate, I deserve to share the same pain and fate as you. ”

You say, "If you decide to end your life with this sword, I will end your life with the same sword when you die." If you want to starve yourself to death without eating or drinking, I will also accompany you to starve yourself without eating or drinking. You decide your own fate, and then, I decide mine. If you are determined to die, I swear that you will never live alone. ”

I look at you with tears in my eyes. I shook my head vigorously. No, no!

Then I heard my father's voice: "It's not you who should die!" It's me! Damn me! ”

Father stumbled over. All at once he fell to his knees in front of my bed. When he fell to his knees, tears welled up in his face. The father said: "Qin'er, it was my godson who harmed you all your life!" It's all my fault! Let me kill myself with your father's sword first! As he spoke, he took the sword in my hand. He was ashamed and said, "I just die, and I don't have the face to face the ghosts of your parents again!" ”

The surrounding family of servant women hugged their father. The room burst into a loud cry.

I felt a wave of dizziness, and the hand holding the sword fell limply.

The sword thuded and fell from my hand to the floor.

I fainted again.