(a)

Wang Shuo said that all novels, in fact, are true. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 info is just because it's afraid of scaring you, so it's called a novel.

The so-called novel is to say it carefully.

(b)

When the separation is just around the corner, time always flies very quickly.

In the last few weeks of our lives, I felt like each day was only a minute long.

Time passed like lightning in the darkness. No sooner had I seen you, and you had already disappeared from my vision.

I sometimes feel like you don't really exist in my life. You seem to be just a lingering vision of me looking at some mirror image.

This made me feel seriously "distorted" about real life again.

The long goodbye that lies ahead weighs heavily on my heart. It overwhelmed me and made me speechless.

The thought of so many blank years ahead of me without you makes me feel bored.

It's hard for me to imagine how I can grow into a woman like Liu Wenli in this gray and boring life.

From the moment you told me you were leaving, the world lost all its luster and became a blurry, old, moldy black and white film reel.

I was in a state of extreme depression. Backwater. Bottomless depression. There is not a little bit of vitality.

My hair keeps falling out at a faster rate than some time ago. Every morning when I wake up, I see a black patch on my pillow. Every time class is over, the ground under the desk is also dark. They have become so rare that it is difficult to hide the exposed scalp in the bangs. The braids that I used to tie can no longer be combed. I was forced to cut my hair short. Take a generous amount of hair growth capsules daily. At first, some of the elders were worried about whether I would become bald.

To make matters worse, at the same time, I had a large number of bruises of unknown origin on my body. Within a few days, it looked like he had a serious blood disease or severe radiation. It's like you've been beaten up by someone. This bruising made me afraid to shower in the public bathrooms at school and shooting range.

I went to the doctor and after the doctor did a blood test, everything was normal. They couldn't explain why, and they couldn't get rid of the bruises. They don't know that it's because their hearts have been broken.

Deep sorrow and despair, like a highly toxic toxin, seeped into every cell of the body, blackened every drop of blood in the veins, poisoned all the muscles and skin.

I was tormented by arsenic inside.

(c)

But you don't know that.

Every time I see you, I'm always dressed tightly, wearing a high-necked T-shirt or shirt with my sleeves tightly buttoned.

All you know is that I cut my hair short.

One day, when we were together, you asked me why I cut my hair short.

I said, "Because I want to have a fresh start." ”

When you hear, you will not speak. Then, you smiled.

It was already warm by then, but I didn't feel warm. On the contrary, I felt a chill from within, and in my inner world, the frosty winds from the cold of Siberia blew violently day and night.

During that time, my fingers were always cold. The whole hand was cold all the time. It's like a part of the body that has already died first.

In view of this, before leaving, you gave me and Liu Wenli a pair of wool gloves each.

You said that it was to thank you for the warm hands we have extended to you in these years, and also to warm my cold hands day and night.

The pair of gloves you gave me were bright red, and the pair you gave to Liu Wenli was navy blue.

(iv)

We were sitting side by side in the attic of your apartment.

You pick up a small fruit that has fallen from a tree and you throw it into the air. However, due to the weakening of its physical strength, it only flew a short distance before falling down.

I watched in silence as it fell heavily from the sky.

You say, "I'm glad you can think of a fresh start." ”

A cold wind blew. Some of the fallen leaves began to swirl and dance under our feet.

I looked at them and didn't speak.

We sat in silence for a while.

Then, you laugh a little. You say, "I'm leaving soon." I have a lot of things I want to say to you. But when I really want to say it, I don't know what to say. ”

You say, "Seeing time pass like this in silence, I feel really ...... in my heart" You think about it, but you still don't know what to say.

I'm looking at you. I said, "Because there is nothing that can be said more than silence." ”

When you hear that, you look at me.

When you look at me like that, my tears come back to my eyes.

You see my tears and you feel something churning in your heart. You feel unbearable.

So, you change the subject. You say, "This spring, you seem to be colder than last year." ”

I said, "Because this spring is already cold, the coldest spring I've ever had in my life." ”

I said, "Originally, among the four seasons, spring is the most prosperous and beautiful, but from now on, it will always be bleak for me." ”

You say, "So which season do you like right now?" ”

I said, "I used to love winter the most, but now, there's no season I like." ”

You listen, you bow your head.

You say, "There's a magic trick that might make you enjoy winter again." ”

You say, "Do you want me to show you?" ”

I said, "You're not going to do this kind of magic." ”

You say, "Close your eyes? ”

I closed my eyes, tears streaming down my eyelashes.

I hear you say, "Don't cry, heart." ”

You say, "If I feel you crying in a distant place, I feel sad in my heart." I wouldn't be able to eat, I wouldn't be able to sleep. I won't be able to stay there. I can't resist running back. ”

My tears fell line after row.

At this moment, I felt a hairy, very soft thing appear in my hand. I opened my eyes. Then, I saw a pair of red five-fingered gloves made of pure wool.

(5)

You say, "I don't know if you like this color or not?" Wenli picked it for me. It's a gift for you before you leave. ”

You say, "Wen Li said that this color goes well with your skin tone." And it's warm, like a fire beating in the palm of your hand. ”

You say, "I gave her a pair too, and it's navy blue." ”

I'm looking at you.

You say, "Put it on and look at me?" ”

I will do as you say. You watched me put them on. "Is it warm," you ask? ”

You say, "It's cold to always hold your hand." ”

I said, "It's warm." ”

I said, "It can change the temperature all winter." ”

You say, "Remember, when your heart is warm, I will feel warm." Even if I'm underground, or if I go to another world, that's going to be the case. So, you have to keep yourself warm. ”

I said, "Why do you want to buy navy blue for Sister Wenli?" It looked like a color that only an old lady would wear. ”

You say, "She chose it herself." It's better to say it's darker. No desires, no impulses. She said she was too old. She said that when I left, she would be old. Bright colors should be given to you, she said. You should have been enthusiastic for years, and she has never been there. ”

You say, "It makes me sad to hear her say that." But I can't think of any way to express my apologies. ”

You say, "Just as I was thinking about it, she suddenly punched me lightly. Look at me and giggle. She said, Big Dumb Bear, tease you. She said, "I work in a factory, and navy blue is a little more resistant to dirt. She said, don't overthink it. A woman's words are true or false, you must not believe too much. ”

You say this, look at me.

You say, "I'm sorry for a lot of people. ”

I look at the look on your face.

Then, I shook my head and said, "You didn't feel sorry for anyone. You didn't do anything wrong either. ”

I said, "It's because you're so good, so there will be a lot of people who miss you." ”

I said, "We're all going to miss you." It doesn't matter how long you've been gone. ”

I'm not wrong at all. Because many years later, when I stood in front of your tombstone, I saw flowers blooming in front of your tombstone. And that day, it was not the Qingming Festival.

This shows one thing: to this day, there are still many people who miss you.

I've never been the only one. I'm also glad that I've never been the only one.

It's true.

(f)

I have been wearing these gloves you gave me for many years. It was stolen along with my handbag during a business trip after I joined the job.

At that time, it had already been repaired three times due to damage, and the color was very old.

It took away many of my tears and many of my kisses, and a sweet dream of mine.

I don't know what happened to the person who stole the bag in the end. Perhaps, throw it somewhere.

I don't know what happened to it.

(g)

Even though I lost my gloves, I still enjoyed the winter.

And now, another winter is gone.

Once again, I'm in the middle of spring.