(a)

On the night that Mr. Yichen faxed the draft of the adaptation of "Little Spring" to Kaohsiung, Kaohsiung asked me to have dinner with me. Pen & Fun & Pavilion www.biquge.info

Dinner lasted a long time. When we walked out of the dining place together, it was almost 8 o'clock.

When we first met, Kaohsiung said bluntly, I have not been able to get out of this bad mentality, I have lived up to the expectations of you before my death, and I have not fulfilled my promise to you.

Because he spoke far more directly than Mr. Yichen, the atmosphere between us was a little confrontational and rigid for a while.

I sat there in silence.

Kaohsiung stood in front of the window with his back to me.

For a while, we didn't know what to say, as if everything wasn't appropriate.

I thought I was leaving.

I always had this thought of trying to escape, which made Kaohsiung feel very painful.

But he didn't know that I wasn't targeting him.

I didn't want to leave a guy named Kaohsiung.

I wanted to leave behind painful memories that I didn't want to face.

I couldn't accept Kaohsiung's feelings all my life. You can't blame him for not doing his best, or for being too critical.

It's all out of frustration.

I couldn't control myself, as soon as I saw him, I thought of you, of the rocks in the middle of the Blackwater River, of the bloody wall outside the shooting range. Then, I won't be happy, and I'll long to turn around and run away.

I fully understood Kaohsiung's intentions and was deeply grateful to him, but I couldn't live with him day and night.

I had to keep a considerable distance from him.

He had known that such a tragedy would happen, but he did not let go of me. He held me until he was completely exhausted.

(b)

When we care about a person sincerely, all the deadlocks can be broken.

Although it looks as solid as freezing on the surface, it is like a blister when it bursts, and it is gone when you poke it.

That night, when the waiter came in and asked what to order, Kaohsiung recovered from his nerves.

He returned to the table and looked at the recipe. He asked me what I wanted to eat. I said whatever you want.

He smiled and said, "Since you believe me so much, I'll arrange it for you." ”

I listened to him order.

When those dish names passed me, I felt that my attitude just now was really worthy of my concern for Kaohsiung and Mr. Yichen's concern all the time.

He came all the way from afar, and my attitude towards him was not even polite.

Kaohsiung ordered food while glancing at me from time to time.

From the look in my eyes of shame, he knew that reconciliation had taken place.

(c)

"Just eat a little bit." I said, "Why be so grand? ”

Kaohsiung said: "Since you have come to eat, let's eat it." Alas, my ability is limited, and I don't care if you are happy or not at other times. ”

Kaohsiung said: "At least, let you eat a little happier during this meal." ”

When the dishes were served one by one, Kaohsiung kept giving me the dishes. From time to time, he said to eat this, taste that. Then he began to judge the taste of each dish. He was laughing and trying to take me away from the conversation.

I understood every word he said. It's just a different way of saying, "I want you to have a happy life." ”

Kaohsiung said, "Maybe you want to laugh at me for being vulgar." But this is my solution to the problem. When I feel unhappy, I often let myself eat a good meal. As I ate, I told myself, "It's not a big deal, can't I still eat it?" "As long as you have a good appetite, you can do anything."

I watched him unleash his cheeks and eat and drink, and I listened as he gushed about food healing.

He felt what I saw, what I heard.

He said, "You don't agree with that?" Too rude and too solid, huh? ”

He said, "That's right. There is no culture at all. It works! ”

He said, "If you're interested, you might as well give it a try." ”

"I didn't say it would solve the problem," he said. But it helps you calm down and regain that ability to solve problems. ”

"It's like a painkiller," he said. Although it can't save lives, it can be spared from torture. ”

This last sentence was said casually by him. He regretted it when he said it.

I heard a snap between his teeth. He bit off the joint of a rib.

His gushing words were interrupted again. He reached for a napkin and wiped his lips. His eyes looked at the table.

I watched it all. There is a pot of boiling water boiling in my heart. But I don't want it to burn the guy on the other side again.

So, I picked up the cup, and I said softly, "Brother Kaohsiung." ”

Kaohsiung raised his eyes when he heard the sound, he looked at me for a while, and he picked up the cup. He said, "Okay." Cheers. ”

Our cups touched each other gently.

I said, "Thank you for caring for me all these years." ”

Something rushed straight up from Kaohsiung's heart. He was depressed.

He said, "I'm done." You take it easy. ”

Then he craned his neck and swallowed everything.

(iv)

Kaohsiung is paying the bills. After the waiter went out with the money and bill, Kaohsiung continued to pull some bills out of his wallet.

He pulled them out one by one. He laid them out on the table like a fan.

I watched him do it.

I said, "What are you doing?" ”

With a sense of wine, he lit the fan formed by the banknotes.

He said, "Know this?" ”

I said, "It's paper money." ”

He shook his head, and he said, "No." It's a friend. ”

"Sometimes, it's a friend who is more reliable than a friend," he said. ”

He said: "When all people are unreliable, sometimes, the only thing that can be relied on is this. ”

I looked at him. Don't speak. I've never been a money worshipper.

He said, "I know you can't endorse this. But it doesn't matter. ”

He said, "I'm just saying this to you. I planted it in your heart. It will grow and sprout on its own. If your environment supports its growth. ”

He said, "I have left this seed, not to lure you down my path, but to leave something that can help you more or less when I can't help you." ”

He said, "I know that there may not be any good trees. But sometimes, you don't need a good tree, as long as you have something, the crooked neck tree doesn't matter, it can make you grab the bottom without sinking, and it's fine. ”

He said, "With my strong arm, you obviously won't want to grab it anymore." So, when you don't catch it, if you want to, grab this thing on the table. ”

"It's better than when you hold the scissors to your chest in a story," he said. ”

He said: "The renminbi, the dollar, these are all powerful. They can carry you. ”

He said, "As long as you don't sink, you'll get up." ”

He said, "These are driftwood. ”