I stood in front of the gate of Taishi Mansion, took a deep breath, and raised my hand to knock on the tall black cypress gate in front of me.

After a while, the door opened. The man who opened the door was named San, who was the head of the Taishi Mansion and a frequent visitor to the Fusu Pavilion. I don't like this man, because the look in his eyes after drinking always reminds me of that disgusting Kui Chen.

"The family is well, is Taishi in the house today?" I stood outside the door and saluted.

"Oh, it's Shiniang's back!" Jia Zaisan looked at me with a smile, and pushed open the half of the wooden door on the left with both hands, "The head of the house is now talking with the two distinguished guests in the garden, you can come in first!" The head of the house was asking if you had come back two days ago! ”

"The history of Lao Tai is hanging." I lifted the hem of my skirt and stepped into the threshold half a foot in front of me. The upper of the embroidered shoe on the right foot is exposed. The black, yellow, and yellow muddy water was stained with madder silk, and a hole the size of a fingernail was broken in the tip of the embroidered hibiscus, and the silk thread was broken at the hole, and a gray-black dirty sock was revealed from the hole.

My face was hot, and I hurriedly pulled my foot back through the door.

"Oh, you haven't been back to the wine garden yet, have you?" Jia Zaisan swept around me with his dull and dull eyes, and said with a smile on the corner of his mouth, "You don't have to be in such a hurry, your Dan book, the head of the family has already ordered me to find out, and it must be given to you." Today, there are distinguished guests in the house, and the head of the house is chatting happily with Zhao Shizi, and I don't have time to see you for a while. Picking up the dust all the way, it is better to go back to the wine garden to freshen up and then come to see the ceremony. ”

"What do you say?! Who's coming to visit Taishi? The words of the house were like a thunderbolt that exploded in my ears, and my ears roared, and my heart was numb.

"Jin Guo Zhao, have you heard of it? Their newborn son brought his wife to visit the head of the house. The head of the family is really oops, you don't understand it when I told you. Shiniang, you better go back and freshen up, change your clothes and come again! If this kind of appearance is bumped into by nobles, it is impolite. After Jia Zaisan finished speaking, he moved in front of me.

He is in the Taishi Mansion, and he and his bride are now in the Taishi Mansion!

I clutched my sleeves and raised my eyes to look into the Taishi Mansion, but my two feet unconsciously stepped back.

The steps of Taishi Mansion are twice as high as those of ordinary people, and my right foot was not steady under my panic, and my left foot was already lifted in the air, and the two stepped on the air together, and the whole person fell down the steps with a rolling belt. The rubble broke through the palm of my hand, and the knee of my right foot hit the stone steps twice, and the pain was so severe that my eyes went black.

"Shi Niang, are you okay? Why are you so careless! "The house ran down the steps and helped me up with half a hug.

"It's okay, let the house see a smile." I gritted my teeth and stood up, and when the dizziness subsided, I struggled to dodge the hand that had been clasped on my right chest.

"Hey, don't be reckless, it's distressing to watch. Pick up the mother, leave a door for me at night, and I'll send you a plaster? "Jia Zaisan leaned over and patted me on the leg, and finally pinched me twice on the waist.

I knew what he was hinting at, and I knew that this was a problem that every orphan girl who had no relatives or a reason would encounter sooner or later. If I can still think about it at this moment, if I am not on the verge of collapse at this moment, then I think I can handle this issue properly. But now, my heart almost exploded, and there was only one voice in my head that kept echoing that Shirtless was coming, that he had taken another bride!

I'm going to get out of here, I can't let him see me as I am. I turned around to leave, but Jia Zaisan grabbed my arm reluctantly: "Shiniang, you nod!" My house is a wife's room, and if you obey me, you won't have to live alone in the wine garden in the future, and no one will take care of you if you are sick."

"You let go of me!" I turned around and pushed away the tugging and pulling of the house, and he staggered back two steps unprepared, and sat on the ground. At this time, the woodcutters who had been standing on the sidelines and watching the excitement all laughed.

Jia Zaisan's face instantly turned the color of pig liver, and he got up and scolded a few woodcutters: "Laugh at what laugh!" Mud, all of them are mud that can't support the wall! What kind of chaste and high-minded, tattered goods, I really take myself seriously! ”

Several woodcutters were frightened by his appearance, and ran away with firewood and smoke.

I turned around silently, the nails of my ten fingers digging deep into the wound in my palm. It hurts, but it doesn't hurt enough. Ah Shi, this is your own choice, since you decided to abandon him and give up the identity of the Son of God. Then, you must grit your teeth and bear all the pain after that!

It hurts to endure longing, it hurts to be humiliated, and it hurts to hear him marry another bride and succeed to the throne. I don't want to be knocked down by this pain, if I cry out in pain, if I cry, then I admit that I regret it. But I'm afraid of regret, because regret is the most poisonous medicine in the world, it is rooted in your heart, and whenever you want to make you hurt, you have to hurt.

On this day, I walked aimlessly on the busy and crowded streets for a whole day.

I wanted to buy a pot of wine to get myself drunk, but I was afraid that if I was drunk, I would cry and run into the Taishi Mansion to find him, and tell him that I was in pain, and that I had waited for you for two hundred and four days. I'm afraid that one day you'll forget me, and I'll forget you. I'm afraid that one day, I will no longer be Ah Shi, not Zi Di. I'm just a drunken lady in the Song Guofu Su Museum, who has grown old alone, but I have no memory.

I'm not a strong person, I know I'm weak, so I grit my teeth and learn to be strong.

When I dragged my heavy steps back to the Fusu Pavilion, the two-story Qingwa Zhu Building was already lit by candles, and the drinkers were like clouds. can be lively, and it will always be someone else's lively. It was still a lonely, sad night for me. I was tired, too tired to grieve and just wanted to close my eyes and get a good night's sleep.

I walked through the bamboo grove on the west side of the Fusu Pavilion and returned to the wine garden. And then I realized that sleeping was also a luxury for me.

The door of the wine garden was closed from the inside, and there was a faint fire in the crack of the door, and someone was waiting for me.

It's the bald-eyed family who is waiting for me here but him? I embarrassed him in public today, is he now in the house waiting for me to deliver it to the door? What is he going to do? Humiliate me, beat me and scold me, or simply tear your face and take me by force?

I stared at the closed bamboo door in front of me, and in my ears the singers in the Fusu Pavilion sang a sharp and thin high note that almost wanted to die, I turned around and took two steps back, lifted the hem of my skirt and kicked on the bamboo door.

"Why did this to me, why! Get out of here, I won't be able to humiliate you even if it's a pile of mud! What are you hiding in, get out of here! ”

I can't take it anymore, I'm going crazy. I endured it all day, and I thought I could endure it any longer, but in the end, I was crushed by a feather that fell on top of my head. The forbearance, grievances, and pain that had lasted for more than half a year suddenly erupted at this moment like a flame breaking through the rock formations underground.

I kicked and yelled at the bamboo gate, tears pouring down like water from a broken embankment. How many years have passed, since I promised Wu Feng to throw away my evil bones, I have never been as crazy as I am at this moment. Now, I have nothing left. There is no Auntie, no Si'er, no innocence, no Wu Feng, and no shirtless, in the end I returned to the original starting point.

But where am I going to find my plucked spike now?

Before I could be drowned in tears of fear, the door creaked open. Behind the door, there was a stunned Chen Yi.

"It's you" I looked at Chen Yi's face and withdrew my fist stiffly, I knew that I must be no different from a crazy woman now. After traveling all the way from Qi to Song for more than a month, the skin on his cheeks had already cracked and swollen under the destruction of the cold wind. Now, those cracks are filled with tears, burning my whole face with burning pain.

"What's wrong with you? Where have you been? Chen Yi anxiously stepped out of the bamboo door.

"I went to Ailing." I lowered my head and wiped a handful of tears from the back of my hand, avoiding his inquiring gaze and stepping into the wine garden, "Why are you here?" Didn't you go to the Jin Kingdom? Why did you come back so soon? ”

"I came back half a month ago." Chen Yi closed the bamboo door and walked in front of me in two steps to block my way, "Someone bullied you?" ”

I let out a long sigh and stopped: "Master Chen, I don't have the strength to speak now, let me go to sleep, I'm so tired." ”

Chen Wei didn't move when he heard this, he looked down at me, like a mountain that would never move in front of me.

I looked up at him helplessly, I knew that what I had just done was abnormal and horrible, but I really didn't have the strength to explain anything to him now.

In the dark, we just stared at each other without saying a word. His eyes were like torches, and I was dead. After a while, he finally moved away and picked up a barrel that lay beside the steps.

"What are you going to do?" I asked feebly.

"Go get you a bucket of water, you look terrible." His gaze fell on my cracked cheeks, I sneered and threw the burden on my back on the mat at the door of the room, took off my shoes and stepped up the steps: "Master Chen, you don't have to treat me so well, I am no longer important to the Zhao family, and I will never be used by the Chen family." If Chen Pan sent you to the Song Kingdom to find me, then you can leave. ”

"When a friend needs help, I don't walk away like that." The loud words came out of his mouth, and the weight became heavier and heavier.

I turned my head slowly, and the moon rose above the east mountain, and the sincere expression on Chen Wei's face with the faint blue moonlight clearly fell into my eyes. I looked at him for a moment, then turned my head and coldly rejected his kindness: "You are wrong, I am not your friend, and I don't need your help!" ”

I thought that he would leave in silence, but I forgot that he was a man called a "righteous gentleman" by the world, and he ignored my cold boyish refusal.

"A smile on the top of the market is a friend, a toast in the wine shop is a friend, you saved my life, you kept the agreement to send away 100,000 brothers of Ailing for me, even if you don't want to be friends with me, I still recognize you as a friend. Your leg hurts, and if you don't want to admit my affection, you can treat me as a troubled idler! ”

He turned around to leave, and I unconsciously called out to him: "Why did you leave the Qi Kingdom?" ”