I continued to look at the Holy Book, and the more I looked at it, the more terrified I became.

I felt stripped naked, I felt plucked skin, I felt eaten meat, I felt my bones sucked, I felt my soul being seen through. I'm almost never sure I'm who I am.

The world, including me, has been seen through by the Holy Book.

I used to have a terrible thought: I'm not me.

For example, when I taught myself physics, I felt that everything in the world was under my control. As small as a speck of dust or as large as the universe, none of them can escape my eyes. When I was proud, it suddenly occurred to me that the world is in my control, then the world is also in the hands of others, and then I am also in the hands of others. If a man is smart enough, his information is complete enough, and his time is long enough, he can predict my fate. That is, no matter what I do, it's all fate. So am I still me? Can I control me? Am I just a passive dust? Does it still make sense for me?

I tried not to think about this terrible thought, but this holy book brought it back to me, and it grew stronger and stronger.

The Holy Book says that everything is predestined, and that people and things in this world will appear repeatedly.

You think they're new, just as everyone thinks they're new – but that means they're not new.

All the memories of the past poured into my heart.

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I've been running away from fate, but fate has been tearing at me.

When I was a child, my dad bought a chick. He excitedly showed me and said, "Big, look, Daddy bought you a chick." I said, "It's ugly!" Look at it! "Dad got angry and threw the chick to death. I thought to myself, "Daddy is so angry, I swear I'll never be like my daddy." ”

I was growing up, and at one point I racked my brains to write a novel. I said to the dog, "Look, I wrote a novel!" After reading it, the dog leftover said, "It's written like shit!" "I was furious, tore the novel to shreds, and went up to fight with the dog. After the fight, I remembered in despair the oath I had made, and I was still angry and angry like my father.

Once, my father and mother complained to each other that the food was unpalatable and smelled bad - this is easy to find the reason, my family is a household. They complained to each other, then they hurled insults at each other, and then they cried to each other. I was only four or five years old, and I touched their trouser legs and cried. I swear that I will never complain to each other when I get married in the future, and we will respect each other as guests and raise our eyebrows.

Once Zhao Xingyue had a birthday, he was about eleven or twelve years old. I cook for her, and she helps me. She accidentally knocked something over, and I got angry and scolded her for being a waste. Tears welled up in her eyes, and her thin body trembled. She said: "Brother Da Niu, I was wrong, don't talk about me, okay!" ”

At that time, I suddenly remembered the quarrel between my father and my mother. Once again, I failed. I'm not me, I can't control myself. I can't give her a life of respecting each other and raising her eyebrows. Whenever Zhao Xingyue jokingly said that she was going to have many children, my heart was scared. I'm not me, I can't control myself. I'm a jerk, like everybody in this world, like my dad; My son is definitely a jerk too, and his son must continue to be a jerk too, like ...... I'll end it here!

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When I read the holy book, all these memories came out.

The Holy Book says that the world begins with abundance and ends with barrenness, and everything is a cycle, an endless cycle, like the entropy of the universe. All the things that we thought were new, the people of the Holy Land did not care about it, because they had seen it all. Historical events happen over and over again, but the Holy Land obscures them all, like a mother bird's eggs on her nestlings in her nest, or a mother bird pushing her eggs off a cliff.

For example, it tells how the Cult of God became the next Cult:

God has foreseen that when the end times come, the evil gods will come to the world, it claims to be God, engages in all kinds of grand forms, engages in all kinds of false idols, it claims to be the son, brother, prophet, and messenger of God, claiming that God has big and small, order, true and false, male and female, it will pull people from heaven to hell, it is extremely cunning, and even alarmistly declares, saying that God has foreseen that when the end of the world comes, the evil god will come to the world, it claims to be God, engages in all kinds of grand forms, engages in all kinds of false idols, it claims to be the son of God, Brothers, prophets, messengers, claiming that God has big and small, order, true and false, male and female, it will pull people from heaven to hell, it is extremely cunning, and it will even make alarmist claims, saying that God has foreseen that when the end times come, evil gods will come to the world, it claims to be God, it engages in all kinds of grand forms, and engages in all kinds of false idols, it claims to be the son of God, brothers, prophets, messengers, claims that God has big and small, order, true and false, male and female, it will pull people from heaven to hell, it is extremely cunning, and it will even make alarmist claims, It claims to be the son, brother, prophet, and messenger of God, claiming that God has big and small, true and false, male and female, and it will pull people from heaven to hell, and it is extremely cunning, and it will even claim that God has foreseen that when the end of the world comes, the evil god will come to the world, and it will call itself a god, engage in all kinds of grand forms, engage in all kinds of false idols, and claim to be the son of GodBrothers, prophets, messengers, claiming that God has great and small, precedent, true and false, male and female, that it will pull people from heaven to hell, and it is extremely cunning, and it will even make alarmist claims that God has foreseen it......

The Holy Religion became the Divine Religion, the Divine Religion became the New Divine Religion, Buddhism became the Neo-Buddhism, Taoism became the Neo-Taoism, and even Confucianism became the Neo-Confucianism, and all morality and order were collapsing day by day.

When everything that is certain is destroyed, everything becomes something uncertain, and after that, the Death Servant appears as the last scavenger, the terminator of all things, like vultures hovering over the world of starvation.

The original text of the Holy Book reads:

"First of all, people are ignorant and religious.

Then people are ignorant and think they are omniscient.

Again, people are conceited and arrogant.

Then, people know that they are ignorant.

After that, people knew everything.

Finally, self-extermination. ”

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The advice given in the Holy Book is: since you don't want results, don't start.

It is said that where there is a beginning there must be an end, and where there is a cause there must be an effect—the same can be said for this saying, there must be no end without a beginning, and there must be no result without a cause.

They decided to block all knowledge and slow down the process as much as possible.

They execute anyone with rebellious thoughts.

They destroy all present and future challengers.

They canceled the school. The current school is actually a kind of "anti-school".

They canceled the denomination. The essence of the current sect is a "pseudo-sect".

They canceled the dynasty. The current dynasty is just a puppet.

They even exterminated humanity. The current human beings are said to be just "new humans".

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Holding the Holy Book in my hand, my hands trembled incessantly.

When I didn't like the Ming court, I gave my hope to the inner court, and then the senate, Sichuan, and the Holy Land, and now I understand that the further back it goes, the less it is a thing!

The more advanced the person, the more he lives in his own imagination, like a god looking at mortals in the air.

Is there any way to change that? Can man overthrow God's rule?

I doubt that possibility.

For example, there are two children in a village, one child is very smart but has a very low status, and the other child is stupid but has a high status. In the Ming Dynasty, status is unchangeable, and you can't expect a person to change his status by virtue of his own skills.

If you say it's man-made? Great, I'll move on to an example. There are two children in a village, one child is stupid and has a very low status, and the other child is very smart and has a high status.

Which of these two scenarios do you say is true? If you say that the first scenario is true, then I can only think of you to congratulate, to congratulate you on your justice, and then to regret you, to regret your intelligence. After many generations, there are only two kinds of people in the world, one is noble and smart and beautiful, and the other is lowly and stupid and ugly. You can say "there are exceptions" and remember the word "exceptions" when you say them: an exception is an exception, and an exception can be disregarded.

Truth is justice, and justice is truth.

The truth is suffocating, but the truth is the truth.

It is impossible for man to overthrow God's rule.

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Every time I have a fever, I have a dream about walking. Walk, walk, walked to a trap, and fell. I guess, I have to remember. Then I continued to walk and fell into it repeatedly. Every time I think, I must remember! But I can't remember it at all!

Every time I woke up, I was sweating profusely. Every time, I am afraid: fortunately, it is a dream.

But now, it's like a dream.

Every dynasty falls into such a cycle, and even humanity falls into such a cycle.

The solution to this cycle is to remember history.

However, the Holy Land is to make us forget history, and the King James Law is to make us forget history.

So our history loops and stands at a rate of infinite stagnation!

Everything is the fault of the Ming court, the fault of the inner court, the fault of the senate, and the fault of the Holy Land!

But I think there is a premise for this, which is that we can avoid the final nothingness and death.

And can we avoid it?

Apparently not. Even God-like holy places feel like we can't avoid them.

So, is the Holy Land good or bad for us?

And how do we respond?

The thought of this made my head buzz and almost explode.

Stop! Stop! Stop! The people in the Holy Land are gone, what are you still thinking about here!

Let the nightmare end!