Finally, in the middle of the night when there were few people, we returned to Anqing. After a short absence, everything here is still like before, like a sleeping baby, lying in the arms of heaven and earth, leisurely absorbing the essence of the sun and the moon...

And I, perhaps including children, seem to have gone through centuries, and again, for the first time with children, I have experienced the vicissitudes of the world...

When he returned home, the child still ate as usual, and his grandmother had already prepared a meal, and then after washing, he went directly to bed with his mother.

And I may also be hungry for too long, and it is not convenient to eat on the road, it seems that like a child, I am also in the tasteless food, but I don't feel hungry...

When I had already put down the dishes and chopsticks, I thought to myself, the next thing to do is how to report the situation to my family, and I hope to get the greatest support from them. Because, I know, for an ordinary and child-caring family, whether it is children or money, it will be even more important!

Therefore, I have to explain the benefits and disadvantages to them, and base their support for me in the process of recovering my child in the future on the basis of their own choice, because only in this way can it be more effective to avoid more obstacles and contradictions.

In fact, it is very simple, I only told them: "In all the cases you understand, there are only two choices, the first is to choose the institution for rehabilitation, and the result may be that after spending tens or even hundreds of thousands of yuan, the child may not only not be well, but there is even a great possibility that it will become more serious." The second is to stay at home and recover on my own, although I have no experience and it is difficult to absolutely guarantee the final result, but I have absolute confidence that at least the child will not get worse. But the premise is that if you choose the latter, then you must accept my method 100% unconditionally and help me to do it together..."

When I finished speaking in one breath, I told them in a potentially coercive way: "You think about it, there are two choices, either I listen to you and I will do what you say, or you listen to me and I will do what I say!" ”

Sure enough, the child's mother and grandmother, in cherishing money, and confidence and hope in me, did not hesitate to choose to give up the institution and let the child stay at home for me to recover!

In fact, such a result has long been expected by me. The main reason why I talk nonsense is that I hope that they will fully cooperate with me in rehabilitating the child in the future without complaints.

Because, in this way, it is to show that they are allowed to make their own choices, which is actually equivalent to making them completely lose the opportunity to make mistakes, and the chance to survive after making mistakes, as well as the right to bargain with me. Because, only in this way, even in any case, as long as it is within the scope of the child's recovery, it is difficult for any of them to refute and violate my words and deeds...

Because, although there are certain individual differences in children, they are only sensitive, not mutating. In a good environment, it is difficult to induce autism as long as you pay a little attention to avoid stimuli.

As a result, they also have a more difficult responsibility to shirk. So, in order to avoid making the same mistakes as them, I try to be as thorough as possible to minimize the possibility of them continuing to cause problems.

Because, only in this way, if they continue to indulge in habitual mistakes and ignorance, and even selfish emotions, I can make up my mind to put their feelings to death and resurrection, and even at the critical moment, I will leave home completely without hesitation...

Because, for the sake of their children's recovery, it is their own choice...

Because, this is their active commitment...

Because, this is their chance to make up for their mistakes...

Because the child's recovery is a protracted war without gunpowder...

Therefore, it is difficult for anyone to guarantee that a family that is not peaceful in the first place is completely likely to fluctuate the whole situation again because of the problem of the child, and even induce other accidents!

Because, with such a child, even if it was originally a perfect family, it is easy to lead to conflicts and disputes. In particular, the intervention of both parents, coupled with the negative problems of the original family, eventually leads to an unbearable situation, which is not uncommon.

Noisy, disagreeing, difficult to communicate, and even repelling and retaliating against each other, slandering, shirking responsibility, lack of mutual understanding and support. Even divorce, suicide, and in the end, the child's problem has not had time to be solved, but because of the fragility and ignorance of the family, more problematic family and marriage problems are carried out first, which hinders normal life and recovery, resulting in more serious problems for the child!

Therefore, children's problems can easily affect the normal life of the whole family. Even because of this, it is common for many families to eventually disintegrate and fall apart.

Therefore, the reason for everything I said is very simple, and the purpose is very clear, that is, for the future of the child, for the stability of the whole family to the greatest extent, all negative accidents will be strangled as early as possible under the cradle, and go all out to prevent it from happening...

It's late at night...

Looking at them who were already asleep, I soon thought that I had not slept until dawn again. Think about the good side of the child overnight, but at the same time there are too many problems, as well as more than three years of sluggishness, regression and now diagnosed autism...

Although, whether it is now or in the past, it seems that the family always regards him as the supremacy of Tai Sui, but he always makes people feel like a dragon egg that is difficult to hatch for thousands of years, making people want to hatch in anticipation and can't stop...

At this time, I was still tired, lying on the sofa, perhaps because I was too tired, lying there in a daze, I always felt that the main reason for the child's autism was the child's individual physiological factors, and the psychological problems caused by the separation from the parents in the acquired environment, and the psychosomatic integration disorder caused by the induction and aggravation of the grandmother's paranoid personality. The development of this disorder has worsened the child's physiological, psychological, nervous system, and chain effects on the entire mental system and physiological level to varying degrees.

Secondly, if we look at the child's ability to call out to his mother when he is a week, and the closed personality of the child's mother, then the acquired environment may have more to do with it. Because in fact, if you look at it from a psychological point of view, even if it is a normal child, as long as the environmental depression exceeds the tolerance of the individual, it will also lead to the child in the escape of pain, inducing acquired autism.

It's just that this type of autism, although autism induced by behavioral and individual differences also has many similar symptoms, but this kind of autism is completely induced by the acquired environment, and it is easier to recover. Because it's just a matter of psychology. Unlike other types of autism, there are very different sensory problems!

Therefore, many autistic children with five senses and tactile problems, if only from the intellectual aspect, it is difficult for people to perceive anything, and even some excellent places can surpass ordinary children. However, if we look at his actual ability and performance, there are undoubtedly many obvious deficiencies and phenomena that are difficult to explain. In particular, it is difficult to understand and accept the aspects of vision, social interaction, instruction, interests, and other desires, and the corresponding manifestations of their play.

Originally, these were all natural developments for normal children, and even some high-IQ animals did not need to be deliberately learned, and they could naturally acquire abilities and consciousness. But why is it that such children, in the difference in their facial senses, have the same simple skills, even some animals can easily learn things, and they often have to learn thousands of times, and it is difficult to get the desired results?

Why is such a child always permeated with difference? Did they descend as angels, or were they relegated to the cold palace by the heavenly court? Or is it an extraterrestrial show, and left behind in the world?

Although it seems that they also have the potential or ability of normal children, why are they always like a pile of charcoal fire in the storm, and always in the flammable and flammable, strong and difficult to flicker with a faint light? It's always right and wrong, knowing but not wanting to be able to do it? Sometimes, like a saint, he looks at nothing, has no desires, and has no desires!

However, when I think of this, I suddenly seem to understand something...

Maybe "desire"! The child is visibly uninterested in many things. And isn't the core of interest desire? But how are desires formed? It should be a mental consciousness formed by auditory, visual, tasteful, olfactory, and tactile experiences...

And isn't this consciousness of mental experience just like what Buddhism calls "the root of the mind or the root of the mind"? If the five senses are tactile and the "meaning or the root of the mind" is added, isn't it the five aggregates and six roots that Buddhism says?

Could it be that the child has a problem because of this "Yigen"?

And the formation of consciousness is based on the touch of the five senses, isn't that the same as the touch of the five senses, which leads to the root of conscious experience?

Desire, on the other hand, is based on the roots of the senses. Doesn't that mean that desire is the product of the root of consciousness or manifest consciousness?

Although the three different terms "meaning, meaning root, and conscious experience" are actually essentially the same meaning. Simple, shallow, it is feeling. If we add the five senses to touch, then almost all the problems of autism should be summed up in the psychological and behavioral problems caused by what Buddhism calls the five aggregates and six roots...

Because, in all his manifestations, the child always feels that he is always like a drunkard in terms of desires, or the roots of the mind, or the feelings, or the conscious experience, waking up and sleeping from time to time. In terms of stereotyped, narrow and other negative interest behaviors, it is always like not getting drunk, and the more you drink, the more addictive you become! And in other positive aspects of interest and behavior, it seems that the more you sleep, the deeper you sleep, how can it be difficult to wake up...

Maybe it's all such a coincidence, since it's a problem caused by desire, and the fulcrum of desire is to establish the five senses and touch, but even if it can come and go without a shadow like the wind, there should always be a law...

Just when I thought of "law", I seemed to suddenly understand that when I reached this level, it should belong to the three major consciousness problems formed by the environment and physiological perception system. It is what Buddhism calls the five aggregates and six roots, the ears, nose, eyes, tongue, body, mind and environment. and produce the corresponding phone, taste, smell, and touch method. The "root or manifest consciousness" formed by experience not only forms the subconscious, but also acts on the formation and interaction of the thinking consciousness and the subconscious. And the mental consciousness is like the divine consciousness that Buddhism says, and the subconscious mind is like the alayya consciousness or the eighth consciousness that Buddhism says! If we add the five senses to touch because of this, isn't this exactly in line with the Buddhist system of eight senses?

And these eight consciousness systems are actually the birthplace of emotions, desires, thoughts, behaviors, and even fate. The practice of Buddhism is to start with the external five senses and touch the precepts, and then reach the initial state of cultivating emptiness or restoring the inner root of mind, that is, through the first seven consciousnesses, cultivate all the information in the eighth subconscious, so that the five aggregates and six roots no longer react with the environment. And let the consciousness of the mind return to the original ontology.

The subconscious formed by these seven consciousnesses, which manifests itself at the level of manifest consciousness, is called delusion by Buddhism. And the return to the essence of delusion is the so-called return to the Buddha-nature truthfulness or the way back to nature as Lao Tzu said...

So many of the behaviors of autistic children, if you look at the performance alone, it seems that there are many similar phenomena to practitioners. So, if we look at the concept of practice in terms of rehabilitation, isn't that exactly the opposite practice of Buddhism? Or to correct the wrong perception of life? Where does human cognitive ability come from? Isn't it also based on the tactile function of the five senses?

The difference is that the purpose of Buddhists is to cultivate the delusions of consciousness and achieve the goal of rebirth. However, autistic children have to cultivate more corresponding conscious experiences or delusions, so that they can develop corresponding behaviors driven by desire, and achieve the needs of real survival, which is also to achieve the goal of joining the WTO...

If this is the case, shouldn't the Buddhist practice concept be used in reverse to heal the child's problem as well?

Maybe even if there are genes or some neurological or other organic problems, I think that as long as there is a certain extent, if we look at the results of modern scientific medical tests on Buddhist practitioners, doesn't that also mean that mental consciousness can completely change some primitive states of physiology? This change in the original state, if from the perspective of the physiological function of autistic children, is not it the fulcrum of the repair and re-establishment of physiological functions?

Isn't the result of scientific testing of a practitioner's brain that is different from that of ordinary people, and the fact that it is difficult for science to determine the essential factors of relics, to show that there is a relationship between the mind and body influencing and shaping each other at the same time? Isn't the power of the mind also able to change and shape the physiological state?

This phenomenon of the simultaneous existence and mutual existence of idealism and materialism is not only in line with the Buddhist monistic view of ignorance, but also the theory of the cause and dispersion of the four elements, wind, clouds, thunder and lightning. At the same time, isn't it also in line with the Chinese Lao Tzu's Tao as one, Tai Chi Yin and Yang are born and the four images become all things? And the space-time of mind that exists with the theory of relativity discovered by Einstein on the basis of the oneness of essence?

Is this a coincidence, a conjecture, or a similar truth explored by the three wise men?

Whatever it is, it shows that there is nothing absolutely independent of the universe inside and outside the universe. Therefore, when the problem is difficult to solve by independent decomposition, then we can try to go back and use the mutual existence of things to explore effective solutions in the effect of eliminating the advantages of the other. What if this model could be used in the solution to autism and other psychosomatic problems? I think it should work...

Maybe I guessed right again this time, because children seem to have some of the same internal psychological problems in many different external behaviors. That is, perhaps because of the lack of conscious benign experience, and at the same time there is a certain degree of negative conscious experience, which leads to the narrowness of the radiation of weak interest, resulting in narrowness of interest. Therefore, the conscious experience is limited or the experience difference is caused by mutation, just like a car that does not fight, always feel that because of the lack of driving force, many functions are difficult to play normally...

If the basis of behavior is interest, the basis of interest is desire, the basis of desire is experience, and the basis of experience is based on the mutual result of physiological perception and environment. Then it can be shown that the same environmental stimulus, but due to the differences in each person's physiological perception, will lead to different results, and will naturally form different subconscious and mental cognition and behaviors in the formation of different conscious experiences.

Just like normal people react differently to many things such as cigarettes, alcohol, tea, etc., some people like it because of their physiological perception and respond well, while others hate it on the contrary. Although some of them hate it, in the gradual contact and subtle contact, because of the changes in physiological perception, a good conscious experience is formed, and finally from hating and avoiding to liking. However, some people are difficult to be assimilated imperceptibly because of the large difference in the physiological perception of tobacco, alcohol and tea!

If the reaction of normal people to tobacco, alcohol and tea is expanded, isn't it just like the cognition and behavior of autistic children in the environment due to physiological perception differences, which lead to conscious experience?

On the other hand, hating tobacco, alcohol and tea means being sick, so can modern medicine detect the cause of a dislike of tobacco, alcohol and tea? If you can't figure out the disease, how can you talk about the right treatment? So if the so-called rehabilitation method is used to train those who overreact to tobacco, alcohol and tea to adapt to it, what will be the result? I think either the physical problem will be the first, or the mental problem will be the first. What's worse is that no matter who takes it first, the final result will definitely be that the body and mind will induce each other, and there will be problems at the same time!

Isn't this kind of smoking, alcohol and tea, a natural phenomenon formed by individual differences, just like the development process of autistic children? When the child has abnormal sense of touch because of his facial features, he is just in the inadvertent environment of smoking, alcohol and tea, blindly and unconsciously, to influence or ask for the so-called rehabilitation, hoping that he will adapt to smoking, alcohol and tea. Because from the perspective of children's individual differences, such an environment is precisely the main factor that induces autism...

It's like forcing a person who can't drink and smoke, asking him to smoke and drink, and the final result is to go to the hospital to check out a bunch of diseases, and the doctor says that this is a disease caused by smoking and drinking, often he will be self-righteous and say, then so-and-so smokes and drinks more so why is he still so healthy?

Isn't this the same phenomenon that many people think? If other people's children don't take them like this every day, how can they be okay? Born it!

Therefore, it can be seen that autistic children mainly lack a matching growth environment in the difference in the five senses and touch, which leads to the problem of conscious experience, resulting in the formation of desire and negative experience, and the formation of avoidance and weak interest, which leads to narrow and closed interests, and then leads to a series of problems on this basis...

So, fundamentally, desire is the driving force of all life. All human civilizations have developed to this day, and they are also driven by desire in nature. Desire and fear are essentially one, just as the front and back sides of a mirror have the same driving force. Autistic children's escape from the real world is a negative driving behavioral response formed by fear!

Compared with ordinary children, the biggest difference between autistic children and ordinary children in the initial state is mainly the difference in the five senses and tactile senses, which leads to the difficulty of balanced and synchronous development of the inner psychology, which leads to various external behaviors and internal intellectual problems, and gradually deteriorates in the cycle of body and mind!

Therefore, the aircraft carrier of the autistic child, more than the aircraft carrier of ordinary children, needs the protection and propulsion of nuclear power. Because of the differences in this aircraft carrier, it is different, and ordinary power can easily make it disintegrate in the sea of stormy waves. And only nuclear power can make it easier for them to ride the wind and waves, not only to avoid the attack of the wind and waves, but also to make it easier for them to use the power of the wind and waves to overcome natural dangers and rise in the future ocean...

Otherwise, no matter how well-equipped this aircraft carrier is, it will not only be difficult to give full play to its due advantages, but it will easily be burdened by these excellent equipment, and it will be forced to stop in the harbor and stagnate its progress. It will even be easy to be corroded by the seawater, and one day, it will be easily completely crushed by the merciless waves...

I think so, I think my crazy reasoning should be right, because, in the process of millions of years of superbrains that have been upgraded and evolved by humans, I really can't find any explanation or answer that satisfies me...

Therefore, I think the most important thing I should do now is to obtain verification and practical results through this theory-oriented, in rehabilitation and practice, so that children can get rehabilitation and verify my so-called truth again!

Thinking about this, it seems that I have finally found a new direction in the mainstream rehabilitation technology that I have already understood. Therefore, my main task now is to use heaven and earth as a laboratory and all things as the R&D team, and lead them to give the child's spiritual world no matter what, and develop and create a set of nuclear power drive systems that completely match him!

More importantly, first of all, we must find the abnormal points of his external five senses and tactile senses, and give them timely corresponding protection and stimulation, as well as the negative consciousness formed by the internal psychological and physiological abnormalities. And at the same time of timely removal and restoration, the mutual evolution effect of the body and mind is used to rebuild the driving system of the three inner consciousnesses...

Because, at this time, the child did not detect and effectively adjust in time due to the negative impact of the separation from his parents and his grandmother's paranoid personality, resulting in his growth environment in the opposite degree of matching, which has caused regression and caused both psychological and physical problems.

Therefore, when I searched for the reason, I remembered that the child seemed to be able to understand and cooperate with the family's request through conscious and perceptual functions about six months after birth. Because, since the birth of the child, we have found that he is very sensible and well-behaved in other aspects, except that he is particularly sensitive to his voice. Especially when urinating and defecating, taking things, and the performance of safety awareness is even more surprising and unexpected.

A week later, during the Spring Festival, I was pleasantly surprised to find that as long as he couldn't drop things, such as mobile phones, dishes and chopsticks and other things, even if no one asked him, he would be careful and never throw them away. However, when he is happy to throw things that are not broken, he will be like a madman, and it is useless to stop them...

From the beginning of being able to take something, he never put anything in his mouth, and even if he eats, he has to watch others eat it before he is willing to open his mouth...

Even when he was just able to walk, he was very careful and almost never fell. As long as it is a dangerous thing, such as water, fire, electricity, as long as you tell him that the danger cannot be played, you will never touch it again...

There are many other aspects of performance, and now that I think about it, even better than many children of the same age. But I never expected that since my weaned grandmother brought her back to the countryside alone, for more than two years, in addition to the continuous normal development of height and weight, not only did not progress in other places, but also regressed in language, and even almost completely lost her language function in the end.

It wasn't until later, as time went on, that I started to worry more and more, and when I browsed online about autism, I felt that there was more of a problem. For example, the visual function is poor, so bad that there is almost no visual contact. Shouting that he did not respond, that there was a serious lack of instructions, and that there was no attachment to each other for his loved ones. Sometimes it's almost indistinguishable from a deaf person from a machine. Narrow interests, stereotypical behavior, partial eating, extremely sensitive to negative and high-frequency sounds, milk-hungry, do not play with children, addicted to mobile phone TV, to Anqing to see children either ignore or retreat, to play on the street is like an adult with a heart, aimless repetition on the original route forward. Like to turn into an animal, when encountering a high-frequency speaker in an unfamiliar environment, it will reject and escape and even fear, and lack any way of communication and interaction except for requirements. In short, in addition to feeling smart, lively, sensible and cute at home, it seems that there are problems everywhere...

In fact, in this case, people who don't understand will feel very contradictory, since they are smart, lively, sensible and cute, it should be explained that it is normal. Perhaps this is the main reason why I ignored it in the first place. But after I got to know it, I realized that it was too problematic...

Especially later, with the understanding of autism, we slowly learned that today's children have almost all the core symptoms of autism.

So, to this day, although I am making amends, even if it is late, even if it is reborn, I will go all out to help the child re-ascend to his elegant hall...

I think this should be a great and arduous long project...

I think that the hardships and obstacles of this project should be no less than that of scientists working on the atomic bomb...

Otherwise, why is autism still called the world's problem today, decades after it appeared in human history?