Chapter 04 On the way back to Anqing

Walking out of the hospital is like going through six reincarnations. Holding the child, looking at the bright lights, in the bustling traffic, you can finally breathe the free air again...

The cold wind of deep winter, after seven o'clock, seems to be a fierce bird and beast in human nature, which has entered a terrifying dark world. The city is full of lights flickering, and it is just like in the dark human nature, igniting the spark of goodness and beauty...

Half an hour later, we arrived at Hefei South High-speed Railway Station under the escort of the child's aunt. When I was outside the hall door, and habitually lit a cigarette, I found that the child seemed to be very sensible and cooperated with me, like a fledgling bird, alone beside me, with a curious and leisurely look, looking around...

In this situation, I felt like standing on the misty peak, enjoying the beauty of the world, and at the same time in the loneliness of my own dignity, observing and thinking about the child, thinking about how I should tease him next...

In the winter at night, outside the deserted station hall, the child was dressed in red cotton clothes, like a fire, burning the whole cold and hope.

Because, I believe, the human reaction to red is a sign of survival and evolution in the struggle for life and death for thousands of years. Today, in turn, it can also make effective use of human visuals to generate active thoughts and emotions...

This kind of healthy, positive, and active conscious experience is fundamentally the real effective nemesis of all kinds of negative behaviors in autism...

Because, the birth of this power will correspondingly change and shape the original functions of the child's physiological level to varying degrees. This includes other functions on the physiological nervous system. In the same way, it can also effectively influence the integration and development of the three consciousnesses...

That's why I'm going to make red the main factor in my child's main outfit.

Because, compared with ordinary normal children, autistic children need to obtain a corresponding balanced conscious experience through the corresponding stimulation or weakening of the five senses and touch. And red is also a symbol of love and warmth. Therefore, it is entirely possible to achieve the perfection or improvement of the perceptual function of the conscious consciousness through the evolution of red germination, so as to promote the coordinated development of the three consciousnesses...

The conscious perception function of human beings can stimulate the conscious experience again through the feedback of the five senses and tactile senses, and induce subconscious information, which can quickly be fed back to the thinking consciousness of the brain in the form of intuition, and be clearly recognized by us.

Just like at this time, I look at it, although it seems that the flow of customers is sparse, and it is difficult for my brain to quickly get accurate answers, but with the information stored in the subconscious in the past, with the support of visual function, it can stimulate the conscious sense, so as to feedback and thinking consciousness, and quickly estimate the approximate or even close to accurate number of people...

In order to verify the correctness of the apparent consciousness perception ability again, I used the thinking function of the thinking consciousness until the final result was thirty-eight.

In the same way, the child took my hand as I counted, and looked at me and at the other travelers in the area where I looked.

And his performance at this time, if from the perspective of subconscious analysis, due to the lack of corresponding subconscious information, in the conscious perception of visual formation, causes the thinking of cognitive functions in the thinking consciousness, and this thinking process is the integration process of unifying and verifying the explicit and subconscious. So at this time, when the child is observing me, he may be thinking, "Why is Dad always looking at those people?" How are these people different from Dad? ”

And his psychological state at this time, fundamentally speaking, is the manifestation of conscious experience triggered by visual function, and the formation of thinking and consciousness activities, and the formation of cognition and exploration desires!

Therefore. If you stand in the position of autism rehabilitation, in fact, you can use the child's visual function to achieve a specific expected psychological and behavioral effect. Unless there is a variation in the child's visual function, such as the same scene, he sees different things from us. But even if such a phenomenon exists, if in essence, from the child's point of view, then his visual function is still normal.

And the so-called abnormality, it is mainly because of the child's visual function, which is different from our visual function. It is the result of a relatively formed process. Therefore, if it is the other way around, then our so-called normal vision, from the perspective of children, is actually the same as we look at children, and can also be defined as abnormal. Therefore, the corresponding visual information will form the corresponding conscious experience, and form mental activities and cognition in the thinking consciousness.

If you look at children from an opposing point of view, because of different visual functions, different conscious experiences, and different psychological and thinking cognitions, because the two are difficult to integrate and recognize each other, resulting in conflicts in the difficult unity, it is naturally easy to be treated as abnormal by the opposing party. Of course, this phenomenon, if it is caused by pathological problems, needs to be excluded! However, it is important to note that functional differences are not representative of pathology, but pathology can be representative of functional differences.

Therefore, in such an analysis, in order to test my reasoning again, I immediately deliberately said to the child next to me: "Sit down", but did not tell him where to sit. When the child heard my command, he saw a pair of clear eyes, looked at me and looked at my feet, then turned around half a circle, looked at me again with some worry, and when he saw that I didn't react, he finally sat down on the backpack I deliberately put next to me.

In fact, the reason why the child looked at me was not because he was worried about sitting in the wrong position, but because he could not express himself and there was a certain degree of caution and depression in the unfamiliar environment, so he was experiencing conscious perception with the help of visual functions, and hoped that from my expression, with the support of conscious perception, I would use my thinking consciousness to determine whether my behavior met the requirements of "Dad" in an unfamiliar environment...

It may seem that everything the child has just behaved is a simple thing, and it doesn't seem to have much to do with the visual function of the eyes. However, the fact is that all of these behaviors are based on vision...

Later, when I pretended to ignore him unconsciously, I let him expand his range of activities freely, but what is also interesting is that the child gradually moves away from me while constantly keeping me in his sight because of curiosity and wanting to experience a sense of freedom, and he always keeps me in his sight at the same time, and he always keeps moving forward and backward in the straight line he originally walked out of...

I think the main reason for this phenomenon may be that the passengers at the station have already lined up in a line early to wait there, and in order to maintain a sense of security in their subconscious, they use the group consciousness of the experience to ensure the existence of a sense of security under such a stereotyped behavior. In this way, you can retain more energy, while experiencing and having a sense of security, under the visual effect, with cautious behavior, the subtle and suggestive effect formed by the one-word team, in the integration of the public, so as to experience a greater degree of self-consciousness of belonging. And all of this is also based on visual function!

At this moment, the child not far away, when he heard the voice of the customer service staff, stood about eight meters away, staring at me cutely, and when I waved, he seemed to quickly understand that it was time to get on the bus. Then I saw him a little excited, and quickly ran back to take my hand, and walked towards the platform in an orderly manner with everyone...

In the crowded carriage, he couldn't see any difference from a normal and sensible child. Along the way, we consciously cooperated with me, so we successfully crossed the narrow aisle and finally found a seat and sat down.

It was past eight o'clock, and the day had gone through more than twelve hours without rest. Perhaps it was for this reason that the child, lying in my arms, in the quiet carriage, quickly appeared listless and unwittingly fell asleep in the advance of the train.

At this time, I looked at the sleeping child, and suddenly inexplicably remembered again what they said about the child "waking up" when I was in the hospital...

So, I immediately thought of the possibility of injections and drugs when they were doing transcranial magnetic surgery in the hospital. Because the child's cooperation in a familiar environment is almost zero, it should be impossible in an unfamiliar environment! But now the time has passed, and the child has not found any other problems, and now even if I strip the child into a bare-bottomed red child, I don't think it will be possible to find any evidence of needles and eyes in him.

Besides, what if they didn't give the injection, but gave the child medicine? Similarly, even if I have the winging function of Lei Zhenzi, I think that by the time I fly to the laboratory, the drug properties or drug reactions may have disappeared a long time ago...

However, in such a state of mind, I hesitated in anger and sent them a combined picture of the group of garbage experts they promoted, and sent them a picture during questioning. Unexpectedly, the WeChat customer service still used strong and unreasonable wording to perfunctory me in his reply. So, in a fit of anger, I replied directly in WeChat: "I see that your problem is more serious than that of children, and it is you who really need treatment!" ”

However, I didn't expect that the customer service may be out of fear of me, or maybe he feels overwhelmed, or maybe he is just a customer service and doesn't know the truth, so he doesn't know how to deal with me...

Anyway, the phone in my hand rang unexpectedly. When I got on the phone, I only heard a man with a loud profit, with a somewhat courteous tone at the beginning, explaining and tolerating me in every way!

When I heard his explanation and accommodation, I thought it was just his professional ethics and responsibility, but I always felt that his words, tone, and speed of speech always seemed to have a kind of depression and worry, and even occasionally permeated with fear that was difficult to hide...

Although on the phone, perhaps my child and I have a similar sense of hearing, I always feel that deep down in his heart, there is always a kind of subconscious negative fluctuations that are difficult to hide. Although in his shallow psychological state, he seems to be more mature and sophisticated. But the unconscious can still be felt from his excessive performance. Even so, perhaps it was his depression and fear that made him accommodating to me everywhere, so that in the process of communicating with him, his mood gradually eased!

However, when he mentioned the issue of 50 yuan registration, I suddenly couldn't help but say, "Believe it or not, I have enough ability and confidence to go back and let you return the money to me!" If I expose the real situation of your organization to the society through the media, I think you should know better than me what the result is, right? ”

Sure enough, as soon as these words came out, he seemed to become more polite and courteous...

However, I didn't expect that maybe it was because of his impatience, maybe he realized that they did have an unshirkable responsibility, maybe he was really afraid that I would retaliate against them, in short, he suddenly and unexpectedly recommended three experts from Nanjing, Shanghai, and Beijing to me. And give me a promise again to diagnose the child for free...

Perhaps I was moved by his seeming sincerity, and I asked him to send me the profiles of the three experts with a little trust and expectation. But when I looked at it, I found that the three so-called experts were all halfway monks. Maybe using his original qualification resources, like many unscrupulous institutions, it is unknown to swagger and deceive for fame and fortune...

Even so, my conjecture may be true, but think about it, no matter what kind of mentality he has, at least he can make actual performance and commitments, which can be regarded as a kind of ream!

So, I didn't embarrass him anymore because I was tired and tired...

Of course, I suspect that the problem of their injections and drugs has always been haunting me. Although this is only a theoretical inference, although it is difficult for me to get real answers from them, what I can do at the moment is to analyze and understand more unknown problems in the field of autism through various existing phenomena.

Therefore, after that, I deliberately threw out the intention of buying the instrument, and consulted the manufacturer of transcranial magnetic magnetism whether this instrument can allow children to enter a natural sleep state during use. But no matter how much I asked, their answers were neither uncertain nor negative. Always in ambiguity, like throwing bait, hoping that I would buy the instrument. However, when I asked whether the hospital would use the medication, they immediately said, "It is possible that the child will fall asleep easily during the transcranial magnetic treatment..." Doesn't that mean you didn't say it? Isn't that the opposite way equivalent to saying that it is entirely possible to give the child injections and drugs?

Although in the midst of disappointment, I didn't get a definitive answer, but going back to the roots is a major part of my character. Therefore, in the suspicion that it is difficult to rule out, I soon searched for the promotion customer service staff of this rehabilitation institution on the Internet as a parent consultation...

When I asked her modestly, "What if the child does not cooperate during the transcranial magnetic therapy?" The customer service quickly replied unconsciously: "Then I have to use other ways..."

Then I asked, "How?" She said, "Injections, medicines, physical methods are all available..."

The moment I saw her reply, I understood that the child was either given anesthetic injections by them, or forced to inject tranquilizers, or other compulsory so-called physical methods...

The drug has a significant negative impact on the nervous system and physiological perception function. Because this kind of drug is mainly to slow down physiological perception and operational functions through paralysis, and achieve mental retardation, or long-term slowdown to weaken its natural functions, so that emotional behavior can achieve the desired results! Even the so-called physical coercive state is just as easy to cause psychological problems in children!

The actual implementation of this drug is currently to inform the family members through professionals staying on site in tertiary hospitals. Unexpectedly, they may have reached the realm of perfection in this technology, otherwise why would they dare to secretly abandon the rules and act hastily without informing their parents?

Now that I think about it, it still feels terrible, if the child in the process of injections and medicines, leads to other diseases, infections and drug allergies, or to varying degrees leads to other potential physical and psychological problems, then can we parents know? Can you make it clear? Will evidence be found to prosecute them?

I think it's almost impossible, unless it's too serious and the child has a serious accident on the spot at the institution, otherwise, it is equivalent to us paying them to treat the child like an animal, and make money while doing experiments in the name of treatment...

In fact, such serious accidents have already occurred in rehabilitation institutions. I don't remember the details anymore, but I know that when I was checking the information, I accidentally found an article that said that an autistic child died suddenly in the institution, although I can't be completely sure of the full authenticity of the incident, but there is no wind and no waves, and it can also effectively reflect the dark and terrible side of the field of autism rehabilitation...

Later, I learned from other parents that this institution's chain of institutions in other cities had even used electrotherapy.

However, autism was first discovered by humans by training animals in the form of punishment electrotherapy, which was later found to be very dangerous and was quickly stopped...

But until today, in order to pursue the progress of children's temporary superficial behavior and achieve the purpose of obtaining benefits, knowing that it is not feasible, there are still people who secretly use it! At this point, it is conceivable that the field of autism rehabilitation will not be the only one who casts laws indiscriminately and acts arbitrarily...

Therefore, it is conceivable that in the huge and complex rehabilitation group, there must be very few institutions that really have autism rehabilitation technology and formal institutions. Otherwise, how could this field be so chaotic? …

If all this, the so-called implicit rehabilitation technique, although not fully substantiated, can be in the normal process, the consent of the parents is just enough. Otherwise, this kind of behavior that violates human nature and rules is enough to explain all kinds of hidden problems in many rehabilitation institutions!

In fact, many children in the process of recovery, perhaps only in terms of behavior, or they have indeed improved, which comforts parents. But at the same time, many children's progress leads to more potential and immediate psychological problems! I believe that many parents and children should deeply appreciate this kind of progress...

At this time, the car entered a stop on the way...

Maybe it's too tired, although I feel that there are still many problems, but at this time, there is a feeling of numbness and laziness to think about it again. Maybe I think that no matter what, this trip to Hefei is also a bit rewarding, and you can relax for a while. In short, I don't know when, in the hazy continuum of thoughts, I feel that my body and mind are like a lead stone that is difficult to flow, heavy, getting heavier and heavier...