In the dark, although everything seems to be predetermined, it is also as the Buddha said: "Man's destiny can be changed through education!" Because everything is in the heart, there is no need to ask for it..."

This sentence of the Buddha is more similar to what modern psychology says: "Character determines fate, and changing your mentality can change your fate..."

I don't know who said this in the first place, and I don't know if he was inspired by Buddhism or from life experience, but this conclusion is undoubtedly universally accepted and considered correct. And all along, in major fields, with this as the core, and continue to carry out changes and breakthroughs in destiny!

The truth, although so, even a child of a few years old can say the truth in the truth, but even many centenarians often go through a lifetime of pain that is difficult to get rid of because of fragility and selfishness.

They often unconsciously turn themselves into resentful women, only knowing, involuntarily pointing at the heavens and scolding the earth, but not knowing that in turn, self-reflection, their once lost heart, and the external fate they ignore are actually the projection process of their inner psychology!

Although I also understand this truth, it is not easy to do it properly. But I know that if I don't face it with an attitude of death and try to break through the shackles of my heart, the final result will only create more pain and sorrow!

So, for many days, I didn't dare to imagine the children, I didn't dare to imagine their mothers. Because, I know, once I imagine them, my emotions are just as easy to get out of control. Not only will it bring more and senseless pain to yourself, but it will also aggravate the dust of emotions and cover the soul because of this, making it easier for you to lose your correct judgment of things. So I thought, if even my ability to judge things is gone, isn't that more of a sorrow of ignorance? If this is the case, then can the problem really disappear by deceiving itself?

I think that not only will it not, but the final result will only be like more people, and it will still be in the emotional siege, and life is better than death. If this is the case, then is it really alive to be a body that can move?

I think I should correspond, this kind of unstoppable, life-like like walking corpse is not only reflected in the fate of many people, but also in my life and family today. Therefore, in order to get rid of meaningless pain and entanglement, I can only use the Three Flavors True Fire again to refine a new sublimation and transformation!

So, after a brief period of panic, his grandfather finally made three phone calls, as I expected. However, I didn't get through. Although, I can't bear to hang up directly, I can also experience his depressed mood, let his fragile self-esteem, the moment he picked up the phone, his heart was full of contradictions and tangled pain, but for himself, to get rid of meaningless entanglement and pain for a long time, I thought about it for a long time, or held back full of tears, silently listening to the ringing again and again.

Although, I know, today's state is essentially because of him, but due to the power of psychological inertia, it takes a lot of courage to face it again today, and I have already begun to want to escape from their son-in-law!

Although, in his eyes, this son-in-law has no education, no fame and fortune, no taste, no thought, and is inferior to him everywhere. Even when he was loading water and electricity, it was not worth helping him with tools. And even more when he is helpless, he often likes to sing high-pitched, and he is unwilling to live for money to hide his incompetence and sadness.

However, today, for the sake of his daughter, for his grandson, and for his reason or conscience that has not yet disappeared, so, after much consideration, he finally gave up temporarily in the midst of complex and intertwined emotions, and his noble and great soul finally dialed the phone again!

However, he didn't expect that the moment I faced his phone call, there was no contradiction in my heart. Although I used to be eager to hear his calls, but again and again disappointed, and even despair, I began to fear his calls again.

Because, I am worried that I have built up the indifference and cruelty with great difficulty, and it is very likely that at the moment of answering the phone, I will be once again made a few words of peace by him, resulting in an instant collapse. Therefore, in order to continue to fulfill his mood, he may fall into a cycle of pain and entanglement again.

Because, I understand, if he can't fully realize, even if I erase myself again and go back again, then the future of this family will still be short-lived, and continue to go through every day in a vicious circle of entanglement, pain, and helplessness...

Therefore, I am willing to leave the fate of me and my child to God with tears, and I am no longer willing to grasp and change, let alone hand it over to him again and her daughter to deal with!

Because their greatness and nobility, and the feelings of the once saints, have made them lose the ability and opportunity to grasp their destiny...

Because my fate is the fate of my children, and the fate of my children is my fate, and our fate is closely related to the whole family, of course, it is equal to the fate of all members of the family.

However, to this day, when I can no longer control the fate of my children, in turn, it is equivalent to no longer being able to control my own destiny, and even the fate of the whole family, then I can only return everything to God and accept everything naturally!

Because, I believe that God is fair, and if I still think that it is not fair enough, it is because I am not wise enough, but I have not yet deeply understood its intentions.

So, the ringing again and again, accompanied by silent tears, made me wait for the moment when everything was over, in a brief relief.

When the bell finally disappeared, I was able to return to the world of tranquility in the midst of tangled pain. However, in my heart, I am still thinking that my grandfather should be thunderous in humiliation.

Because, if you follow his psychological projection, he will definitely feel that at the moment when I am sad, there will also be a kind of revenge.

Yes, it seems to be true. But I understand that at the moment when I was sad, it was the hearts of parents in the world who were pitied. Proudly, in the rational escape, it is mixed with a bit of revenge pleasure. Although I hated the feeling of revenge, at this time, it was like invisible air, pervasive into my mind, like a trickle of water, and fluctuated my body and mind.

And they, how can it be otherwise, are often immersed in this deformed satisfaction, which leads to suffering, harming others and themselves, and it is difficult to extricate themselves from it. Otherwise, how could today's young family be like them, the original aging family, giving birth to the same disease? Otherwise, how could it have come to today, which is unbearable to look back on?

In fact, when the family is sick, it is a mental illness and a mental disease. It's the disease of ignorance, it's the disease of stupidity, it's the disease of selfishness and blindness...

However, by this day, I am exhausted, and I have the heart but not the power. Therefore, it is difficult to heal this already terminally ill family. But if I can't use these painful experiences to completely eradicate this ignorance, stupidity, selfishness, and this addiction-like desire for revenge, then what difference is there between me and them?

Then, even if I own the whole world, I am just like a blind man, with beautiful flowers, and a deaf person in the heavenly world!

So, if this is the case, what reason do I have to accuse them, and what reason do I have to stay away from reality, away from the red dust, and in the selfishness of unashamed hearts, to liberate and transcend myself again?

Yes, I thought that the bell was gone, and my heart was still like an impregnable wall, and I was indifferent. Even that pale and weak desire for revenge will be like a wisp of autumn wind, and it will pass away in a blink of an eye.

But even so, what can be? Because, then he sent another message saying: "You can not answer my call, but it doesn't matter if you two reconcile or go their separate ways, but there must be a result, right?" Not to mention two children! Come back and discuss it again..."

However, he would not have thought that at the moment when the ringtone disappeared, I didn't dare to touch the phone again, because I had a strong premonition that I would see his message again, and let myself fall into a dazed state again and continue to wander!

However, with a sense of contradiction and unease, I intertwined with reason all night. Although, while appreciating his own strength and ruthlessness, there is a kind of collapse that he falls into again from time to time.

Therefore, the next morning, when I turned on my phone again and saw the message he had already sent, I suddenly felt that the coldness and cruelty that I had cultivated with great difficulty seemed to suddenly begin to drift away like a storm again.

However, in a short trance, I clearly knew that even if I went back immediately, the short-lived peace, this terminally ill family, would still continue to have seizures in the back and forth of good and bad. Because, such a situation, to this day, has not been once or twice.

Therefore, until today, it has seriously affected the physical and mental fate of the two children and the family of five. Therefore, if I go back again, if the reality is still like this, then the final result may be that a family of five will be completely turned into several tools of the walking dead in meaningless pain and entanglement.

If I don't go back, at least from my point of view, I will have enough ability to get rid of the entanglement of reason, and escape, so that I can live every day safely and normally.

And I, as long as I can live well and maintain a sober and rational self, even if it is ten or twenty years, no matter how bad the child is, but there is only one breath, as long as I am willing, I believe that their super dad will one day, for them, make a comeback again, reshape again, their destiny and future, and sweep them away from the world!

Today, if my loss will bring them pain, then they are equivalent to the children of God, and God has arranged for them to begin to undergo extraordinary trials as soon as they arrive on earth. Because, they are different and born with adventures.

If I feel pain because I have lost them, then I will use the power of suffering to devote myself to cultivating and take the first step. Prepare for their future, in the future, better help them, and build their paradise road again!

Because, I believe, myself...

Because, I believe, they are children like no other...

Because, they're just like me...

They are all from the universe, they are children of wisdom...

Because, I believe, only sincere tears ...

It's the best tool for practice...

Because, I believe...

The soul is only washed by tears...

will be in a brief moment...

Gain a cloud-like relief...

Therefore...

Again...

Again and again...

It will be from a brief moment...

It's getting longer and longer...

Until eternity...

Therefore...

I know...

As long as you keep at it...

When the tears are dry...

It will inevitably be the day of infinite liberation!

However...

Time...

With the footsteps of autumn...

Let three months of brilliance...

Quietly passed again...

In the ruthless time, on the day of the hike to October 25th, I finally got on the bus from Hefei to Anqing with a helpless heart, accompanied by loneliness!

Along the way, the withered yellow of autumn seems to have long been impatient, covering the entire land. A little bleak and sassy, let my mood, with the time and space that I forgot to return, and a burst of melancholy...

When getting off again...

Anqing, which has been absent for many days, is still bustling...

Looking at the still noisy city, at that moment, one of the things my heart longs for the most is to hope to run to the children immediately, like a madman, with them running wildly, and resting with heaven and earth!

However, I know that if this is the case, the happiness and satisfaction after running wild will inevitably turn into sorrow and sorrow after resting together...

However, as my thoughts flew and I was tormented by a dilemma, I was stunned for a long time when I walked downstairs again and looked at the window of the five-story building. Finally, like a tired man again, he silently continued to hike on the street...

The moment I passed by the house, I thought about the problems that my child had had, and in an instant, I held back my tears and began to imagine my child's health and happiness again. Finally, in a short period of time, I got some peace and comfort, and quickly walked to the Lei Chi Hotel not far from home...

In the hotel, waiting for news from their mother, they went to the Civil Affairs Bureau again to go through the divorce procedures.

And I waited there for two days, in a dilemma, surrounded by many worries, not daring to imagine the children, not daring to visit the children, or even with their mothers.

Because, I know that no matter how strong a person is, it is often difficult to bear it in the face of feelings. Although, I know that the moment I embrace them, the moment I solve the pain of lovesickness, the happiness and satisfaction it brings, but later, if I see their immediate and potential problems, it can only make me feel more sad and sad in the helplessness of the whip.

I was even more worried that my mother, seeing that my mother might become more confused and haggard because of my departure, and because of this, I broke down again, gave up my principles, and then accommodated or caressed her heart.

Although I wish I could do so, I know that she is not what she used to be. And now I am not what I used to be. Therefore, I can no longer apply the previous mood to the present. Otherwise, not only will it be difficult to benefit reality, but it will only lead to a long journey into the abyss again!

Therefore, after thinking about it for a long time, I began to tell myself constantly: "I can no longer be dominated by the memories of the past, fragile and blind feelings, and no longer governed by principles, if I have to, then the best result is only to treat the symptoms but not the root cause..."

However, when I convinced myself of the continuous truth, I was in a trance, plausible. As a result, the final result was another defeat to himself.

When I failed again on the last night, I didn't know if I really wanted to get my clothes back, or if I wanted to see my children, or their mothers. In short, along the way, in my dazed imagination, I was once again confused and walked into the door that I had longed for but was helpless!

However, the moment I stepped through the door, the scene I feared reappeared. I saw that Dabao didn't react, eating obediently like a machine, and his body seemed to return to the pumpkin fat before. And the suppressed voice of his grandmother urging him to eat seems to have not changed anything except that the voice is quieter!

When I was already uncontrollable, I walked again and teased the child who was eating a few times, and as a result, people were a little relieved, his language improved, and his eyes and instructions and names also improved. However, when I faced his mechanical well-behaved and no longer flexible expression and movements, my heart felt like it was dripping blood. Because, many of his reactions at this time seem to be somewhat similar to children in institutions!

When I look at Xiaobao again, he was originally lively and active, but at this time, he was obviously much quieter. Although, his eyes were brighter and flickering, and the moment we looked at each other, his sweet smile surprised me to find that the sharpness of his expression almost reached the same time as my reaction.

However, in order to reject the pain of his feelings. So, at the moment when Xiaobao looked at me and smiled, my ruthless and indifferent appearance suddenly made him return to his original indifference and calmness.

At that moment, I forced my dead emotions, and found in my rational mind that Xiaobao's synchronized emotional ability with me should show that my judgment of his tactile sensitivity was correct. Because, the more sensitive the sense of touch, the more prominent and perfect the synchronization function of physiology and psychology is, relatively speaking, more prominent and perfect. Therefore, children in the second category tend to be lively and active. However, because of this, because of the delicate and rich feelings, it is easier to cause potential problems in psychological development in keen feelings!

However, what makes people even more sad is that the child's body has been thin from the original not very fat body, and now he has thin eye circles, and his even thinner face, coupled with long hair, almost made me almost hold him in my arms in the moment of unbearable suffering. However, the strong rationality made me clearly know that hugging can only bring out more pain, more helplessness and sorrow!

However, when I found out again that my mother, who was originally plump, was also extremely thin at this time, it made me understand more that Xiaobao lacked milk because of his mother's emaciation, and the child was already anemic, and his stupid and self-righteous mother-in-law Shuangjie didn't know how to eat reasonably. Therefore, a variety of factors coincided, and Xiaobao, who was developing, even appeared a little skinny and hateful. Therefore, I think that if this situation continues, then in the future, it will no longer be as simple as anemia. It is even very likely that compared with Dabao, it will eventually be inferior to it, and it is not known!

And Dabao, at this time, there is no doubt that the old problems have not been fully recovered, and the new problems have been reborn. To make matters worse, their mothers were also severely depressed, causing her eyes to be dark and distant. But only my grandmother, her body is the same, and her expression is still the same!

At this time, in the face of everything in front of me, the growing mood began to call me to stay, but I knew that blind futility was tantamount to cultivating the soil of sorrow. Therefore, at this time, for me, staying for one more minute is equivalent to reaping one more point of helpless sorrow. So, after a little thought, in less than ten minutes, I immediately stepped out the door.

When I walked back to the hotel, my only thought was that I hoped that I could forget everything in an instant, and never return to this sad and helpless place!

Because, I was worried about myself, in case I couldn't help it, and I had another emotional outburst. Maybe he will suddenly turn around, run back and give the second mother a few sweet slaps, and force the eldest mother to get out of the way again.

Although I am capable enough to do this, I am not willing to rebel against the basic principles of human nature, otherwise how would things have developed to this point? However, unless there is a major emergency for the children at that time, what is the difference between me and them?

So, at the moment I returned to the hotel, my mind kept flashing the weight loss of my son and mother, so I couldn't help but think that his mother was also thin when she returned to the countryside not long after Dabao was born.

At that time, because of the appearance of her grandmother, she and her father were consciously separated and infiltrated. Therefore, she was in a state of depression and ignorance, causing an unconscious split, in a state of mind that blindly rejected me, in circumstances that I did not expect, and therefore, I was so angry that I wanted to divorce.

Later, although she understood everything and took back her life, she did not expect that she would continue to be under the influence and assimilation of her parents, and let me, who was far away in Hefei, not to mention that my grandmother was driven by subconscious abusive desires, which caused her unconscious to even the nutrients needed by her daughter during childbirth It was difficult to supply them normally, resulting in physical and mental sleepiness, and physical emaciation caused milk. Lack of water, which in turn worsens postpartum depression. Causing every day to think about suicide to free himself.

However, she finally persevered for the sake of the child, and it was not until I realized the seriousness of the problem that I consciously relaxed her mood and successfully walked through that unbearable time.

At that time, I was also physically and mentally sleepy, I was also living in depression, and I was also bored, thinking about what to do every day for the rest of my life. However, her parents, not only could not understand, but felt that they had nothing, and married their daughter to me, causing them to subconsciously and mentally feel as if I owed them eight million. And in the end, because he couldn't see the benefits of our marriage, he began to monopolize the children and plan to implement our divorce plan.

And they never thought that we would be suffering in wasting our youth for the sake of their parents' feelings, waiting for nine years, and we were unwilling to go against their will and overcome!

So, it wasn't until I waited for a long time, until they took the initiative to say yes and began to ask us to get married, and finally, I completed the wedding with a lot of debt during the period of my business with nothing.

I know that such a poor marriage is imperfect for a girl, at least not even a necklace, a ring, or even in her life. Even when she asked me to buy flowers, I only bought four.

I know that although she desires more, she has the potential to transcend material things and vanity, and under my deliberate guidance, although she is a little dissatisfied, she never seriously complains. Sometimes, I even feel like a child, but it comforts my heart.

At that time, I was moved, but she didn't know that I didn't have the money to buy it, nor was it reluctant to buy it, let alone didn't want to buy it, but I wanted to take this opportunity to hone her mind and completely wipe out her many latent and reckless negative consciousness of her parents. More importantly, I hope that through the tempering of reality, she will get rid of the interference of external things and release her true self.

However, what surprised me even more was that on the day of the wedding, at the behest of her parents, the moment I learned that she brought 10,000 yuan to give us a spare wedding ceremony, suddenly my heart under the light appearance felt like crying!

However, the feeling of wanting to cry is not because I feel incompetent, not because I feel ashamed of her, but because I feel that she has a diamond-like heart. It's like a treasure in the world. And let me feel the beauty of the world again!

Because, her closure, in reality, although it is easy for her mind to be biased, but from the perspective of the soul, her inner world is like an unpolluted natural jade.

Perhaps because of this, I continue to be narcissistic and feel that I am the master carver of her destiny. Therefore, at the moment when I was extremely moved, although she was just an ordinary girl in the eyes of many people, in my mind, she was a perfect angel. So, more than once I seem to have found a treasure, and I am reluctant to leave her...

At that time, what I wanted to do the most, and what I wanted to do, was to hope that I could use my life to make her the most perfect woman in the world.

And in fact, her behavior, her performance, although biased and unbalanced, has always performed very well in terms of spiritual awareness.

Even, all her subsequent performances surprised almost everyone. And it is precisely because of this that her parents, in the end, when I was poor and helpless, let them be full of regrets at the same time, but also with a little hope and satisfaction, and during my entrepreneurship, they let them marry their daughter to me in the feelings of a saint...

Therefore, I was doubly touched by my parents at that time. I didn't expect that I met such great, saint-like parents with transcendent feelings. Think of such a saint's realm, which can be met but not sought.

At that time, I was moved like a puppet, and I was able to speak well, but I didn't dare to speak, because I was afraid that I would say the wrong thing and make the saint feel bad, which was really a sin.

Therefore, I have always hoped to use my life to silently protect her daughter. Be kind to them and provide for them in their old age. So, in order for her daughter to be less pressured by public opinion and the mood of her family, I went home alone to start a business, but I collapsed under the siege of embattle. I finally succeeded in creating a lot of debt, and even to this day, I still have to pay for the success of my ignorant business!

However, I am not a god, and I have thought about it for a long time, but I can't imagine that when the child is born, their habitual complainer mentality finally begins to explode under the nourishment of the lack of the benefits of our marriage.

Therefore, it makes me feel that my original ridiculousness is not sad, and my original saint-like parents did not expect that they would be worse than my original parents due to the lack of hope and material nourishment. So, thinking about it, I completely gave up starting a business, and I would rather play by myself with a lot of debt, rather than return to that heavenly Anqing.

However, thinking about it later, for the sake of her mother and a child, and then thinking about that pair of parents, who were waiting for our divorce all the time, finally drifted for a year, and returned to Anqing again!

However, I didn't expect that because tonight, seeing her and the child again, that skinny appearance made me feel sorry for them again, and I really wanted to go back and slap the two of them.

Because, one night before I left Anqing, in a peaceful atmosphere, looking at his chubby mother, thinking of his depression and emaciation when he gave birth to Dabao, I couldn't help but say with some relief: "You see that you are still so fat now, when you gave birth to Dabao, you were already very slim before this time..."

However, unexpectedly, her encyclopedic grandmother, I don't know whether she thinks of the child's mother, the emaciation when she gave birth to a big treasure in the countryside, induces a sense of evasive self-protection, or wants to continue to experience her paranoid self-worth, in short, she seems to be full of experience and says: "Having a child is fat..."

Listening to her professional opinions, I was angry and continued: "Then why was she fatter than she is now when she went to college?" ”

She continued, still paranoid, and replied without hesitation: "When you are a girl, you are fat..."

Then, I was so angry that I couldn't think about her mood anymore, and then asked, "Then why was she so thin in the countryside when she gave birth to Dabao?" ”

At last, her sun was ready to come out of the west, for she had finally put away, her paranoid dominance of consciousness, and silent!

Therefore, seeing that she is so smart, I am embarrassed to do it, and continue to explain that her daughter has lost weight.

I thought it would end here, but I didn't expect that her daughter, who was good at copying her, seemed to help her grandmother save the scene, so she quickly took it over and said: "I work the day shift every day, and it's not easy to lose weight..."

Thinking about such a wonderful mother-daughter duo, I was speechless. At that time, I really wanted to ask her again: "Then when you gave birth to Dabao, you slept in bed every day, why are you still so thin?" ”

However, in the face of this situation, I couldn't help but think that if you are free to change, and when you transform into a second grandmother, then this family will not be far from death!

Sure enough, I quickly came to this day, and then in a fit of anger, I felt that I had suddenly become more ruthless, and I thought to myself, since you like to cause trouble and pain, then you can keep it for each other to share. In this case, it is better for me to go back to the hotel alone and suffer alone!

However, after a torturous night, it was the second day of a bit of despair. Under the agreement like love, we finally walked into the long-lost Civil Affairs Bureau again.

I thought that after three months of hesitant preparation, it should be over soon, but I didn't expect it, and what is even funnier is that it turned out that her father, who was pretending to be a lawyer, actually wrote a divorce agreement in order to show off his scheming knowledge, but it was rejected by the Civil Affairs Bureau in court, and it was difficult to pass!

Seeing this scene, I couldn't cry or laugh when I was angry, but I didn't have any smoke, so I could only wait and go out to buy a pack of nicotine again.

It wasn't until the clouds were flying upstairs and downstairs that an hour later, I saw his daughter, who had become the standard of the same kind, re-downloaded it from the hospital computer with the help of her colleagues, and then worked like an embroidery for a long time, and finally successfully ended the 13-year real career of love, feelings, marriage, parenting, and family life!

However, on the way back, thinking about the child, and then looking at her yellow and thin face, I was sad and helpless, and I thought in anger that even if it was for the sake of the child, I should hope that she could have a good mood and express more milk, so that the child would be less wronged.

So, in order to comfort her more, I threw the poor passbook and ID card to her in poor anger. And then. In order to maintain her poor self-esteem, he said to her against his will: "This passbook is not for you, but for the child." ”

I was going to leave here, but looking at her somewhat depressed eyes, for the sake of the healthy growth of the child, after thinking about it, I reluctantly said to her again: "Now we are equal, you see if you can, then let your mother go back, I will stay and bring the child to school at the age of seven, so that it is a little basic, and then I will leave, what do you think?" ”

However, she paused, and still disappointed me to reply, "Then forget it..."

Thinking about it, I can be regarded as accompanying pain, helplessness, and boredom, and sent you, the Buddha, to the West.

After that, fly to the end of the world...

When I was full of sorrow again, I rushed back to fatten. In order to alleviate the pain in my heart, I immediately passed the foreign object disposal method and told my sister that all valuable assets should be transferred to her name and at her disposal. Although they refused, after analysis, they finally reluctantly accepted.

However, I didn't expect that in order for someone to convince me, she would let her family know everything. Unexpectedly, after learning about the specific situation, they were worried about the child, who was usually surprisingly torn apart, but now they were surprisingly united, and even asked me to bring a child back, and they unconditionally helped me raise it together.

However, I did not hesitate to reject them, saying, "If it is easy to bring back one child, then their mother will be more affected, and the other child will be affected, which will be even more detrimental to both children." Then this family is equivalent to complete destruction. So, it's not all helpless. I wouldn't do that..."

However, I didn't expect that they would come to Anqing again to help me mediate the problem. However, it was also rejected by me. Because of such internal problems, surgery is difficult to play a fundamental role! Otherwise, I will have to divorce today?

Therefore, I was constantly under their accusations, and my mood was almost irritated to the extreme. At that time, they were worried about my mood and asked me to come here and there. However, in my frantic thoughts, I reluctantly told them directly, today I think I am a first-class expert in psychology, if I can't even figure out my mood, then don't I amuse myself every day?

Have you forgotten what you just said? You all say I'm much better, but what about their mother and son? It seems that he has a family, money, a house, children, and the care of his grandmother, a super nanny, but why is he so scary? Dabao is not thin, but why is it that he is fat, which makes people more worried?

What does this mean? It shows that the child's mother is ignorant and stupid, and she is trapped by ignorance and stupidity. Then it is shunted directly to the child.

And why is their grandmother still the same? Because she is experiencing the revenge of success, with the master, and experiencing the drive of the child, and the mother of the child, in the satisfaction and fulfillment obtained, living every day.

And the present of this family, in the eyes of others, is a kind of sadness of failure, but for her, it is a rooftop for success and self-realization!

Finally, after some flickering with me, they became dumb, and my sister helped me cry while driving until I was sent to Changfeng.

After getting off the bus, in the hazy night, in the middle of the field, after dancing wildly, the tired body, in the relaxation, felt that time began to flow back. It seems that it is gradually returning to the past, back to the sour and Chu of childhood. Slowly, as if through time, with the starlight at night, I came to a primeval forest again, looking at it, the sun that is slowly rising, through the morning glow, one by one, a bunch, sprinkled in the misty landscape, accompanied by a bird's call, bursts of flowers, that leisurely, quiet, indifferent, I don't know when, let me no longer know what is in the world?

The rested soul wakes up again, leaving behind a sensual mind, out of the primeval forest, and back to the world of reason. At this time, I seem to be stronger and more confident.

Because in the past 20 years, I have verified almost all my doubts. Fate, although there is a fatalistic side, is also full of negation, because once the child's mother, from the closed youth of 20 years, I only took four years to let her return to her true self for a short time, almost becoming an angel in the minds of many people.

And her mood and career have been smooth sailing. Although today, the achievements have fallen short, due to the reappearance of parents, and in the assimilation and division of consciousness, they have returned to the past, but this does not prevent the verification of the law of fate.

Similarly, because of the accumulation of children's problems for three years, which induced acquired autism, I was able to break through and come back to life in only three months. Although, because of my departure, it was also a failure, but it also verified the law of fate.

Moreover, through my shaping and changing of myself, and my sister under my guidance, I experienced pain and broke through the constraints of fate caused by my original family, and achieved today, a completely independent woman.

Therefore, all kinds of things are enough to prove the truth that the so-called life is done by oneself and others have no complaints!

Therefore, many people complain about the injustice of fate mainly because of the fear caused by cowardice, which leads to ignorance and blinds the mind. Let them lose the ability and opportunity to control their fate, and immerse themselves in pain, from which it is difficult to extricate themselves...

Therefore, what I want to do now is to turn a realistic mind, using the law of trouble as Bodhi, to turn pain and helplessness into wisdom again, and devote myself to Buddhism, hoping to transcend the road of life and death in my lifetime...