"Very good, that's how it should be, how the future is related to what you want to do now, but it is not a decision, people sometimes must do the most important thing in front of you right, as for the past, did you steal an eraser when you were a child, your life really can't live?

That's terrible, everyone's life has become Hugo's Valjean, stealing a piece of bread for his little nephew who is starving to death, and there is no way to live a good life again.

Such a story is tragic.

But Bailu can choose, most people will not live forever in blame for stealing a piece of bread, because there are still things in life that you need to take responsibility for.

For example, your husband needs your trust right now. ”

Mu Chun encouraged Bai Lu's decision, and Bai Lu sighed and calmed down a little.

Subsequently, the atmosphere in the room did not really improve, because Bai Lu calmed down a little and then entered a state of complete chaos, she was even a little incoherent, and Mu Chun found it even more difficult to believe that her words were true, or because of Bai Lu's current chaotic mood, the words she said became illogical.

Because Bai Lu said that she was ridiculed by He Ping, saying that she was self-righteous, that she didn't love her for a long time, and also said that he didn't know about those things outside.

Bai Lu shook his head as he spoke, biting his lip, "What he means is that he doesn't love me for a long time, and he has long wanted to separate from me, but because everyone is in this circle, after all, he has been a model for so many years, as long as his face is maintained, he doesn't expect to have a husband and wife relationship, he has long wanted to have a showdown with me, saying that we should live a free life in marriage, give ourselves our own, no one should ask about each other's affairs, no one cares what the other party does, just do what they want to do, Because he doesn't love me anymore, he already has a lot of women. ”

"Why did he say that?" Mu Chun asked.

"Why do you ask?" Bai Lu looked at Mu Chun in surprise, "Aren't these the facts themselves?" He Ping didn't love me for a long time, I should have understood it earlier, he performs everywhere, everywhere, how can there be so many places to go, in addition to the orchestra performance, he also took on a lot of work, basically these jobs are in the field or Southeast Asia, North America, Europe, anyway, you can run as far as you can, you know? I think he has been avoiding me for a long time, just to be convenient with others, so he doesn't need a fixed home if he is a family all over the world, and he will no longer be bound by a family. ”

These are not so much the thoughts that Bai Lu only had after listening to He Ping's words, but rather the things she had buried in her heart for a long time, worried that her husband had fallen in love with someone else, and was sure that her husband had fallen in love with someone else, and now there was evidence and witnesses to prove that her husband was in love with someone else, and finally He Ping admitted all these things in person.

What is the reason why he said that?

However, when Bai Lu looked up at Mu Chun, Mu Chun's ordinary face was calm without waves, and this calmness made people wonder if he was talking to a black and opaque wall.

"Don't look at me like that, do you think I've worked so hard to come here today to joke with you?" Bai Lu raised the corners of her mouth, laughing at herself.

"I think so. I think you're all joking. Mu Chun said calmly and seriously.

Bai Lu drank a whole glass of water, the drunk person was extremely thirsty, Mu Chun saw that Bai Lu must have drunk a lot last night, because now the room was full of alcohol.

Alcohol dependence, and when things happen and continue to drink, what Mu Chun can't say in his heart is not the taste.

Isn't it all the hard work that came to you in vain?

Mu Chun, who stood up, walked behind Bai Lu, walked around to the other side of the table, picked up her cup, and poured Bai Lu a glass of water again.

"You need to eat something, or I'll order you a porridge and you'll go back when you're done." Mu Chun took out his mobile phone and opened Ele.me as he proposed.

"I don't want to eat," Bai Lu said.

As soon as she said the words, Mu Chun interrupted her, "Corn and shrimp porridge, pork ribs and spinach porridge, pork liver and pork liver, preserved egg and lean pork porridge, raw rolling fish fillet porridge, abalone porridge, what do you want to eat, I have a treat." ”

"I don't eat"

"Then the porridge with green vegetables and lean meat is good, and it is more convenient to eat." After speaking, Mu Chun placed an order, and then told Bai Lu, "It will be delivered in 20 minutes." ”

"Thanks, but I'm really not hungry."

"I know, but you need to eat, you cry too much and drink too much, your brain doesn't have enough sugar, you don't have a brain right now." After Mu Chun finished speaking, he looked away from Bai Lu and looked at the computer.

Bai Lu sat on the side and shivered from time to time, and the two were silent for about ten minutes before Bai Lu spoke: "Doctor Muchun, I"

"Are you sober?" Mu Chun asked.

Bai Lu nodded.

"Okay, why did He Ping say that?" Mu Chun still asked the same question a third time.

This time, Bai Lu finally heard Mu Chun's meaning clearly, "You mean he said that on purpose?" ”

Mu Chun nodded with satisfaction.

"This is a strong ~ crime, and there is also domestic violence, there is no escape from criminal crimes, basically you have to go to jail, and it will not be a light sentence, it depends on whether he is ready to plead guilty in whole or in part, and it depends on whether he plans to hire a lawyer to defend himself, don't you think there is anything wrong with so many things? Normal people must deny or find a reason, your husband's income is not bad, and it can even be said that with the rise of his reputation in the past year or so, he has made money everywhere, and his income must be good. ”

After hearing what Mu Chun said, Bai Lu did not hide it, and directly told Mu Chun that He Ping had indeed given her a transfer of 600,000 yuan two weeks ago. All of them have been earned in the past six months, and he also said that he bought an apartment in Bangkok, has paid the down payment, and will pay the balance when the house is handed over at the end of the year.

"I really didn't know he could make so much money." After Bai Lu finished speaking, she burped embarrassedly, and there was another smell of alcoholic fermentation.

"How much did you drink?" Mu Chun asked.

"Probably a lot, I don't know, and the doctor doesn't know that I was confused after drinking." Bai Lu was self-reproachful and vague.

"It's not that you're confused after drinking, most people are confused after drinking, so don't drink." Mu Chun knew that it was useless to tell Bai Lu about this at this time, she had already drunk it and was already confused.

I can only wait for her to slowly come back to her senses, and then sort out the whole thing.

How could this matter suddenly become like this, Mu Chun felt a little caught off guard, what happened to He Ping, how could he suddenly say the truth of his complete thoughts.

Could it be that this He Ping also has a dual personality?

One personality believes that he has done nothing, and the other personality is a profligate person, messing around with flowers and grass and then there is a problem of violence?

If that's the case, the case is even more complicated.

"What do you think I'm going to do? I slept for about three hours, and then I felt so scared, I don't know why I was scared all of a sudden, like I was going to be completely separated from him, and it was an emotionless separation, and he didn't love me anymore? Don't love me at all? He didn't love me before I didn't love him, he didn't even love me to the point that he would rather be with his fans and do such things to others, what an unattractive woman I am, you say? ”

After Bai Lu said this, Mu Chun shook his head vigorously and looked at Bai Lu with a sharp gaze.

"Now is not the time for you to feel sorry for yourself, so you tell me if He Ping looks exactly like two people? Is it that the demeanor and tone of speech are different from He Ping usually? You know him best, has he ever been in such a situation before, I mean the same thing to say two completely different facts? ”

Bai Lu was a little confused by Mu Chun's question, and after thinking for a long time, he shook his head, "No, he has always been a person with a very clear mind, and there has never been such a situation as you said, I can't remember it at all, and I can't think of it." ”

Mu Chun didn't speak.

Bai Lu saw that Mu Chun didn't say anything, and explained: "Really, Doctor Mu, when he said this, it wasn't different from usual, he was still him, I was sure it was him, but his heart changed, he told me that his heart and his body betrayed me, there was no difference, the difference was just feelings." ”

"Then it's strange, what would make him say that all of a sudden? So has He Ping already confessed his guilt? Mu Chun asked.

Bai Lu nodded, "He has already pleaded guilty, he said that he didn't need to trouble me to hire a lawyer, and he didn't want to see me again, he said it very coldly, so indifferent that it was like talking to a stranger or even like he was talking to an enemy, I just wondered if he hated me."

However, it's normal to hate me, what he means is that he knows what I do, so I'm not qualified to accuse him of anything, I just need to accept the current facts, as long as I accept my fate. ”

"So you're not going to get him a lawyer, are you?" Mu Chun frowned tightly, always feeling that things were changing too quickly and too illogically.

Bai Lu giggled, and there was an incomparably strange and sad beauty.

Beautiful faces, ugly and distorted feelings.

On the same face, it's like a demon.

"Bai Lu, calm down." Mu Chun persuaded.

"I don't want to be calm." Bai Lu suddenly stood up and circled the ground a few times, just like the Mongolian dancers.

Then she saw the piano, her upper body was motionless, she dragged her legs to the piano, suddenly opened the piano, and then stood next to the piano, laughing and crying, and then smashed both hands on the piano at the same time.

"What am I calming down? What else do I need to calm down? Everything is self-inflicted, it is all retribution. Bai Lu roared.

Hands raised and smashed, again and again.

The piano let out a trembling sound of despair, and the ghost cried wolf.

At this moment, Liu Tiantian knocked on the door and walked in.

"Doctor Mu, I saw that the takeaway was at the gate of the hospital and I didn't know how to get to you, so I took it and brought it to you." After Liu Tiantian finished speaking, he secretly glanced at Bai Lu, and then asked Mu Chun gently, "What's wrong?" Lose your marbles? ”

Mu Chun called Liu Tiantian aside and said something in her ear.

Liu Tiantian nodded after listening, "I'll go immediately." ”

It wasn't until the tears flowed to the piano keys that Bai Lu regained consciousness, she quickly wiped the tears on the piano keys with her sleeve, turned to Mu Chun and said, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, such a good piano." ”

"The porridge is cold, let's drink a little."

"Okay." Bai Lu wiped her tears and walked to the table with sobs.

After being drunk, crying, and crazy, Bai Lu was indeed hungry, and ate half a bowl of porridge in three or two clicks, and after eating, her mood was slightly better.

Mu Chungang wanted to say that He Ping's matter had many doubts and needed to be re-discussed with Bai Lu, but Bai Lu didn't let Mu Chun open his mouth and said: "Originally, I prepared Chopin's "Ballade No. 2 in F Major" Op. 38 for the second qualifier on the 21st, but I didn't have a chance to play, I mean that my performance career as a pianist has completely ended, it seems to be just a childhood dream, and now it is the end of the dream."

At first, I didn't feel bad, because the feeling of dying was so scary and fresh, and the doctor could understand what I meant? The neat music in the tranquility, suddenly mixed with the puppets of chaos, those puppets clad in black and white keys, were demonic melodies, they were not angelic gospels, but demonic melodies, and suddenly flowed from my fingertips, first one, then two, I was like a deer lost in the jungle, without direction, I was afraid, I was desperate to catch those right sounds, as if I was running on four fragile legs through a leafy forest trail, with the sound of constantly crumbling leaves and cracking dirt under my feet, Overhead, there were dark clouds and heavy rain was coming.

Eventually, I fainted, unconscious, and I saw in my eyes countless shadows of light, like insects of all colors, and then I heard a lot of people talking, and the voices were very noisy, very, very noisy.

I felt that my body was unusually big, very, very huge, and the piano around me was shrinking, very small, very small, and finally only the size of my palm, and the stage behind me was getting smaller and smaller, and when I was smaller than me, I began to be afraid, but it was useless to be afraid, it became narrower and narrower, and finally it became a cylinder, and then it became a sharp knife, and then the last one became a needle, and this needle pierced my skirt, and I felt that it was piercing my skirt and slowly touching my skin

It is a predictable pain. That's when I started panicking, I shouted, yelled, and no one paid any attention to me.

The forest changed, the sky became the color of honey, and then it began to melt, and it was not rain that fell, there was wind around, but it was not the wind in the ordinary world, the wind around it had a smell, a very lonely smell, I don't know how to describe the smell of loneliness, probably when I was a child, it suddenly rained on the way home from the rain, and the cement I smelled under the viaduct mixed with the fishy smell of the earth, in short, I really smelled a certain smell at that time, and then I thought that this smell was loneliness, Loneliness that will never be redeemed, endless loneliness is a taste.

So there is no music that can express loneliness, no, not at all.

Then I don't know how long it has been, but for me it has been a lifetime, and I thought that maybe I was going to die, because death is eternal loneliness, so I should smell death.

The sky suddenly began to melt at an accelerated rate, like the solidified honey in the refrigerator suddenly began to flow down, many, many, many, all the plants that were touched by the honey accelerated again, so fast, so fast, a rose grew rapidly, and became a huge rose, it did not know that it had stopped and there was no sign of withering, it was like going to the sky to eat the honey in the sky, or to become a part of the sky

Then I noticed that the trees next to me were also growing wildly, and as you chased me, all the plants crowded together because of the overgrowth, and at last they turned the whole sky into a fresco-like picture of plants, like the roof of a church.

I began to feel hopeless, completely immobile, and I realized that they were about to turn around and fall down on me, and the huge roses opened their mouths, and every leaf was full of eyes.

In my ears were all the piano music I had practiced all my life, every line was clear, every chord was even and smooth.

I began to enter the tranquility and neatness of Bach's music, I began to stop panicking, I gradually did not feel afraid, but looked forward to, come, all down, bury me completely.

Before the last fear arrived, I felt like my body had turned into a sword, and then, I cut through the space where the vines entwined, and by the time I woke up, I was in the hospital. ”

Mu Chun listened to all this quietly, and Bai Lu smiled, "The feeling of dying once is actually very vocal." ”

Bai Lu's words didn't match the preamble, but Mu Chun still understood what Bai Lu wanted to express.

"Since you have died once, since you have become a sword, you should no longer hide in the scabbard, have you ever thought that instead of being sad and depressed, it is better to work hard, maybe trying to live is the best way to be ignored all the time."

Mu Chun tried to say what he thought, he didn't expect that just these words would be able to make Bai Lu change immediately, her sadness and guilt, there were a lot of them on both sides, just like a war, and after the fight, they were mixed together, and a variety of emotions were intertwined, and in the end it would make people powerless, irritable, and overwhelmed.

Bai Lu drank the last bit of porridge and seemed to have recovered a lot, "So when I woke up, I only knew that I wasn't dead, I didn't think about the piano competition at all, and then there was my husband's matter, which I also remembered later, last night I got drunk and realized that I was really a very selfish person, because when I just woke up from a coma, I didn't think that he was involved in a case, a case, a criminal case."

Then, I woke up this morning, in fact, I didn't think about that, the first thing I thought about was whether my piano career was over, my last performance was over before it started, my life, all the persistence and hard work of my little half of my life was gone, and I blame myself?