We stayed up that night, the tea in the cups had already cooled, but the light in the small living room was still warm. We all sat on the carpet, leaning against the sofa, so close that we could almost hear each other's heartbeats, but the voices that came from each other seemed very, very ethereal and distant.

Maybe I didn't really fall in love with Anxin, maybe I already loved her too much, and when she said the other man she loved, I didn't have disappointment, I didn't feel disgusted, I calmly accepted and looked at this strange man in my heart.

His name is Zhang Tiejun, he is older than me, and he was twenty-seven years old when he fell in love with An Xin two and a half years ago. He graduated from the famous Yunnan University and studied journalism, and after graduation, he was assigned to the Propaganda Department of the Municipal Party Committee in Guangping City, Yunnan Province, and worked as an officer in the Information Department. His hometown is in Guangping. His father is the principal of Guangping Teachers College, and his mother is the secretary general of the Guangping Women's Federation. Although the Women's Federation is a social organization in nature, it should be regarded as an official organization in China, and the secretary general of the Women's Federation can be regarded as a political figure of no small size. The Guangping Teachers College, where his father worked, was jointly organized by the province and Guangping, and was one of the only three nationally recognized colleges and universities in Guangping. Therefore, it can be said that the Zhang family is in Guangping, which can be regarded as a prominent family.

Zhang Tiejun himself is not an ordinary person. He was well acquainted with people from radio, television, and newspapers. In recent years, news units can also be classified as "organs of power," and they have the "right to supervise" and "the right to speak," and they can intervene in the news of a certain unit and a certain person anytime and anywhere. The Information Department of the Propaganda Department of the Municipal Party Committee is in charge of them, so can they have no power? In Guangping, Zhang Tiejun is very convenient for doing anything.

Such a background, power, and education...... According to Anxin, a young man who also has the ability to fall in love with Anxin, a girl from a remote mountainous area.

Anxin participated in the taekwondo team of Baoshan District Sports School when he was in middle school, and represented Baoshan in the provincial taekwondo championships, and won a gold medal for the region. And because of this specialty, she went to college for a year in the morning, and after she passed the national unified college entrance examination at the age of seventeen, she was preemptively accepted by the Physical Education Department of Guangping Normal College. She met Zhang Tiejun because Tiejun's father was seriously ill and hospitalized, and it was the last winter vacation of Anxin in Guangping Normal College, and the student union in the school organized students who did not leave the school to accompany them in shifts, and she met the principal's son at the hospital bed. Among all the accompanying students, the most satisfying thing for Tie Jun's mother is peace of mind. I'm absolutely convinced of this, and Anxin is indeed a very good girl. Perhaps Tie Jun's mother fell in love with this diligent, simple and beautiful girl at first sight, and after Tie Jun's father was critically ill, she asked the student union to arrange a fixed escort for peace of mind. For twenty days, Anxin ate and lived in the hospital, and together with Tie Jun's mother and son, he sent the old principal to the end. The funeral has just been completed, and happy events are coming one after another, and Tie Jun and Anxin have officially confirmed their relationship. Tie Jun was originally interested in Anxin, but he still entrusted his mother's big media, and his mother officially came forward to match. Although the school clearly stipulates that students are not allowed to fall in love, the successor school leaders are all old subordinates of Tiejun's father, and they are very supportive of this golden and jade relationship in private. It's just a bunch of stupid boys like me who are suffering from lovesickness for peace of mind like now. No one thought that this most outstanding girl in the school would become famous so quickly, and she was a master who no one could provoke.

What does this Zhang Tiejun look like? Is he pretty? That's one of my biggest concerns. This is, of course, out of a very normal psychology. Because everyone will not be able to control their low-level naivety at a certain moment, for example, they like to make all kinds of comparisons with their rivals, and they like to attack their weaknesses with their own strengths and use them as fast. Fortunately, Anxin is very frank, and his evaluation of Zhang Tiejun is blunt: "He is not beautiful, an ordinary person." Even though she said that, I wanted to know in more detail: "How tall is he?" "When I asked, I deliberately looked around, making a casual appearance, as if I was asking casually without intention, and smiled at ease." Half a head shorter than you," she said, "and she's fat." ”

Okay, I feel a little better in my heart, and in my imagination, I summarize this Zhang Tiejun as a short fat man. Later, I saw a photo of him at Anxin, and it was a photo with Anxin. I don't know if the photographer took too good a picture of him, much better than my malicious imagination, very decent appearance, national cadre-like expression and temperament, with outdated suits, the overall feeling is relatively loyal.

But Anxin is too small to be with him, and in my opinion, the two of them are not a good match at all.

I asked Anxin: Do you really love him? This is the question I want her to tell the truth and the one I fear her most to tell the truth. Anxin has not given a positive answer to this question for a long time. From a secular point of view, a family like Zhang Tiejun is an ideal destination for a girl like An Xin who came out of a remote mountainous area. In real life, it is enough to be able to enter the mainstream society in a big city in such a step. As for love, love can be cultivated slowly. That kind of love at first sight is short-lived, and short-lived things are inevitably empty, so it's okay not to pursue them.

This night was very important to me, not only because Anxin told me about her love with someone else with extraordinary trust, but also because it was this night of heartfelt conversation that pushed my crush on this girl from fantasy to reality. The memory of sitting on my knees with peace of mind is very warm, and many details are still vivid in my mind. As the sky was about to shine brightly and there was a thin layer of misty morning light on the window, I kissed me softly. I kissed her hand, and she didn't dodge and didn't respond.

I asked: Do you really love him?

She was silent.

After this sleepless night, my relationship with An Xin seems to have taken a subtle turn. Confiding in each other about one's past can quickly make each other feel at home. I resumed my accounting course, which had been interrupted for a while, so that I could use my car to and from the car every day to get back and forth. There is more and more nothing to talk about between us, and the topics are becoming more and more boundless. I also told her about the romances that I had since I was in middle school, and that most of the girls I had a good time with were not recognizable, but I always portrayed them as traditional and trendy, each with a shy and closed moon. I didn't mention Zhong Ning, and I haven't made up my mind to tell Zhong Ning about my relationship with him.

Our topic is more about that Zhang Tiejun. I would certainly like to know more about who he really is – is he talented? Is it good-tempered? Loyal to women? In my words: to spend or not to spend? And his mother, the widow of the principal who is also a leading cadre herself, is she an amiable and easy to get along with?

An Xin did not hide her evaluation of Tie Jun: he is capable and highly regarded in the unit; It is also quite open in society; People are very honest and introverted, and they don't have joy, anger, sorrow or happiness on their faces. Anxin feels that men should be like this, and men should be mature and hidden. In her description, this Zhang Tiejun seems to be full of merit and masculine charm. Does he have any shortcomings? I found that what I was really interested in was his shortcomings. "There are shortcomings, there are also shortcomings, is it still called a person without shortcomings?" Anxin said, "He is a little cautious, narrow-minded, and does not have much energy. Of course, there are some things I did wrong, and I can't blame him. ”

I asked, "You can't tolerate men's narrowness so much?" ”

She replied, "Not necessarily, it depends on what happens." ”

I asked, "What's the last thing you can tolerate?" ”

She thought for a moment and replied, "Lying, the last thing I can tolerate, is for a man to lie." ”

I didn't ask any more, my face was already a little hot at this point, and I even suspected that I already knew about my relationship with Zhong Ning.

I looked left and right and said to him: "When he comes to Beijing, you let me meet him." ”

Anxin asked, "Who?" ”

I said, "That Zhang Tiejun of yours." Did he come to Beijing to see you, did he know that you were so hard in Beijing? ”

An assuring gaze took away from my face, and after a moment of silence, he said, "We are separated, and he doesn't want me anymore." ”

I was stunned and a little surprised: "Yes, you don't want him, right?" ”

An Xin shook his head, and suddenly there were some shining tears in his eyes, and the topic ended there. She said, "I don't want to talk about that, let's talk about something else." ”

Her expression made me seem to understand everything, and I immediately guessed that the reason why she came to Beijing alone was probably because she had just experienced a failed relationship.

From then on, I no longer took the initiative to talk about anything about Zhang Tiejun. Everyone has their own scars, not to mention that Anxin looks like such a weak girl. If you love this girl, you should protect every inch of her skin, including the scars that are still bleeding or have healed.

But the next day, Anxin seemed to heal the scar and forgot the pain, she still talked to me about Tie Jun, and talked about all kinds of life situations when she and Tie Jun were together, and some interesting things. In front of me, she didn't even hide her nostalgia for Tie Jun, between her words and eyebrows, she could see it. She said that Tiejun had always been kind to her. When she was in school, she had to go to Tie Jun's house for dinner every weekend and Sunday, and Tie Jun's mother liked her very much, treating her like a daughter. After she graduated, in order to let her stay in Guangping, Tie Jun's mother ran around and made a lot of connections. Although Anxin finally failed to stay in Guangping as he wished, Tiejun's mother and son did their best. Maybe they didn't get the idea, maybe Tie Jun's father was not in power or not, the people were warm and cold, the world was hot and cold, this social reality is very real. Anxin was later assigned to the border city of Nande, which no one wanted to go to.

She was assigned to a secondary school in South Germany as a physical education teacher.

This was in 1998, when the Education Commission issued a circular demanding that all localities ensure that graduates assigned to the old and young in the marginal and poor areas arrive on time, and that those who refuse to obey the assignment must be severely dealt with until their academic qualifications are revoked. In this general situation, although Tiejun's mother and son continue to make efforts in all aspects, they still have to pack their bags and go to the start-up middle school in Nande.

When I was a student at the University of Mining and Technology in Beijing, I knew there was such a place as Nande. This place is not only in Yunnan and its surrounding provinces, but also in the north, and is also familiar to many people. There is nothing special about South Germany and there is nothing special about it, but it is famous – and it makes the locals blush a bit – because of a plant that is the famous poppy. South Germany itself does not produce opium poppies, but it is the closest Chinese city to the Golden Triangle, the world's largest poppy-producing region. The city is surrounded on three sides by the perennial Nanmeng, and a clear and shallow Nanmeng River flows silently from the edge of the city, and then crosses the Nanmeng Valley to find the source in the direction of the Nu River. This city surrounded by mountains and rivers has the same natural beauty as the poppies, and beneath the façade of beauty lies a well-known evil. South Germany, with its unavoidable geographical location, has become a well-known stronghold for the transshipment of the drug trade.

I once smiled and asked Anxin: Didn't you take two puffs before you approached the water? Anxin also smiled, but after laughing, he didn't let me laugh: don't laugh, even the students in our school have a lot of sucking, I don't lie to you!

I think, peace of mind is really unlucky, how can I be unbiased and unlucky to be in such an unlucky place.

Nande is more than 400 kilometers away from Guangping. Every month, the Iron Army takes the train to travel between the two places to get together with peace of mind. Occasionally, I can ask for leave to come and go back to Guangping, of course, sometimes I have to go back to Qingmian to see her parents. The director of Anxin's teaching and research department and Anxin's top boss, surnamed Pan, is an old physical education teacher who is nearly half a hundred years old and takes good care of her. Although there are fewer physical education teachers and more classes, in the first half year of working in Nande, Anxin was allowed to return to Guangping three times and return to Qingmian once.

To my ears, the relationship between Anxin and Tiejun, because they are separated by two places, need to travel back and forth on the railway, but it seems lingering and moving. The accumulation of emotions is always inseparable from waiting and concern, as well as parting and reunion. Their experience doubled the temptation to wonder what had caused their final departure. Is it discord, not speculative, or unbearable long-term separation? Or is there a dramatic "third party" that triggers an emotional crisis?

The topic of "third parties" is something I have always avoided. Although the relationship between me and Zhong Ning is not a lifelong decision, is my relationship with Anxin a third party for Zhong Ning? Judging by my appearance alone, maybe both of these women thought I was a pretty pure kind of boy, and probably they didn't think that there was another woman next to me.

The deeper the relationship with Anxin, the more difficult it is to hide the secret, at least the coaches and students of the taekwondo gym have already seen some clues. and Uncle Zhang, who was the doorkeeper that night, usually gossiped, and it was particularly unfortunate that the first time I had that kind of relationship with An Xin, I was bumped into by this old guy.

That day, I sent Anxin back to the sports school after class, and it was not too late, so I went to her cabin to sit and chat. Her house was a makeshift brick building, so small that it could only fit a narrow bed, so we took off our shoes and went to bed and leaned side by side against the wall to talk. Our topic is no longer so much about looking back on the past as about looking forward to the future. That night, we both excitedly asked each other what we most wanted in the future. I talked about me first, and I said that I was most eager to get someone I loved. Anxin said that I am the opposite of you, I want to get someone who loves me the most. We announced our desires to each other, and then fell silent. That's when I embraced peace of mind. I hugged her tightly and I whispered in her ear that I said I was the one who loved you. Anxin shed tears. It was the first time Anxin had asked me to hug her like this. She hugged me too. She wept silently in my arms. I don't know how deeply traumatized she had before, but her tears still moved me to tears.

It was on that night that we finally became one, a longing that I had been unable to fulfill for a long time, and the long-awaited hunger made me even more insane. My strength and breath were like that of a young beast fighting for the first time, and I really wanted to squeeze the weak body in my arms to pieces. The performance of peace of mind is very restrained, almost too passive, and there seems to be no obvious **. This made me and her first ** a little unsatisfying, and I still felt like I was still unfinished when it was over. I've always liked that the other person has a strong reaction to doing this kind of thing, and I will only get the most satisfaction if both parties are fully committed and then have that harmonious and resonant effect.

Perhaps, it was the long-stored passion that made my ** come too fast, and I was vented before I fully entered the rhythm. Thankfully, we ended quickly, and while I was catching my breath, there was a knock on the door. There was a loud knock on the door, banging like a bandit robbing a house.

I was startled, and my face was even more earthy, and I could feel her heart beating violently under me. She shuddered and asked:

"Who?"

Outside the door, it was Uncle Zhang's rough voice: "Peace of mind, phone!" ”

Anxin pushed me away, sat up in a panic, and quickly got dressed with his back to me. This ending made me bored, and I silently put on my clothes. Anxin ran out to answer the phone. I slowly put on my shoes, grabbed my backpack, and closed the door for her. Passing by the taekwondo gym with the dark lights and no one, I walked to the communication room at the gate of the sports school, and I saw that Anxin was still talking on the phone inside. Uncle Zhang stood behind her, through the window, stretched his neck, scrutinized, and even looked at me with some disgust, the meaning in his eyes was that what are you doing here at such a late hour! I didn't look at him, and said to Anxin: "Anxin, I'm leaving." ”

Anxin only cared about calling her, and only responded hurriedly with an expression. I walked out of the gate of the Beijing Normal Sports School. I heard Uncle Zhang locking the door behind me.

The next day, I went to the taekwondo gym to train as usual, and I didn't see Anxin. At the end of the training, the coach suddenly walked over to me and said, "Yang Rui, you stay for a while." My face turned red all at once, my heart was too weak to do anything, my head was sweating immediately, and my throat was tight, but I was thankfully able to keep my composure. I pretended to ask casually: Is there something wrong with the coach? The coach couldn't see the slightest rain or snow on his face, and said: There is something, the club's manager Ma wants to talk to you.

I probably have it in my heart, and at the same time I hate Uncle Zhang on the night shift to the root of my teeth, and I don't have to guess to know that it must be his old stinky mouth that has spread right and wrong again. But when I walked into the club's office, I was a little surprised, and the usually serious manager Ma not only immediately stood up to greet me, but also smiled: "Come on, come on, come on!" You are Yang Rui, please sit down. You've just graduated from college, right? ”

I sat down on the broken sofa that had been crooked, and the second monk was confused, and I asked, "Manager Ma, is there anything wrong with me?" ”

Manager Ma replied: "I heard that you are practicing quite well in your class, your figure, long hands and long legs, is really material for practicing taekwondo." You didn't participate in the last competition, right, it's a pity, you can get a ranking if you participate, your coach told me. ”

I said, "I broke my foot last time." Manager Ma, do you have something to do with me? ”

Manager Ma then got back to business: "Ah, there is such a thing, I heard from our people here that you have a girlfriend who is ......."

I immediately picked up the conversation quickly: "Manager Ma, who said I have a girlfriend, are you listening to your nonsense here......"

Manager Ma squinted: "Hey, don't you have a girlfriend, they say your girlfriend is ......"

I interrupted him again with a firm attitude: "No, they must be spreading rumors, I found that some people in our sports school are okay and don't stay in the old love to spread right and wrong!" ”

Manager Ma blinked and frowned: "Yo, I really didn't just hear one person say that your girlfriend is from what group...... Oh yes, it's Guoning Group! ”

I was stunned for a moment, and then blurted out: "Oh, you mean the one from Guoning Group......"

"Yes, yes," Manager Ma smiled apologetically, "It's this from Guoning Group, I know that Guoning Group is very powerful." Hey, you can help me inquire if their group is interested in cooperating with our club or something. Now sports is also an emerging industry, in China, the sports industry has not been fully developed, so the market prospect is still very large. An entrepreneur with a vision, I believe he will set his sights on sports! If sports are done well, they can still make a lot of money, like the Chicago Bulls in the NBA, like the Red Devils and Manchester United in football......"

Oh, that's what it was. I breathed a sigh of relief. Secretly happy, he immediately said that he could help convey their meaning, and it would not be a problem to invite the Zhong family brothers and sisters to meet. Seeing that I was so big and patted my chest, Manager Ma came up excitedly and shook my hand, and said a lot of things about developing sports, enhancing the greatness of people's physique, and making money. He politely sent me out of the office and sent me to the gate of the sports school, which made many coaches and classmates who left late stunned.

I quickly facilitated a meeting between Zhong Ning and her brother Zhong Guoqing and Manager Ma, and during the meeting, Manager Ma pulled in the director of the sports committee and the deputy director of the district. The atmosphere and outcome of the meeting were even better than I expected, and the more they talked, the more they talked, the more they agreed, and they were a bit of a bit of a moment of meeting and hitting it off.

This meeting was at the table of Shunfeng Restaurant, and I also participated in this dinner as an introducer for both parties. They talked a few more times, and I didn't go back to it. But I know that the agreement was reached quickly, the Beijing Normal Sports School invested in land, and Guoning Group invested in cash, and the two sides established a new Guoning Taekwondo Club Co., Ltd. The new company will invest 9 million yuan to build a large-scale Guoning Taekwondo Gym, which is said to be the most × taekwondo gym in Beijing, China and Asia.

This incident has had a great impact on me, after all, this is the first major event I participated in in my life, I feel very extraordinary, and my dedication has been induced and encouraged, and I feel that I am as idle and boring as before, chasing girls and playing computer games all day long, it is too wasteful of youth and too boring.

Then, after a few nights of deep thought, one morning, I pushed the window and saw the rising sun, and I felt a sense of rebirth. That morning, I found Zhong Ning and asked her for something. Zhong Ning is very happy with this change in me, she has always hoped that I can be a successful man in my career, which may be the common expectation of women for men. Now that I finally have a sense of professionalism, of course, she fully supported me, and soon made me the deputy commander of the Guoning Taekwondo Gym project, assisting the project commander to learn to do some engineering infrastructure business. Zhong Ning was also afraid that I would think this errand was too hard and tiring, so he repeatedly told me that all those who achieve great things in the industry start from the actual process of a specific project.

In fact, I am already very satisfied with this errand and this position, and I am no longer the arrogant and lazy guy I used to be. The discovery of a new self and reflection on the past made me feel emotionally high when I threw myself into a new job, and at the same time, I unconsciously alienated my peace of mind. Perhaps this is also a common problem of men - they get tired of getting a woman's flesh. In terms of sexuality, my interest in peace of mind has also rapidly diminished as my curiosity has disappeared, and I no longer have the unbearable expectation and anxiety of seeing peace of mind.

I interrupted my accounting class again, and on the grounds that I was too busy with work, I no longer picked up and dropped off, and even stopped going to taekwondo gyms to train. Our engineering headquarters has set up two offices in the Guoning Company building, and I am busy in them every day. The experience of the new officer taking office three times, and the deputy commander-in-chief's experience of calling Bainuo made my nerves in a state of excitement, and I temporarily lost interest in other things, and this position at work naturally made me far away from peace of mind and close to Zhong Ning.

The one who is most happy about my change of evil and return to righteousness should be Liu Minghao. As soon as I took office, Liu Minghao was very enthusiastic and sticky, wanting to invite me to dinner, and wanted to get a job here. I ate the rice, Liu Minghao's food is not eaten in vain, but there is no work. I said to Liu Minghao: "It's air conditioning again, isn't it?" Guoning Mineral Water Plant didn't use your air conditioner, didn't you smash it? Liu Minghao glared anxiously and said: "My air conditioner is really good, the main engine in the United States ......" I interrupted him: "The air conditioner belongs to the equipment, and the equipment is still purchased by the group's supply department through unified bidding." I'm not in the supply department now, now I'm in the engineering headquarters, I'm only in charge of civil engineering, why didn't you think about opening a construction company earlier? ”

Before my teasing smile could be withdrawn, Liu Minghao climbed up along my pole: "Construction company? Yes! Longhua Building Decoration Engineering Company, have you heard of it? Why haven't I heard of it, there is a national second-level qualification, that's mine. ”

"Yours?" I didn't believe it at all, "I've known you since I was in middle school, and I've never heard of you contributing to the building of socialism." ”

Liu Minghao smiled: "This is a buddy's company, and I recently bought 10% of the shares." Now there is really nothing to do, and everything you do loses money. People let me stock also look at my relationship in all aspects. You're going to have to help your big brother once anyway, right? ”

I blinked my eyes and was stunned for a long time before I said, "How can you be everywhere!" ”

Indeed, Liu Minghao is my eldest brother, and he has helped me and our family before. Now is the time for me to have a chance to help him. So I made another introducer, let Liu Minghao treat, I invited my top boss, Bian Xiaojun, the commander-in-chief of our engineering headquarters, to Jinjiang Mansion on the third floor of the Asia Hotel, and listened to Liu Minghao's buddy in the dinner room, the boss of Longhua Building Decoration Engineering Company, to introduce the situation and promote himself. At first it was nothing, they said, we listened, occasionally asked some questions, all serious. Bian Xiaojun left first before finishing because he had another party. A few of us continued to eat until we were full of wine and food, and after paying the bill, before we sat down, the boss of Longhua Construction Company suddenly took out a bulging envelope, pushed it in front of me against the table, and said, "Thank you!" ”

I have never experienced such a scene, a little overwhelmed, I turned my face to look at Liu Minghao, and said: "What is this, no need, Liu Minghao, we are old friends, and I don't know if this thing will be successful." ”

The boss said, "Business is not benevolent, let's make friends." ”

Liu Minghao followed to help: "Take it, it's not polite, this is the rule of this industry." ”

My face was red, it was the first time in my twenty-two years of life that I had encountered such a thing. Although this kind of thing has long been accustomed to being heard and natural, it is still a little unnatural when I encounter it for the first time, and it seems that it is very uncomfortable to take it or not. I didn't know what to say for a while, so I said, "I'm young, it's not good, forget it......"

Liu Minghao said: "In the construction industry, there is this money in the expenditure items, anyway, the company's accounts have already opened this money, if you don't want us to spend it ourselves." ”

Liu Minghao picked up the envelope as he said and stuffed it directly into my backpack. I didn't say anything more, but said, "Okay, I'll bring it to us." ”

Longhua's boss said: "This is yours, and we have another one there." ”

Despite that, I put the kickback of up to 20,000 yuan on the desk of my boss, Bian Xiaojun, early the next morning. Bian Xiaojun has been engaged in infrastructure construction for many years, and he is not surprised by this kind of thing. And in his eyes, I am a boy with a background, so he has always been polite to me, so he said lightly without even opening the envelope:

"Isn't it just a kickback, you take it."

That night, Zhong Ning went to Nanjing to attend the wedding of one of her sisters, and I went to the airport to see her off, and I told her about money on the way. Zhong Ning said calmly: "Ah, I already know about this, Lao Bian will let you take it." ”

I said, "As soon as I came up, I took kickbacks so blatantly, so that the people below knew that they were not all messing around." ”

Zhong Ning smiled, kissed me, and said, "I'm not wrong, I just like men with backbone." You can take the money. Rebates are the kind of money that can be taken as long as it is approved by the company. ”

Seeing off Zhong Ning, I returned home from the airport. It was still early and there was nothing to do, so I turned on the light, turned on the TV, and slowly undressed, watching TV as I took it off. There is a domestic police movie playing on TV, I don't know the title, and I don't know much about the plot from half of it. Domestic films are now also good people, bad people are not bad, I watched it naked for a long time and couldn't tell the difference between right and wrong, good and evil, and finally I couldn't stand the cold, so I gave up those scenes of fighting and killing, and went to the bathroom to take a hot shower. After taking a shower, I dried my body, wore a half-wet bath towel, read the evening newspaper, and half-read the message recording that I remembered to turn on the phone. In the recording, there is a reassuring voice, she has called several times in the past few days, and I come home too late every day so I never answered. If I want to call back, I have to go through Uncle Zhang who is on night duty, and I don't want that Uncle Zhang to knock on the door of peace of mind like an open flame again.

Anxin's voice in the recording was obviously a little complaining: "Yang Rui, aren't you here again?" You haven't been home for a few days, can you take the time to call me back? I chewed on her tone, as if she suspected that I was actually deliberately not answering the phone at home, how could I call "aren't you there?" Of course I'm not here! I hesitated for a while, dialed the phone to the Beijing Normal Sports School, but I couldn't escape from the fact that Uncle Zhang answered, probably heard that it was me, as soon as I opened my mouth, I was not angry, and said: "I went out with peace of mind, not there!" He deliberately asked me, "Who are you?" I said, "I'm sorry for you, I'll fight again." He hung up the phone. I think I'm taking classes at the Cultural Palace in Dongcheng District at this time.

I walked out of the house, drove the car, and drove towards the Cultural Palace in Dongcheng District, a little hesitant. When I think about it, I still like peace of mind, but I'm starting to realize that it's just a teenage passion. This passion may be merely a lust in nature. Theoretically, this pleasure of both sexes attracting and pleasing each other cannot last long. Perhaps it was the hot work experience these days that gave me this awakening - for my career and future, it is clear that Zhong Ning is more suitable for me than peace of mind. At the beginning of a man's and a woman's love, sexual attraction is often the most important and overpowering, and later, sex often becomes the least important. Anxin's continuous phone calls also gave me a faint worry, I think she won't stick to me in the future, I can't get rid of it.

The car drove to the Cultural Palace, and it was not yet time to get out of class. I didn't go in, just sat in the car and waited. When the time came for the end of class, people began to come out one after another, but until everyone was gone, there was no peace of mind. I locked the car door and went up to find her. When I went upstairs, I found that the lights in the classroom were dark and the hallway was empty. I thought about it and decided to drive to the Beijing Normal Sports School to have a look.

There are few cars at night, and it takes only two cigarettes from the Cultural Palace of Dongcheng District to the Beijing Normal Sports School. Most of the intersection of the sports school was stopped because of road repairs, and the car could not get in, so I had to park the car on the side of the road, and then get out of the car and walk inside. The big iron door of the sports school has been closed, I hesitated, but still knocked on the door, and it was still the same Uncle Zhang who opened the door, and before I could open my mouth, he said in a rough voice: "I didn't come back!" I asked, "Do you know where she went?" Uncle Zhang said with a straight face: "I don't know." What's the matter with her? I thought to myself, can you control my business, I suppressed the fire and asked, "What time does she usually come back these days?" Uncle Zhang replied fiercely: "What are you looking for her?" I'll talk about it tomorrow, she often didn't come back at night a while ago. ”

I know that the time he called the first time was the time when he was at ease in my house to take care of me. I didn't ask any more questions, thanked me politely, and walked back. As soon as I walked out of the intersection of the ditch and the bumpy road, I didn't even walk to my car, but I inadvertently saw peace of mind when I looked up and looked sideways.

An Xin stood across the street, with her back to an unattended traffic booth where she was whispering to a man in the shadows. No, exactly, she was crying to this man! - Even though we are across the road, with the reflection of the street lamps on the ground, I can still see her wiping her tears with the back of her hand without difficulty. I could also see the not-so-young face of the man across from her without any difficulty, and see the dull and helpless expression on that face.