Sure enough, people who contact me when I'm in a terrible mood tend to make the mood worse.

- I'm really afraid of something, Murphy's Law.

This is the third time that the landlord has called me, and I am a little tired, but I still choose to connect.

"Yun Qian, when will you transfer the money for my rent to me? The contract said that the bet will pay one, and you have postponed it for 3 days. ”

"Aunt Huang, I'...... Didn't I tell you before, the company hasn't paid this month's salary yet, and I'll pay you the salary on the 10th of next month! Aunt Huang, you are accommodating...... It's not easy for me to just graduate...... Rest assured...... I'll transfer it to you as soon as the salary is paid......"

The landlord was immediately dissatisfied after listening to my words, and I could imagine her hideous expression over the phone, only to hear her say loudly: "I don't care what your reason is, you college students, you can't afford to pay the rent, then pack up and go home!" Don't blame my aunt for being ruthless, I'll give you another week, move out without paying the rent, don't think about returning the deposit! ”

"Aunt Huang, I... Hey..."

Before I could finish my sentence, I hung up on the other end of the phone.

People are under the roof, I have to bow my head, I don't have any emotional fluctuations, it seems that I am more open than many people, I can empathize, I am overdue, and I can give me a week, which is already a very good result.

Is it really that hard to get a place in the light?

Facing unemployment and sleeping on the streets, it is not so much about the warmth of people as it is better to say:

It seems to be more indifferent than people is this brightly lit city, which has experienced the vicissitudes of life and death, separation and integration, it is just a huge carrier, welcoming the people who come, sending away the departing, again and again.

We are really too small, every emotion is insignificant, but it is these insignificant emotions that can kill people, such as me now! I can't ask for a bowl of hot porridge, I can't ask for a caring woman, snuggle up and whisper a few words, telling me that I am not alone in the face of this cold city.

On this night, I was more lonely and had no one to share, so I lit a cigarette and hoped that the dregs in my heart would be transferred to the smoke and disappear with the air.

O man! It's really fragile, killed by money, killed by the virus, so why don't you train yourself to be strong while you're alive!

After a cigarette, I came to the yard to put the purple tulip "Senada Blue" I planted half a month ago into the house, I looked into the flower pot, still did not sprout, the bulb is like a shy little boy, has been lowering his head and does not dare to look at the girl, I am looking forward to the day when this little boy has buds to be released, to have the courage to look at the girl wearing a short skirt outside the yard.

I like flowers and plants, I like a house with a yard, and if I form my own family in the future, I have imagined countless times that I will plant all kinds of flowers and plants, and then water, fertilize, loosen the soil, and prune together......

This is also when I was looking for an intermediary company to rent a house, I deliberately asked the salesman to have a yard, who thought that the real estate salesman really found this house, the rent is in line with the W market, a two-bedroom house, the landlord blocked a room can not be used, there is a living room, a dining room, a yard rent of 1200 yuan a month, it is more cost-effective.

Later, I had a good chat with the salesman, and I went to his company to interview for work under his influence, we are in the same company, but not in the same store.

I thought that I could earn more than 10,000 yuan a month like a colleague in the store, who knew that only if I really did it, I knew that it was impossible to make money without half a year or even more than a year to learn and exercise, I just graduated in this sales industry that relies on performance, and my wallet is not supported by a little deposit, and I can't stick to it at all, even if I turn positive, as long as there is no performance, I can only get about 1,000 yuan in salary, which is a long process, and I can't afford to spend it for me to graduate and enter the society.

Brewed a cup of tea, relieve stress, tea is Qingming pre-Qingming tea, a few days ago on my birthday a good friend in my hometown "Sikong Yunqian" sent over, recently with him a little less contact, he has been busy running his small shop, online and offline busy.

Lying on the bed, I opened the WeChat band group, and there were only 6 people left of the 8 people, Xia Qing and Wenwen quit the group shortly after graduation, leaving only a separate contact information.

When Wenwen was in the band, she played the role of acoustic guitar, a female student in the band, and her personality was sometimes quiet and sometimes cold.

Everyone knows that the captain liked her the day she joined the band, and the two often fought and quarreled, but they never achieved a positive result, and after graduation, the captain finally confessed to Wenwen again.

As far as I know, the captain is just afraid that he will never have a chance in the future, so he gives it a go, if Wenwen can agree, he will stay in W City to fight, who would have thought! Wenwen rejected him again, and the captain went up and pestered him endlessly, and finally... Wenwen couldn't stand it, deleted the captain, and retired the group about the captain.

This is when I chatted with Wenwen, she said that I knew that it was the reason, a pity! This may be what the ancients often said, "falling flowers are intentionally ruthless", lovers can't do it, even ordinary friends can't do it.

The captain (Lao Kang) was grief-stricken, and he was relieved, and decided to go back to his hometown to work, with the goal of opening a piano shop. The day he walked into the terminal with his guitar, I saw him off, said a few words of care, and gave him a hug until his back disappeared from my view.

Drummer (Qiqi), bassist (Kun Kun) We have gossiped in private, the captain is not suitable for Wenwen, and Wenwen will not take a fancy to him, so the man who can make Wenwen look at is at least not in our band.

Wenwen is the only one who has both hobbies and studies, and now she has been successfully admitted to NJ University for graduate school, and has gone to another city for graduate studies.

Kun Kun went to Hong Kong City, near the sea in the province, where his girlfriend went to school, rented a house, and found a job as a bar singer, singing Chengdu, singing Anhe Bridge, and singing Nanshannan.

Yang Yang (DJ) relies on his skills to DJ, mixing in various music festivals, bars and nightclubs and other activities.

Brother Yu (keyboardist) is the tallest and most handsome man in the whole band, he plays the piano well, and there will be many girls who confess on the wall at the end of every performance, and if they don't play the band, they can only go back to S City to inherit the family's property.

I stayed in W City and I was with Qiqi, for some reason, after graduation, we lived in the same city, but we never contacted each other once, nor did we meet for a drink and a string.

Where did so much laughter come from, most of them are just playing on the spot, we all have our own lives, in the end I found out that I was the most confused, the most helpless, the most miserable one, and what kind of ideals to talk about, the ideal is a beautiful dream hidden in the mirror.

Some people say that I am the kind of person who suffers from gains and losses, but I do not deny or affirm it. I secretly made a decision in my heart that I would go to the company tomorrow to quit my job and find a new job to try.

How nice it would be if this world was not just one world, with different space, space and space, different dimensions, if you don't really fall asleep after falling asleep, but your thoughts go to another dimension.

I don't know what's wrong tonight, I've been thinking about it with my eyes closed, I'm so tired this time, so tossed by work, I don't even know when I'm asleep.