If someone asks me now, do you want meat buns or love? I wouldn't hesitate to tell her I want a meat bun.

Some people exist to prove the importance of another person.

"Luxi, you must forgive me, I didn't tell you, I just don't want you to worry, I may not have time to accompany you, these things should not be borne by you for me, you still have a very good future. Don't worry about me, I won't be out of the picture. I'm going to try to stay alive. Although I don't know where I'm going, you have to believe that I will come back and spend the rest of my life with you all the way. ”

Wang Shiyi is as poor as me, our birth class is at the bottom, and we are struggling for three meals and one warmth every day.

I often sit at the computer and listen to one of Luo Dayou's songs, "The Way You Look".

I lit a cigarette, I didn't take a puff, and the ash fell all over my pants.

Heartbroken, I didn't cry, but all my tears fell on my clothes.

Someone was saying, strange, the man was like a dog.

What kind of dog dog, have you ever seen a dog eat finger cakes and drink soy milk?

In the eyes of the same kind, you are like a lost dog, wagging your tail all day long and begging for mercy, eating feces and drinking urine, in their eyes, this should be your three meals a day. Friend, I hope that humanity will treat you with half the same attitude as Samoyed. After all, you are still a leper dog, waiting to be adopted without a bottom line.

Farming and watering manure, guarding three points of land to build a small bungalow, eating, drinking, and smelling the night fragrance every day.

Time flies not slow at all, counting the days and feeling that the years are long, but if you look back, it will either be many years in a flash, or you will lose many people.

Nowadays, the number of people who can talk all night has decreased in turn, and they are currently a mess. But he is still hiding in the corner without smiling, comfortably refining his literary style. I used to say how the future will be, but now I can only say that it would be nice to go back to the past, and it would be better to grasp the present than to remember the past. In the future, no one can imagine what they will be like.

After the college entrance examination, we said that we would meet again in the future, and we used to have endless topics to talk about together, and now we occasionally meet a few friends who used to be very good to live in the same city, and we have few words when we meet. Some people remembered him. Even passing by the city where he works, he just flipped through his mobile phone and saw the number but didn't call. It turns out that after the meeting, there really wasn't much to say. Even if the old film can be shown once in the mind, it lacks a few pages, does not know the opening chapter, and does not know the end.

has a lot of words to say, but the other side is no longer the same person he once was.

Based on past experience, the parts that cannot be touched now can be told as jokes. We are able to come together because we all have a belly full of jokes.

I don't remember when I stopped being young. Is it the first night of college or the eve of graduation?

To be precise, it should be the early stage of college graduation, the papers have been handed in, waiting for the graduation certificate to come down, and then galloping into the joy of the future, reverie the happiness of the distance.

In 2012, the air was filled with a viscous summer scent.

The first night of college and on-campus. I can't sleep. Because my classmates in the same dormitory were not very familiar, I could only stuff in bed, and the fan above my head sent a weak wind, and the small dormitory space was very stuffy.

Next to my pillow are a couple of letters from my high school classmates. Thinking back to how reluctant I was to separate at the beginning, I brought a lot of my classmates' graduation guest books. Now that I think about it, when we were together, we didn't have so many words to each other, but now, we can write so much to each other, and even go to the courier company to go around and mail some souvenirs from the beginning, maybe it's young impulse and stubbornness, simple, and how much people feel slightly green.

With all my wisdom, I can't describe how boring life is for more than a month on a new campus, and I pray day and night for a holiday, even if I can take a day off, it will be a gift from heaven for me.

Before the holidays, I would also pretend to do a lot of planning, such as going to the movies, going on a cross-century trip with my group, either going to the gym to work out, or meeting up with friends to go out for a drink in the evening.

Of course, most of the plans I didn't implement, especially when someone's life changed completely.

There was an unknown sadness on campus, and I remember when I was a freshman, I ran past you with basketball in my arms, and we were full of enthusiasm and passion. In just a few years, I could hear the sound of bones breaking.

Wu Jianhao stopped in front of the dormitory door with a stack of books in his hand, and he really couldn't spare his hand to knock on the door, so he had to raise his foot and kick the door, and he didn't stop until there was a sound of hurried footsteps inside the door.

Zhang Junhao opened the door, with a slight contempt in his tone: "I really envy you, I don't dare to live a life of idle clouds and wild cranes with a stable income like you." I always feel that in life, we still have to be bold and try. I'm going to look for an opportunity to venture out into the outside world. After all, I'm still young, and if I don't try, I won't have a chance. ”

"What a chance?"

On the way to accompany Wu Jianhao to get things, I met Li Han, she was still the same, with long hair hanging down her shoulders and looking ahead. When Wu Jianhao saw Li Han, his eyes were shining, as if Wu Jianhao, who would never admit defeat, was back again, he told me more than once that he was most fortunate to participate in that debate tournament, and he regretted participating in that debate tournament the most, if he didn't participate, he wouldn't fall in love with Li Han, and he wouldn't let himself be like this. He said that Li Han swept away all his pride, and even made him start to doubt everything, but in the final analysis, he fell into the whirlpool of love, which was not his fault, let alone Li Han's.

Wu Jianhao knows that love is reluctant, right or not, and it was decided from the beginning. It's not that there is no girl who likes Wu Jianhao, or he doesn't like others, no matter how the girl cries, no matter how good the girl is, just because he doesn't like it, he can completely deny a person.

As far as he is concerned, no matter how good he is, no matter how many credits he gets on his homework, no matter how beautiful he wears today, no matter what his identity is, in the eyes of people who don't like you, you are no different, just an ordinary person. Like a four-legged frog.

Wu Jianhao later said that he didn't blame Li Han, but he was too shameless, pestering others with a dead face, delaying their good time for three years. This matter is known to everyone, no one dares to pursue her, Li Han feels that it doesn't matter, but he always doesn't want to go.

On the eve of graduation, the classmates in the class had a casual meal together, a few bottles of beer were eaten, and the three years of youth were fleeting, and the sadness and joy of the past were precious on this night. The girls in the class, who had never drunk alcohol, all picked up their glasses and talked about their hearts, looking at these people in front of them, they felt more cordial than ever, and regretted that they didn't know everyone.

Later, the class president suggested that everyone say one thing that they regretted the most during their college years. Some say that they regret that they have become a single dog, and some say that they regret that they have not experienced a single life since they were born in love. There are also people who regret not taking a set of photos in college.

I was drunk that day, holding the wine bottle and smirking, Wu Jianhao did drink too much, but who didn't drink too much? The classmates in front of us are about to go their separate ways, no one will remember today's regrets and reluctance, we will all have a bright future, we will all be happy and complete, at least at that time we believe it will be so.

Wu Jianhao and I were the last to go, and when we got out of the hall, we sat on the road, Wu Jianhao lit a cigarette, smoked and cried. I didn't dare to ask, I knew he was aggrieved, he loved someone so sincerely, but he didn't get the slightest response. We talked a lot and scolded a lot of people, and finally Wu Jianhao said, "My university is really a failure." ”

The next day, there were only two of us left in the dormitory, because I drank too much last night and woke up a little late, when I opened my eyes, I saw Wu Jianhao cleaning up, I was just about to get up, he held me down, "Don't get up, you slept late last night, you can sleep again, don't send me, I'll go by myself." ”

When I got up, I cleaned the inside and outside of the dormitory, and I knew that he was leaving me, and I didn't know when we would meet again. When I finally locked the door, I felt as if I had locked my memories in it, and when I opened the door again, the feeling was indescribably sour.

I said goodbye to Wu Jianhao at the train station, he went to Zhejiang, and I always thought that I would put down roots in Beijing.

On the way back, I happened to see Li Han coming over, and I greeted her: "Leave today?" ”

She replied, "Yes." ”

"Where are you going?"

"Nanjing, the family has arranged a job."

After hearing this, I stopped talking, muttered "take care", and left without looking back.

To be honest, I saw that Li Han was angry in her heart, my brother has been chasing her for so many years, she didn't care, and now that she is leaving, I don't need to talk to her endlessly.

By September, I had settled down in Beijing and rented a room that was not very big, but it was my home. The work is also going well, everything is going according to plan.

We have always had a university chat group, and our former classmates are now scattered all over the world, and a few have gone abroad, going to Japan, Canada, South Korea, and even Thailand. After graduating, I've been clamoring for a party, but I've never gotten together.

I went back to my alma mater a few years ago and walked into that dormitory building. Standing in the corridor, I always feel that when I open the 304 dormitory, there are six people sitting in the door, and there is an induction cooker in the middle, soaking in a few bags of instant noodles that everyone raised money to buy, and everyone has words in their mouths.

We stayed up all night at the Internet café, sleeping and laughing. I didn't have the money to pay for eating in the cafeteria, and then shouted at the boss on credit. We drank two pots on the grass, our eyes were red, we were talented, and we yearned for poetry and distance without any worries. We walked briskly, we gathered on the mountain to drink beer, then hugged each other and cried, and after the brothers parted, everything was in the drink. Silence when the other person suddenly cries, and think of an interesting topic to distract the other person.

I think of Ding Ping's figure running wildly in the playground, he is exhausted from running, and the starry sky is full of young faces, as if this way he can catch up with his beloved girl.

Ding Ping brought Shang Pingting to Tianjin once during his college years, and we met again. No longer have to think about how much a meal will cost, talk about the past, but no one talks about the current situation. For we are still living in the days of no care,

We talked about the past in high school, he chased Shang Pingting and I was a letter delivery boy for him, and he only talked about two words, grateful.

Ding Ping slapped the table and shouted to the waiter, another dozen charcoal-grilled oysters, add more minced garlic, and a handful of meat skewers, no vinegar, hurry up.

He happily raised his glass and said, "I'm finally with Ping Ting, come, have a drink." ”

Ding Ping's girlfriend is Shang Pingting. Soon he drank too much, lay on the wine table, and whispered: "Brother Lu, Ting is the woman I love the most in my life." ”

I nodded, and I believed.

He said: "At that time, everyone didn't believe that I could catch up with Shang Pingting, only you believed me. So, I believe in you too. ”

I suddenly moistened the corners of my eyes and nodded vigorously.

He raised his glass and said, "No matter what hardships life throws me, I have a life, and I am willing to work hard and make money desperately, so that all the hardships and hardships in this world will never be able to hurt her again." That's what I thought, and I'll always do it in the future. ”

I was so drunk that I remembered standing on the balcony with instant noodles and watching the snow fall on campus. On a rainy day, Ding Ping held an umbrella, and she snuggled up to a bird, and they relied on each other to pass through their youth step by step.

Over the years, I've been drunk too many times, I've changed a lot of people around me, I've changed a lot of dishes on the table, and I've lost a lot of clothes.

I've always hoped that life doesn't give us too many tribulations, and in that case, we'll always be the proudest, the most romantic, and the most unscrupulous.

A year after graduating from college, Wu Jianhao called me and said, "I'm going to get married to Li Han at the end of the year, I hope you can come." ”

I was silent on the other end of the phone for a long time, and then said, "I can't come now, I wish you happiness, I went bankrupt and had debts more than a month ago." ”

This is something I never thought about, and it is also the most difficult problem I have encountered in my life, because in my opinion, there is always a tribulation in life that you need to bear alone. It's hard to say whether it's past or not, after all, it's not a small debt.

And the kind that everyone thought that Mei Biyu and I must be married. At that time, Mei Biyu's mother had already talked to me about getting married. Mei Biyu means that she can buy a house in Jincheng and get married, even if the down payment is from my family, and the young couple will slowly struggle to repay the loan in the future.

To be honest, my conditions at the beginning were quite poor, and what made people slowly a little dissatisfied was that Mei Biyu's father said: "The bride price is not less than 180,000 yuan, after the house is bought, the decoration fee of the house and the money to buy the car will be paid by your family." ”

It seems to me that such conditions can be said to destroy me.

I nodded like garlic, took out my phone from my pocket and wrote it down in the memo decently, and when her dad finished speaking, I asked, "Do you have any other requirements?" ”

"Yes, the wedding room should have three bedrooms and two living rooms, and my daughter's name should be written, and the monthly payment will have to be paid by your family."

At that time, I also caught up with the back, took all my savings to do business, lost all my money, and finally had to break up with Mei Biyu. Either way, I want her to be happy.

There are no big waves in life, and there is nothing glorious and rich, just the trivialities of life.

belongs to your happiness, I have asked Wu Jianhao more than once, what made you think that Li Han was your person in the first place. But I think that incident should have hurt him a lot at the beginning, but I knew that the young man was not a thing in the pool, he had a future, and he had already finished Li Han after graduation. The last time Wu Jianhao called me, saying that his daughter-in-law had given birth to a daughter, and he had always wanted a daughter, and he was smiling happily on the other end of the phone.

Everyone's high school used to change, but the real change was in college. I'm an exception, though.

How sure I used to be in this relationship, how discouraged I am now in life.

On the other hand, Mei Biyu's eyes and expressions are estimated to be without a little love, and the extreme sadness is nothing more than the death of the heart, and the indescribable intoxication is to announce that this relationship is basically over.

Now that you have a career, a family, and a little mature, you have recognized the reality, recognized the stumbles in the past, and now you are stumbling.

I spent so much energy and time, but in the end, I found that I couldn't close the distance between you and me, and I was in great pain. I don't know if I'll continue to write after I've been through a lot of pain, but one thing is for sure, I'll try to take control of my life.

The wine is gone, but the story is still there. I will promise a lot and achieve very little, and we will go farther and farther apart face to face, shoulder to shoulder. You'll shed tears, and each one will burn my skin.

Ding Ping said, "In the world of love, you must chase others first, even if you fail at the beginning, you will lose face at most." If you catch up, it means that you have studied her hobbies, catered to her likes and angers, you have slowly penetrated her life, and by the time you get tired of her, she can no longer live without you. Therefore, in the ending, the one who generally proposes to break up is the one who pursues first. ”

When I was in my third year of high school, I had no money for accommodation because of financial constraints, so I lived in a small two-story bungalow next to the school teacher's building. I live upstairs, and Ding Ping's father lives downstairs.

The school has electricity, water, and a canteen, and I never use a flashlight to read martial arts books all night, and I can do whatever I want, and I live an unrestrained life! Those chic and happy days, looking back now, are so happy that they want to turn their hearts and minds.

The head teacher is a stingy and obscene middle-aged man. I was often called over for a heart-to-heart talk because of his various labels, and I was scolded after the conversation.

In grief and indignation, I simply broke the jar and broke it. Absenteeism, fighting, going to Internet cafes. I can't do it in the morning, and I can't read it in the morning.

What is it called? ——— boldness.

Ring fat swallow thin, dinosaur frog.

There is a school flower in my class, and there is also a thousand-year-old wonder, beautiful and wise, fat and sloppy. My wish is to use the law to punish the school flower classmates, and the wish of most students is to use the law to punish the strange and leave the school flower. There are also some students who want to punish the doorman with the law. So that you can sneak to the Internet café in the middle of the night.

At that time, I knew that this classmate was not an idle person. During the day, I was asked to sneak to an Internet café to play games, and at night I actually brought a glasses girl. In the middle of the night, he asked me to borrow the key and said that he wanted to live with the glasses girl.

I also had to watch Bruce Lee's "Jingwumen", so I exchanged the key for ten yuan with him to buy a bucket of instant noodles with a ham sausage.

The next morning, something went wrong, and when they came out of the room, they were seen by Ding Ping's father downstairs.

I was called in at noon for questioning. Ding Ping's father didn't recognize who the boy was, I came out of my room, I was too wronged, I was too difficult.

One after another, the head teacher started talking to me, the head teacher talked to me, and the principal talked to me......

I was desperately waiting for Ding Ping's father to talk to me, and then I was sent to the police station, and in the eyes of others, I was an out-and-out little hooligan, a hooligan.

Suddenly, none of the teachers mentioned it, and it disappeared.

In the face of great love, this is like a floating cloud in the sky, floating uncertainly. But I didn't expect that Wang Shiyi was no better than us in the rivers and lakes, she was gracious and repaid.

Since then, under the coercion of Wang Shiyi, I have participated in morning exercises, morning reading, and morning classes. But she didn't think about the downside of doing so later.

"Luxi, let's apply for Beijing University of Technology together, right?"

I was shocked: "Beijing Institute of Technology? You think I'm a top student? Prestigious universities, is that fucking human? ”

"Well, you give me your first night and I can think about it."

"A slap in the face for you." Smack, the left side of my face is swollen.

"Can you be more mature, don't tarnish my reputation, don't look like an ignorant melon peel all day long."

As a result, after the college entrance examination, no one in the school could be admitted to Beijing University of Technology.

She obeyed the second choice and went to Nanjing, and I went to Tianjin.

Why are we not in the same city, so that the phone is all regional long-distance, and after a semester, the food expenses in January are basically all filial piety to the communication company.

In the years when I was consuming my youth, Gao Beixuan appeared inexplicably in my life. I rarely answered her phone calls, and even when I was in the dormitory, I entrusted my roommate to say that I was not there.

Because I have to wait for Wang Shiyi's call. If she calls, I have to explain for a long time.

But all of a sudden, she stopped calling me. When she called, she would never be there, and she was always busy for a long time.

I waited a week. Is she dead? Fuck, the thought of her dead makes me so sad I can't eat.

I waited for a month. Even if you die, you should be reincarnated, right? The thought of her reincarnation made me so lonely that I couldn't sleep.

I waited a semester. I want to go to Nanjing.

At this time, Gao Beixuan came to me downstairs in my dormitory, she first gave me an ice cream and then indicated her intention, and I rejected her at that time.

"I'm sorry, I have a girlfriend."

Later, she ignored me. She fell in love with one of my college alumni, they were a good fit, they were just as rich.

I wanted to go to Nanjing to see Wang Shiyi, but I never made it.

Familiar sounds. "Are you okay?" I got through to Wang Shiyi's phone.

"You haven't called me in a long time."

Wang Shiyi cried on the other end of the phone: "Let's break up, we are not suitable, remember to take care of yourself." Call the Chinese teacher more often, she must miss you very much. ”

"Don't cry, I don't know if you've eaten it yet."

"I ate it. Don't call me again. ”

The phone just hung up. I forgot to cry when I hung up, but I seemed to hear her crying.

As soon as I finished speaking, I heard my heart pounding, and I felt like I was standing in front of a tornado, everything around me was quickly destroyed, and the next second it might be my turn. Anyway, though, I'm going to have to take a gamble. I don't know how we'll end, but as long as I'm with her, I feel an indescribable yearning. There's no way she won't be my bride.

I grew desperate as I waited, and I began to deliberately let myself forget. After such a long period of precipitation, I put myself into the business category thoroughly, and there was a time when I would wake up every morning and look in the mirror to see if my hair was gray.

Time passed like this, and after a long wait, I found that my love and hatred for Wang Shiyi had finally faded. I finally accepted the fact that she would never come back.

Just when I decided to start my life again and seriously proposed to Wang Shiyi, God cruelly opened my palm and snatched her away ruthlessly, leaving me suffering in the world. From that moment on, my heart was already broken. I hope that one day she will return safely. I eagerly awaited, I bent my lips at my own mirror on the glass screen, my sideburns were not white, if she could wait for her at the next intersection, no matter how great my achievements and how famous my reputation was, I would wait for her to return, this is my goal, I have worked so hard for so long, just for this day.

Things hurt their kind, rabbits die and foxes are sad.

I peeked into the mirror my restrained and longing face, and I barely had the strength to think about the future between myself and someone. I have no reason to accept the love and covetousness of others.

After a long time, I finally came back to my senses, and sometimes forgetting, which is indeed the best relief. Probably people are like this, if we have enough disappointments, we will all choose to leave! Regret and chagrin are useless. It's better to plan your life well and try to control your life.