I am the loser of our Lu family, in the words of our homeroom teacher.

When I was in high school, I was clean, innocent, had very little planning for the future, and just wanted to live in the present. Whoever treats me a little better, I will be with whoever is tired of being with me all day long, hiding the time, and wasting the morning and dusk. In this way, I joined their battle circle with righteous indignation, skipping classes, fighting, and soaking up a bunch of second-rate people in our town. From time to time, it will become a shield for others without warning.

When I couldn't control myself and stepped forward to give Yang Wei a punch, I really couldn't control myself anymore, and I really couldn't be a good person.

If you want to fight back in the same way, I think such a counterattack is just an emotional out-of-control, and there is no reason for it.

When I was in school, I would only use a stainless steel thermos cup to make big-leaf green tea, and drink Nescafe when I was luxury. Ding Ping has always said that I am a little capitalist who does not know how to enjoy life at all, I think I was born in the countryside, and I deviate a little from the sudden identity and the life of a leapfrog capitalist.

Ding Ping's appointment with me was a café, when I pushed the door open and walked in, I saw Ding Ping holding a coffee cup and drinking one sip at a time, through the dim candlelight on the table, there were few customers in the store, and there was a couple whispering in a far corner, I seemed to forget why I came here, if I could, I could choose to drink two bottles of Niulanshan Erguotou to borrow wine and pretend to be crazy.

The café was filled with elegant freshness and exuded a unique melody, and the waiter brought the coffee to me, and I sniffed it left and right. The fox wondered if it was pure coffee, so he simply tasted it. But it was obviously coffee, so I stopped tasting it. Ding Ping is a little mature and steady, his big appearance has not been out of shape, and even the small mole in the corner of his eye is still there. He suddenly stretched out a hand and snatched the coffee from my hand with lightning speed, and before I could react, I could already smell a trace of Ding Ping's grievances for me. Between the lightning and the flint, I was completely awake.

We are a group of people who are very far away from life, and Ding Ping often measures the distance between me and him.

When I think of Yang Wei's intensification and peace of mind, and even when he is justified and crazy to fight back, he can even faintly hear his screams at night when he falls asleep in a daze like a nightmare: "Deceive people too much, deceive people too much." ”

Wang Shiyi patted me on the shoulder, comforted me, and said all the good things, she took me out of a rut and finally threw out an unquestionable tone: "In the future, you will take care of your own affairs, and I can't take care of it." ”

I was already very angry, listening to Ding Ping's words, I seemed to have the flame in my heart ignited, my eyes were swollen, my heart was in chaos, in short, I was at a loss, as if I had hit an evil spirit.

I couldn't bear to say harsh words and stab someone's self-esteem, so I could only grieve myself naked.

Ding Ping couldn't get used to seeing me being wronged, so he used this excuse to ask the second-rate son in our town to compete for the first place in Qinglong Town.

Yang Wei had already prepared in his heart, but he was a little nervous, he was too bold to look at Ding Ping who was walking towards him with disdain.

I also made a gesture, bit my lip, and walked towards Yang Wei with my head held high, his fists clenched and his eyes glaring at me angrily. He raised his head very high, and it was very flat. Wang Shiyi's face is flushed, she always encounters some occasions with a strong atmosphere, and her face will burn very red.

The sky was full of the sound of the wind breaking through the sky, and countless pairs of lightning-like miniatures were like a cloudy net rushing towards us in all directions! It's like a freeze frame in a comic, surrounded by fierce murderous aura and hatred.

Li Shoufu has a neutral attitude, but today he seems to be kind and low-key, standing in the center of the venue with great foresight. At first glance, it is the model on the advertisement with exquisite makeup, elegant temperament, very cold, very handsome, handsome walking on the road can make countless girls break up with their boyfriends, in his words, the biggest shortcoming of my life is that I have a face that others will never forget, but it saves a lot of beauty costs. He was always silently calculating in his mind the distance between him and people to reach his time.

We stupidly watched the silent confrontation between them, Ding Ping and Yang Wei glanced at each other, and Ding Ping said: "I am driven by justice, in the face of the cruel reality, what other last words do you have to explain." ”

Yang Wei raised his head in surprise and asked, "What do you mean, what are the last words, fuck your mother?" The surnamed Yang bit his lip, and a wave of anger instantly opened up Ren Du's second vein, wanting to kick Ding Ping to death. Ding Ping swallowed what he had just said, he didn't know what to say, he glanced at me with his spare eyes, thinking in his heart how he would clean up this embarrassing situation if he did it at this time.

Yang Wei wanted to throw out a foul word, but looking around at the people around him, he endured it, he didn't want the people around him to peek into his hypocritical inner world.

Ding Ping drank loudly, his legs were like the wind, and his figures kept staggering and flashing. The flying right leg kicked towards Yang Wei with ten thousand powers, and the people on the sidelines watched with bated breath, never seeing such a change in Ding Ping would still be surprised. On weekdays, Ding Pingwen is a bit pedantic, but on this occasion, as long as he throws away the pair of black-framed glasses, he suddenly becomes sharp and murderous! Yang Wei reacted quickly, turned around, and flashed out of a safe distance.

Ding Ping took the initiative several times but failed, and the surname Yang gradually slowed down the pace, and the two sides fell into a tentative stalemate.

"Ding Ping, hurry up." I shouted as I watched.

They all made a few feints to attack, and then showed that their physical strength was gradually exhausted, and sure enough, they only heard someone cheer up and began to attack. Ding Ping really deserves to be a martial arts genius with surprising bones, and a flying leg kicked Yang Wei out of a meter away.

Not to be outdone, Yang Wei then volleyed a horizontal kick to Ding Ping, using both punches and kicks, Ding Ping dodged, and was kicked in the abdomen by Yang Wei with high leg and almost fell back. Ding Ping propped his hands on the ground, picked himself up, and pretended to feint.

Ding Ping is like a manic wild horse, when he kicked over, Yang Wei flashed quickly, Ding Ping's flying kick missed, and then with a back kick, Yang Wei couldn't defend himself and was kicked out of thirty centimeters away. At the front of the target, Ding Ping's figure met my eyelids, with a serene expression and a slight smile.

I seemed to notice a gentle smile in Ding Ping's eyes, and I had an inexplicable panic in my heart, because I knew that Yang Wei was not the kind of person who was willing to give up, his revenge was particularly strong, and he always felt a little bad in his heart, but I didn't know when the unprecedented disaster would come.

I've never seen someone as tuggy as Yang Wei. If it weren't for the fact that I later learned that Yang Wei was born in a large farmer, and he raised a sum of money to set up a brick factory in the local area, I wouldn't have known that he would worship the mountains and enter the underworld. He also has a certain reputation in the local area. I always thought that Yang Wei was the kind of person who looked down on people with his eyes above the top. Every day, he has a straight face, a very serious look, and he is very unflat.

I've been incorrigible since I was a child, that's what my dad said. The junior high school teacher said that I was rotten wood and could not be carved. Now that I think about it, they were all right. I didn't think so, I thought I'd be rich in the future.

After graduating from high school, I like to go to the big city, often not going home for two or three years. I was wearing a short white shirt and my hair was smooth and shiny, and when I stood in front of the mirror, I saw that my head was full of hairspray, and I looked like a rich man.

In the early stage, I admit that I am a person who is very good at enjoying life, not only thinking about enjoying the joy of the spirit, but also thinking about indulging the flesh. I like to let go of the poor soul hidden in my bones in the bright lights of the world of flowers. When I feel lonely, I go to nightclubs to have fun, hoping to find a love partner or a marriage partner in the bright lights. The thought of the number of women in a nightclub is enough to make those singles including me a little excited.

There are all kinds of beautiful women constantly shuttling around us, although their beauty is not so real, it is a "pseudo-beauty" formed by cosmetics, clothing and dim lighting, whether it is real or fake, at this time it can stimulate me around them, I pretend to be inadvertently with the afterglow of my eyes to observe, I see a pseudo-beautiful woman, her sexy body is enough to make my breathing accelerate, although I know that most of the parts of the body are fake, the color of the lipstick is a little cheesy, The skin on my calves is also very poor, but I still appreciate the beauty, and she can be completely attractive to me.

Maybe it's because I'm dressed up handsome, or maybe maybe the other kids can't get her interested. Or they think I'm fresh. A woman came to me with a wine glass and accosted me and seduced me, but in fact, I was opposed to this kind of goods, which was a boy with a deep traditional education, because it would make me lose my basic confidence in women, and make me feel that the more beautiful women in the world are lewd. I was a man with little self-control, and I couldn't resist the temptation under the captivity of male hormones. When I first faced it, I wasn't much against myself. Instead, he became obsessed with this debauchery.

The lights on the four walls slowly dimmed, and the footlights embedded in the corners of the ground emitted a faint glow. The ballroom is lit up and the lights are spinning. I hugged the dancer's thin waist and moved my feet to and fro to the beat, intoxicated by the clattering sound.

When I first entered the smoke and dust place, I still wanted two bottles of beer to hide in the corner of the ground and watch the dancers' upper bodies fall like jade carvings, and the part below the navel was hidden by almost transparent lace and pole danced on the stage.

I love nightclubbing. Drill into the bathing center and listen to the coquettish women chirping and humming all night long, and those sounds sound like a flock of crows flying overhead in the middle of summer. As a person, once you get into a prostitute, you will inevitably have to gamble. This prostitution and gambling are like arms and shoulders connected together, and they can't be separated. Later, I liked gambling more, and prostitution was just to relax, just like drinking water when I was thirsty, and drinking too much water to make it easier.

Gambling is completely different, enjoying the pleasure is also vaguely accompanied by passion and tension. Especially the tension, there is a sense of comfort that I can't express.

In the past, I was very responsible for my life, planning far away, reverie about the happiness of the future in the distance, but after the pain, I have long been discouraged, and people are much lazy. I have the mentality of being a monk for a day and hitting the clock for a day every day, and I have weak energy all day long, and every morning I wake up and worry about how to pass the day.

To this day, I make a mess of my old life, tossing and turning in the dark every day and can't sleep, getting up and looking at the ceiling to smoke. I often sigh and reprimand me for not honoring my ancestors.

Ever since I gambled, I really wanted to glorify my ancestors and win back everything I've lost over the years. By the way, turn the down payment on the house into a full payment.

My parents called and asked how I was doing.

I said to him, "Go to work, and make some business with your friends." ”

My dad asked, "What business?" ”

I said, "Traditional business." ”

I held the phone in my left hand and trembled for a long time before I said, "I'm busy now, I'll hang up if it's okay." ”

My dad knew that I was gambling, and he said, "Don't fool around outside, gambling hurts others and yourself, and in the end, what do you want, stop it as soon as possible." ”

I said, "I didn't bet. ”

As soon as he heard it, he became angry, and he also replied to my grandfather when he was young. He knew I was gambling, and I had posted a few screenshots of my winning lottery in Moments to satisfy my vanity, and I admit that I have always done a good job of secrecy. Baimi also has a mistake, he may have found it when he inadvertently rummaged through my circle of friends. He yelled at me on the phone, and I hid left and right, thinking that this was the end of it, and he knew about it. But my father, who usually only has strength by taking medicine, became more and more fierce the more he scolded.

I was most worried that something would happen to him, so I pinched a cold sweat and whispered, "I know it's wrong, I'll take control of my life." ”

Daddy was very angry: "I don't care about your business anymore." ”

I held my phone and couldn't speak, and it took me a long time before I could hold back a sentence: "No matter what, I don't care about it, I don't care about you." ”

As soon as the voice fell, I dropped my phone into the corner and sat down in the corner. I cried hysterically and couldn't make a sound, and I pumped myself hard without reservation. When I think of this, I have no self-esteem, my parents are reluctant to eat or wear, but I am overdrawing my future in a place that my parents can't see.

The most beautiful time was to shoot a salute for a group of bitches in a nightclub, and I didn't know the severity of the place when I first entered the smoke and dust, trying to satisfy my vanity in a place where ordinary people had to sell blood for a bottle of wine. A bitch eagerly walked over and bent down to tie my shoes......

She's afraid of me, and I know that. When she passed a group of prostitutes, she suddenly jumped under the table like a mouse. The other bitches didn't dare to see me, and as soon as they saw me, they ran away.

Under the leadership of Feng Xin, Ding Ping and I walked hand in hand with him along the gray streets, and in my impression, eleven o'clock at night should be the time when everything is silent, especially in my previous days, when I had gone to bed early. But when I came here, it was the beginning of the hustle and bustle, with neon flashes of neon in the nightclubs on both sides of the road, and the noise of people and the rush of traffic.

It was precisely because I couldn't see the opportunity and the way out that I dragged my lazy body and let go of my lonely soul with them in the Qinghuan Kingdom of the Four Seasons.

Feng Xin pointed to the nightclub behind him: "Go inside, it's all you want." ”

Ding Ping turned around and looked at the nightclub behind him, and the neon lights on the outer wall were still flickering, like the goddess Shambhala spreading her slender hands to you and pushing your feet so that you had no room for detours. A few people helped each other out of the gate and got into the taxi one by one. I can't see anything except for the time being.

Feng Xin turned to look at me, a little puzzled, so he said with a smile: "During the time you worked in the sales department, you were just busy between the house and the customer, but you didn't go inside. ”

Everything inside is very different from the outside, and it can even be said that it is another world. In that world, there is everything that touches the bottom line of morality. Scheming, intrigue, selfishness, greed, everything you hate, you can find it there. But when you really integrate into it, you will find that everything you once hated is actually your heart's need.

I spent the night playing with them in a nightclub, my head was groggy like I had two huge glass balls on my shoulders, I thought that I hadn't showered in half a month, and my clothes smelled sour, so I took off my top and dragged the cute-looking bitch out of the other boxes and asked her to drink with me. I picked her up and led her to the box and put her on the couch, she stood up and muttered with her back to me.

Say that I don't have a gentlemanly demeanor, that I have a black heart and don't like to accompany guests like me. I poured a wad of hundred-dollar bills into her chest and shut her mouth. Her spirit came up at once, and she approached me, and when she saw so many people standing on either side, she threw me down and lay down in my arms. I begged for help from the people around me, but no one paid attention to me, and I continued to look around dryly.

It's a bit of a fake world, but I love it somehow. Although everything is fake, then tell yourself that everything is good.

The lights slowly dimmed, and Ding Ping hugged a young lady's thin waist, his feet moving around to the beat, indulging in the sound of banging.

I continued to gesture to them, and none of them noticed. Feng Xin and Ding Ping have been hiding on the side and playing happily with a few young ladies.

Another lady came forward and insisted on inviting me to admire my face and enter the pool to accompany her.

I gestured and refused, "No, we still have something." You go get busy. The young lady understood, and flashed away.

Although I am usually so anxious about this kind of goods that my mouth is pouring and my organs are torn apart, and I really want to take advantage of them, but I have been resisting this sudden temptation in my heart. I still put on an unmoved appearance as usual.

I panicked a little and immediately called someone to liven up the atmosphere as a way to break the situation that I thought was embarrassing.

Surprisingly, I turned around suddenly, and she threw herself into my arms, put her hands around my neck, and said in a suffrage voice, "I want you to take me away tonight." ”

I panicked: "No." ”

She looked at me with straight eyes: "The first time I saw you, I felt that you were different from others. Not to mention the appearance, you are tall and handsome, and it is rare that you are more generous than other elites. Your eyes are very clean and simple. ”

I wanted to run away: "You know, it's better to know the master's banknotes." ”

She kept staring into my eyes: "I have met all kinds of elites, I like your eyes, I think you are very secure." ”

The corners of my mouth went up, wondering if this was a trap.

"What are you thinking, can I not know? But I still want to ask, why? ”

"Because of your eyes. People like you don't pose any threat. ”

I still can't believe it.

"But to be honest, I'm afraid I can't succeed with just a simple look."

She nodded: "That's right, this society is like this, pursue advantages and avoid disadvantages." No one is too greedy for your simplicity, but there are many who are deliberately greedy for your wealth. When you reach a certain height, your eyes will turn green when others look at you. ”

"You're so realistic."

"Reality. Generally at my age, if it weren't realistic, I wouldn't have survived. He survived to this day. With that, she took out a box of King Hibiscus from her bag and slowly lit one.

It was the first time in my life that I had sat on my knees with a young lady in such an environment and had such a long conversation.

I didn't speak, and I suddenly felt like she was talking to my heart. In the cruel reality, she can still resolutely accept the hardships that life has given her. Everyone comes into the world for their own ambition. Perhaps this empty cave of greed, numbness, and lust is where her ambitions come true.

I breathed a sigh of relief and looked up at the screen, no longer feeling sleepy. As she said, as long as you reach a certain defined standard, reach a certain height, your eyes will turn green when others look at you.

Just as Feng Xin and Ding Ping were looking up at the vehicles in the distance, I happened to pass in front of them with difficulty. When Ding Ping saw this, he hurriedly got up and helped me, and then a smell of wine suddenly came to his face.

"What time is it? It's so bright. ”

Ding Ping raised his hand and looked at his watch, "It's just five o'clock." ”

I was drunk and confused, "Damn, summer has really arrived." ”

Ding Ping didn't answer, but helped me to a dark place, I was dizzy, vomited, and smelled of alcohol. When I slowly walked to? As he was around, he reached out and stopped a taxi. After Ding Ping helped me into the car, he took out an envelope containing 2,000 yuan and stuffed it to me.

"What?" He held the envelope and shook it in front of my eyes.

He looked at me stupidly, and then smiled and said, "Pay back your money, pay back 2,000 first, and pay you the rest back next month." ”

I replied, "Why don't you take it first, and then talk about it when you get rich!" ”

He put one of his hands on my shoulder, "It's not difficult to borrow and borrow again, and next time, I may have a request for you." ”

"Okay, no problem. Then be careful on the road. ”

Ding Ping closed the car door, and I watched through the window as they disappeared into the street.