There are also some people who will not be forgotten for a long time. I really want to hear the voice, "Hello teacher." "Looking forward to seeing long-lost faces and hearing long-lost voices.

How I want the rain of that city to wash away all the dust, look for the light to shine vertically, look for the place where dreams begin to set sail, get up for a morning jog, put on a coat and meet under the school building.

I once mentioned in the essay contest that my relationship with Tsinghua University and Peking University is very ambiguous, but we have never met; Now, I have the same relationship with Fortune 500 companies.

For someone like me who didn't go to college, a prestigious school is my first love, even if the world abandons me, at least it won't, because her relationship with me is more ambiguous.

Also, what is the highest level of being a writer? It's your work that is put on the screen, and after killing countless urine spots of earthlings in seconds, people can't help but comment, no matter how awesome a writer is, he can't write such a bloody plot! Of course, this is a joke, and the greatest achievement of being a writer is that it is easier to sneak your thoughts into the heads of more people. No matter how awesome a writer is, he can't write a plot that makes the audience urinate blood, he can only write such a true love, that is, two people who look like pigs are afraid that the other party will be snatched away by others! I have also been worried for a long time about a mistake and a stupid remark, and I did not hesitate to go to the trouble to find an understanding.

Nowadays, many friends around me are married, and there are many gifts with them, which is another heavy and new torment for people who have blank feelings.

Now, people's hearts are savagely inflated and very noisy. I don't think you're going to get a tan when you go out in the current season.

So far, I haven't waited for that person to show up, which is undoubtedly a very regrettable thing.

I remember that the group of friends once swore and said: "If you get married, I will be there and I will definitely give you a backup gift." ”

Now I am 23 years old, I have no family and no daughter-in-law, and I have to work hard day and night. The deposit is not much, just to maintain the status quo. After a few years, it seems that when I get married, the vote-losing friends will definitely release the pigeons en masse, find all kinds of reasons to prevaricate and be too lazy to be there to congratulate.

A few days ago, a college classmate called me and said, "No matter how long we have been apart, we still have a relationship when we are in contact." "We used to communicate all the time, we were very good friends in college, but now I flew silently to the westernmost part of China, living the simplest and purest life.

In school, I was often very poor, counting the days and spending money, not daring to eat good food, not daring to buy good clothes, for fear that if I was not careful, I would be poor and jingle.

As the saying goes, college is a small society, and I don't make excuses for my vanity. As soon as I entered the university, there were too many places to spend money, so I made a list in my notebook, equipped myself with a high-spec computer, bought some professional books, equipped with a slim clothes, and considered buying gifts for MM for the rest.

A week later, I called home, I whispered to my dad for money, he hesitated on the phone, paused and asked me, "Are these all for studying?" Take care of your body. "My voice was hoarse, and tears were already falling out.

I said, "yes, got it." ”

It took a week for my dad to call me the money. I never asked my dad where he got that money. To this day, I see my dad's lumbar muscle spasms caused by an acute sprain of the lumbar spine caused by trauma. It dawned on me.

But then everything was fine. I'm starting to make money. I began to buy all kinds of luxury goods like crazy, and I bought them with a kind of happy hatred. I thought maybe this is what we call overhealing after the human body is damaged. Just like if a bone is broken, after healing, the joint will be thicker. Muscle fibers will also become stronger and stronger after the tear has healed.

Also, I met a very good friend in Jincheng who worked in a fast food restaurant, and she said that she was not satisfied with her current life, felt too ashamed, and felt that she was wasting her time. After a few simple greetings, I found that the place where the relationship between us belonged was no longer what it was at the beginning. After I said a long and happy speech, she remained unmoved, and continued on her downhill path.

I only remember that someone once said: "Don't always bury yourself in the smoke and dust of time, don't always encounter some difficulties, like an ostrich, burying your head in the sand." "At that time, I watched the chaos with a blank face. But I was thinking about a question in my mind, that is, how to match this dress to look good.

Who splashed ink on the once mutilated language, and who sketched a tumultuous summer.

I don't know how to describe the mood of the moment, in the glitzy and sad lonely city, watching them in different places and at different times without hesitation to wreak havoc on every inch of the city's multiplying heat waves, descending between you and me, the bright red disaster is like overwhelming rain that cannot extinguish this doomed burning, shrouded in the bloody strife behind the black curtain, after all, I can't hear any prologue to be staged.

There is a girl who has always made me look forward to it, I don't really know her at all, and I don't even have any intersection with her. Many people come from far away with their own stories and quietly reside in the world of some people, looking forward to it, nostalgic. However, I could never forget her.

Xue Xinying was my classmate in high school, and she usually spoke to me and greeted me mechanically. Now we are very good friends, of course, she is often very manly when no one is around, I just casually said on WeChat that she suddenly killed back from the bustling big city.

Six years ago, she was a shy little girl who didn't know anything about the world. At that time, she was admitted to Zhejiang from a small city in Gansu Province with a lot of effort. My mind is full of longing for that bustling big city.

That's probably because this year's summer was earlier than in previous years, she decided to go from Hangzhou to Jincheng, because it was a sudden decision, so she didn't book a room in advance, and she had a lot of luggage, so she found a hotel in the alley behind the West Railway Station to stay.

Xue Xinying's sudden appearance restored order to all my chaos. The most beautiful thing is when you are a teenager, not the beauty of your youth, but the beauty of memories.

I was lying on the bed and my phone vibrated a little. Xue Xinying privately posted a screenshot of her video call with me last night on WeChat. I am very happy that it is precisely because of such people that there are fewer and fewer people left around, which makes me feel lonely step by step. I wanted to decide to resist, but after thinking about it, no matter what, at least I could still have a place in the other party's heart.

My life is not an endless darkness, in the deepest part of my heart, there is a glimmer of light, through which I can vaguely see happiness in the distance.

I vividly remember the day she arrived in Jincheng, it was a rainy day. Just in time for the rainy season in the north, as soon as she got off the train, the oblique wind and rain blew on her face, and it was cold, Xue Xinying couldn't help but shrink for a while, and almost sneezed. After all, the weather in the south and the weather in the north are too different. The rain was so heavy that I couldn't find a place, so I timidly hailed a taxi and walked around the rain-washed streets for nearly half an hour to find one, and along the way, there was gray and drenched everywhere, even the odd-shaped buildings. The driver's Henan dialect is strange and confusing. After all, the dialect of each city is different. Xue Xinying stayed in Hangzhou for a long time and casually said a few words of Hangzhou dialect, the driver mistakenly regarded Xue Xinying as a southerner, and Xue Xinying explained that she was an authentic northern girl. The driver's sense of isolation alone in a foreign land as a stranger quietly emerged, and his emotions became frosted eggplant, wilting. Maybe he would think that under the blue sky and clear sunlight of his hometown, he had been in Dajin City for more than ten years, and God had a cloudy face, and the rain was like tears and snot, which suddenly made his mood even more melancholy.

In the car, Xue Xinying said to the driver: "Home Inn Hotel on Xijin West Road." Then there was silence. Seeing that she was not ready to talk to me, I was secretly happy, and hurriedly leaned back in my seat and began to take a nap. I dreamed that I won 200,000 yuan in sports lottery, I am happy, happy! I withdrew all the money to my bank card and felt good. Oh my! I'm rich, I'm rich! How do I spend all this money? Just as I was trying to think, I felt something overwhelm me. I woke up suddenly and found that it was Xue Xinying who covered my nose with her hand, I hurriedly pushed her away, jokingly, "Are you going to murder your husband?" She was angrier than me: "Sleep! Sleep! Sooner or later, you will sleep to death. If you can't sleep, you will live a long life. Got off the bus and we arrived. "I looked out of the car and saw home in front of me. I got out of the car and wondered, what happened to Xiao Xue today, could it be that the beauty intends to develop in this direction. Usually she is shy and simple, and she doesn't care too much at all. Could it be that today is intentionally ...... I finally had the opportunity to get up close and personal with beautiful women, and when I timidly pushed open the hotel door, I saw a beautiful girl with long hair and waist-length and a petite figure trying to push a large box to the front desk. Of course, the box was too heavy for her, and the box was too big for her. So I walked up and lifted the big box and carried it on my shoulder. She looked back at me in surprise, but said something that had depressed me for a long time: "You are so thin, you should put it down." "Skinny? I was dizzy at the time, and even though I had no two pieces of meat, it wasn't a problem to resist such a large box. admit that I am relatively high, thin and small, as colorful as a spring dawn, sideburns like a knife, in a word, clear eyebrows and beautiful eyes, enough to make many girls embarrassed, but I think I am still very slim, and it has nothing to do with thinness. But I soon forgave her, because I wanted to reach out and show myself in front of beautiful cuties, and by the way, I could add WeChat. I found that her vocabulary ability is really bad, and she must have not learned Chinese well since she was a child.

Xue Xinying pushed open the door of the hotel and saw that I was disgusted, I looked at her suspiciously, and walked out of the hotel. Through the glass, I saw beautiful cuties waving at us at the front desk. I walked over happily, but Xue Xinying grabbed my hand and grabbed my arm, and said in a low voice, "I haven't eaten yet?" You're in for a treat today. ”

I looked helpless: "Well, okay, but the premise is that you have to agree to be my girlfriend." She couldn't help but be a little stunned. I saw that she was hesitant, so I pretended to turn to look at the girl. This woman is in her early 20s, her face is like the moon of the Mid-Autumn Festival, it is the first time she has seen such a beautiful girl, if she puts on makeup again and puts it on the movie, she will definitely not be worse than Jing Tian or Guan Xiaotong. The girl smiled at me when she saw me. I also had teeth like a haobei, and with my expression, there was a smug smile on my face. I subconsciously turned my head to look at Xue Xinying next to me and found that her face was extremely grim.

Xue Xinying was a recognized beauty in our school when she was in high school, a typical small jasper type, with shaved shoulders and a thin waist, an egg-shaped face, handsome eyes and eyebrows, and a longing posture. Now she can't fly up, a pair of delicate apricot eyes are filled with thousands of catties of frost, and the cold breath is rising, and when she sees my smug smile, the cold air almost turns into murderous energy.

Look, this posture is the only one who has gone out first to ease the situation. So I politely smiled back at the little sao hoof whose cold air had frozen his mouth: "Xinying, I'm hungry, I want to eat cow." ”

Xue Xinying nodded in a panic. "Then let's hurry up and buy something to eat. I'm also a little hungry. ”

It was cold outside, and the air smelled of dampness. I dragged my suitcase into the ramen restaurant, and we walked towards the less crowded area. I was full of disappointment when I saw that she was leaving, I had to finish the meal first, I really wanted to stay and finish the beef noodles before leaving, but I knew in my heart that she had been in the south for a long time, and she might have lost her sense of taste for the delicious taste of her hometown.

When she arrived in Kaneshiro, she walked into the ramen restaurant and inadvertently remembered her ex, which was the happiest place she didn't dare to say outright, but I was like a silly child, going around and comforting others in the sensitive area of danger, and letting my little heart hang in the ice and snow. This sudden feeling is indescribable in other words, and the mood also bred a group of sadness with the cold solar terms, and unconsciously became gray. Xue Xinying stood in the rain, not holding an umbrella and not worrying that her clothes would get wet, she needed this sudden catharsis. Look at this shower, the rain can't stop for a while. I stepped forward to take her arm, and she kept her head down and didn't speak. I complained in my heart that Xue Xinying was not free and easy enough, why bother to make the aura of her protagonist so dim for a scumbag, it is really unreasonable, it is simply a flower inserted in cow dung. I didn't find out about her before. At the time of my struggle.

Xue Xinying suddenly asked, "You look at my eyes, do you think I'm beautiful?" ”

"Pretty."

She is really a woman in life, no matter how angry she is, she never scolds, but she is angry there. Of course, everyone in the world knew that she was angry, and I didn't want her to do something messy and cause me to suffer together. I don't think she might as well scold or something to make me comfortable.

Xue Xinying and I walked around the Zhongshan Iron Bridge and had a panoramic view of the huge golden city. The Yellow River meanders into the distance like a glittering belt, and the high-rise buildings of Chengguan have become the cradle of adult guardianship society. At the top of Baita Mountain, there were actually a flock of pigeons, and the sky, which was always gray in the past, was also exposed to a clear blue today. I suddenly thought of Shanghai, and I felt that this is the feeling of standing on the top of the Oriental Pearl Tower, but of course this is just imagination, and I have never been up at all.

Xue Xinying is a girl who loves to laugh, and I have never seen her cry. Her heart is very strong, and then I heard Xu Jiaxin say that Xue Xinying hid in the quilt at night and shed tears, so I knew that everyone had tears.

After eating at noon, Xue Xinying asked three girls to play, I was embarrassed to run with a lot of girls, she asked me if I wanted to play, I made an excuse and said that I wouldn't go if I had something to do in the afternoon, so I went to the Internet alone. After about three hours, when I came out, I ran into Xue Xinying.

The afternoon sun was very bright, and Xue Xinying and I walked slowly along the city, from the city to the countryside, and then from the countryside back to the city. It's a bit like off-roading.

The city is becoming more and more brightly lit, and the cold night breeze makes people's minds clear with pins and needles. But I didn't know where to go in the lights of the city, and I just blindly followed Xue Xinying around.

Xue Xinying and I sat on the railing of the pedestrian bridge again, leaned down and looked at the stagnant lights of the traffic below. I'm a person who is afraid of night lights, and I always cover my eyes with my hands when the lights come at me from the night. I don't know why, it's a ridiculous habit. But that night as I watched the headlights coming and going below, I didn't have the slightest fear, and I felt that the lights had become unusually warm. Presumably there must be an optimistic and cheerful girl like Xue Xinying who has been with me, a bored person.

Tears are a catharsis for me, and I want to let these tears wash away the black sorrow that has accumulated in my heart, and take away all the reasons and excuses that make me angry.

For days, I always hallucinated at dusk, thinking that it was late autumn, and when I opened the curtains, I should be able to see the quietly falling maple leaves!

When I saw Ding Ping again, it was like an illusion of a different world, but both sides seemed to endure a lot! Some things will never go back to the way they were. The reality is like the island I saw in Xue Xinying's eyes, the loneliness and vicissitudes of life I saw on Ding Ping's face, only sadness and no flowers!

It's strange that when I see Ding Ping again, my mind will inexplicably repeat the colors that have been repeatedly depicted, carving an indelible mark on the solidified grease plate. The soft light reflected in the eyes overflowed with ignorance, and half of them gently hid in the light green shadow of the rich tree, isolated from the world, and served the morning and dusk.

Half of it is immersed in the shadow of the city's midsummer. The sky rises high, and a flock of migratory birds flying into the distance drifts in the lonely kingdom of the four seasons.

To be honest, I was a little impulsive to fight Ding Ping. I kind of miss the time when someone shouted at the library door that I would never agree to a breakup, but that's all gone!

The sky grew high, and the only memory in my mind was immersed in the shadows of the middle of summer.

Some people exist to prove the importance of another person.

Ding Ping and Shang Pingting were my high school classmates, and in the second year of high school, we divided into arts and sciences, Ding Ping chose literature and history, and I chose science and engineering, so Shang Pingting became my new tablemate. We've known each other for so long that we can't remember when we met.

In my sophomore year of high school, Ding Ping frantically pursued Shang Pingting, and before I knew it, I became Ding Ping's letter delivery boy. Teachers often say that we are in early love, secretly pass notes in class, and find opportunities to date after class, after they are discovered by teachers and parents, they say that they break up and do not contact each other, but they still stick to love behind their backs, and they have been sticking to it for so many years. But when I reached the age of falling in love, I found that the person I was in love with back then had unknowingly cut off contact.

Their love ran for seven years. Now that I think about it, the two of them are actually quite a good match, what a good name to show affection and sprinkle dog food.

I asked Ding Ping, why do you like Shang Pingting? Ding Ping's answer was very sincere.

Ding Ping said: "She is the most beautiful and cleanest girl I have ever seen, in short, everything is good, I want the whole world to know that she is mine." ”

After graduating from high school, Shang Pingting went to Xi'an Jiaotong University, but Ding Ping was a few points behind and fell off the list. Ding Ping repeated his studies for a year, but he still didn't get in, a few points behind, so he had no choice but to choose three colleges and universities in this province. The distance between the two of them is like the height of him and Shang Pingting, and the difference is always a few centimeters.

When Ding Ping got drunk, he revealed to me a secret that he had hidden for years. He said that he used his free time to make money outside during his college classes, selling clothes, setting up stalls, kebabs, and doing whatever he could to make money. Every holiday, I went to Xi'an to Shang Pingting's school and waited for her to come out, and then used all the money I saved to accompany Shang Pingting to eat, drink and have fun. Ding Ping said that he was willing to spend as much money as his daughter-in-law and thought it was worth it.

What made Ding Ping sad and angry was that Shang Pingting had a new boyfriend when he was a sophomore and kept it a mystery from him. Shang Pingting's new boyfriend is the president of the student union, and his family has a little money and a bit of a local background. Shang Pingting's new boyfriend snatched her away from Ding Ping with a verbal check.

Ding Ping told me several times about this later, what is the use of verbal checks? She wants to like it, why didn't she tell me earlier?

If someone asks me now, do you want meat buns or love? I wouldn't hesitate to tell her I want a meat bun.

Shang Pingting knows what kind of person she likes and what kind of life she wants. For the time being, he has not been able to reach the kind of standard he wants to become, and he has not surpassed his birth class, so he can only agree to be with Ding Ping in a short time.

Although they didn't say it, Ding Ping understood this matter, after all, he had willingly paid for each other for so many years. It is precisely because of Ding Ping's selfless dedication that Shang Pingting finally agreed to Ding Ping to change the development route from Xi'an to Jincheng. She hopes to be with Ding Ping in this strange city, share weal and woe, advance and retreat together, and hope that both parties will have a good start in the coming year.

Ding Ping also often asks me: "Over the years, have you been tired?" ”

"I'm not tired, because I know that there is someone waiting for me all the time in a place I can't see, and what can I count if I am wronged now."

"Hurry up and find a girlfriend, don't be wronged anymore."

"It's not a grievance. It can only be said that life teaches us to grow quickly in the tribulations it gives. ”

Ding Ping finally caught up with Shang Pingting again. This news spread, and the former high school class group exploded, and they witnessed the bitterness and twists and turns of Ding Ping's way. Some people think that love is not worth mentioning with him, but in Ding Ping's eyes, love is genuinely there with him. So, I believed in love again.

The two of them are like glue, sticky everywhere they go, their fingers are tightly clasped, their eyes are emotional, and they are often so disgusting that we cover our faces and hang our heads. Ding Ping said every time, if you are uncomfortable, find your girlfriend. Later, I couldn't see them for a long time to show affection, and I wondered if there was a crack in their relationship. I was too busy with my preparations to get too concerned.

Until one day, he called me and said in a low voice: "Come out, my girlfriend is not here, come and drink with me." ”

Listening to his tone, I thought at the time that things might not be so simple. He never did this, at least he never took the initiative to call me to eat and drink, and we beckoned Xu Jiaxin to go with us at that time.

At that time, because of Shang Pingting's relationship with the president of the student union, she became a well-known figure in their school. Every time Ding Ping passed by their school to look for her, he heard her lace news, and always turned his head away, deliberately pretending that nothing happened. After a long time, a rift between the two appeared. Since Ding Ping learned about this, he has been focusing on his studies and working hard to make money in his spare time.

Ding Ping's mouth has always been very strict, and when he was drunk that day, I learned the secret that Ding Ping was hiding deep in his heart.

It took Ding Ping nearly seven years to finally succeed in pulling Shang Pingting to his side. But it still didn't work. Shang Pingting is sometimes very cold to him due to personality problems, and even doesn't say anything to him or ignore him, he feels like a veritable spare tire. It's not so much a spare tire as a worn-out tire that no one wants. may be in Shang Pingting's eyes, thinking that there is no better spare tire than him.