Depression, a term I've only heard on TV, at this moment, I didn't expect it to happen to me.

However, judging from the diagnosis, my condition is not too serious. So the doctor's advice to me was: hurry up and let go of what you are doing, and for now, treatment is the top priority.

I knew in my heart that this was not a joke.

To be honest, I still know a little about depression, and it doesn't look as scary as cancer on the surface, but if it is not treated in time, this life is over.

So in the following days, I received countless times of psychological counseling, of course, auxiliary drugs, and took a lot.

Unfortunately, after a month, the condition did not improve, but became more and more intense, and later, the whole person became confused, and several times I had thoughts of suicide.

During this period, I also went to the doctor many times, but the answers I waited for made my heart feel like ashes.

It turns out that this depression has not yet been eradicated in the world.

In order to recover as soon as possible, the most important thing is to adjust one's own mentality.

Relying on the outside world alone, whether it is psychotherapy or drug assistance, the mentality is not good, everything is empty talk.

Mentality? How much does this thing cost a pound?

I wondered, isn't this all nonsense? If I have a good attitude, I can still get this disease?!

Complaining is complaining, but the treatment cannot be stopped. Finally, I lasted another half a month, and I couldn't bear it anymore.

On the road of life, I have only hurried through more than 20 years. But at this moment, every day is like a year.

What is life for?

I don't know, and I don't want to. Thinking about these things on the left bank of Xiangfei, thinking about Zihan, and even thinking about ginger, all you can feel is bitterness.

If I could turn back the clock, perhaps I wouldn't have come to the Left Bank of Xiangfei in the first place.

Zihan and I won't know each other, and I won't fight Rao Jie to the death. Zihan wouldn't have ended up like this, and Xiangfei would not have happened so much on the left bank.

After all, it was my presence that broke their peaceful lives.

I must say that I owe too much to Zihan. For the left bank of Xiangfei, I give too little.

What is Black? What is White?

I used to stubbornly think that I claimed to be righteous, but in Jiang Fengqi's eyes, why am I not another Rao Jie?

I am a speck of dust, for the so-called ideals, dreams, running here, struggling with this, in the end, but in the end, it is nothing.

It would be nice if everything could be done all over again.

It's just that at this time, I am completely discouraged, and I no longer have the slightest fighting spirit.

If it weren't for Lao Zhu's phone call a few days later, maybe the story would have come to an end, and I would have been relieved.

On the other end of the phone, the grandson was elated.

"Peng, hurry up, come to the provincial capital."

When I heard this, I was stunned.

To be honest, for more than two months, I have basically been reluctant to go out, and I don't plan to go out.

But Lao Zhu's next words made me change my mind.

It turned out that last night, Xiao A, who was far away in Shanghai, called and said that he wanted his brothers to come back for a reunion.

Well, it's simple.

The day after tomorrow, the day after tomorrow is the fourth anniversary of our graduation from university.

When Lao Zhu heard this, he must not have said a word, and immediately agreed.

On the phone, this grandson was righteous and stern.

"Ah Peng, you kid don't tell me that you're not free, anyway, you're an idler now, if you dare not come to this party, let's be friends!"

I smiled, this kid is still that virtuous, he has been out of society for a few years, and his tone is still so impulsive.

After putting down the phone, I hurriedly packed my bags and waited for tomorrow morning to go straight to the provincial capital to meet.

Before I went, I thought clearly.

This gathering means a lot to me. Maybe it's a goodbye, or not necessarily.

The brothers have walked through youth together, laughed and cried, and were friends in trouble. Before I passed away, I could get together again, tell the truth, and have no regrets.

That day, on campus, I, Lao Zhu, Xiao A, and Fa Ge reunited after a long absence, not to mention how excited I was in that scene.

It's just my appearance that surprised everyone.

In Fa Ge's words, "Ah Peng, what's wrong?" Why are you so thin? ”

I smiled and didn't speak.

But Lao Zhu knew something about me, so he hurriedly diverted the topic.

"Eh, Brother Fa, what you said is not right. What does it mean to be thin, if you want me to say, you are naked jealousy. Look at you, how fat are you now? I'm surprised, after all these years, you won't change to eating bran, right?! ”

"Get out!"

Brothers are brothers, even if they haven't seen each other for many years, that friendship has never changed.

Lao Zhu's ridicule amused the big guy all of a sudden.

At this time, I noticed that Xiao A had also lost a lot of weight, but fortunately, he was in a good mental state.

After the four of them exchanged pleasantries, Xiao A suggested that we walk the campus again, in his words, this is called re-walking the road of youth.

The big guys have no opinion on this proposal.

Little A is right. Youth, for us, is a little far away, especially in the face of those younger students, I seem to think of the past, remembered the past and remembered us.

Green years, good times.

On that day, we walked for a long, long time, those very familiar roads, houses, pavilions, playgrounds, and many roadside acacia willows.

Suddenly, I had a wonderful feeling.

In it, time seems to really go back, and in an instant, the intrigue, the deception is gone, and the unforgettable love is gone.

Wandering in the sunset on campus, each of us had a solemn and solemn face.

It's rare to go back to the provincial capital, and it's an old friend reunion, so naturally a big meal is indispensable.

It's still the old rule, Fa Ge leads the way, see you on Nanjing Road.

When I graduated, I had the seafood dinner that my brother ate, and to this day, I can't forget it.

At that time, I didn't have enough fun because I was shy in my pocket. So, no matter what you say this time, this regret must be made up.

When I entered the store, it was still the same, everything had not changed, and the business was still full.

The brothers finally found a place and sat down. As soon as the dish is served, it is served.

It's just that what I didn't expect was that Little A was more Sven than before.

In fact, this kid, from the beginning of the meeting, gave me a strange feeling, a feeling that I can't put into words.

I don't know if it's a delusion, or something else? I always feel that his smile is mysterious and incomprehensible.

In the staggered time, my brothers drank happily, and I was rarely happy.

But just then, something unexpected happened!

Xiao A, who was originally sitting well, suddenly shook his body a few times, and then fell straight down!

Suddenly, I had a sense of foreboding.

It's not good, I'm afraid something happened to Xiao A!

End of chapter.