“。。。。”

The corners of my eyes twitched and I looked at Ellie, I was covered in cold sweat.

Come on! I was scared, okay? Although I am not afraid of being beaten by you, but I am afraid of getting into trouble. What's more, I've pleaded like that, and you still don't let me go! You are the reincarnation of some villain! Damn it!

"And then... The first time I asked you to borrow money, my mother really didn't have any money. ”

Ellie's eyes suddenly dimmed, like a light bulb that suddenly lowered its pressure, it was so dazzling, but suddenly it dimmed and became dim.

She lowered her head slowly, her slender fingers fiddling with the stones on the rooftop, making a faint clicking sound.

"You also saw it just now, the old lady doesn't have much money at home. It seems like when you were six years old, right? Mom was sick, but the stinky dad ran away with the money. Until now. I haven't seen him in twelve years. ”

Ellie's lips twitched slightly, and her fingers lightly pressed the stones on the ground, and the force was a little white.

Seeing Ellie's appearance made my heart tighten.

It turns out that the [man who has no responsibility] that Elle said is his father. Rolled up life-saving money or something.。。 Actually, it's not even a man.

"What a fool. It's clear that my mother has been bullying you, but you don't know how to stay away from it. It's not the same as that stinky dad at all. ”

Elle burst out laughing again, obviously laughing, but I felt like I saw tears falling from her eyes one by one.

"Ai... Beautiful.. ”

"Listen to the old lady."

Before I could say anything, Ellie picked up a pebble and flicked it at my head, stopping my reassuring words.

When I looked up, Ellie's eyes were red, but I didn't see any tears. It's just a little bit of water stains on the floor in front of her, which makes me sad.

"The old lady is working hard. Study hard, work hard, and try to share some family things. ”

Ellie muttered to herself, a little lonely.

"But ah... After a part-time job, I can't read well. I don't have much intersection with my classmates. The old lady doesn't have much money.,So I'm often bullied in junior high school.。。 ”

At this point, Elle paused suddenly. After a while, she shifted and sat down next to me.

Feeling her immature and somewhat thin shoulders, I lowered my head and fell silent.

It was my dream to live an ordinary life. Now that I think about it, there is really too much difference between the so-called "ordinary life" and "trying to live".

We who "live ordinarily" are already unfair to those who "try to live".

"Later, the old lady knew. If you are bullied, you have to resist. Those who don't resist will only be bullied to death in the end. There is nothing savior, and there is nothing good. But human sandbags, you really don't seem to be the same as others. Obviously, I've bullied you like that.,You can also resist.。。 But I can still laugh and complain about those pains. ”

Ellie shrank slightly and leaned against me. I gritted my teeth and shook her hand.

"Uh-huh!"

Like a frightened bunny, Ellie's face turned red in an instant. But her hands, which were also trembling, did not break free.

Holding her hand, I didn't feel any warmth at all, only that her hands were a little damp. Every time she exercises, she sweats all over her body, which is also very good on her hands.

Ellie, whose face was flushed, stiffened in place, and after a while she said hesitantly:

"People. . . You can't get an inch in a human sandbag! The old lady will put you in the toilet when the time comes! ”

"Oh."

Forget it, I'd better let go. Stuffed into the toilet bowl or something, I haven't accepted that kind of bad taste PLAY.

As for whether I let go or not, that's not the point anymore.

Ellie paused, looking tenderly at the stones on the floor. It seems that the stone is as inconspicuous as her, but so tenacious.

"Later. . . The old lady thought that she couldn't just take other people's money. I suddenly wanted to accept you as a little brother. To be honest, it's really good to have made this decision. ”

Elle bit her lip slightly, and her body shook slightly, as if she was very happy.

"To be able to have someone to accompany you, to be able to have someone you trust, to meet someone who is completely different from others like you. The old lady never thought about it before. I never thought it would be such a happy thing not to be lonely. It seems that everything can be told to you.,Anything can be done with you.,It's like together.,You can forget all the time.。。 ”

Ellie smiled and laughed, tears streaming down her cheeks. I don't know what's going on with girls, why do they always laugh and cry?

It would be nice if Ellie was so happy that she cried.

"Hey. Do you know.. ”

Elle suddenly looked up into my eyes. Her eyelashes fluttered slightly, her eyes were charming, and her black pupils shone silver in the moonlight. Just like the first time I met her.

"When I was surrounded by those adults, my mother kept thinking about you. Thinking about you, stupid little brother, will you encounter something like the old lady. I can't even swing my fist straight when I think about it, and I even have the heart to run away. You're really annoying.。。 I hate it so much that it affects the old lady's play.。。 ”

I was slightly stunned. Blame me? I also think that you thought about running a few kilometers and finding three or four video game stores, okay?

"But..."

Elle slowly closed her eyes, her pink lips trembled slightly, the corners of her mouth raised a faint smile, and she whispered:

"The moment you appeared in front of my eyes, it really made me feel so handsome. It's nice to have you here. ”

"Uh-huh!"

My face was flushed, and my heart was beating wildly. The feeling of pain in my chest made my brain go blank slightly.

Being said to be handsome or something, and listening to Elle boast about herself made me feel extremely ashamed.

The boiling blood surged into the blood vessels, making my whole body heat up. Indescribable sweetness emerges from the heart. It's sour, swollen, and comfortable.

I'll probably remember this moment for the rest of my life, right?

No, no, no! I'm sure I'll remember it for a lifetime!

"So... Continue to be my mother's little brother, right? The old lady and you are so good at fighting, the two of us will definitely be able to go to the future! ”

Elle suddenly hugged me and looked up at me. Her eyes shone with a different light, and the flush on her face became more and more red. Sweat knotted her black hair into strands and stuck to her cheeks. The faint tear stains reflected the seductive brilliance under the moonlight.

It's beautiful.

It's really beautiful.

No one can compare to Ellie at this moment.

But.

I pushed Ellie away, grabbed her shoulders tightly, and said with great seriousness:

"Ellie. I don't want to be your little brother anymore, I don't want to fight anymore, I don't want to touch all that bad stuff. Whether it's a so-called fight, or a so-called handsome person, I don't want to experience it myself. That's an endless, never-ending purgatory, can you understand? ”

That's right, don't be bad anymore. Don't be so worried about it again. Don't let these bloody realities happen again. I don't want to touch that, and I don't want Elle to do it again.

I can work with her.

I can help her with her lessons.

I can give a lot for her.

She can do the same for me.

For me, such a simple effort is enough.

Thinking like this, I saw Ellie in front of me, her eyes widening little by little, and two lines of tears flowed.

"It turns out. . . Don't you want to accompany me? ”

The suffocating pain in her heart passed from her dilated pupils to my eyes. It is like a man who has fallen into the abyss in despair, and his voice is hoarse and pitiful.

My heart ached. No, Ellie, you misunderstood! Completely misunderstood! It's not that I don't want to accompany you!

"Pop !!"

A loud bang came from my wrist.

In my bewildered gaze, in Ellie's godless gaze.

The pink "fate" was reduced to pieces little by little, dissipated into the night sky, and disappeared.

My fate with Ellie.

Gone.