The sound of the two of them crashing through the railing caused a slight commotion, but it was not a big deal.

Most people thought that the railing here was rotten, causing two innocent passers-by who were leaning on the railing to look at the stars, accidentally falling.

The two of them didn't seem to be hurt, at least, they didn't look hurt on the outside, so that's it.

The boss also sent a few extra boxes of beer and drinks to everyone.

Bai Yu looked like he was fine, laughing with everyone, Xia Xin also returned to Zhu Xiaoxuan's side, just like the quiet drinking before, although both of them were a little red, it was only regarded as because they drank too much, and no one would think about the place where the two were injured.

The banquet lasted until 9 o'clock, and everyone ended one after another.

The boss insisted that he had a treat, just hoping that Bai Yu and Xia Xin would not mention the two of them falling from the building, but Bai Yu insisted on settling the bill, because it was not the boss's business, and in the end, Bai Yu insisted a little more and paid more than 10,000 yuan for the wine.

During the banquet, Bai Yu didn't look at Xia Xin again, nor did he say a word to Xia Xin, and so did Xia Xin.

The two maintained a state of not interfering with each other and broke up the banquet.

Actually, Xia Xin didn't know why he couldn't help it and made a move on Bai Yu.

Although he doesn't have much activity with Bai Yu, he has always regarded Bai Yu as a friend, a roommate, and a brother.

He felt that Bai Yu was different from others, people were quite good, although, occasionally, it would make people feel that he had a world of his own, and he was always out of place with other people, even if everyone stood together, he seemed to be in another world, but this did not prevent Xia Xin from feeling that Bai Yu was a good person.

No matter what, Xia Xin won't do anything to his friends.

He just finished his shot before he reacted.

Xia Xin thought about it carefully, and felt, maybe, probably, probably, that he was a little bit poked by Bai Yu in the sore spot, so his head was a little confused, of course, a large part of the reason was because he couldn't contact Xue Tong, he could easily get in touch, and listening to Xue Tong's tone, he felt that the relationship between the two was very good, which made him feel a little unhappy and jealous.

Until the feast was over, everyone went back to their homes.

Xia Xin tried his best to maintain his usual appearance, smiled gently, and said to Zhu Xiaoxuan, "I'll send you back to the bedroom." ”

"Okay," Zhu Xiaoxuan smiled and nodded.

Because they both drank a little wine, and it was very late, it made people a little sleepy, along the way, the two chatted casually about some inconsequential things, and then went to the girl's dormitory, Xia Xin smiled and said "good night", and broke up with Zhu Xiaoxuan.

It's just that the moment he turned around, the smile on his face froze, even if he was laughing, his heart was very heavy, where could he laugh now.

Xia Xin came to the school gate with an expressionless face, strolling alone in the dark and uninhabited streets, all kinds of thoughts swirling in his mind, the dim street lamp, stretching his back longer and longer, then separating two, and then closing together, and so on.

Occasionally, a few moths passed by his head, and they were not interested in him as a stranger, and they didn't even look at him more, but flew straight over, threw themselves on the hot street lamp, hit their heads and bleed, and then fell to the ground, dying without regrets.

Xia Xin paused, just sat on the bench under the street lamp, stared blankly at a few moths, hovering under the street lamp, and occasionally one pounced on it, and fell down after a while.

He thinks it's good in the world of moths, and no other wise moth will stand up and point at it and say, don't put out the fire, you're wrong, it's not right, you're going to die.

However, the moth fights the fire, this is the fate of its life, there is no right or wrong, just because it wants to do it, it does it.

It's simple, an ordinary life of pursuing fate, and there are no extra troubles.

As for themselves, it's different.

Xia Xin was annoyed that he couldn't help but make a move, and on the other hand, he hated being blamed.

He knew his mistake in the dark, he had long wanted to correct this mistake, he had long wanted to make it clear to others, but he didn't do it, he couldn't do it.

He understands the truth!

Knowing and doing are two different things!

You don't need others to blame yourself from the high ground.

Xia Xin wanted to retort, you are also a big young master, do you know my situation? He wanted to retort that you don't have a backache when you stand and talk, and he also wanted to retort, do you know how happy and unattainable it is to have relatives?

Do you know that kind of despair that tosses and turns, but there is no hope?

However, he couldn't say anything, and all of this was not an excuse for his concealment and deception.

Xia Xin knows very well that Bai Yu has a gentleman's temperament, he doesn't take advantage of Li Lianxing, he won't use a knife behind his back, he won't use his yin hand, these are the things that are different from him, he already knows his own business, he can actually tell his own business, at least, to tell Xue Tong, but he didn't do it, because he is a gentleman.

He doesn't get involved in his own affairs, he doesn't get involved in his own private affairs, even if he actually likes Xue Tong, he doesn't do anything.

Today I will tell myself, part of it is for Xue Hitomi, and part of it is for himself, he doesn't want to be wrong again, as Bai Yu said, if it were someone else, he would definitely not care, and he wouldn't even take a second look.

Bai Yu even promised that as long as he made it clear, he would do his best to help himself, that was serious, at that time, he looked very desperately.

Xia Xin couldn't find any excuse to refute this.

Bai Yu is doing what he thinks is right, what he thinks is good for Xue Hitomi, and what is good for him, is above board and irrefutable.

Probably, it was his sentence, "You are just greedy and longing, enjoying the taste of being loved, you can't give love to others, you just treat other people's love as family affection to reciprocate", this sentence angered himself.

"I ...... too Try hard to love......"

For example, Moon Dance......

Xia Xin muttered.

As if it was to say it to Bai Yu, and as if it was to say it to himself.

But it didn't mean anything, and it couldn't stop the guilt that welled up in his heart.

Xia Xin did things that hurt others when he knew that some people had feelings for him, such as Shiqi and Xiaoxuan......

I know it.

It's just that I can't say it clearly.

Yes...... It's really bad, hit Bai Yu, and stubbornly refused the other party's admonition, refused to make a break, even if the long pain is not as good as the short pain, and greedily wants to enjoy the short-term "emotion", such a self, it's really bad.

Xia Xin smiled self-deprecatingly.

Actually, no matter how bad he is, he doesn't care for a long time, he doesn't care at all, what Xia Xin cares about is that Bai Yu pointed out bluntly that he is like this...... I'm so sorry Xiaoxuan.

Probably, this is the reason why I am angry.

That's why he asked himself to go and settle with Xiaoxuan immediately.

Third...... He's a good guy.

I'm the big bad guy through and through.

Saying that he doesn't want to hurt anyone is actually hurting everyone, and some things, if you don't make it clear, are hurting everyone, including yourself.

Reason...... Everybody knows!

Cut off all contacts, and then return to the previous alone, lonely circulation of the street, watching other people's fathers and children, relatives and friends, classmates and colleagues, gathered under the Christmas tree, happily singing Christmas songs, and then a person at the door with an envious face to watch others eat Chinese New Year's Eve dinner, watch the Spring Festival party, and themselves, can only hold their arms, silently stand at the door, let the snow cover their shoulders, hair, and reluctant to leave, just trying to borrow a little warmth of other people's family affection through the window?

"Heh......" Xia Xin smiled self-deprecatingly, closed his eyes and shook his head gently.

As long as you have tasted that abyssal loneliness, darkness, loneliness, and helplessness, you will never want to go back.

Bai Yu is right, but that's just right, it doesn't mean that this is "correct", and there is still a long way to go between "yes" and "right".

Being pierced by Bai Yu like this, a long-lost emptiness and lonely coldness rose from the soles of Xia Xin's feet and quickly spread all over his body, making him shiver a little cold.

This is a heart-deep cold that has been tasted countless times in the past, mixed with the cold air of the night.

Xia Xin unconsciously shrank back, as if he wanted to hide his body in his clothes.

He tried to withdraw his hand, trying to shrink his hand into the sleeve of his clothes, just like shivering in the cold countless times in the past hiding in the cold winter night, the only thing he could do was to try to shrink his hands into his clothes, trying to keep some warmth.

But at this time, it was a little different, a soft, warm touch surrounded his fingertips, and the warm feeling slowly spread from his fingers to his heart.

Xia Xin slowly opened his eyes, only to find that Zhu Xiaoxuan was sitting on the public bench next to him.

The dim street lamp behind her, emitting a dim light, also reflected her beautiful white side face, and the beautiful flowers that were newly planted on her head, shining brightly.

"Xiaoxuan?"

Xia Xin almost thought it was his hallucination, "Aren't you, have you gone back to the bedroom?" ”

Zhu Xiaoxuan looked ahead, gently clenched Xia Xin's fingers, and in her beautiful eyes, there was a strange light, as if it was a beautiful memory, with a shallow, happy smile, and narrated.

"Wet, you know, if it were the old days, you would stand at the door of the dormitory building, and see me safely into the dormitory building, and then you would leave slowly, until you left until the corner at the end of the intersection, and then stopped, stood under the corner tree, looked at the automatic lights in the dormitory corridor, followed my steps from the second floor to the fifth floor, and after confirming that I went upstairs safely, the wet would leave safely."

"Of course, this may be just a careful little habit for the wet, ordinary gentleness, but for Xiaoxuan, even if she goes upstairs, she will feel very happy, being watched by the wet eyes, caring, as if surrounded by full happiness, so ah, I often deliberately slow down, occasionally peeking at the wet from the window at the entrance of the building, and strive to lengthen this distance, lengthen this little happy corridor."

Zhu Xiaoxuan said this, turned her head to look at Xia Xin, her beautiful and clear big eyes, with a full of happiness and ease, looked at Xia Xin, the corners of her pink lips outlined a shallow smile, with a little naughty, a little gentle smile said,

"I feel a little bad and a little tricky, but as long as this is the case, Xiaoxuan feels very satisfied, just like this, it is a precious memory that Xiaoxuan will never forget for the rest of her life, I ...... Isn't it cunning? ”

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