Conan was taking a bath, his wife picked up the baby again, and watched a TV program while breastfeeding, and Conan heard "Kangding Love Song" playing on the TV, which was very good.

While washing and listening, I recalled the situation of spending a night with Secretary Hetian, those fragments, those words, all the worries, all the worries, all the visions for the future, including the specific implementation steps, those big goals and small goals, all seem so real, as if they can be realized immediately, they are all vivid and real things that can be touched, as long as you move your fingers, you can immediately realize the dream in your heart, such a beautiful future, dizzy and inexplicable happiness.

It is no wonder that there are many families with marital problems, and the disharmony of the relationship is one of the important reasons. In addition, the attention shifted to the child, love, poured into the child, and the husband felt lonely. Although we are together every day, we don't seem to be together, and although we have intimate contact with our bodies, it looks like a routine, the same as chewing wax, doing some mechanical actions every day, or like pumping a bicycle every day, using a pump, simple, repetitive, no ups and downs, no changes, no taste, no emotion, and no interest.

There is the collision of flesh, there is the union of bodies, but there is no fusion of real feelings of the body; Even if there is a physical fusion, there is no emotional integration, and he is always playing a side game, not entering a place full of love.

Many people don't feel love, they just feel responsible, obliged, but ignore the rights, which leads to the programmatic, stylized and mechanical nature of marriage, even if they see the most wonderful part of the article, it is also pretending, that kind of cry, which sounds particularly harsh, but they can't feel the pain of love and the integration of the soul, this feeling is increasing with age, this pain, like a small shoot with toxicity, encounters the right soil, humidity and temperature, and adequate nutrition, The shoots will grow unhindered and irretrievable.

Conan listened to the song, thinking about his thoughts, as if he was full of great guilt for his wife, and also flowed into the floor drain on the floor with the bath water. What's even more terrifying is that Conan didn't feel the slightest shame, this kind of numbness is chilling, this kind of unkindness, and it has never been seen before, such a person will even change, what kind of environment, what kind of person. This paranoia, or this state, has put Ji Conan's conscience to sleep, and he doesn't know when he will wake up.

After taking a shower, Conan came out, his wife was playing with the child, and the child was very happy when he met the advertisement. The kid had no interest in other shows, was particularly interested in commercials, and Conan couldn't figure out why his kid was like that. I asked my wife, and she didn't know.

His wife said: "When the child was probably in my womb, I was very excited when I heard the sound of the advertisement, and kicked me in the stomach, I thought it was ······· He also hates advertising. Who knew that it was such a guy, interested in advertising, curious, and excited. No matter what advertisement, he will not refuse. ”

Conan said: "It seems that our son will learn advertising design in the future, and he will be creative." Or engage in other professions related to sales and promotion, maybe it's a good thing. ”

She said: "Don't say it, you can't do it yourself, but let your son do it, if you want others to do something, you must first do it yourself." If you are lazy, it is better to become a monk and go to Zhongnan Mountain. ”

Conan said: "I'm not lazy, I don't have a chance, I don't have a stage to show my talents. Besides, who is going to become a monk now? It's hard to let go of the red dust. Right? I don't have what you have, you don't have what I have, and it's unrealistic for me to want others to mess with me. ”

She giggled, and after a while, she said, "That's true, who told you to be lacking in heart?" Not only is there a lack of heart and eyes, but how much more do you have? ”

Conan said, "You don't know. When I was a teenager, I had to pray to God every night to give me a beautiful daughter-in-law. I put all my energy into studying, and there was no chance to release it at all. ”

She said, "So what do you do?" ”

Conan said: "I really don't lie to you, when I was 15 years old, I had a physical education class, I did pull-ups, when I grabbed the iron bar with both hands, I did a few strokes, it was okay, and I didn't have the strength to do it again." I still want to do it. Just now, there was a girl next to me shouting 'Come on, come on!' As for me, I just want to be a hero. As a result, I pulled hard, and I was soaked, and I got wet inside. I was so ashamed that I wanted to find a crack in the ground and get in. ”

His wife asked, "Then how did you get out of power?" ”

Conan said: "I said, I can't do it, so I came down, hurried to the toilet, in order to find a toilet with a door, ran to the boys' dormitory, went to the head to deal with it, fortunately no one was in the dormitory, no one bumped into it, otherwise, how embarrassing." When I came back, I pretended to be fine. In fact, my heart was beating suddenly, and my heart was almost out of my throat. Seeing those girls, some were puzzled, some were sneering, and I couldn't care so much. ”

Conan's wife asked, "It was puberty, men were around 14 years old, and women were 12 years old. ”

Conan asked, "What?" ”

"It's the first time a girl has come to 'good things,'" she said. ”

Conan said, "Oh, what's the difference between that and a boy?" ”

"The boy's voice began to be low and deep, and he began to grow a beard," she said. The girl's voice becomes thinner, and some parts of the body are hairy. ”

Conan asked, "What about that girl?" ”

She said: "When I first came, I was scared half to death, saying that I was going to die, collapsed, and whether I was alive or not, it was all a question mark. My grandmother said, it's okay, the girl will have it then. ”

Conan smiled.

She continued: "My mom said, you have to be long in front, don't be afraid. In this way, it was my grandmother and mother who gave me these educations. ”

"My parents didn't tell me," Conan said. Why don't we teach "Physiological Hygiene" in our class? ”

She said: "The course you were talking about, we didn't even send out a book. The real knowledge of adolescence was only acquired when I was in a health college. At that time, puberty was already over. ”

Conan said, "yes." At that time, we were full of curiosity about the opposite sex, but there was no way to find out. I'll just look at the part of the illustration in "Physiological Hygiene", but unfortunately, there are only anatomical drawings, and there are no outside ones, so I am more eager to see them. There was no textbook, so I went to bookstores and libraries to look it up, but it was still unclear and I didn't have a complete concept in my mind. ”

She said, "So how do you solve this problem?" ”

Conan said: "When I was twelve years old, I once crossed the river and went to Xinhua Bookstore to look for books on this subject. Crowded buses, there were tickets on the bus, there were very few cars at that time, the kind with two carriages. It was summer, and I was wearing suit shorts, but the material was synthetic fiber, and I didn't wear anything else. In the crowded carriage, there was a girl in front of me, she just stood in front of me, as the car shook, the girl was very reactionary, she didn't control it, the girl didn't react, I was like a thief, I was ashamed. I was so ashamed that my face was flushed, and I got out of the car before it reached the bookstore. Find a place to deal with it. ”

She said, "Ah, you're groping. ”

Conan said, "Wronged! I didn't mean to, besides, I didn't do anything, but there were a lot of people in the car, too many, crowded around, I didn't have the heart to encounter this kind of thing, no one could have imagined, you say, is this strange? However, when I was a teenager, the budding of adolescence, maybe maybe I was deliberately close to the girl, why not close to the aunt or aunt, find a question, no one answered me. Physically, opposites attract, and similarities repel, and chemically, odors attract. Girls are born with a faint fragrance, no need to use any perfume, naturally have, is this true? Until now, there has not been a scientific explanation. I may have been seduced by the smell! ”

She said, "You're such a big pervert! From childhood to adulthood, from three years old to old, how many girls are you going to harm? Where is there any body fragrance? It's all the fragrance of shampoo and shower gel, if you don't use it, the body is the same smelly, there is no difference between men and women, that is, you will say, what kind of body odor smells, where is it? You're dreaming, or you're reading too much, and your head is broken, imagining, isn't it? You marry me, what does I smell, you don't know? Now I say that the girl has, and you really have what you said. ”

Conan said: "I'll tell you the truth, I won't hide anything, besides, you and I are both from the past, we are both parents of children, talk about the past, and I am not afraid of ugliness." It's better to say it, it's a problem if you don't say it sooner or later, words are happy charms, you and I can make it clear, eliminate misunderstandings, isn't it good? ”

She said, "I'm kidding you." How did you spend last night? If you don't speak, it's definitely not good to keep the cold war, don't you say? Seriously, how did you spend last night? Let's be honest. You know, if you tell a lie, I'll know. ”

When Conan saw his wife ask so suddenly, he had a ghost in his heart, and he didn't dare to say it immediately, but just smiled, trying to find the most plausible reason for his answer.

After thinking about it for a long time, I still don't know how to say it. Lately, Conan has been distracted, and he doesn't know what's wrong with him. Did you start to expand when you had a little power in your hands? If people's hearts are crazy and expanding, it is very dangerous and needs to be adjusted in time. Just like the farmer sowing in the spring and harvesting in the autumn, the farmer needs more planting and cultivation in order to ensure a fruitful harvest in the autumn when faced with the thawed land that has just been reclaimed.

That expansive greed has caused many people to lose their nature and become so ferocious that they are completely beasts, and the onset of the beast is more violent than a volcanic eruption, more violent than a tsunami, more violent and unstoppable, and it is impossible to predict and uncontrollable the development of events. As soon as the floodgates of greed are opened, it will be like a beast of prey, like a flood, which will sweep away all shame and conscience. The bottom line of mankind will be completely broken by this greed and exposed to the enemy. As a result, the enemy was victorious and laughed arrogantly.

Conan's wife asked, "Aren't you telling the truth?" What's the matter, did you forget how you spent last night right away? ”

Conan smiled and said, "I'm not alone, I've lived in a small inn in the village. It's really noisy there, and the big trucks come and go, and you have to stay, eat, watch TV, and play mahjong in the middle of the night, which is really unbearable. It's hard to go on a business trip. ”

Conan lied, but he was not nervous in his heart, this will make Conan fall further, will this make Conan fall further? No one knows. Only God knows, or Satan the Devil knows better.

"Really?" she asked. Look into my eyes and speak. ”

Conan noticed that his wife was a little strange, after all, he was uneasy, so he didn't watch it, for fear that his wife would see through his lies, so he hurriedly watched the TV program, and he didn't know what was on the TV. There are images that cannot be seen, and there are voices that cannot be heard, is this the price of lying?

Conan finally looked at his wife to see what she was going to do next.

Conan's wife put the child down and let him crawl on the ground to play. Since the last time she went to her sister's house with a round face, she imitated her sister's practice, bought some foam puzzles, mopped the floor with a mop, and then laid the puzzles, so that the children could climb and play on it.

Conan said: "I can't help it, it's too far, I want to rush back, but there is no last train, you know, it takes about an hour from Longya Village to Jiasanguan Market Town, because the railway is being built there." When you get to the market town and then to the small town and county, it takes three or four hours, and if you don't have enough time, you can't rush back. I know you've missed me so much these two days, but I can't be with you every day. ”

She smirked and said, "I see." I tested you just now, husband, I've been thinking about you crazy for the past two days, I'm afraid that you don't want me to fight in Sanguan Town! I don't object to you looking for it, but you have to pay attention to safety, or, if you do it with her, don't touch me, for the health of me and my children, you have to clean yourself. ”

Conan thought to himself, how do you know, I can't fight in the jungle at all, spend money to buy sin, it's better to find a woman from a good family, like Secretary Tian, safety is absolutely guaranteed, and there are measures.

Conan said, "Don't worry, it's too late for me to love you, where is the spare time to find those women?" Besides, those cruel transactions are unfair to the workers themselves, and those who love this bite only want their own short-term happiness, who will care about the fate of those women? When Conan said this, there was a trace of sourness in his heart, and he didn't know why he was a little compassionate, in fact, he was just an ordinary man, not a giant, not a noble person, he was a low-level and interesting person.