This was my first close encounter with Si Lingyan.

It was also the first time I looked at her intently.

Si Lingyan's eyes were very different from Shu Yang's.

She is pure, she is flawless, like the warm sun in winter, quietly shining on my face, bringing me the dawn of despair, and let me see unattainable hope!

I don't know why, seeing Si Lingyan's eyes, I thought of Yin Lanlan again.

Once, Yin Lanlan also had this kind of look.

If only she could have her own opinions! If she hadn't been swayed by Shu Yang!

Then, Yin Lanlan will definitely not become like that!

"Yin Xing, go to my house and sit down, your injuries need to be re-bandaged."

Just when my thoughts were confused, Si Lingyan's voice suddenly sounded in my ears.

I couldn't help but shudder, as if I had been electrocuted, I put aside Si Lingyan's hand, took a few steps back, and pulled away from her.

Si Lingyan was slightly stunned, and said in surprise: "Let's go, if you don't bandage it, your wound will soon suppurate, I promised you before that I would take you to that place, aren't you looking forward to it?" ”

After speaking, Si Lingyan walked towards me.

Just as she took the first step, my nerves tensed instantly, and I shouted, "Don't come here, stay away from me!" ”

When I said this, even I was shocked.

Even I didn't understand why my emotions were so extreme.

My body trembled terribly, like the most helpless poor person in the world, I clung to the railing of the lake, and my mind flashed with the eyes of Yin Lanlan and Si Lingyan.

It's like a great contrast, back and forth, the frequency of substitution is getting faster and faster, and my head hurts so much that it almost explodes!

And, all of my abnormal actions were also seen by Si Lingyan, she greeted me and said anxiously: "Yin Xing, calm down!" I know you've been through terrible things, but those things aren't a big deal, it's all gone, so why let the tragic past torment our bodies over and over again? ”

"Nope! You don't know, you don't know what I've been through! Si Lingyan, I can only tell you that I am not doing well at all, my nerves are tense every moment, and I can't tell right from wrong at all! I don't understand why a seven-year relationship would be lost to a sentence that is not related by blood! Why the hell is that? ”

My whole face was distorted because of the pain.

I clenched my fists tightly and coughed violently, and later, I felt that my stomach was already full of sour water, and I felt a strong desire to vomit in an instant, and I lay on the railing and vomited a large puddle of sour water into the lake.

I didn't dare to open my eyes to anyone, I couldn't even face the world.

I just want to shut myself up in a little corner that no one cares about and fade out of everyone's sight.

"For no reason! You don't have to wonder why! You should look to the future, and you should think about what you can do to take it all back! Instead of giving up on yourself like a wreck! ”

"But I'm going to break down!" I retorted.

"So what! Should collapse be the time to give up everything? Think of your family, think of these friends around you! Yin Xing, in this world, you are not the only one who is going through hardships, who doesn't have a little heart, who doesn't have a little pain? There are no chic people in this world at all, all of them are wearing a mask to die! Because they don't have any way, under the pressure of life, people have to live, don't they! ”

After listening to Si Lingyan's words, I fell silent.

This seemed to be the first time I had seen Si Lingyan angry.

I cautiously lifted my head and focused my gaze on her.

Si Lingyan's mood seemed to be a little impetuous, and I obviously noticed that her chest was floating up and down, and her breath was much stronger than before.

And the black eyes in her eye sockets were also locked on me.

seemed to notice her gaffe, and after a few breaths, Si Lingyan reacted, she adjusted her breathing, walked to my side and lay down on the railing, staring at the white sky with fish belly, and said softly: "Yin Xing, do you know, I once had the idea of committing suicide, and I was forced by my own biological parents, is it ridiculous?" ”

I looked at Si Lingyan blankly, staring at the wry smile on the corner of her mouth, savoring the bitter glass in her eyes.

The morning breeze, mixed with the fresh smell of the lake, rushed down my nose and into my whole body.

I took a deep breath and exhaled it along with the cloudy breath that had accumulated in my chest.

My mood seemed to improve, but in the middle of my frowning brow, the dark cloud of immersion lingered.

"I know I should have told you that I and Qin Mei have been in love for a week, right? Since I broke up with her, I have been depressed all day, I stay at home alone every day, lock myself in my room, and I write everything I want to say to Qin Mei in my diary. But the pain of falling out of love has always tormented me, and if I continue like this, I will be driven crazy sooner or later, so I desperately want to find someone to talk to. ”

"Growing up, my parents doted on me, so I wanted to talk to them, let them listen to me, and help me get through that unbearable shadow earlier."

"But just as I was talking about it, my dad suddenly rushed to me and beat me, and he grabbed me by the neck and slammed me against the wall, threatening to strangle me. My mom watched the whole process, but she never came to help me, and I told them over and over again that love itself is my choice, and I hope they can understand me. But that doesn't change anything. ”

"Since then, their attitude towards me has completely changed, I am no longer the good daughter in their eyes, my parents insulted me with ugly swear words, said that my behavior was no different from those sugar daddy lovers, and even stopped letting me go to school, locked me in the house all day and did not let me go out."

"Even now I don't understand why my classmates and friends understand me and support me. On the contrary, the people closest to me can never understand my feelings, they always like to force their own thoughts into me, and they want to throw my whole person into the boiler to melt and then pour it into what they see as the perfect mold to be reshaped! ”

"That's why I don't like to stay at home! I wish I would never go back! ”

The corners of Si Lingyan's mouth twitched, she closed her eyes, sighed heavily, looked at me and said softly: "But I never thought of giving up, because life must go on, and we don't have anything to do with each other, right?" ”