Chapter 8 Lost
On the eve of graduating from college, Yule brought Liu Shimeng back to his home in the north.
The home of the amusement is very beautiful and warm, and the parents are authentic northerners, with a unique straightforwardness and enthusiasm, and they can feel the warmth of home in their bodies.
Liu Shimeng has secretly praised countless times, no wonder amusement is so sunny, only excellent parents can teach excellent children.
Yule's parents did not despise her because of Liu Shimeng's family, but were more concerned and meticulous, and made it clear that they could get married after graduation.
Yule took Liu Shimeng to see the snow in the north, she grew up in the south and has a soft spot for snow, she likes to jump in the snow, and likes the white and flawless snow.
Amusement likes to hit Liu Shimeng with snowballs all over the snow, and then hug each other tightly and gaze affectionately.
Yule told Liu Shimeng that he likes snow the most, and snow is the purest and most self-respecting, just like her, she is a beautiful, pure and self-respecting girl, and being with her is the happiest thing in his life.
Under the care of amusement, Liu Shimeng was happy, happy and fulfilled her four-year college life.
She said countless times that Amusement had saved her soul, and if it weren't for his appearance, maybe she would have been inferior and dark all her life.
I must have been a great and good person in my last life, so I can have a perfect lover like Amusement in this life.
Yule's desire is to be an art teacher, he likes children, because children are innocent, he wants to teach the knowledge he has to cute children, so that they can grow up in another wonderful world.
You also has an unjust wish, that is, after retirement, he will open a love studio, he and his lover will teach children from poor families who love painting for free, so that they can paint their future with a brush, and heal every child like Liu Shimeng with painting.
Liu Shimeng was once again moved by the selflessness and kindness of Amusement, and in tears, she made a vow in this life.
Liu Shimeng became a painter as she wished, and she loved painting, not only because of love, but also because of an inexplicable factor.
She still cares about her father in her heart, Liu Shimeng has questioned her father in countless dark nights, why did he abandon them, doesn't he love them? Then the tears ran down her cheeks, down her hair, and into her pillow.
If hatred can make the heart happier, then hate, but if you have hatred, how can you be happy, because of hate, so missing, in Liu Shimeng's heart, it should be more miss than hate, right?
Yule knows about Liu Shimeng, and he also knows her best.
He told Liu Shimeng that one day he would take her to her father and ask her questions that she had been thinking about for years.
Yu Le and Liu Shimeng held hands and walked in the university that was about to leave, every corner full of memories.
When it was time to really leave, Liu Shimeng was so reluctant, she really liked this university that made her reborn.
Learn knowledge in the halls of the university, meet the love of your life, and realize your dreams.
Soon after, Liu Shimeng and Yu Le tearfully said goodbye to the university where they had lived for four years, and those lovely classmates, everyone went their separate ways, and it may be his year to see each other, or maybe some people will never see each other again after parting.
But they will always remember the youth and beauty of the past, even if time smooths the edges and corners, they can't forget it.
Yu Le and Liu Shimeng left the beautiful campus and entered the big family of society, but it became a difficult problem between them about which city to stay in.
Liu Shimeng is a southern girl, so she naturally loves the south, and Su Jin is closer to home, so it is more convenient to take care of her mother and younger brother.
And Yule misses his distant hometown and his parents, and he wants to return to the hometown where he was raised and contribute the knowledge he has learned to the hometown where he was raised.
Amusement has made Liu Shimeng a lot of things, and he understands her distress, but this time he hesitated, he always remembered home in his heart, and after graduation, it became a huge pressure.
Liu Shimeng understands the hardships of amusement, but she still hopes that Amusement can stay in Su Jin, she can't, can't bear it, can't leave her frail and sickly mother.
They quarreled about this, and then at sunset, Yule stepped on the plane back to his hometown alone.
It was drizzling and cold that day, and Yule's always optimistic and sunny face was hung with melancholy, he pulled his suitcase and looked back again and again, he was looking for Liu Shimeng's figure.
If Liu Shimeng appeared in front of him, would he give up the dream he was clinging to? Maybe he will give up! Because he loves Liu Shimeng.
Of course, Liu Shimeng never appeared in front of him, but hid in a hidden corner and watched the lost amusement.
Her heart was almost broken, and she wanted to run over, hug Yule, and tell him I'll go with you, but everything was silent with tears, and she just watched Yule disappear into the melancholy entrance.
In some people, he was so lonely and lonely.
Liu Shimeng, who sent away the amusement, lost her soul and returned to that home, she didn't know what to do, although she hated the drunken man, but her mother and brother were her dearest people.
Even if a man loves to use violence, with her, her mother and younger brother have warm support.
Every time Liu Shimeng comes home, as long as the man doesn't drink, he will still cook the food as always, and his mother will always carefully hide the wine, only in this way that no accidents will happen and it looks like a home.
At night, tossing and turning, Liu Shimeng told her mother about her troubles.
She loves to have fun, but she can't afford to go home, and her mother caresses Liu Shimeng's long hair lovingly, telling her that she should pursue her own happiness.
Mom is already old, and she can only live like this in this life, besides, with her younger brother by her side, and her uncle is old, he can't move himself, Liu Shimeng can leave Su Jin with confidence and go to find amusement.
That night, my mother stroked Liu Shimeng's hair over and over again, lay down beside her, and then cried silently, saying sorry all the time.
Liu Shimeng's thoughts have been struggling for a long time, love requires courage, love needs compromise, and it needs to pay.
Yule's love for her is true and pure, he pays more than herself, she witnessed her mother's sorrow, why don't she cherish such a good man.
If she misses it, she will not be happy in this life, Liu Shimeng finally made up her mind.
Liu Shimeng called Yule and told him that he loved him and was willing to accompany him to the north to get married and have children, grow old together, and never be separated.
When she picked up her mobile phone, Yule dialed it first, and the content was simple, but Liu Shimeng was already in tears, in addition to being moved and ashamed in her heart, what she loved was not as great as Yule.
Yule is willing to give up the north and is willing to live and work in Sujin, because Liu Shimeng is his food and his water, he will be very hungry if he doesn't eat a meal, he will die if he doesn't drink water, he can't do without food, he can't do without water.
Amusement compromises for love and pays for love.
Liu Shimeng refused to be amused, she wanted to accompany him back to the north, accompany him to be filial to his parents, accompany him to be an art teacher, accompany him to open a love studio, accompany him to see spring flowers, summer rain, autumn leaves, winter snow, where he is, where is her home.
After saying goodbye to her stepfather, mother and younger brother, Liu Shimeng stepped on a plane to the north alone to start a new life.
If nothing had happened, Liu Shimeng would have been the happiest woman in the world, not the walking dead who later lost her lustre.
When she landed on the northern lands, it was just in time for another sunset.
Liu Shimeng watched the fiery red sun gradually disappear into the horizon, and the clouds on the horizon were reflected red by the afterglow of the setting sun, almost half of the sky was red, such a beautiful scenery was like an oil painting.
With excitement, she told herself: This will be your home in the future, and you will take root here.
However, Liu Shimeng didn't see Yule coming to pick up the airport, and she didn't jump into Yule's arms as she imagined, because there were only Yule's buddies waiting at the airport.
Liu Shimeng looked at the ugly faces of her friends in Yule, her heart panicked inexplicably, why wasn't Yule who picked her up.
When Liu Shimeng saw Yule again, he was already a cold corpse.
She didn't know how to get to Yule's side, she couldn't believe that yesterday they were still imagining the future, but today it was such a cruel situation.
Yule died in a car accident, he saved a child, and the child lived, he died, he left this world, took his young soul, and flew to heaven.
Liu Shimeng's mind was confused, her chest seemed to hold her breath, and she trembled and lifted the nasty white cloth.
Yule's pale face appeared in front of Liu Shimeng.
Silence, stunned for a long time.
She finally began to cry, crying so much that her liver and intestines were broken, she shook the amusement fiercely, let him get up, she came to accompany him, she was going to marry him, never separated.
However, all that responded to her was a cold sleeping face.
Yule died, and I can no longer wake up, and I can no longer smile at my favorite girl!
Liu Shimeng lost this perfect man, lost the man who loved her the most in the world, and lost the man who belonged to her.
The scenes of the past lingered in her mind countless times, she wanted to play, she regretted it, she shouldn't have quarreled with Yule, she shouldn't have let him come back alone.
In the end, Liu Shimeng chose to commit suicide, she wanted to follow Yule and turn into Liang Shanbo and Zhu Yingtai with Youle, flying freely in the distant sky, life and death will never be separated.
There is no world of amusement, her life is meaningless, blood flows down the frame of amusement, she thinks she is about to see amusement, but heaven does not accept her.
When she opened her eyes, she was already lying on the hospital bed, and Yule's mother slapped Liu Shimeng hard, making her almost tinnitus, Yule's mother threw Yule's mobile phone to her and turned on the recording.
Inside the mobile phone is a message on the occasion of the dying of the amusement, he said that he loves Liu Shimeng and wants her to live happily, forever, and live well! If there is an afterlife, he will still want Liu Shimeng, and finally Yule told her to forget him, forget him forever!
Until the end, the amusement is still thinking about yourself!
Liu Shimeng cried from the bed to the ground with her mobile phone, and finally cried with her mother in her arms.
Yule's mother is a very kind and bold woman, but at this time she is much older, her face is so pale and old, she lost her son, and her pain is not lighter than Liu Shimeng.
After the injury was healed, Liu Shimeng kowtowed to Yule's parents, she became the daughter of Yule's parents, and a year later, Yule's parents went abroad and left the house to Liu Shimeng, leaving her alone to guard this home.
However, Liu Shimeng rejected their kindness, Yule was gone, she was guarding this empty house for what to do, and finally Yule's parents sold the house, and Liu Shimeng shared a house in Qingping.
After sending away her parents, Liu Shimeng settled in the north, she became an art teacher at a school in Qingping, living with the dream of amusement, and she wanted to live well.
Until one day, under the wisteria tree, Liu Shimeng met Zeng Lihua, a man who resembled the back of Yule.
Zeng Lihua is with the mentality of opening the shackles of the soul, starting a trip, and giving up the past that should be forgotten in a sweet and harmonious place with his schoolgirl.
Liu Shimeng took Yule's last wish before his death and came to this wisteria wonderland that he had longed for a long time.
Liu Shimeng put amusement in the purest and cleanest place in his heart, kept his promises, shouldered his soul to face life, walked along his path, and walked happily.
In her heart, Yule did not leave, turning into an invisible elf, accompanying her and guarding him.
You with wings
Flew away
With your reluctant eyes
And affectionate tears
Outstretched hand
Too late to hold my weak hand
It wasn't time to dry my tears
And you flew into the outer heavens among the white clouds
I burst into tears
With a commitment to you
Live in this lonely world
Maybe I'm the only one alive
You can smile with peace of mind
So
Even if it's lonely and lonely
Always by your side
I also insist on trying to live
Because
I love you
The author has something to say: I am cruel and amorous, in life, there will always be regrets, there is no perfect person in the world, so in this fictional world, I cruelly strangle perfection and let people know how to cherish it in the most ruthless way.