The day after the results came out, Gu Xinyuan ran to school non-stop, perhaps because everyone felt that it was difficult for them to decide which school to apply for at home alone, so there were not many students who came to school. The students gathered in small piles and chattered about their opinions.

"What is the Chinese Language and Literature major? Is it a language? ”

"It should be a Chinese teacher."

"I really don't want to be a teacher, it's too tiring to be a teacher, and the salary is not high."

"Do you want to study English? We are very disadvantaged in choosing an English major! ”

"Why do you say that?"

"What she means is that our province has never had English hearing, so we suffer."

"Then I won't apply for an English major."

Gu Xinyuan frowned and nodded slightly in agreement, because the English teacher did say this during class. With a light sigh, she continued to listen to the conversation.

"My dad said that economics-related majors are better and promising."

"Well, that's what my dad said."

"Then do you want to apply for an economics major?"

"But don't everyone say that the cut-off score for economics majors is relatively high? If you don't get in, it's too bad! ”

"Yes! I feel that the risk is relatively high. ”

Gu Xinyuan remembered that when she came, her father told her to try her best to apply for economics-related majors, and sighed helplessly, she actually didn't want to study any economics majors at all, on the one hand, she heard that the score line of economics-related majors was very high, and on the other hand, because she had no concept of economics at all, and she didn't want to study at all. Looking at the "Guide to Applying for and Filling in Volunteers for Colleges and Universities in the General College Entrance Examination", she was entangled: "Economics, international economics and trade, finance, risk management and insurance, environmental resources and development economics, what are you studying?" I don't understand at all. What should I choose? I'd love to take a linguistics course, but if I don't choose economics, my parents will be disappointed......

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However, all the studies for the exam slipped away, and Gu Xinyuan had to re-register, originally thinking of discussing it with her second brother Gu Yang, but he was too busy, so she had to figure out a way by herself, and because she had never been strictly forbidden to touch the computer, she didn't know how to apply for the exam at all, so she was very distressed.

"Did your second brother say he didn't have time?" Wu Feifei asked with a frown.

"Hmm." Gu Xinyuan nodded.

"Humph! I think he did it on purpose. Wu Feifei pursed his lips and said very unhappily.

"Mom, don't talk nonsense, my second brother won't be like that!"

"How is it impossible?" Gu Daniu interjected, "I see, he must have known about the quarrel between me and his father." Sure enough, the son is still looking for his father! Hehe, even if you grow up together, it doesn't work! ”

Of course, other people's sons are looking for their fathers! Isn't that human?

Gu Xinyuan complained silently in her heart, biting her lower lip unhappily, closing her mouth and not speaking again, because she knew that no matter what she said now, she would not have the strength to do so, and her parents would not only not believe it but would only ridicule her.

Wu Feifei cleared his throat and said, "I see, I still asked a few children from my eldest sister's family to say hello, they are very knowledgeable about computers, and they should know how to apply for the exam." Then he raised his eyebrows again, and said to Gu Daniu, "Look at it, at a critical time, your family really has no effect at all!" ”

Gu Da Niu said with a smile: "You can!" I'm throwing in the towel, right? It's really naïve, you have to earn a lot with me for everything. After speaking, he pursed his lips angrily, and said angrily: "This Gu Yang, I really don't know what to do, I usually treat him very well!" ”

Gu Xinyuan saw that Gu Daniu was scolding Gu Yang again, so she hurriedly raised her voice and said to Wu Feifei: "Mom, you said that you wanted my cousin and cousin to help me apply for the exam, but they have-" She wanted to ask her cousins if anyone had gone to college. Because the aunt's family had already moved to City C, the two families did not move around each other even during the Chinese New Year, so she didn't know much about their family's situation.

Wu Feifei interrupted Gu Xinyuan's words, and said angrily: "What's the matter, isn't it just playing with the computer?" They sell computers, can they still sign up? I'll call your aunt right away. ”

However, things did not develop in the direction that Wu Feifei imagined, and after tossing for two days, she regretfully informed Gu Xinyuan to find another way out.

Gu Xinyuan asked, "What's the situation?" Didn't you say they could sign up? How do you let me sign up like this? It's only four days, and it's so annoying that you've tossed me two days right now.

Wu Feifei was not very happy when he heard Gu Xinyuan's reproachful tone, and immediately retorted: "Then they haven't gone to college either, how can they really sign up?" ”

"What?!" Gu Xinyuan said in disbelief, "What did you say? They didn't go to college, and you still want them to sign me up? Are you alright? ”

When Wu Feifei heard this, he was even more unhappy, his eyes widened, and he snorted angrily: "What's wrong with not going to college?" Can't I apply if I haven't gone to university? Who prescribes? ”

"Can you stop arguing with me?" Gu Xinyuan glanced at his mother with disgust, and said with a painful expression, "Now that my time has been wasted by you, what do you say I should do?" ”

Wu Feifei said angrily: "Isn't there still one day left?" There's still a lot of time, wouldn't it be nice to think of a way? She said as a matter of course, suddenly clapped her hands, and said in a very excited tone: "Ah, by the way, didn't you say yesterday that your classmates can also help you sign up?" Then go find your classmates! ”

Gu Xinyuan sighed speechlessly, gritted his teeth and said, "You told me yesterday that it was basically good, of course I rejected her, and now you come to tell me that it is not done, how can you let me have the face to go to her again?" What's more, she also asks others for help! ”

"Can't pull your face down to beg others?" Wu Feifei shrugged his shoulders and said helplessly, "Why can't you pull your face?" This is a big deal for your future! I'll tell you, I've done everything I can anyway, and if you don't work hard yourself, I won't be able to do anything about it. ”

Gu Xinyuan looked at her mother dumbfounded, and said weakly: "I'm not that familiar with that girl, I really don't know how to ask her to ......" Holding her head helplessly, she muttered regretfully: "I should have had access to the computer if I knew it." ”

"Who told you not to learn how to use computers?" Wu Feifei said angrily.

As soon as she heard Wu Feifei's words, Gu Xinyuan was left speechless in her heart, she gritted her teeth and said angrily: "Obviously you said that you can't touch the computer!" And what do you say that the computer is a spiritual poison of the flood beast, and if you touch it, it will go bad-"

Wu Feifei interrupted Gu Xinyuan's words and asked, "Isn't there teaching in your school?" ”

Gu Xinyuan argued: "However, the school only has one class a week, and most of the time is used to show movies!" ”

"So, that's what happened in your school, does it have anything to do with me?" Wu Feifei finished speaking nonchalantly, and immediately changed the topic: "I said you, are you in a hurry?" ”

"What?" Gu Xinyuan's face was full of doubts.

"There's still a day left today, so let's go and see how to apply for the exam! It's really not good, you go to the school to find your teacher, didn't you say that there is a teacher on duty in the school during the application period? Hurry up and go to the school, just fill it in casually, anyway, you can't apply for any famous universities. In the end, Wu Feifei didn't forget to hit Gu Xinyuan, and by the way, he also alleviated the guilt in his heart.

"When was that? Can the application be the same as the application form? Gu Xinyuan didn't bother to explain anything to Wu Feifei, she stood dumbfounded for a while, she stretched out her hand, and said impatiently: "Give me the phone." ”

"What do you want your phone for?" Wu Feifei hurriedly covered her pockets, as if someone was going to snatch her phone.

"I'll call my second brother and ask him to help me!" Gu Xinyuan's voice was a little higher again, and his tone was full of anxiety and panic.

"Just call him and help you?" Wu Feifei wanted to say something more, but seeing Gu Xinyuan's face full of despair, he obediently handed over the phone.

Gu Xinyuan called Gu Yang for help, and finally chose a school within the specified time, which is a Chinese language and literature major at an S Fan University in City A. That's right, it's a Chinese teacher, originally, the last thing she wanted to go to was a normal school, but she went to a normal school, because several other schools are also normal schools, except for the English major is the history major, after thinking about it carefully, she still decided to go to Chinese language and literature.

Gu Xinyuan lay on the bed, relaxing her body, but the feeling of exhaustion still hit her, pressing her a little suffocated, and she exhaled a long breath that was still panicked and trembling, she only felt that she was so incompetent and powerless at this moment, picked up the diary, and she gently wrote a small poem - "Rebellion":

Looking up at the blue sky, I want to put on the wings of my dreams and fly bravely in this free and boundless sky;

Looking down at the vast earth, I want to grasp the years at my fingertips and carefully savor every grain of joy;

Looking back at the sweet and bitter memories from afar, I want to shout your name out loud and break through the nepeta that binds the legs and feet;

But now, I have long been broken wings, and I can only blow away the broken happiness, watching my dreams flap their wings and leave me;

Finally, as they expected, I gave up on rebellion and no longer dared to hope for extravagance......

It's just, who will tell me where my life should go?