Dad really couldn't hold it anymore. In ancient times, every time there was a change of dynasty, or a war, how many princes and nobles, dignitaries or landlords and old rich ladies and daughters, such as beautiful concubines scattered among the people, they faced the abandonment of fate, only chose to marry to protect themselves, people, when you have a strong desire to live, often lose their dignity. Me too, I'm no exception, I only try to live a good life, I can let my children have no worries about food and clothing, I can give my children a happy and beautiful future, now I can only find a woman who is willing to marry me as soon as possible, I can only do this!

In the next few days, I often went back and forth between the work unit and the city, and although I married this woman as low-key and simple as possible, I still needed to rent a house and simply add some furniture and electrical appliances.

One night a few days later, a few days before we got married, I was drunk that night, the second time I remember being the worst since Ye'er went to court to falsely accuse me of being drunk.

After work that afternoon, a friend asked me to come over for dinner on his birthday, and I politely refused him on the grounds that I was going to the city to clean up the house and prepare for marriage, but in the end I couldn't resist my friend's repeated assurances: I would not be allowed to drink too much. I had to agree, but after work that night, I really had to go to the city to clean up my room. When I arrived at the hotel, a glass of wine was in my stomach, I didn't want to drink too much, but I didn't need to be persuaded to drink at all, so I drank a glass of left and a right glass, this wine made me really want to cry, I drank the wine by myself, while I wanted to cry, if it wasn't for the presence of these friends, if I was just drinking at home alone tonight, I would definitely cry! The boy has tears and doesn't flick, but he hasn't reached the sad place!

When I divorced Ye'er, my daughter had just graduated from the sixth grade of primary school and started the first year of junior high school, three years, and now my daughter has been admitted to high school as she wished and has been in the first year of high school, so difficult and difficult days I have survived, in the past three years, no matter how difficult life is, I have never thought of crying, I can only grit my teeth and persevere. But this time I wanted to cry because my marriage meant that I was separated from my children and that I would have two homes, a new home in the city and an old home in the old house. Although I have settled my daughter's life, my mother is at home at night with my daughter, and I will also live at home with my daughter every once in a while, but, after all, because I have a new home, I and my daughter are separated every day, this is the first time in so many years that my father and daughter have been separated from each other, a very helpless separation, if I can persevere, I will not marry a woman like Yanzi anyway.

But the helplessness and sadness of life make me have only such a choice. I shudder whenever I think of the roar of my motorcycle's motor when I'm drunk; Thinking of that tragic accident, a chill rushed to my heart, overwhelming me. I just want to find a woman, find a woman to marry, maybe with the company of women and chattering and nagging, I will spend my life skillfully and peacefully. My self-preservation is for my parents to be supported, my self-protection is for my children to be raised, and with a father, his daughter is the happiest princess in the world.

I want to cry, crying that I am not strong enough; I want to cry, crying about my helpless choices in the face of life; I wanted to cry, crying that I was going to be separated from my daughter because I was married。。。。。。 No one can empathize with my feelings at that time, I wanted to cry out loud alone, I was really so lonely and helpless at that time, I couldn't do it every day, I couldn't do it every day, I had to find a way to save myself. People can only move forward, not stay in place and wait for death. Moving forward is the only choice, no matter how thorny and difficult the road ahead, but after all, moving forward is a step forward, and only moving forward can there be hope.

Before I knew it, I was already drunk, and strangely enough, I came to the rental house in the city to clean up in such a daze. But I couldn't open the door anyway, a kind of fear came to my heart, although I was drunk, but instinctively I instinctively picked up the phone and called the woman Yanzi, I wanted her to come and help me see why the door couldn't open.

When this woman and one of her best friends came to the rental house and opened the door smoothly, I refused to enter the room so frightened and resistant, Yanzi and her best friend saw that I was so drunk and babbling nonsense, the two of them had to push me into the room and drag me into the room, the more they dragged me, the more I retreated, I felt that what I was facing in front of me was not the new house we were already going to marry and rent, but the abyss that was about to send me to the guillotine, It makes me extremely frightened, and I am infinitely repulsed.

Their drag did not succeed, I took the opportunity of their release to breathe, as if escaping the plague, quickly ran down the stairs downstairs, they followed me downstairs, out of the community, to the street, looking at the strange street in front of me, strange lights, frightened and helpless I finally cried loudly, but they did not know why I cried so badly, they did not know why I resisted to enter the room so much。。。。。。 They don't know, they never will, and only I know how I feel.

My resistance and escape is an instinctive reaction of my drunken resistance and escape from this marriage, my crying is my longing and guilt for my daughter, I am reluctant to leave my children and come to the city to marry this woman, but in the face of life, I may not have any other better choice. If I continue to choose loneliness, I'm afraid I won't be able to persevere; If I continue to choose loneliness, I am afraid that one day my daughter will not see her father who loves her。。。。。。

The strange streets, the strange lights, so ghostly and mysterious, like a ghost fire jumping there in the distance, it opened its bloody mouth and pulsed towards me from far and near, as if it could swallow me in an instant, and I hurried in the direction of home。。。。。。 I couldn't run, panting and falling on the cold and hard concrete floor on the side of the road, I frantically slammed my phone, I frantically picked up two fists and kept pounding my head.

I don't know how long later, when I opened my eyes in a daze because of the pain in my head, I found that I was already lying on the bed in the rental house where I was going to get married, and the two of them were talking in the outer living room, and they came in when they heard me wake up.

As soon as Yanzi's best friend entered the room, she smiled and said, "Are you awake?" I nodded to her with guilt.

"You men are really scary when they're drunk, and they're so strong that it took a lot of effort for Yanzi and I to get you upstairs." The girlfriend continued, finding a chair in the room and sitting down as she spoke.

"If you drink like this, who will dare to marry you, think about it, what should you do?" This best friend of the swallow continued.

"What to do? I'm going to get married in a few days, what else can I do? I replied hoarsely to the words of my best friend.

"That's it, you don't know what to do, I'll tell you, in order to ensure the happiness of your marriage in the future, and also to give an explanation to the future swallow, you can send an IOU of 100,000 yuan to show your sincerity." This woman is really funny to come up with such a ghost idea with a lion's mouth wide open, which may be a ghost idea that they came up with when I was drunk and sleeping just now.

"I don't owe her any money, so what's the IOU for?" I said in confusion and protest.

"I know you don't owe her money, and I also know that there is no practical point in making this IOU, and the purpose of us asking you to make this IOU just want you to have a clear attitude." Swallow's best friend continued to lobby.

Yes, there is no practical point in playing this IOU, after all, I have no arrears, after all, we will get married in a few days, I don't understand women, I think I understand women very well, maybe it's just a woman's vanity, or a self-consolation method taken because of being hurt.

After hesitating for a while, I finally picked up the pen and paper they handed me and typed an IOU of 100,000 yuan owed to Yanzi.