Chapter 18 Dad really can't hold on

Tonight, she drank too much, drunk and staggered, when she walked out of the hotel lobby, she actually pulled me over, her face was full of drunken spring, and suddenly pulled me over to kiss me goodbye, fortunately, a few of her best friends were present, pulled her over, and then relieved my encirclement.

When I got home, I couldn't sleep, for the sake of my children, I got out of this terrible situation, and I had to choose to get married; She was also trying to get rid of it, to get rid of her mother's nagging. Yes, as long as you want to open it, who is not to marry? As long as you want to open it, who is not to marry? Life is very hard, and it is more interesting to have two people as companions than to walk alone alone.

The next day, I received a text message from her: "How's it going?" Have you thought about it? ”

"Then according to what your best friend said, let's get married at the end of this month!" At that time, I replied to the message, as if I was a lamb lying on the chopping board waiting to be slaughtered, leaving people's fish and flesh, but I didn't have the slightest ability to resist, yes, I accepted my fate. Everyone who appears in your life is no accident, they come with a mission, they will always teach you something, or leave something behind.

Unexpectedly, on Monday, I was in the classroom in the morning to teach the children, and a colleague came to tell me that two women had come to me. Just when I was puzzled, she and her best friend came to me from not far away, and it turned out that she also wanted to get married again and come to my unit to find out.

We agreed to get married at the end of this month, and there are still two weeks to go, and everything is simple and casual. On the weekend, I bought some gifts at her request to visit her parents. Her parents live in an old community in the city, when they step into the gate of the community, almost all they see are some elderly people in activities, gathering in twos and threes, playing chess, exercising, doing needlework, her parents are a very ordinary and common image of retired old people, but they are not too old, and they have just retired for a few years. Her mother was a shrewd and capable and strong person, while her father seemed to be honest and wooden, listening to the woman Swallow, her father was very afraid of guilt, and her mother was very strong at home.

It turned out that her parents were not locals in the city, but before and after the liberation, many rural people went to the city to mix with the poor, and later the country implemented land reform, and some people were attached to the homeland and liked to smell the fragrance of the soil, so these people went back to the countryside and became farmers for life. And some people are attached to the bustling and noisy crowd of the city, or have dragged their families with their mouths, and after years of hard work in the city, they have a foothold, these people choose to stay, and since then they have become people with urban hukou, and those who are a little skilled or relatively young have entered the factory one after another to be a lifelong worker. Swallow's mother came to the city a few years before her father, so Swallow's mother always thought that she was from the city, and thus looked down on her father. Originally, they were all from the countryside, but when they entered the city a few years earlier, they thought they were from the city, and this consciousness has also deeply affected the woman Yanzi, and I can clearly feel the superiority of being a city person that she consciously or unintentionally embodies. But I really don't understand where the confidence of her superiority comes from as a city person.

Her parents agreed to our marriage, and although they were a little surprised, they agreed.

My parents also agreed to my marriage, but I have to communicate with my children well. It happened to be the weekend, and when I came home from the city, I told my daughter that I was going to get married, and she was not surprised at all, and she did not object to it. But I know that in fact, in my daughter's heart, she herself may have known that her father would have to form a new family sooner or later, and three years of single life and Ye'er's remarriage have made my daughter feel strange about my thoughts.

That night, I told my daughter a lot, I said, Dad doesn't want to get married, he really doesn't want to get married, he just wants to live a good life alone with his own children, but he was born as a human being, and he walks alone, maybe one day Dad will really break down.

Of the people I know, there are four men who have divorced their wives, but all of them ended in tragedy, and when I talk about them, my daughters all know them, or at least I know that there are four people in our place, who are about the same age as me.

Male A is my classmate, very good, is very stubborn, and his wife has a daughter, when his daughter was about ten years old, his wife insisted on divorcing him, and then left the child and went away, male A has been insane since then, wandering around the vegetable market all day long, sometimes suddenly screaming a few times, frightened pedestrians have avoided it.

Male B's home is very close to the place where we opened the store, and his wife went out to work, and there was no news of him, so he waited for his wife for two years at home, but what he waited for was a summons from the court, and finally they divorced, and soon after their divorce, Male B ran away from home, and there was no news of Male B.

Male C is my neighbor, the young man is very handsome, his wife is also very beautiful, every time I meet on the road, always greet me very warmly, his wife has no job, soon after giving birth to a child, he went to a hotel as a waiter, less than half a year, and the hotel owner got along, and then they divorced, her wife became the hotel owner's junior. Male C drinks at home all day to drown his sorrows, and when he is drunk, he smashes the furniture at home and any other items that he can move, and his home is smashed by him, and it no longer looks like home.

The situation is most miserable for men. The man is a person I am very familiar with, the couple is diligent and dedicated to running a barber shop, people with skills are always not worried about no money to make, their business is very good, men are smiling, women are tender, they have three children, two girls and one boy. Later, there was a man who often went to this barber shop to get a haircut, the so-called "Ming Xiu Plank Road, Dark Chen Cang", this woman actually got together with this man, and finally his wife abandoned her husband and children, leaving three children, the eldest child is eight or nine years old, the divorced man is still so dedicated and smiling during the day to continue to run his barber shop, there are still three children to be fed and need him to raise. However, sometimes, when he gives customers a haircut, he will always smirk a few times, and after a long time, these old customers will get used to it. At night, like me, he was always drunk, but he was a little different from me, he was like this every day, and I was only drunk on weekends. One day, when he didn't open for business, his family searched for him and found him dead on the roof of his small two-story building, covered in filthy vomit. His family called the police, and the medical examiner reported that he was drunk and vomited, and died of suffocation from vomiting, pitying his three children。。。。。。

When I told my daughter about these stories that happened around me one by one, my daughter said to me sensibly, "Dad, I'm fine." You get married, I will arrange my own, it's really not easy for you, even my mother said: Your father has lived alone for so many years, why is he not schizophrenic? Or mentally depressed? ”

"Don't worry, Dad is strong!" I proudly said to my daughter.

But, daughter, you know what? Dad is really about to be unable to hold on, otherwise, Dad would not have chosen to get married.