What is Buddha?

From the hell of the ghost, untainted.

Forgive and soothe the lonely soul.

Holy as a white lotus.

Coming from the silt swamp, clean and gentle.

From hurt, no fear, no resentment, still kind.

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Four years later

Bei Bei sat in the waiting room of Toronto Airport in Canada, everything was too sudden, her flight was delayed due to the weather, and she might have to wait longer...... Maybe wait a long time.

Qin Tian sat beside her, his pointed scalp shoes knocking on the ground like a mirror, he was finally no longer the white-skinned and tender face of his youth, and wore a long coat, the kind of coat that only tall men would wear, the fabric softly wrapped around his body and soul.

"You go back first, and then I'll look for you when I've got the work in hand. ”

Bei Bei tilted his head to look at his usual plain appearance, he was in a trance for a while, Qin Tian seemed to be one size bigger, he was not as thin and thin as when he was young, and his shoulders were much thicker. At the time, she had mixed feelings, and what was in front of her was the shoulders of a man who would only be seen in foreign movies, thick and powerful, and the thin woolen suit was buttoned until it covered the Adam's apple tightly, neatly and neatly, so his Adam's apple moved up and down.

"Hmm. Bei Bei agreed, she pursed her lips, not knowing what she was thinking. Her hand tugging at the trolley case was so hard that her fingertips were bloodless. She didn't say anything more, turned her head away from him, nervous, but not as apprehensive as she had been four years ago.

"Are you afraid?" Qin Tian shook her hand, very hard, she knew that he wanted to make her feel more grounded. Beibei's stiff back bent down and she sat in a comfortable but ugly position, which made her feel better. The two of them couldn't be more familiar, and the four years they have lived together are enough for him to get to know her more thoroughly.

"At the time, I thought I was just going to go abroad. Bei Bei raised her head jerkyly, she liked to look at his face, scratched her head like a child, and smiled warmly, it was a comfortable day, although it was varied, everything that could be recalled was beautiful.

"Do you want to bring something for your mother?" Qin Tian lowered his head and carried Beibei's trolley case and put it in front of him, he wanted her to relax, but her hands suddenly became empty, but she didn't know where to put it, and she paused in mid-air sadly.

"No, it's too late to buy it. Bei Bei still replied lightly, so deliberately put his hand on his lap, as if he was asked by the teacher when he was a child, and held it awkwardly: "Nothing is important." ”

"I don't need you, I'm free, I can go buy it in the next few days. Qin Tian shook her hand again, wanting her to feel better.

"No, I'll go back. Fill me with a bottle of snow water. Beibei's clear eyebrows and eyes looked like a naughty smile, and she really seemed to feel better.

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The plane was more than five hours late and finally arrived, and today's weather was not good, just clear, but it was an unexpectedly good day. Bei Bei hurriedly followed the flow of people inside, her anxiety made her still look very nervous, Qin Tian followed closely behind her, as if she was going to escape, she turned around and told him step by step: "I'll go first, you must send my son back, if you are not free, let him stay with you for a few more days and then come back." ”

Qin Tian nodded, and by the way, he gave her a very relaxed smile, he touched Beibei's head, and she was only left with a layer of stubble on her scalp.

After the security check, Bei Bei glanced behind her again, Qin Tian shook her arm to signal her, and she continued to walk with the flow of people, and then she couldn't see him anymore. It wasn't the first time she'd been on a plane alone, but she still couldn't get used to it, and she felt scared, genuinely scared. She knew that it would either break or break or she would barely survive, so every time she got on the plane, she was too nervous to move.

She thought about going to bed on the plane, hoping that everything could be spent in her sleep, saving her fear. She found her seat, and there was still plenty of time to put her bags away. Her place was next to an old couple, an old couple who looked like English, very fat, the two of them sat there very uncomfortable, even her seat looked cramped, but Bei Bei wanted to make herself comfortable, she still asked for a blanket, and everything was ready.

——

It's been a long time since she came to Toronto, but Bei Bei still doesn't know the city. She had never felt at home here, there were so many beautiful places here, but she had hardly ever been. She spends all her time in the house, like she is in the country. Here she became a freelancer, although the meager income could only support her life, but she never felt so down-to-earth and happy as she does now, her noisy heart will no longer endlessly provoke and boring life, she is finally calm.

This felt great, you must know that it was the first time for her to be so simple, just savoring life, which made her feel a new life, starting from when she saw a book with three Chinese characters on the cover in the bookstore next to Qin Tian's school.

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”the book?”

It was when she could only speak a little English, and the old foreign man who sold books at the bookstall wore a crappy shoulder, gray, beige on the bottom, which looked ridiculous, hanging like two coats on his bloated body. He enthusiastically introduced the book to her, and then blessed her child, who was still in her womb, and pointed to her bulging belly, and said that the child must be a lovely fellow, free and easy.

Free, Babe liked him to say that, to be exact, she didn't understand at all, she just watched him go up and down with his hands back and forth, and closed her eyes in intoxication.

It must be freedom.

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"Why did you buy the Tao Te Ching?" Qin Tian picked up the book from the coffee table, a little far away, he raised it high and showed it to Bei Bei who was in the kitchen: "Are you sure you can understand the English version?"

The girl only opened her mouth, noncommittal.

"You know? You shouldn't be so confident in foreigners, their language can't express the complex context of Chinese, not to mention that you also chose the Tao Te Ching." ”

One afternoon a week later, Bei Bei found a Chinese version of the Tao Te Ching, neatly placed on top of the English book. She picked it up and saw Qin Tian taking a nap on the sofa, the book was obviously not for adults like her, there were many cartoon cartoons in it, and annotations in Chinese and English, although the Chinese was not very beautiful, but the English was really worse, but the comics were still very good.

In the days before the child was born, it was the only outlet for her happiness except for Qin Tian's sister, and she didn't even need to carry her feelings.