Looking at these two identical paternity test reports, I forced myself to admit over and over again: my baby is not my baby anymore.

Maybe Ye'er was right to ask me to do a paternity test in the first place, the wicked can know the evil of the wicked, but the good will never know the evil of the wicked. I will never understand that human beings have given women the great and sacred title and duty of "mother" and "mother", but why should so many women in the world lose the blasphemy of their conscience? I don't know, I just know that we really should implement a human eradication plan to get rid of the bipeds that are not human in the crowd, so that the world will be a little more beautiful and a lot less suffering!

I had to send my baby to her mom, and no matter how reluctant I was, I couldn't convince myself to keep my baby because my baby wasn't my baby anymore. No one can understand my feelings at that time, without my own experience, you will never experience this pain! Every night or day, as long as I have time, I look up cases like mine on the Internet, and how do people make choices when they encounter the same situation like mine? Without exception, in addition to cursing a few words viciously against such a woman, people without exception chose to send the baby away.

I can't imagine what the baby will look like when it really leaves me one day, I can't imagine, and I don't want to imagine. At that time, the woman had already gone to the south to work, and she said that when the legal process came, she would come back to pick up the baby.

I am the most unlucky person in the world, people have all kinds of suffering, and this kind of most hurtful and heart-rending suffering in the world has made me and my baby encounter, who do I blame? I don't blame anyone! Whoever I hate, I hate no one! It's not that I don't hate, it's not that I don't resent, because at this moment, I hate and resent, for me and the baby, have lost any meaning. Those who have not experienced it will never be able to understand my feelings at this moment, I don't hate anymore, I don't complain anymore, I'm like a leaf drifting in the wind, without the roots to cling to, I can only be at the mercy of fate; I am also like a small boat that has lost power, tossed and drifted away with the rough waves on the boundless sea, neither alive nor dead, and some just obey the arrangement of fate like ashes。。。。。。

When I called Ye'er to tell me the news, Ye'er at this time understood my pain very well, she didn't say anything, she just said, come home immediately tonight to accompany me. I know that Ye'er's heart must be happy at this time.

All our suffering is suffering for ourselves, and for others, it will be a joke, and it is good to be able to do it without caring about ourselves. But in most cases, our suffering ends up being an after-dinner conversation or a joke. People think of our suffering as a joke, yes, maybe my baby and I are really a joke, a joke that is laughed at!

The woman I married who regarded her as her life and loved her as a treasure actually had a chaotic private relationship with many people during her marriage, which led to the tragedy of me and my baby. There is no useless experience in life, but is this experience just to leave me and my baby with such a pain?

I don't know, so let it be. If you can't figure it out, don't think about it, don't let it go if you can't put it down, eventually you will figure it out, and eventually you will let it go; It's not a matter of figuring it out, nor is it a matter of letting go of it, it's just a forced acceptance! Accept it or not, the facts are the facts, the world is so cold and cruel, it always uses cold facts to tell people how to choose, instead of living in a dream and taking it for granted!

I have lost my human dignity and will, I am like an antelope on the grassland that is about to fall into the mouth of a lion, my struggle has no practical meaning, maybe this is all fate, it is my life, and it is also the life of my little treasure.

When I look at the animal world, I always don't understand why an antelope that falls into the mouth of a lion doesn't choose to die and struggle, why it doesn't choose to cry and cry, but always chooses to stretch out its legs and open its eyes, and then let the lion's blood be torn and devoured.

At this moment, I understand, baby, at this moment, Dad understands, Dad understands the bloody picture of an antelope falling into the mouth of a lion in the animal world. The poor antelope had to resign itself to fate, only stretched out its legs, and let the lion open its bloody mouth greedily and wantonly bite its throat, take out its heart, liver and lungs, and tear its body bloody。。。。。。 This poor antelope is only like this, this is fate! This is a life that you can't change no matter how hard you try!

Daddy is this poor antelope, it's fate! It's my life that I can't change no matter how hard I try, and my life makes me lose my little treasure, it's like taking away my heart, liver and lungs, baby, you know? You are Daddy's heart, liver and lungs! Baby, do you understand? This is life, and it is a life that Dad can't change no matter how hard he tries! So I don't hate anyone, I don't blame anyone, it's my father's life, and it's my poor baby's life! It's all God messing with people, but, baby, do you know? Daddy is not afraid! Dad is not afraid of God making people, Dad is not afraid! Dad is also like that antelope, stretching out his legs, resigned to fate, who can help me! No fear of life and death, who can help me!

At this moment, I understand, baby, at this moment, Dad understands, Dad understands the bloody picture of an antelope falling into the mouth of a lion in the animal world. The antelope's last eyes were wide open, and it didn't choose to close its eyes, because the poor antelope was looking up at the sky, and it was questioning the sky, asking why the sky was treating it like this! Its eyes are wide open, indicating that it is blind to death, showing its attachment to life and reluctance to give up on children! The antelope's eyes are wide open, protesting, questioning, attached, and reluctant。。。。。。

Baby, do you understand? Dad is also questioning Cangtian, asking why Cangtian is giving me and my child such suffering, my baby is only four years old and ignorant of the world! My baby is so innocent, so cute, God, why are you so cruel to my baby! I can resign myself to fate, but I'm not convinced!

I clearly remember that day was December 8th, a Friday afternoon, the baby was picked up by her mother directly from the kindergarten when she was out of kindergarten, this walk, not life and death parting, but better than life and death parting!