Ever since this happened, I have been alone except for teaching the children, and the rest of the time I have been alone in a secluded corner of the school playground, where I am alone and thinking, occasionally smoking a cigarette, and the curling smoke comes out of my mouth, and then turns into a trace of green smoke, drifting away with the wind, and finally turning into an invisible landscape.

For several days, I was like this, I didn't pay attention to other people's gossip, let alone guess other people's cranky thoughts, I just thought quietly and stared blankly. A week passed, and another week passed, and I looked at the cigarette that came out of my mouth, from the curling smoke at first, then to the wisps of green smoke, and then to the wind, and disappeared, and my thoughts gradually became clearer.

Yes, isn't life a lifetime? came in a daze, passed in a daze, and then died in a daze, and those who figured it out, or those who couldn't figure it out, didn't have a second time. A person's life, who can say that the way is clear, because everyone is the first time to be a person, and there will never be a second time! It's not like doing a math problem, where you make a mistake and you can do it again until you get the most perfect and correct answer. It's not like doing all kinds of experiments, they can be repeated countless times, but there is only one life and no one can do it all over again. So, whenever I see someone talking about a successful life and a failed life, I scoff at it. Have you been here? Since it's the first time, how do you know what failure is? What is Success? Do you have any experience as a human being? No one, life is actually just a process, all you see along the way are landscapes, and the more people and things you experience, the more scenery you see; There are fewer people and things to experience, and there will be fewer scenery you will see along the way.

Life is actually like going to a strange tourist attraction to play, some people walk on a paved cement road, but the scenery is average; Some people are not willing to be plain, and take the wilderness path of thorn rebirth, maybe the scenery along the way is more primitive and beautiful! We are here for the first time in this unfamiliar attraction, you can't judge the people who walk on the paved cement road to see the scenery is good, or the people who walk the wilderness trail see the scenery over there, there is really no way to judge, because the road is different, so everyone sees different scenery, enjoy a different mood. There is no way to exchange life, and there is no way to start again, everyone is the first time, and no one knows which side of the scenery will be better!

If I have to say what a successful life is, I think it is that you enjoy the scenery along the way, don't worry about yourself, you can't leave your parents, you can't abandon your children. As for the lover who walks with you, she will not lose it, because one of her turns, or a fork in the road, she will go with others!

The children you bring up cannot be abandoned, because they are still young; The parents who gave birth to you and raised you cannot be left behind, because they are old. One needs you to support, the other needs you to raise, one is old, the other is young, and no one wants to walk with them! Success in life is nothing more than that, you just grit your teeth and swallow blood, but you also have to hold your parents and take your children all the way down to see the scenery along the way. As for dignity, who knows what dignity is, and supporting one's parents and raising one's children well is the greatest dignity and success! I can personally send my parents who gave birth to me to the end of life, and I can lead the children who need me to raise to the beginning of life, life is nothing more than this, I think this is the true meaning of life, this is a successful life!

I figured it out, thought clearly, and took care of my children, which is my successful life. After all, children need a complete home, after all, Ye'er may only make mistakes occasionally, after all, Ye'er has a good job in the community that even college students dream of but not necessarily get, after all, I have also made mistakes that men should not make, but it is not cheating and betrayal, but it is just the instinct of an ambitious animal, although it has been a long time, it was five or six years ago, but, after all, it was my mistake first, and I can only do this.

When a lover makes a mistake, he will feel uneasy; The scumbag makes a mistake, but thinks it's a matter of course.

I called Ye'er, the past was cleared, and I lived a good life with the baby for the rest of my life. Ye'er agreed, and the next day Ye'er went home with her big bag and small luggage.

Ye'er came back contemptuously, without sincerity, just taking advantage; I had no choice but to do it because I was here for my baby.

The next morning after I called Ye'er at night, as soon as my child and I got up, Ye'er came back, carrying her big bag and small luggage. My child and I have to hurry up to have breakfast, and then go to work and school, Ye'er is still washing, and then sitting there carefully and seriously putting on her makeup, I estimate that at this time, Ye'er must have that snickering joy in her heart, this kind of snickering joy makes her a kind of disdain for me.

I'm going to work, and when the evening comes, I'm going to have a good chat with Ye'er.

In the evening, Ye'er still got off work, so she went straight to the casino, and when she got home, it was already more than nine o'clock at night.

I said to Ye'er, the reason why I can choose to let you go home is mainly because of two reasons, one is that the child needs a complete home, after all, the child is already in the first year of junior high school, and is in the critical period of academic and physical health development and growth, for the future of the child, we need to give the child a complete home; Secondly, it is because considering your future and future, after all, how difficult this job is for you, even many fresh college graduates, if they want to enter the community work, they need to pass the layers of examinations and selection, and they may not be able to enter the community work smoothly. And you are even a person who has not even graduated from junior high school, and there is no technical skills and the like, the biggest advantage is that you have developed a mouth that can speak well, you can enter the community work as you wish, the work is leisurely, and the salary income is relatively high, even if you don't think about your children, don't think about this family, you should at least think about the rest of your life. "Ten bets and nine losses", but once you step into the casino, it is a road of no return.

I thought about it wrong, I thought that Ye'er should at least think about the child when she went home this time, but she was just for herself, and everything was a temporary refuge.

Because Ye'er knew that she was a foreign-married daughter, she did not belong to the residents of our community, and if she wanted to get the job she dreamed of for a long time, she had to choose to take refuge and take refuge temporarily. As for me, the child, and this family, in her heart, it's all bullshit!

Yes, I still can't understand the profound truth contained in the sentence "conniving and believing in villains means that you are a villain".

Yes, maybe I'm really a little person myself, and I can carry a weight with my children alone. But I use the excuse that my children need a complete home and my wife needs a bright future, selfishly conniving and believing in such a scumbag, what is the difference between this and a villain!

Child, you can carry your child alone with the weight; Wife, she is not your wife for a long time!