After I went to high school, I was already a 17-year-old child, two years older than my peers, not because I went to school later than the average person, so my classmates were much younger than me, but because the school took into account my good grades, so I put mine as far as possible in the front, my table mate is a good-looking girl, seeing his first sight, my heart can't help it, after all, I am already a 17-year-old boy, and I have reached the age of the beginning of love, many boys are at my age, I have even had several relationships, but I am still clean, not because I don't like people, not because I don't like people, it's not because I don't like people, just because I know that I'm not qualified to like those people, when those people like me because of my appearance, but after they contact me, they know that I'm an orphan, and then they will immediately stay away from me, and after being hit once or twice, I don't dare to take the initiative to talk to any girl anymore, I disguised myself as a person who could only learn at school, in fact, my heart couldn't help but be moved when I looked at those girls, especially my tablemate, and such a simple and lovely little girl, my tablemate is called Qingming Hua, a girl two years younger than me, I heard that the family conditions are quite good, in fact, in my eyes, as long as there are parents, they are all girls with good conditions, I know very well that I am not worthy of this girl, so I never intended to be tempted by this person, Everything I do is just want to build on the path of my studies.

After I went to high school, the school's arrangement for me was to let me live in the dormitory of the school, and give me 500 yuan per month for living expenses, just 500 yuan, which was actually very low for us at that time, but it was like asking for money more than the hospital every month. The dean's mother can only let me rely on myself and the government's strength, the school helped me apply, the school subsidy and the school subsidy, there are six or seven hundred yuan per month, this is all my monthly income and living sources, but after going to high school, there are too many places to spend money, I need to eat every day, and I often have to buy money for counseling materials, anyone who has experienced the college entrance examination knows that those counseling materials for three years of high school and high school are really a fortune, Every single one of them needs to be bought, often with the money, and then I buy these things, and then my body is no longer enough, and I eat by myself.

I just bury my head in my study every day, go back to the dormitory to sleep when I sleep on the 3.1 line, study in the class the rest of the time, go to the school cafeteria to eat when I'm hungrier, and occasionally go to the bookstore to buy, the tutoring materials I need, this is all the source of my life, fortunately, after I go to high school, although there are some boys in Xiao Xiaoli, but for me, they are still relatively offspring, maybe they know my family situation, and they have a sympathy in their hearts later, After the meeting, no one surrounded me and ridiculed me for making things difficult for me, but it made my high school life a lot simpler, but my life has been poor, which made me feel uncomfortable, just one day when I didn't eat breakfast for a week in order to buy a review material, and finally that morning, I felt like I was covered in a cold sweat, I have been having low blood sugar, this is something I have known for a long time, but I always feel that it is not a big deal? But this morning was really uncomfortable, it made me feel weak and dizzy, I couldn't help but hurt the people around me, ask for help, my tablemate, that little girl, I said to him, can you go and buy me some food? I have low blood sugar, what I didn't expect was that this girl called Qingming Painting, when I was stopped, was just full of surprise, looking at my expression and dumbfounded, and then immediately dragged a few white rabbit toffee out of his pocket, my brother told me that you eat this first, I will help you buy bread, looking at the figure of this girl leaving, my heart is inexplicably moved, or the first time someone cares about me so much, in addition to going to the hospital, and then the mother of the director of the hospital, it is the first time that someone has paid attention to me like this, Buying candy is really sweet in my mouth, in fact, I like to eat these sweet toffee, but when I was a child, only during the Chinese New Year, maybe we could eat one or two, so I didn't dare to let myself eat sleepy, fortunately, after a while, honeysuckle helped me buy a bread, have I met? I ate the mask in almost two bites, looking at my mother's famous flowers, looking at my stunned appearance, I felt embarrassed, and I felt embarrassed even more.

Maybe Tsinghua people can't understand, why in this era? And people like me who gobble up food! I'm a little embarrassed, right, please say, thank you, but Qingming Hua was a little embarrassed to say to me, do you need me to buy you another one? Maybe in his heart, I'm a very large vector person, but what he doesn't know, I actually haven't eaten this week, and I missed dinner in the cafeteria last night because of studying, and being hungry for a whole day and a night will cause low blood sugar this morning, I don't want to be too entangled in this matter, it's okay to say to Qingming, I can, thank you for telling the whole class about this, although everyone won't laugh at me, but I will still feel embarrassed, I work hard to study hard, Don't let yourself pay attention to the herring fish, I hope this matter will pass as soon as possible, but just when I hope this matter will pass as soon as possible, I found that the honeysuckle around me seems to be secretly looking at me intentionally or unintentionally, why is he looking at me? Did she like me? At that moment, I had a little joy in my heart, all along, I have never had a girlfriend, nor have I held a girl's hand, but Qingming Flower is sitting next to me, I can even smell the faint fragrance of Qingming Flower hair, in fact, I have long liked Jin Minghua's Qingming Flower, which is one of the few girls in the class who are more good-looking.

At lunchtime, I rushed into the cafeteria, my lunch is relatively simple, compared to other friends, classmates have fish and meat at every meal, I only need half a catty of rice and a vegetarian dish every day, because this is the most money-saving method, half a catty of rice only needs five cents, a vegetarian dish only needs five cents, so down, I only need one dollar per meal to eat a meal, yes, just today, when I was desperately eating my own meal, another goddess in the same class called Rong Rong's girl, appeared in front of me, He squatted on a braised pork, put it in front of me and said I really want me to make a braised pork, but I remember that I am losing weight, can you help me eat it? Please, you also know that waste is shameful, in fact, I know that Rong Rong's alternative help, in fact, is for the purpose of caring for me, these girls are always very kind, kind, kind at the same time, they will always find some high-sounding reasons for themselves, but I am also a big boy, I have no reason to refuse the kindness of others, I still smiled and took out the money and said, then I will give you the money, sure enough, I want to be the same as I think, and then where can I ask for money? It's just that we're all classmates, are you helping me? Why should I ask for your money, put down this braised pork, Rong Rong is gone, in fact, I haven't eaten braised pork for a long time, except for one or two fingerprints during the New Year, many times these dishes are very far away from my life for me, I sandwiched a chopsticks braised pork, after the entrance I clearly knew, it turned out that I had eaten green cabbage mapo tofu, these dishes are really too unpalatable compared to braised pork, it turns out that braised pork is so fragrant, so sweet, it turns out that braised pork is so delicious, I know that there are always some strange eyes around the temple, looking at me, but I don't care about these eyes anymore, anyway, one day I will leave here, leave everyone here, and find a place where no one knows me, and I will pretend to be a tasteful and elegant person.

I pretended to be very successful, so in the evening when I went to the cafeteria to eat again, I was surprised to find that there was an extra amount of money on my meal card, I don't know who put this money on my meal card, and when I was eating, my aunt gave me a meat dish inexplicably, such a bastard, it was my aunt who didn't take the initiative, just told me, don't talk, quietly take it away and eat it, I won't refuse the kindness of strangers to me, from childhood to adulthood, I grew up in the kindness of others, if it weren't for these kind people, Then I may have starved to death, but this time I have another food in my heart, I always feel that if this money is honeysuckle, quietly called me, how good it should be, I know that the reason why Rong Rong will give me that braised pork, is because Rong Rong is a good friend of Qingming Hua, I don't know if Hua likes me, but what I noticed is that Tsinghua class always stares at me intentionally or unintentionally, and it seems that the whole class has noticed the zeroing and stares at me about this matter, Because I and Honeysuckle live in the teacher's classroom, in the front row, when Qingming Hua turned her head to look at me, the classmates behind began to see clearly, and finally I couldn't stand the embarrassment of being watched by everyone, and quietly wrote a note to Xue Linghua, which was written but stared at me, very embarrassing, I saw the note I wrote to Honeysuckle, after being opened by Honeysuckle, I listened to her face full of loss, maybe I really like me in my heart, I think my first feelings may be coming, I know that my family is very poor, I haven't fallen in love in my life, but since Tsinghua took the initiative to like me, then I still have the advantage to attract these girls, at least I don't look worse than others, I quietly wrote a note to Tsinghua again, which said, I'm waiting for you in the woods at school after school, are you coming? I don't know if Tsinghua will come, anyway, I'm going to wait there, maybe this is my first relationship.

I came to the grove behind the school with an English book, I often endorse books here, so everyone is not surprised that I follow here, originally I thought that Qingming words would not come, but after a long time, Qingming words still came to my side, I know that Qingming flowers are willing to come here, and individuals come here, it means that lucky flowers like me, I smiled and said to couples when it comes to class, don't always stare at me, because tilting your head to look at me, I am not good for my neck, now there are only two of us here, You can look at it casually, I looked at Qingming Hua's shy expression, I know that this girl must like me, I can always have a relationship of my own, I have the courage to ask you, do you like me? But what I didn't expect was that Honeysuckle was actually very brave to say to me Yes, I like you, I smiled, at this moment, all the satisfaction in my heart was completed, and finally there was a girl who liked me, and would not hate me because of my poverty, I told the cleaning flower, I also like you, in my hometown, the moment I said that I also like you, I can see that Honeysuckle, the whole person is tired in place, although the body has not moved, but it can be seen that his whole mood has flown to the sky.

I know, maybe honeysuckle can even change my life, I know, maybe those careful thoughts in my heart, some of them are a little despicable, but as long as I talk to couples wholeheartedly in the future, this little baby is not a big deal now? I told Jin Minghua that because I still have to go to school, I may snub you now, and when I am admitted to university, I will give you a good future, if you like me, from now on, you will be my girlfriend, okay? Almost without any consideration of intimate words to acquiesce to my topic, I told Qingming Hua, I will send you home every day after school in the future, I get up early every morning, I walk to the neighborhood of your house, wait for you to go to school together, get out of school together, this is the most I can do at the moment, honeysuckle is only moved, except to move her, there is no other thing left.

It's so easy, it's simple, the first relationship in my life and my first girlfriend is like this, came to my side, when I held the hand of honeysuckle, my heart was very touched, the original girl's hand is so soft, the original girl's hand is so fragrant.