The holiday training was carried out as usual, this time in the studio, one time was born and two times cooked, everyone seemed to be used to it, and there were no complaints, just because this is a fact that cannot be changed.

In the past few days, my roommate's complaints have become louder and louder, for me, I always think a lot, and I am under a lot of psychological pressure, and it is not surprising if it is just one day in all aspects of life and study, but it is a circular feeling day after day.

Especially in the dormitory, if you don't rest well every day, and you don't have even the most basic rest, the result may be worse, and this anxiety may evolve again, and it will evolve even worse.

Could it be that in the end it will only be a valid perception of reality?!

I don't want to live in a dorm anymore.

It's good for me and good for everyone.

Although I am only submissive on the outside, I am a very resolute person in my bones, it can be said to be firm, that is, what I have decided, no one can change.

It's also a good joke, and it's generally about saying and doing what.

This decision is either casual or what I think in my heart, and I have been thinking about it for a long time.

On this day, in the afternoon.

After a moment of struggle, I said, "I don't live in school?" ”

It's not that I don't want to, it's that I don't

"Huh?" Alin was visibly surprised, and she didn't hide her surprise in the slightest.

She just wants a girl who has a very bold temperament and a big grin, so she won't say those false words, and she won't pretend to keep me, although she is surprised, but she really didn't keep me.

If she stays, maybe I'll consider staying.

She always likes to just talk, and she probably thinks I am too, and at first she didn't believe what I said, but I was telling the truth, and it took a long time to think about it.

The day before the holiday, I packed everything in the dormitory, Alin saw it and believed it completely, finally didn't think I was joking at the time, and she wouldn't be sad about my departure, after all, there was no need.

Alin was accepting my choice, and her reaction was to look for her next friend.

It can be said that it is very realistic.

This time, I guess I abandoned her, and although I feel sorry for Alin, I want this more than I am physically and mentally exhausted.

After that, Alin was looking for someone to live with her in the dormitory, this time Xin, because Xin happened to be left alone.

The relationship between the two of them has completely surpassed that of me and Alin, and sometimes the friendship of the three of them is like that.

It's the instinct of human survival, and everyone can't like me and like loneliness.

I respected her choice and left without any nostalgia.

The rest of the dorm was just watching me or packing up their things, but they should be happy, because then they wouldn't be disturbed when they went to bed.

When I walked out of the dormitory, I thought it was a relief, but it was actually an even bigger challenge.

That's the family.

When they knew that I was going to go home to live, their faces were full of melancholy and disgust, as well as the diss of language.

I don't know why, but it is, and I can still remember their expressions vividly. Because the psychological pressure brought to me is really too great, so now it is not left and right, and this time, I sincerely experience the difficulty of living.

It's tough.

Especially my father's face was tired and speechless, it was too heart-wrenching, he kept asking me why I didn't live in school, and even threatened me with words that I had to live in school, he didn't threaten it, but now it seems that I can't help it.

In fact, it's not just because I'm angry and rebellious, I really don't want to live in the school anymore, but it's also the result of considering a variety of factors, and in the face of different difficulties and obstacles on both sides, I can only choose one.

The multiple-choice questions are not difficult, but survival is very difficult.

At this time, you can only tell yourself that you can get used to it.

Later, my parents couldn't resist me, after all, even the things had been moved back, so you can see my determination, although I don't know if this decision is right or wrong.

The consequences of your own decisions are, of course, your own responsibility.

……

The first semester of the sophomore year of high school.

Get off the wrong foot.

Wobbly riding my only electric car on the way to school, as a result, crashed.

The first day didn't seem to go well, when the road was almost entirely contracted by students, and all kinds of electric cars and bicycles were waiting for the green light to pass.

Every time you reach a corner, there will be a fierce competition, the result is either tragic or forward, depending on your driving skills, this is also a competition of ability.

However, as I don't ride a bicycle often, I had a small friction with an unknown person.

Fortunately, it was just a small friction, but this time it aroused my attention, and the originally sleepy eyes instantly stared like copper bells, and I didn't dare to wander in the slightest, it seems that riding a bike really needs to be concentrated, otherwise I don't know what will happen in the next second.

Just like just now.

Thrilling indeed.

I suddenly accepted Dad's reason that he didn't want me to run to school, for fear of an accident, so it seems that there is indeed some truth, although I know that he is just a random reason.

However, there is no regret medicine in the world, and once you have chosen where you have chosen, there is still the option to return it.

And last night, when I told Student B that I don't live on campus, the text he sent seemed a little reluctant, was it an illusion or his true feelings?

Hopefully, it's his true feelings, so that at least it can prove that my existence is meaningful. Or maybe it's just a casual question from him, which doesn't have much practical significance, but I think too much.

When he came to the school, Mr. Hai was also very surprised, and suddenly he had a sense of concern, and he was not used to it.

But, so happy.

……

I like to have long hair, because when I ride, the wind blows gently, and the feeling of long hair fluttering behind me is very comfortable, and only at that moment I feel that I am the most beautiful, of course, just my own feelings.

Because they would go to my grandmother's house every week to take a bath, my grandmother and grandfather opened a small bathhouse together, which was small in scale but had enough facilities.

After taking a bath, it is the moment of reunion of the big family, in this small bath, and a hearty lunch, as well as an amiable family, grandpa is usually very economical, even if the food is broken, they are not willing to throw it away, but they give us the freshest food.

Grandpa has always been in poor health, and with this small bathhouse as the center, doing some small business, life is still quite abundant.

My grandmother later joined the ranks of sanitation workers, because the business of the small bathing center was not very good, so she found a new job, although the job was not decent, but I thought it was great.

I admire my grandmother's courage to love life.

Therefore, now I see some sanitation workers who are always unconsciously distressed when cleaning, doing the most tiring work and earning the least wages, which is really too hard and great.

In addition to admiration or admiration.

Respect all professions in this world.

A drop of leaves proves that the weather, gradually getting cooler, is the rhythm of autumn.

Say goodbye to grandpa and grandpa on the way home.

Sitting in the back seat of the electric car, the cool breeze is swaying wantonly, and the hair is swaying in the air, like a wild horse that has taken off the reins, desperately waving to the air.

I like the feeling.

With the wind, free and easy.

"Smack-" and all the beautiful illusions were destroyed.

My sister's hair also swayed wantonly, just hit me in the face, I seemed to be woken up, this is the disadvantage of sitting in the back seat of the electric car, so, I started a new round of dodging hair.

Not to mention, it's kind of fun.

On the road, pedestrians are in a hurry.

Suddenly, I glanced at a familiar face, very familiar, but only swept by, on the side of the road.

It should be a classmate, who it is, I can't see it clearly, but we don't need to say hello, because we may not know each other.

As I passed by, he seemed to be looking at me as well.

Probably a delusion.

……

In the new semester, Alin and I are no longer at the same table, but our relationship does not seem to have weakened, which is unexpected, and finally no longer like it used to be, I think, she must have reflected, otherwise how could she suddenly change her attitude.

It's also an honor for her to listen to what I say.

That's great, and now I'm close to Alin, like real best friends, glued together anytime and anywhere, because she doesn't abandon her.

Usually the trio of Alin and Xin was officially established and inseparable.

Between classes, the weather is getting colder and colder, and it seems that I need to add some clothes.

Alin suddenly came running to me, with a purposeful look on his face, always feeling that he was trying to do something wrong, and then said to me like a notice: "Let's go sing on Saturday, don't go home, just play all night." ”

Sing? Still having a night of fun?

Before I could react, Alin pulled me and began to persuade me, she knew that I didn't like to go out the most, but this time it seemed that I had to go, and now she has been persuading me to be cute.

But why do you have to let me go, and why don't they organize this party if I don't go, so it's a big responsibility, and I can't delay everyone because of me.

If it was, she wouldn't force me, but what happened this time?

My gut tells me that things are not simple.

It's definitely not easy.

Immediately afterwards, Alin's words moved me, she said: "This is a small gathering organized by me, just a few people we have a good relationship with, there are no outsiders, if you don't go, I will be sad." And I really want you to go and have fun together. ”

I'm happy that she can think of me, but ......

Alin said that it would be too bad to be friends in the rejection, and I really never seemed to hang out with my classmates, so I could try to change it first, maybe it would have a different effect, so I nodded and agreed.

Alin happily returned to his seat and began to tell the big guys that everyone seemed to be having a good time having a lively discussion, was it true?

Because of my participation, everyone is happy?

Especially Alin's new tablemate, Chen.

I feel like he's smiling from ear to ear, but why don't I have any impression of this person? As if it didn't exist, are we sure it's classmates?

Although there are many students who are not familiar with it, those who have no impression are the first.

I know his name, but I can't find any image of him in my head, our communication is zero, but it's normal, after all, he hasn't said a word, but why is he so happy? Is it because of me? Probably not.

There's no reason for that.

And I always felt like we wouldn't have anything to do with each other, not like we'd be all the way.

When I got home, I realized that I had agreed to Alin so straightforwardly, and my parents would do this here? They won't let me go out to play, let alone stay home at night, it's even more impossible.

Big head!

After thinking about it, so be it, and that's all it can be.

……

Soon, Saturday came.

I grabbed a change of clothes, and after school, I went straight to Alin's dorm room to get ready for a change.

For my parents, I lied that I was resting in my sister's dormitory, and I would go home together tomorrow morning, because my sister was still living in school, so this should be a good reason, and the miraculous parents did not force it, but acquiesced.

But I lied.

I know it's wrong to lie, but that's the only way I can think of.

After packing up, let's go to the singing place together.

This is my first time to KTV, everything here is very strange and full of novelty, student gatherings are generally AA system, but I don't know why Alin didn't take my money, did you forget?

Later, when they were chatting, I found out that it was Chen who helped me pay.

Daybreak? It's him again.

I looked at him intently, thinking about what kind of person this was, why did he pay for me, and did we know each other well? Even if you know each other well, there's no reason for it.

At this moment, he just turned around and met my eyes, and we looked at each other for a moment, and I came back to my senses and quickly moved over

Open your eyes, but, it seems that it has caused unnecessary misunderstanding.

I want to explain, but I don't know how to explain it, just now I was really looking at him......

Then he walked up to me, sat down, and asked me if I wanted to eat or drink.

It can be said that it is very proactive.

After I rejected them one by one, he picked up another jelly and opened it and handed it to me, thinking that it didn't seem good to keep refusing, so I took it.

I was a little flattered by such a sudden overture.

However, at this time, Ahri is also present.

He sat not far away, as if he was going to stare me through, this look was not too scary, but what did it have to do with him? Isn't it already in the past tense? Does he still like ......

No, no, no, it must not be, his eyes are just looking here, yes, it must be so.

We've made it clear that there won't be any more memories, that's what I think, but as for Ahri, I don't know. But I hope he does too, because we really don't fit.

There are also some strange phenomena, which seem to have become an established fact, that is, Chen and I are already together in the eyes of others, which is a very strange feeling.

Turn on the whole gang mode, but I really don't know him well, and today is our first conversation......