Reassign seats.

Mr. Hai took the list he had written in advance, publicized it, and each found his own position, and with an extremely strong discussion, he started a new round of inverted seats.

Mr. Hai was very careful and considerate, and this time he put together many students who were familiar with him from his point of view, such as me and Alin, we had a good relationship for a while, but it was always intermittent.

The moment I saw that it was Alin, I was actually happy in my heart, after all, I was a familiar classmate, and her was my first table mate at the beginning of school.

But, what about her?

I'll be happy, too.

It's not unusual to share a seat, but this time it's a little chilling.

When changing seats, Alin subconsciously said, "I'm drunk too!" ”

It can be seen that she is helpless.

So, isn't she willing to be at the same table with me? The helplessness on her face has revealed her thoughts, I don't know the reason for her helplessness, is it because of me?

It can only be.

The mood is instantly bad, as if it will never get better again, am I so disgusted? Even if nothing was done, even if we had just become table mates for a second.

I wish I hadn't heard it, but she really said it to me, and it couldn't have been wrong.

The mood that had been excited was lowered again.

Later, she seemed to accept this established fact, and took the initiative to show favor to me many times, so we became very good friends again.

Suddenly I felt humbled.

The purpose is unclear, but I guess it's because she doesn't have a company.

Otherwise, as is customary, I would not have thought of me.

It seems to be so.

Because I can't talk but my brain is online again, I want to ask when I don't understand or don't understand, and it's very straightforward, I think it's very good, live a real life, and live freely.

I don't think anyone has a lower EQ than me at this time.

"I always feel like you just need me, and then get closer, and after you don't need it, you can throw it away at any time, just like you used to follow the stars, rainbows and peach ......"

I just wanted to express myself, because what I saw was true, she had an awkward fall with Momo, and then she was alone, and she felt lonely, so she thought of me.

As soon as he finished speaking, Alin's face immediately changed and became extremely dark, because before I asked this question, we had a relaxed conversation.

All of a sudden, it came to an abrupt end.

Alin's expression changed three hundred and sixty degrees, and the original smile disappeared in an instant, and he said angrily: "Whatever." ”

Then, I immediately walked to another location far away from me, because it was evening self-study, so most of the places were empty.

Her actions are obvious, and those who don't know think I'm bullying her.

After she left, I completely realized what I had just said, but it was indeed my sincere words, but the way of expression may still be lacking.

At this time, my mind is full of regret.

Although it was because of me that she was so angry, I didn't apologize, and I didn't feel that I was at fault, and another reason was that I couldn't pull my face.

If I take the initiative, wouldn't it be very faceless, but if I don't take the initiative, the relationship will be like this?

Maybe.

In my life, the diary codebook is my only sustenance and my most trusted friend.

Because it will wait for me to vent my emotions, and it will not be leaked out, it is a little secret between us.

I trust it and it listens to me patiently.

I've always liked to put my heart to paper.

After all, good friends will have good friends, secrets cannot be kept forever, only the codebook is the most loyal friend of human beings, but it has never had the initiative.

Write slowly: Today, the wind is very cold and biting. The mind is very chaotic and distracted......

It was indeed a chaotic day, physically and mentally exhausted, and Alin's attitude was clearly courting me, but I disrupted the friendship that could have been made.

It's my fault, but it's really hard to apologize.

Alin has a bad temper, but there's something good about her, and we complement each other.

Even if she was extremely angry, she would repair herself, recover very quickly, and soon took the initiative to talk to me again.

Not to solve the problem, but to pretend to forget.

This is actually not good, there will be a gap between each other, and the fact that she can come to me and take the initiative to talk proves that she has seriously thought about this issue, but why not make it clear?

But who can hold that everyone has the same ideology.

I didn't mention this matter this time, since it's a spare tire, let's be a spare tire, maybe one day this friendship will cease to exist.

I felt a lot of abandonment, and naturally there was no sense of reality, and my intuition told me that she would do this again.

Our relationship is truly fantastic.

It's like a little couple, separated and combined, but it doesn't seem to be like it, neither love nor hate.

In short, with her, there is no intimacy between friends and girlfriends, and I always feel that the two are forced to arrange together because of the difficulties of life, and carry out some necessary exchanges.

I really rarely experience this feeling, since she has taken the initiative to take a step, then I don't think about it so much, whether it is true or not, after all, I still need to live.

Life, don't deceive yourself.

I really wanted to be good friends with her, but it always seemed that I couldn't get to her heart, and I didn't know her very well.

……

Later, we didn't talk about it again, the daily conversation and laughter were incredible, in the eyes of others, it was difficult for me and me to talk to a person, Alin loved face and showed off, she would always use me to seek the praise of others.

That's when I only talk to her and can talk a lot.

I think that's fake.

However, I think maybe I have an extra friend, don't I?

At least, there will be no one everywhere you go, which is quite worth looking forward to.

After lunch.

As usual, on the way back to the dormitory, Alin frowned, sighed, and wrote unhappiness all over his face.

Because Teacher Hai urged her again today, she still didn't pay the food fee, yes, she hasn't paid it yet, and the school is also very difficult, and she seems to be the only one in the school who hasn't paid.

It's also amazing.

I don't understand the reason, it's not that Alin can't afford it, but he doesn't want to pay at all, but is it really good to be reminded by the school every day? Isn't there a lot of stress in your heart?

Alin's family is not very rich in the countryside, but it is not impoverished either, and every time her parents give her money, it doesn't take long for them to be left.

And she always didn't know where the money was going, but I knew.

From a bystander's point of view, almost all of her money went to some clothes or cosmetics that are trending at the moment.

She always spends lavishly, and she doesn't understand the concept of saving money at all, and where do I have the right to persuade.

She developed this habit, probably because she was the only child in the family, and her parents doted on her, so she was reluctant to beat and scold at all, and everything depended on her.

If she lived in my family, it would be different, and the environment is really important for a person's physical and mental development.

Maybe I've become rich, but I don't know how to spend it.

Because I have lost interest in everything in this world, once, even if I had something I liked, I didn't necessarily buy it, and naturally, I lost my hobby.

Strangely, they were not able to save money, and it is also a mystery where the money was spent.

"Hey! What to do? I can't ask for money anymore! Alin continued to sigh, looking wistfully and bewilderedly at the unknown place.

I wondered, didn't she spend it herself?

"What about the subsidy? Isn't there a subsidy this semester? You can use that to hand in first. "My question on a flash of inspiration was indeed a spur-of-the-moment idea.

As a special student, everyone will be given some subsidies, although it is not much, but it can also be emergency.

Alin was visibly embarrassed, this ...... She's not going to run out of spending, is she?!

"I've spent ......"

Really.

Why just consume without thinking about the consequences? I'm puzzled.

frowned, although I thought so in my heart, I definitely can't say it, if I say it, the result, I may not be able to bear it.

It's going to be the same as last time......

In this way, Alin still needs to grow, which may be the characteristic of an only child, even if he does something wrong or something, his parents will never care, and even more spoiled.

Unlike me, I don't even have the most basic communication with my parents, and I live freely and freely.

When it comes to subsidies, I also think of myself, maybe out of enthusiasm at that time, just thinking for a moment, I blurted out: "I can lend you some, but maybe not much." ”

At that time, I was really risking my life to borrow money, because my father had warned my sister and me that we couldn't touch a penny of the money in the subsidy card.

However, he didn't know that I had opened online banking, which was very important during the critical period of the rise of online shopping. Every time after secretly spending money, I need to find a way to save money, and I always feel that I can fill this small hole.

"Really?" Alin exclaimed, she looked at me as if she saw hope, her eyes twinkling like stars, "But I may not be able to make it for a while, are I okay?" ”

She said it very tactfully, but it was also very true, if she had money, why did she need me to borrow it? This was actually the first time I had lent money to someone else.

"It's okay, you can pay it back when you have money, don't worry."

She nodded happily, as if relieved, but these were really not enough, only enough to solve some urgent needs.

I really have too little experience, I just want to help her, but I don't think about the consequences.

I don't really know what kind of person Alin is.

Although a few hundred yuan was not much, it was not a lot for me at that time, and the money I lent her needed to be filled by my own frugality.

I nodded earnestly and went to get the money together, and we had a lot of fun along the way.

It took me a long time before I realized that I was lending my money to Alin and asking her to charge her meal card, and then there was no more.

After my sister found out, she reluctantly sarcastically mocked me: "You are really rich, you are so kind." ”

I don't understand.

She continued: "It's easy to borrow money but it's hard to repay, you don't know. ”

Indeed, I really didn't think about this question, what if Alin doesn't pay it back? In the end, I was scolded by my family.

However, I was too embarrassed to ask her for it, and I instantly fell into a tangle, I just finished borrowing, maybe she will take the initiative to pay it back, it should be.

……

Final.

This exam was miraculously taken in a normal classroom, and when I glanced at the exam room I was in, it turned out to be in the idol's class.

Oh, my God!

Is it such a coincidence?

I think back to the seat number of the exam with my name written on it, so idols should see it, because we all know each other's names, but we have never met, I have seen him, but he has never seen me, and I don't want him to see me, which may shatter the slightest illusion in my heart.

Like netizens.

was originally a netizen.

"You're taking the exam in our class!" The idol asked me.

He really saw it, but the examination room was arranged by the resident students, so it was normal for him to see it, so it was not surprising.

It's just that......

What does that mean, we're going to meet tomorrow? The first time we met, I was suddenly nervous, so nervous.

Some people don't want tomorrow to come, and their minds are full of fantasies about seeing idols, and their thoughts on reviewing are gone.

At this moment, cowardly.

A lot of questions popped up in his mind for a while, would he think I was ugly? What should I say when we meet? What if it's embarrassing? Will there be no communication in the future?

Many questions followed.

Even today's dream is a scene of seeing him, a dream, a very magical place.

In the dream, it was also embarrassing.

……

The next day, it came as promised.

When I came to the door of the class where the idol was, I first poked the probe and found that there was no one, so I sat down in my seat with confidence.

Always feel, like a voyeur.

At this time, I realized that this is an idol's class, and it doesn't mean that he is also in this exam room, what the hell am I nervous? There's no need at all.

In an instant, I relaxed my mind.

After sitting down, I saw a row of text written on the seat label, "Come on, take the test~"

It's written by an idol, and it can only be him, thanks to his encouragement, but this word is a little ......

Not very pretty......

Of course, this can't be heard by him, after all, no one is perfect, and they are all a kind of personality.

Looking at this row of words, my heart is warm, the idol's girlfriend must be very happy, so I envy this girl in advance.

So, this is a large-scale successful star-chasing scene?! There is really a feeling of chasing stars, and chasing stars is successful.

Happy.

After the first subject, take a 20-minute break.

He's coming.

When an idol comes to the class to pick up his things, he is still exactly the same as when he was on stage.

We met, he didn't recognize me, this time I took the initiative to walk up to him, waved his hand and said, "Hi~"

I really took the initiative and didn't know where the courage came from.

The idol Mu Ne opened his eyes, a little unresponsive, and then said mechanically: "Hello~"

He couldn't believe it, at this moment I suddenly questioned myself, or did I think too much?

Say a few words casually, and the last sentence: "Bye-bye~" instantly released the feeling.

This is the scene of the success of large-scale star chasing!

However, the effect was not satisfactory, and for a while, he didn't take the initiative to talk to me or anything like that, which was expected.

I didn't bother anymore.