I like to follow you like a shadow chasing the light and sleepwalking......"

This is a song that I like very much, I can't help but cycle the single in my mind, mainly the part of empathy is more, I am like a light chaser, always chasing, chasing the light ahead, and this light is dazzling, out of reach.

It's not that I like to follow, but I always follow the road, for everything in the world that is already out of reach, we must work hard, and hard work will have a chance, even if sometimes we work hard, there may not be results.

Failure, discouragement or re-step, lies in one's original intention, I think everyone will be different.

It can't be the same.

By my side, Xiaokui is always with me, all the time, we know all the things on each other's minds, as for how to solve it, leave it to time, time will not lie, it will prove everything.

In the future, there must be no end to the intersection.

Every day is a little bit harder than yesterday's self, which is growth.

……

Weekend.

"Cut my hair." That's what I asked my sister to make.

"Why?" She was puzzled, and then picked up the scissors anyway.

You can't let me cut it myself, it might be a terrible result!

"It's nothing, I just think it's too long, and it's annoying to watch." I suddenly don't like long hair, and I can't understand that people in this world who look at hairstyles and choose mates shouldn't be more important to a person's heart? Hairstyles can be changed at will, but people's hearts don't change easily.

I value inner beauty more.

The sister didn't continue to ask, and then, with the scissors, she seriously began to "click......click"

The ground is instantly covered with my hair, a lot of it is very dense, I have a lot of hair, sometimes I think they are a burden, but sometimes I feel good, like in winter, it is very warm.

Then, this "click" sound has been circulating in my ears, closing my eyes, feeling the fall one by one, this can be regarded as a painful cut of love, I actually like long hair, but now I want to be willful, this moment I just don't like and don't want to like.

Nothing is set in stone, and small changes can sometimes affect most of your mood, and when you are in a good mood, your life will naturally be full of motivation.

It's just that it's the first time I've seen people with their hair, and it's strange logic, can hair length or a certain style determine a person's true quality?

In short, can draw a conclusion that he does not like.

I opened my eyes slightly, looked at the broken hair falling on the ground, and realized a truth, there is nothing in the world that I am reluctant to do, in the final analysis, it depends on whether you are willing to do it, whether you want to do it or not, just like my willingness at this moment.

"Okay, let's take a look."

After the cut, the whole head instantly became much lighter, and I walked to the large mirror and admired the shawl hair in front of me, which suddenly became shorter, this length is actually okay, not short or long.

After all, it's your own choice, and you have to be satisfied no matter what, otherwise what's the use of regretting it.

After all, it has been cut.

Without too much thought, the reason why I cut my hair is simple: I want to face the future with a new attitude, say goodbye to the past, and start anew!

Open the door to the rebirth of my life.

In fact, this incident does not have a great impact on each other, it is just a small sense of ritual, so that we don't think about him at all, besides, the world is so big, there is no need to worry about the wind and rain for one person, and there are many things worth taking.

Well, now I want to meet every day with a new attitude, I hope to live a happy, brave, and real life!

Hope.

It's just that we are still living under the same roof now, looking down and not looking up, and deliberately dodging can't dodge, so it's natural, after all, he doesn't care like that, if I show too much care, won't I be looked down upon.

It's not a big deal either.

If you have experienced it, you can do it, and you don't even want to experience it a second time, because I know that it is because of me, and since I am not suitable, I will not force it, so as not to hurt innocent people.

But then again, I probably don't show anything out of the ordinary, after all, I'm a learning machine that doesn't have any expressions all day, doesn't like to laugh, doesn't cry, and reacts slowly.

That's who I am.

The only good thing is that there are few wrinkles, very few, and they are so small that they can't be seen with a magnifying glass. I hope it can be maintained, because the traces of time are really terrible.

After Chen and I separated, Alin and Xin had a partner almost at the same time, which was amazing, especially now that the situation was still our threesome.

Then, it gradually evolved into a five-person walk, and among these five people, of course, it is undeniable that I am the brightest one, a three-kilowatt light bulb, doing public welfare to illuminate the way of others, and it is very bright.

Especially during physical education class, when I was with the four of them, I always felt very weird and strange.

And redundant.

However, Alin is also a very possessive person, and I wanted to move around alone, thinking that I could also memorize ancient poems by the way, but she refused to let me stop me.

Do a good job of light bulbs.

It's not a difficult task for me, just don't think about it.

Although this is strong, I know that Alin is all for my good, otherwise I will always be alone, always lonely back, just look like a poor person.

And there will be no sympathy, only ridicule and discussion.

At the same time, when I was with these two couples, I was very abrupt, and there was always a little embarrassment, but then I got used to it, and gradually I didn't care too much about what others said.

Although I advocate free speech, I hate this kind of talk.

No evaluation.

Now everyone's opinion of me has changed direction, and it has been replaced by another kind of ridicule, the team dominated by classmate Xue, chattering all day long, it is difficult not to hear it, it seems that this row of crows on the head is going to stay for a while.

The crows are annoying, but I can't be like them, or wouldn't they be the same kind?

No matter what others say to me, I just know in my heart that I am who I am, or that I am, has never changed.

It's just too lazy to care.

Later, this public opinion gradually faded away, because there were other new things, and no one could have to watch my every move all day long, and then add fuel and vinegar, right?

It is not sufficient and unnecessary.

……

On this day, the playground.

Alin and Xin's foursome sat on the playground while I was there, and everything really just needs a process of getting used to, and I really got used to it.

It's nothing!

Hardly surprising.

Suddenly, student B came over and looked at me with a gossipy smile, and he must have thought it was strange.

After all, I'm so sparkling at this time, but I don't feel it myself, because I still have Aoi.

The best other self in my life.

But isn't he just as sparkling?

"Brother B, what kind of expression do you have? Weird, isn't it? Alin asked, covering his forehead with his hand.

Student B also sat down naturally.

The sun is really sleepy today.

Suddenly, the one next to Alin spoke, "Why don't you make a pair with Xiao Kui, how good is this, just right." ”

And me? Make a couple?

It must be a joke.

It was indeed a joke, and then, I saw classmate B look at me disapprenorovingly and ask, "You flicker like this every day?" ”

"Or else?" I asked rhetorically, and then continued: "I've been used to it for a long time~"

It's really used to it, and it's not going to stay, so it's the only way, in fact, being a light bulb is not particularly embarrassing, and even sometimes the light bulb is very useful.

For example, with the presence of others, they will not have much dispute and reduce the number of quarrels, even if it is for the sake of face.

An afternoon was spent in laughter, beautiful and sincere.

However, student B seems to have forgotten to answer that question, and although I know the result, I am still looking forward to his answer!

Could it be different?

……

November

Winter.

The sudden implementation of the group system in the class is another embarrassing beginning, and it is my personal embarrassment.

All the people in the class are divided into eight groups, each group is about six people, and the group leader is a volunteer, and if the number of people is not enough, it is personally appointed by Mr. Hai.

You can't say no.

After all, it is a good thing that the chosen person is recognized for his strength.

Eight group leaders were selected, one of whom was student B, and then they were randomly drawn to determine their team members.

In the first round of the lottery, student B drew me, and I was very happy at that time, because I knew him well, and he was also happy.

As a result, bad things came.

The first round is just an exercise, and the experiment is a draw and does not count.

The official draw was reopened.

Sometimes, sadness and joy are in an instant, this is not a change of face, it is really not happy, how good it was, why do you want to redraw?

It's actually nothing to redraw, but this team leader of mine was drawn, and it was miraculously drawn to the morning, my God! Seeing this result, not only me, but also the expressions of the whole class became subtle.

Mr. Hai doesn't know, can I still not know what everyone is thinking? Because at this moment, I have begun to be embarrassed, so embarrassed that I can't do it, six people in a group have to sit together, saying that I am not embarrassed is to lie to my own psychological comfort, I don't want to lie to myself, embarrassment is embarrassment, so there is no need to deliberately hide something.

A strange fate.

It can also be said that it is a kind of late fate, if it was a week ago, I would have been very happy.

But, not now......

After regrouping, I began to prepare to change seats, and even though I was reluctant to do so, I still had to accept the reality that it was another day of forced business.

A group is divided into an area, and the seats in the group are freely matched, and when the group leader is discussing how to allocate seats, Chen makes a strange request, that is, he wants to sit at the same table with me.

I was like, what?

This request is too strange, isn't it? But it's not possible, just in the last few days, there has been no communication between us.

I really can't guess his heart.

To say that it is not deliberate is impossible, and it is not true at all.

I shook my head, but the dominance is not here, it still depends on the meaning of the team leader, I really admire his luck, there are more than 40 people in the class, why did the two of us draw together?

Perhaps, he can go buy a lottery ticket today.

There is no meaning to complain, it is sincere admiration, this coincidence is really too coincidental.

And my eyes are always on Student B at this time, so happy, he can always make people feel very relaxed and happy.

It's an atmosphere adjuster.

How nice it would have been if I had been in his group, not only to avoid this embarrassing thing, but also to be comfortable.

"Just sit down like that, feel free." Suddenly, Ah Qi, a classmate next to me, suggested that the seemingly casual words were actually helping me solve this problem.

It kind of saved me indirectly.

After all, the request made by classmate Chen at that time, and the team leader was not easy to refuse.

But after Ah Qi said this, it seemed to be very reasonable, so we sat down and sat down at random according to the position we were in now.

Thanks to him.

In this way, I became the same table as Ah Qi, he was very lively and cheerful, and I just complemented each other, there were always endless topics, and I also responded on the sidelines, and I even forgot to read the books.

In short, it's good to be at the same table with him, and I'm happy every day.

It's just that on the basis of being happy, you also have to bear a pair of angry eyes in the distance.

It's sweet, Ah Qi's her.

However, Ah Qi and I are really just at the same table, except for class time, we have almost no other superfluous communication at other times.

I know, so keep your distance.

However, Sweet doesn't think so, she obviously hates me, but she always pretends not to care, some small expressions are not visible to others, but I can see clearly.

I feel that I don't want to study psychology, it's really a pity, especially the few psychology books at home, in fact, the truth is the same, it depends on the ability to understand.

I think I understand quite well, but my practical ability is too poor, and I only understand the truth, so let's practice hard.

It's an internal motivation for learning, and I think I can learn it.

Ah Qi is indeed a very worthy friend, and he has a good relationship with classmate B, like a pair of living treasures.

The only shortcoming should be that the height is a little bit low, but this does not affect a person's inside, after all, the inside is the most important.

No one can change it, and it can't be snatched away.

In order to help the group add points, everyone is vying to raise their hands to answer the questions, as long as they answer the questions, there will be extra points, most of them are double points, because the score of the group is very important, and the final reward and punishment are determined.

So, who doesn't want to be honored?!

And it turns out that this method is really good, so that students can actively participate in the whole atmosphere of learning.

However, everything will have a process of freshness, and the freshness will come and go quickly, and then everyone seems to be less active, but this system is still being implemented.

Later, when I faced Chen's classmates, I could communicate very normally, and they were all very brief exchanges.

I was thinking that if it weren't for that, we might have been friends.