Today, heavy snowfall.

The roads are covered with slush, the weather is as cold as the mood, and the people who walk slowly form the latest feature of the city, with heavy snow and biting winds.

It was the first time I had come to the classroom with two breakfasts, and it was nice to look around at the people who were not caring.

After the morning self-study, I handed the morning to the morning, and with everyone watching, it seemed that I was completing some great ceremony.

Such a small thing, gradually evolved, gradually exaggerated, and slowly changed in nature.

On this day, our discussions have been more escalated, and we are discussing and commenting everywhere.

As for the specific discussion process, in short, it is very ugly, it is not just a discussion, and it has even risen to the stage of insulting, I don't know why it has become like this, and I don't understand the meaning of what they are doing.

Maybe it's too boring?

It was only at this moment that I fully understood what I had asked me that day: "Are you afraid?" The true meaning of ".

I see.

Fear!

It's scary.

Blame me for not understanding the sinister nature of the world, the first time I had the feeling of a scandal, what didn't happen at all, but when it came to the mouths of my classmates, it immediately evolved into all kinds of statements, in short, they were all made up in a serious way.

Speechless.

This may be the power of public opinion, since then, many people have not had a good look at me at all, and they have talked about the same before, but I don't know what they are talking about, and now that I understand, I hope that I might as well be kept in the dark!

Out of sight, out of mind.

All the ugly words in the world are inexplicably arranged on me, what kind of seduction, shamelessness, robbing people that others like......

Rob?

It's as if they know me better than I do.

Later, I asked directly Chen, there is a girl named Xue, why is she always hostile to me?

Although we don't have any communication, we don't have to look at each other every day, as if we have a deep hatred between us.

Chen was very sincere, and he told me that Yuki had confessed to him, but he refused.

As for the reason, I didn't ask any further.

Of course, rejection is dislike, so why choose me? There was a sense of honor.

At this time, there will be a sense of accomplishment, for example, when someone else is trying to get something that is very rare, but I can do it so easily, at this time, I will be very proud.

However, such a mood is very unfair to the parties.

I think liking can't be based on showing off and tsundere, if it's not sincere, then don't be together.

It's not fair to either of you.

Now, it's normal to thoroughly understand Snow's hostility towards me, but, if I were her, I wouldn't abuse that girl, although I was dissatisfied, but I still blessed it, because she gave me a reason to give up, and it would be really relieved to give up liking someone, and it would be much easier.

I am unwilling to bear it alone, after all, no one can live without it.

Now I'm that girl, but Snow is not me, she will gather her sisters around her to discuss me, and glaring at me from time to time to express her inner anger.

It's a bit of an unbearable process, but I have to endure it, and I'm alone. She likes Chen, so she will praise Chen, hate me, and will definitely demote me to hell, without a positive verbal attack, we have inexplicably become enemies.

Originally, I didn't know much about it, so let her be.

After changing seats in the morning, Alin and he were no longer at the same table, and the distance between us was like this, he was on the far right of the room, and I was on the far left of the room, on the same level, but it was hard to see each other.

Maybe it's good that distance produces beauty?

……

Parent-teacher conferences.

"This year's parent-teacher meeting has added a link, which is also required by the school, each class must be implemented, and the top five students need to speak on stage, as for what to say, they decide for themselves to set an example." After Mr. Hai's notice, the students began to look at their rankings.

And I, in the third, seem to speak inevitably.

It's just that I was already determined to change myself at that time, so these were a good training opportunities for me, and besides, wasn't it just to speak on stage!

More than enough.

For the next few nights, I would be seen standing in an empty area with the manuscript I had written in advance, practicing over and over again, for fear of getting stuck or not being clear.

One minute on stage, ten years off stage.

It won't take as long as ten years, but there are a dozen times a day.

I repeated it over and over again, adding words, and changed it many times, until the moment I stood on the podium, I had memorized the manuscript, but I still had to hold the paper manuscript and pretend to read it very casually, in fact, I was really not nervous at this time.

Because I can't see clearly.

Before going on stage, I took off my glasses and imagined the parents on the stage as small animals, so I was naturally less nervous, although it was the first time I spoke in public.

Give yourself a thumbs up, it's a small breakthrough.

And the proud smile of my dad in the audience also gave me great encouragement, he sat in the second row, laughing or not, I could still see clearly.

I'm usually an evasive person, but just a few minutes before the parent-teacher conference started, I had this idea and was about to walk out of school......

After thinking about it, I feel that I can't do this, I can't do this, I can't solve anything by escaping, and it will make people look down on me, what am I thinking, what kind of character I am, Mr. Hai must see it clearly, so this time, I can't escape.

Moreover, it's just a parent-teacher meeting, and the parents won't eat me, it's okay, no one will care.

In this way, the inner entanglement was instantly untied, and I returned to the classroom the same way, and started my speech moment, and there was Chen's mother sitting in the audience, I don't know if it was an illusion, I always felt that Aunt Chen was looking at me, and her aunt was smiling all over her face.

It's scary......

It seems that she understands it, and she can't say it.

That's great, and sometimes it's not always good to say something.

At the parent-teacher conference, students who want to stay are standing at the back of the classroom, and I want to stay, probably because there are people I want to meet.

I was very close to Chen, and I wanted to talk to him many times, but he looked at the podium indifferently and ignored him.

And so I lowered my lost eyes, extinguished all hope, and I think I probably knew what to do.

During the break, I glanced at his side face, very handsome, but it's a pity that I'm not an appearanceist, what I fancy is the heart.

Then, I was gone.

……

When I arrived at the bulletin board, I stopped, because I saw myself, this midterm exam was really amazing, and my art score turned out to be the first in the whole school, that is, the first among the three art classes.

It's a little incredible, but it's true.

My photo is posted on the campus bulletin board right now, in obvious place, because it's the first.

For this achievement, in addition to being happy, it is more confusing.

Class 17, that is, the key art class where my sister is located, has many god-level students, why can I take the first exam?

Didn't the gods make a mistake?

Very likely.

No one can guarantee a normal performance every time.

Surprise is surprise, happiness is also the most real, happiness from the heart, this, more than any other external factors, can make people happy, because it is honor, to prove their honor.

From a complete zero foundation, to the current achievement, I am worthy of myself, and when someone asks me in the future, I will not deliberately explain that I have never studied art, because I don't have to prove how talented I am, hard work is the last word.

Strength will never betray itself.

"Awesome!" Suddenly, a male voice came to my ear.

Looking back, it's classmate B.

He and I are like good brothers, he is also the person who can afford to joke, and he talks to classmate B without any worries or embarrassment.

"It's okay...... it's okay" The sudden compliment, I was a little flattered.

He patted me on the shoulder, like a big brother covering me, he was chubby, and he was extremely secure.

We just looked at each other and smiled, and left.

For this honor, I can take it, it depends on whether I can catch it, and I hope I can continue to maintain it.

After the parent-teacher conference today, my father was also visibly happy, and he talked about the whole process with his mother.

I saw my certificate of honor.

Put the honorary certificate in the box completely, which carries all my efforts in the past few years, the most important of which is this bright red certificate book, the first "three good students" certificate in my life.

Very happy.

Treasure, collection.

……

Yes, life is full of joys and sorrows, ups and downs.

Now it's time to settle the matter.

Chen's explanation for ignoring me at the parent-teacher meeting was: "The head teacher and so many parents are there, it can't be too obvious, right?" ”

This reason doesn't convince me at all, and even if it doesn't make it too obvious, it's like a simple sentence between ordinary classmates.

Then, he said, "And my mom is too." ”

He was right, he explained it logically, considering the overall impact, but this reason is not sufficient for me.

So yes, mom bao man?

Yes or no, it can't be used as a reason for him to ignore me, there is no goodbye at school, there is no daily small talk, even more ...... There is no communication.

At the very least, we have to communicate.

What's the point of going on, it's just each other's time wasted, and the beautiful illusions are shattered, and they are in ruins.

Not only because of the parent-teacher conference, but also because of the overall analysis, he will also have some strange behavior.

As we all know, there is a goddess in the morning that is very beautiful.

And Chen always shares everything with his goddess, which I also discovered by accident, and it is normal to share, but I don't know these things he said at all, and I have never heard him mention them, so, what am I, am I indiscriminate?

In that case, why didn't he chase his goddess, but instead did it, not only made me suspect that he was just a whim.

There are also some conversations.

"The front desk of the Internet café I went to a few days ago is quite beautiful, but it's a pity that it has short hair." Morning said.

"Or you're going to chase it? Do you have a crush on this person or the hair? Chen's friend asked.

"People are important, but only if you have long hair, I like long hair."

They were chatting right behind me, thinking I couldn't hear, but he probably didn't know that people with small voices tend to have special hearings.

That's me.

So, can I understand that Chen just likes girls with long hair, but not this person?

His goddess is also long-haired, and his mother.

I see, everything seems to be the truth revealed, and finally solved my doubts in the past few days, I said how to suddenly show goodwill, and these strange things that suddenly came, it turned out that the hair length was to blame.

That day, when I came back from my grandmother's house, the familiar classmate standing on the side of the road was Chenba, and it could only be him, so it was a bit logical.

Right or wrong, the result is the same after all, if I don't study well, if I don't have long hair, he won't look at me at all.

That's it.

What's the point of continuing to continue, all it brings me is the pressure in my heart, I want to change for him, but he doesn't give me enough time, blindly cold and violent, unless people's hearts are walls.

It's a pity I'm not.

Of course, I also know that most of it is because of my problems, I don't know how to communicate, I can't maintain, and I don't cherish it, so it's up to me to end this relationship, and if it continues, it's not good for each other.

However, it is the precious things that are worth cherishing.

Don't want such feelings based on interests. Originally, it was inexplicable, and now it is inexplicable.

I edited a paragraph of text and thought about it for a long time, not to dwell on this decision, but to see if I had said it clearly, and I didn't want to cause unnecessary misunderstandings.

After sending it, he never replied to any of my messages.

I guess I saw it.

Because when he came to school again, he didn't even look at me with a straight eye, and he couldn't see any sadness, so of course I couldn't show any traces of sadness.

After all, it's nothing, it was originally an inappropriate patchwork, and now it's okay, at least it's easy.

There will be sadness, but not heartbreaking.

After a few days, he still didn't respond, and he never replied to my text message, you must know that I sent a text message specifically to show formality, not a QQ message.

If he doesn't reply, he's considered to be acquiescing.

Since it's over, it must be over thoroughly, otherwise there may be unnecessary misunderstandings, and my attitude is very resolute, that is, to be categorical.

I know myself, if I don't delete it cleanly, I will miss it, and I can't help but have memories, and it is easy to regret when I am deeply involved in memories.

Click Contact, Delete, Confirm......

Well, just delete this memory, leave no room, and live your life as usual in the future.

In this way, the sugar that lasted for about a week had no taste.