Monday.

I came to school again with excitement, and somehow, from the moment I first walked in the door, I always felt like there were many pairs of eyes staring at me.

This shouldn't be an illusion.

Moreover, I can vaguely hear the discussion of the girl next to me, very loudly, so I don't have to deliberately hear it, and it can be heard in my ears without any obstruction.

The news that we were together seemed to spread throughout the class.

I didn't really interact much with Chen, which was fine, but Alin suddenly came and said that the wind is the rain, and she came to me with a book and sat down, and then started her moment of purpose.

"Quick, let's change positions, I want to study today, sit here and be happy, and I can't see clearly in the back row, you go and sit with me." Without waiting for me to answer, she continued, "That's it, you go." ”

"Huh?" Alin came over inexplicably, and then "kicked out" me inexplicably, I expressed my puzzlement, I want to study with so many classmates, why do you want to change seats with me?

In fact, the reason is very simple, she doesn't want to change seats, she wants me to sit with Chen, and greatness is perfect for me?

They're at the same table.

I didn't go, she kept talking, and even sat directly in my position, I was forced to go to "Liangshan"!

So, I compromised and walked to the morning with the book in hand, under the watchful eyes of everyone.

On the way, I heard countless voices of discussion, and it is normal for such a situation in the class to have discussions, and I don't think so.

After all, everyone is a big fan of gossip.

As for what they're saying, I think I can probably guess a little bit of it, it's nothing more than that.

As he started the class, Chen seemed very happy and was about to take out the book to study, but he didn't know which one it was.

At first glance, you can see that he is not a learner, and his books are exceptionally new.

After I took it out for him, he said, "You study so well, teach me, hehe~"

"Uh-huh." I nodded, still basking in the joy of being happy, and then thinking about it, it seemed more like a purposeful formality.

Is it for me to teach him?

I seem to be the only girl in the class who studies better, and it should just be a coincidence.

The students in front of us were still probing their brains, with different expressions, as if our every move was under the surveillance of these people.

And at the moment sitting in front of me was Ahri, who pretended not to care very deliberately, especially with a forced smile.

Suddenly, Chen approached my ear and whispered, "Are you afraid?" ”

I was stunned for a moment, then shook my head, what are you afraid of? Why be afraid? I didn't know what he was referring to, I just didn't think there was anything to be afraid of.

Isn't life to be faced? Facing one dilemma after another.

At this moment, I glanced at the head teacher peeping outside, and immediately lowered my head, but, I couldn't hide my ears and steal the bell, and it seemed that I was still seen, but there were so many people in the class, he shouldn't have noticed me.

After all, I'm not the focus either.

Sure enough, he still noticed me, and during the evening self-study, it happened to be Mr. Hai's evening self-study, he walked up to me, called me out, and was at the door.

Get started with the conversation method.

"How are you feeling studying lately?" Teacher Hai asked kindly.

"It's okay, I can keep up."

After I answered, Mr. Hai launched a series of inquiries, knocking on and side to explore, and I pretended not to understand the answer or nodded.

Once again, it becomes an emotionless answering machine.

Finally, after dealing with this conversation, not only me, but also Mr. Hai called many students out to conduct in-depth consultations one by one.

Mr. Hai seems to have a conversation every once in a while, is it the job of the head teacher?

Every morning and every day, there is a daily class time, which is the only interaction between me and Chen, and I study seriously, and I don't like to study anymore, and I love to read, which is very commendable.

Is this change because of me?

……

On this day, it's time to change seats again.

However, it is normal for high schools to change seats frequently, and this time the method is to choose their own seats according to the results of the previous monthly exam, which is also the first way to choose seats based on their grades.

It's a novelty.

I'm still curious about how many strange thoughts Mr. Hai still has in his head.

I always come up with some weird ideas.

Going around and around, as one of the top few, I have a lot of choices, so I still choose my original position, after all, I am used to it, and it is difficult to change habits.

At this point, you should expect to sit next to me in the morning.

Looking forward to ...... It's empty......

Another classmate chose the position next to me, there was no way, her ranking was higher than Chen's, and I could only accept it gladly.

For me, sitting is actually the same, and I don't have any impression, but sitting together has a greater impact on each other.

There will be a lot of contradictions.

However, there will still be regrets, and it is also an opportunity to get to know each other.

After changing seats, I sat down on the other side of the line with me.

……

After school at noon that day, I didn't go home directly, but went with Chen.

Because of the afternoon holiday, I didn't tell my parents about this, and they wouldn't remember anything about me, so I didn't know if I had a holiday or not, and I didn't care if I didn't come back, but if I went home at night, it would be miserable.

Wait for the result of being reprimanded.

This is my family of origin, I am not allowed to go out to play, I feel that I will not do good things, I am not allowed to make friends, I think that everyone else is a bad child, I will be bad, and I am only allowed to stay at home and study.

The door is not out, the second door is not stepping, it is my life.

I was bored, after all, when I was in my hometown, I used to run around all day.

From unaccustomed to later compromises.

A typical "good child" in the eyes of parents.

That's one of the reasons why I don't want to have relationships with other people, it's hard because I have to rack my brains every time to figure out how to hang out and play without being noticed.

However, I don't know where to go when I go out to play, and I have nowhere to go, at this time, Chen took me to the door of the Internet café, and glanced at my ID card, which was just over eighteen years old, because of the miswriting of the ID card at that time, resulting in the age on the ID card being more than a year older than the actual age.

The only benefit of being an adult is the freedom to enter and exit the Internet café.

However, the premise was to go to Chen's house to get his ID card first, and he didn't think so at the time, so he followed leisurely.

When he waited until the door of his house, he realized that Chen's home? Wouldn't you want to see his mom and dad?!

It's kind of ...... Too fast, right?

I stood still, smiled politely and said, "I'll just wait for you here!" ”

"It's okay, come in." He smiled brightly and pulled me closer to the stairs.

Of course, this is not our two-person world, and a good friend of Chen, who has been following, he is considered an atmosphere adjuster, and he is also a classmate, and he also has not had too much communication with him, the only difference is that there has been communication.

At least not zero communication.

Arrived, and the doors opened in the morning......

At the same time, my heart began to tense and prayed in my heart: no one, no one, no one......

As a result, there really is no one.

Hi Da Pu Ben!

It's much easier all of a sudden, Chen's home is very small, but it's more than enough for their family of three to live here, and at the same time, it can be seen that Chen's mother is very careful, the fresh fruits on the coffee table, and the neatly stacked clothes and shoes, must be a delicate home-based mother.

However, in the next second, this delicate home-based mother actually appeared in front of my eyes.

I was confused.

The words I wanted to say seemed to be stuck in my mouth, as if they were sealed, and after a while, I tried to move my mouth and whispered: "Auntie is so ......"

Aunt Chen looked at me, for her I was a stranger to meet for the first time, Aunt Chen was always smiling, she was very young and seemed to be very kind.

If you don't say it, you must not be able to see that she and Chen are mother and son, because they are really too young, and it may be because they can dress up, with long hair fluttering and very fairy.

At the same time, she also kindly handed me an orange, and then chatted with Chen for a few words, and then went to the kitchen to get busy, it turned out that she had gone out to buy vegetables.

We were leaving, and Aunt Chen asked to stay for a meal...... You must not eat rice, otherwise it will be embarrassing.

Later, Aunt Chen couldn't resist us, and we politely refused her warm invitation.

Now it's not until I've walked out of this door that I'm completely relaxed, is this what I'm going to face in the future? Although it is far away, I don't want to face it, and I really don't want to communicate with parents.

Will be timid, will be overwhelmed.

……

Come to the Internet café and sit down.

Staring at the huge computer screen in front of me, what should I do? This question appeared in my mind, games don't work, movies don't like to watch, I'm a typical boring person.

I don't think there will be anyone more boring than me.

Chen turned to me, seemed to see my hesitation, and then said intimately: "You watch and play, if you don't ask me, I will, I can teach you when the time comes." ”

"Okay." I nodded.

Every game will be awesome.

So, Chen and his good friend started a very serious playtime, and I, still struggling with what to do?

When I opened one of the dancing games, I seemed to remember something!

YES, IT'S THIS "TIMI", AND THE THING I talked about during military training, it turns out that the protagonist of the story at that time was morning! It's no wonder that there is no impression.

In this way, I seemed to remember, and not only laughed out loud, it was really hilarious at the time.

"What's wrong?" Morning took a closer look at me, thinking I was having fun because the game was fun.

"No, I didn't ...... much" I can't tell Chen, after all, I was laughing at his great achievements at the beginning, and let him know that he didn't regret not being at the beginning.

Forget it.

Immediately after that, a very meaningful smile came from Chen, and he continued to devote himself to his game and fight.

The afternoon passed quickly, and after sending me home in the morning, he took a taxi back alone, which was a pleasant day.

In the dead of night, I miss me.

……

Saturday.

My sister and I came to a new art class together, this teacher is very kind and gentle, always speaks slowly, and is very serious when changing paintings, and it is also recommended by Alin that I can come here.

In the two small rooms, there are full of people, teachers and classmates are enthusiastically discussing, and in the small rooms, there is constant laughter.

It's a great pleasure to study art here.

Time is always spent unconsciously, in a trance, in a flash.

Morning.

When I came to the studio, I was serious and looking forward to it, and I seemed to see a familiar figure, there are many familiar figures here, but this figure is particularly familiar, that is Chen.

Chen is also here, however, this is also something I have never noticed before, even under the same roof, I don't know that there is a mutual existence.

Maybe he knows, but I really don't.

Soon, morning came, and he came with him early, and I always felt like a merciless eating and drinking machine.

I'm already thinking about how to give back to him.

I actually don't like this kind of "charity", I know that it is a way of caring, but it is still a little difficult to accept, for his care, I really don't know how to accept it calmly, and then I am also going to buy him some breakfast, with my only ten yuan a day.

We were in the studio, but not in the same place, my sister and I liked to paint quietly in a small room, while Chen and the other boys were in a larger room.

At first, Chen always came over, all kinds of inquiries and concerns, which were very heartwarming, but he had one bad thing, that is, he liked to call me by my full name.

It's very common to call the full name, and it stands to reason that there is nothing worth caring about, but I always feel very awkward in my heart, and calling the nickname will seem more cordial, I think so.

However, one of the things that distinguishes whether you are familiar with a person is to call them, and the people who call them by full names are usually ordinary classmates or people who are not familiar with them.

And from my own point of view, if I don't know a person very well, I will call that person's full name, and if this happens, it is either a breakdown of the friendship, or there is no friendship at all.

Very simple.

However, I don't understand why Chen likes to call me by my full name, is he habitual, or is he not used to sudden relationship changes?

Maybe.

In the morning, Chen always comes to me to say hello, my heart is very happy, but maybe because my sister is around, I always feel very embarrassed, embarrassed to communicate with him.

I was really embarrassed easily.

No one told me what to do, I had to rely on my own comprehension, but how do I comprehend this?

Confused.

Chen also slowly began to change his attitude from the beginning of the initiative, and slowly, we seemed to be estranged a lot.

Everything is different.

I know it's all because of my passivity, I didn't give him feedback in time, because of the indifference on the surface, he may think that I don't care enough about him, and then I can't catch this kind of indulgence.

In this way, there is no official start of the internship period, and it is difficult to cope immediately.

Eventually, without a good answer, maybe it just wouldn't fit, and I started to think about our relationship, should we continue?