I sat in a chair and slept all night, and I don't know when I slept until I slept in the window, and if it weren't for the cold wind outside the window, I think I would still be dreaming about it.

Opened the curtains and pushed open the windows, it turned out that there was not only a biting cold wind outside, but also scattered snowflakes, and it was snowing in H City this month, which was extremely rare, almost nothing.

I don't know why, I actually had the idea of building a snowman, since I was a child in the south, I have never seen snow, dang

After coming to H City a few years ago, I saw snow every year, but I had never built a snowman, and I had no sense of freshness about snow for a long time, but now this idea came to me.

I was going to tell Xia Zichen this naïve idea and let him join me, but I found that he was not in the room at all, and then I suddenly realized that he didn't come back at night, where could he go?

"It's possible to accompany your girlfriend, where else can you go, do you think you're still a single dog like you?" the voice said jokingly.

That's when it dawned on me,

H city and F city are only a few hundred kilometers away, not far, he went to F city is normal, there is a "rush" or Valentine's Day, thinking of this, I am very ashamed, I have always felt that he has low emotional intelligence since I was a child, he also admitted, it's just that now this low EQ person and his girlfriend are living Valentine's Day, but the so-called high EQ guy is wandering alone on the way to school, accompanied only by snowflakes and unfamiliar cigarettes.

Fortunately, there was a cold wind all the way to "comfort" me, so that I could stay awake and calm enough, on this part of the journey to school, as if I had come out of this half-dream, half-real state, I also know that the current calm is only temporary, how long can I be paralyzed.

This part of the road feels like I have walked for a long, long time, so long that I wonder if I have lived too long, I should die, so long that it seems that my relatives and friends have long since lost their knowledge of where they are going, so long that I can no longer keep up with the pace of this era, I am like an old guy who has been in prison for 20 years, today I am released from prison, in this ordinary and ordinary day, I am out of prison, I am full of curiosity about the world, and I am also full of despair.

Listening to the chatter of the teachers, watching the students desperately flip through the books on the desks, one class, one morning, one class, one afternoon, eating, evening self-study, after school, sleeping, going to class, leaving class...... Life, this is life now, every day, I might as well go back to my prison and continue to construct my world quietly every day.

It's just that my anesthetic is about to expire, the snow has stopped, the cold wind has disappeared, maybe I've been to his Valentine's Day, I'm sober, completely sober, it turns out that this is sober.

I didn't dare to go home, I didn't dare to imagine what I would do in my room on this wonderful dark night, I didn't know who to go to, I didn't know who to talk to, I didn't know who to text with, and I wandered aimlessly on this cold night.

The ghost sent me to wander to the East District Street of H City, the most prosperous commercial street in H City, the East District Street at ten o'clock is already sparsely populated, but now it is crowded. When a girl in her twenties stood in front of me and sold her flowers to me, I felt that today was Valentine's Day, and I looked at her and reminded me of Sister Anna, and I didn't know where she was now, if she were, maybe, I wouldn't be what I am now.

"Classmate, do you want to buy flowers, the last two, sell you cheaply"

"Okay, thank you".

Why didn't she go to Valentine's Day, but made green leaves for Valentine's Day and decorated this ordinary day, I muttered to myself looking at the back of the flower girl.

Holding flowers, looking at the people on the street, this is not my time and space, not far away the innkeeper began to sell rooms to passers-by, "We are a couple-themed hotel, it will be full soon, you should hurry". Looking at the couple walking in with happy smiles, including my squad leader and deputy squad leader, it seems that this is one of the compulsory courses on Valentine's Day.

With this brightly lit hotel, you must have had a great time tonight.

But for some reason, it reminds me of Xintiandi a year ago, and the scene when I saw Brother Ringo a year ago, love has become presumptuous, it has become a transaction, it has become, it has changed completely different from my world, it has become a kind of blasphemy, I even suddenly have a disgust, I feel that this is the behavior of a bunch of stallions, can this be called love!

"What about your Gege, Chen Yitian, this is reality, do you want me to help you imagine the scene of F City?"

"Shut up for me, sooner or later I'll shut your mouth forever and make you disappear into my body forever." The word Gege made me feel palpitations.

I don't know when it began, there was always a voice talking to me, is that me, or is it another personality, if that's the case, I'd rather let him take the lead, let him occupy this body, I want to become a consciousness alive, how happy it is.

"You occupy this shell, you take the lead."

"I am you, you are me, the difference is that you live in your world, I live in this world, the real soul of this body is me, you are actually the real shell"!

This guy's words made me reposition myself, I am a shell, if I am really a shell, why am I still out of place with the world, why do I still have emotions, why am I still in this damn place, not going back to my world, now I can't tell the difference between reality and fantasy, and even I feel like I'm dreaming again.

"You interfere with me all the time, mislead me, you know that you can't occupy this body, but you want to occupy me, you want to control me with your thoughts, don't dream, I am me, you are just a part of me, I will not let you succeed as a clown"!

"I'm a beam-jumping clown? Look at your life, look at your current appearance, your choices and choices about things, and you also cooperate with me to say this kind of thing"? An evader is not qualified to make any remarks, because you are an evader, you can only escape, you only need to be able to escape, I will do other things, and you can be an evader for a lifetime.

There was a burst of laughter in my head, followed by a string of "escapers, escapers, escapers, escapers, losers, losers...... The non-stop cycle made my head crack, and now I don't have the strength to fight him.

I escaped from this "happy" place and returned to the base camp, and accidentally found the wine in the living room, and when I took a sip, I instantly felt that the whole person was relaxed, and the voice disappeared.

I curled up in bed, enjoying the pleasure of alcohol, and suddenly, I saw the computer, I suddenly came to my senses, and immediately accepted the title of escapist!